my favorite track on the upload so far man excellent https://youtu.be/HuIYg2PBEOE

(Description: 
I wrote Stay away, I'm hurting 2 years ago during my first breakup in high school. Over the past year I fell in love with a girl on the phone and turned it into reality in less than 3 months. We were together a year and a half and even moved in together. Over the course of this relationship the toxicity built. Its now over. And Ive found myself feeling the same way I did 2 years ago. So fuck it lets make another one )

LYRICS:

im not like the rest, im not like the rest at alll
staring up at the top of the ceiling : (

i only wanna love you from afar
things were much better when distance was hard,
shes on the porch with her bottle of wine,
ill be in here listening to guitars

I wrote you song after song after song 
even my mom said your bad for my heart,
I shoulda listened, back then I was wrong,
this is your last song

you said that id be the one to make amends,
with all of the people in your head,
im sorry that i cannot be that,
its not that bad in the end..

I don't wanna cry right now,
think im way too high right now,
can you stop the violence?
you go to him when you don't wanna fight it,
I don't think that Im the one whos hiding
everyone says that im like my father, I don't wanna be that
didn't wanna talk but I stopped to call her, just to check in
(x2)

i only wanna love you from afar
things were much better when distance was hard,
shes on the porch with her bottle of wine,
ill be in here listening to guitars

im not like the rest, im not like the rest at alll

Stay away, I'm suffering

I'm tired being upset 
i feel like a cigarette might calm my brain 
but i dont wanna smoke it 
it makes me feel sick, sick in the streets again
and when im in own head 
i feel like i need my gun just to ease my pain 
i kinda wanna see death
next time im in this mood i'll swerve the lane 

swerve the lane 

they dont know 
when im in this state 
im like a boat on the sea 
and im ready to sink 

i wish
the best for you 
i hope 
you'll find the guy who treats you right





lowkey down bad :/

heartsick (p4ra x 5head)

Lyrics:
someone fucking save me im a danger to my health
i wont leave my room spend all my time just talking to myself
i should hide these blades and crimson stains and pretend that im well
cause in the end we know just how it goes another day trapped in this hell

but its alright
its just another 'scuse just to be uptight
its alright
everybodys doing it we're all gonna die yeah

if you could see deep inside my mind yeah
you would see the creatures that live inside yeah
meet em everytime that i am lonely and high yeah
tried to kick em out but im too tired to fight

these four walls are all i have, (wait, no) i also got a joint and a bottle of jack
making my escape with a sharpened hack
dyings pretty easy when living is wack

its alright
tomorrows gonna come and ill be just fine
even if i kind of maybe almost died
maybe im dramatic so ill just gaslight
myself

yeah im just crazy
yeah im just crazy
they call me crazy
they call me crazy

All I Need

All I Need Is This Lamp And This Phone And This Bottle Of Jack And This Joint And (prod. Idly Blare)

liar

@homesick + @memoryroseishere
art, mix, & master by me
enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh whats the use
dont have a clue
u look for something, you’ll find nothing
lucky u
i’m painted blue, uh
you’re killing two
birds with one stone & now alone
is how im movin, ur clueless

its all just faultless progression
you move in countless directions
& im confused
just see it through
you lost all credit, regretting
whats now just severed, forget it
i know it too
u blew that fuse

and i just
wish that time would pass so i could forget
repeat myself i’m not that crazy i bet
you cool it down to take a bite yet again
just fucking figure it out, i’m not ur friend
it ain’t a conflict of interest
we’re both just hopeless; addicted
hope i just die to be
honest if brutally
u ruin all that u touch
i just hope it hurt you enough
to make up for all of me
‘cause love its killing me

tight jaw, long nights
present lost if i’m off right
set off, fog lights
i can’t see if i’m alright
was i supposed to wait for u? i couldn’t tell ya baby
truth be told i never knew, thats how i’m feelin lately

and if i can’t love right
then what am i good for?
watch the floodlight
as i step in the downpour
show me hatred
as i did to you cold
feed me anger
so i know what you know

its all just faultless progression
you move in countless directions
& im confused
just see it through
you lost all credit, regretting
whats now just severed, forget it
i know it too
u blew that fuse

oh whats the use
dont have a clue
u look for something, you’ll find nothing
lucky u
i’m painted blue, uh
you’re killing two
birds with one stone & now alone
is how im movin, ur clueless

fuse

fuse [homesick x memoryrose]

spotify n apple :P

Don’t force baseball on me!!!

