just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

I don’t know how to tell 
My mental hasn’t been doing oh so well 
This feeling seeming bottomless 
I know because I fell down 
And I haven’t reached an ending 
I think it’s all depending
And I’ll learn it all