Coach Peterson sucks but he did give in we hope y’all enjoy 

I’m standing on the mound 
I’m staring out to thousands of crowds but you 
Stood out to me most 
Better make it now I don’t wanna let you down
Three balls fly past and suddenly I’m out
And It was awkward ride home
Three blocks had past and we didn’t even talk at all 
Didn’t even talk face dull
And I see you staring at the rear view mirror
Looking at me in disgust 
I tried my best it’s not good enough
I didn’t even like baseball I did it for you

I’m swinging bats to make you proud
But you never really thought of it like that
Home runs I did it dad
We even had father sun chants 
He sees me in him 
But I don’t see him in me 
We’re not the same
Lives lead differently
Twenty years from me 

My dad got me a new bat 
Told you I don’t want one you knew that
I know for sure that you don’t give damn
You just want me to go pro so you can 
brag to your friends
I’m really doing all I can
But I can be the man you want
I can be the son you asked for

Small Town Baseball (gaxillic)

Budapest

-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-
Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz x gusuck
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[verse 1]
no matter what i do it dont really fucking matter at all, at all, at all
everybody says my dreams cant come true prolly cuz they dont believe in themselves 

they jealous cuz i dont wanna fit in n be just like everyone else
they hate me cuz they didnt wanna put in the work to succeed n be for themselves 

[chorus]
didnt plan to live this long but i met this girl n now i wanna live some more

told my momma yesterday everything will be alright cuz imma get rich, thats why i was born

she said i got a big head, but she hopes it works out n everything goes well of course

i wanna make my whole bloodline rich so when i die, theyll have something to love me for

[verse 2]
i wish i didnt always fucking hurt everyone i say i love
she prolly doesnt know it but before i met her i was pretty fucked up

im an asshole, babe i think you know that
always in my head and this jealousy is crushing
hope you fucking know that its cuz of you im trying
you make my life glow cuz before you i was dying

i know its not a love song but i hope you still love it
love me like i love you n ill give you a rush babe
id give you everything i can hope you know it
id give you the world but first i gotta own it

[chorus]
didnt plan to live this long but i met this girl n now i wanna live some more

told my momma yesterday everything will be alright cuz imma get rich, thats why i was born

she said i got a big head, but she hopes it works out n everything goes well of course

i wanna make my whole bloodline rich so when i die, theyll have something to love me for

bloodline

where it ends (outro)

A haunting descent into silence familiar voices echo through the fog as the slowed, reverbed sound drifts between reality and dream. A melancholic journey through endless night.

In my restless dreams (Slowed + Extended)

lyrics
----------——

i go home n close the door
somethin takes over me
this aching feeling of dread & uncertainty
death been on my mind 
for what feels like eternity
i feel like hurting me

& i don’t deserve to be here
i just wanna take my life & go away
lemme jus make one thing clear
don’t cry when i’m gone
i’m alive thru my songs

i still remember
the last time that we spoke
now when i see you
on nothing,  i just choke
..the silence, it always
seems way too loud
i need a distraction
another relapse swear that i hate myself

i still remember
the last time that we spoke
now when i see you
on nothing,  i just choke

don't cry when i'm gone (i'm alive thru my songs) [prod. metlast]

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

All I Need Is This Lamp And This Phone And This Bottle Of Jack And This Joint And (prod. Idly Blare)

HKFIFTYONE

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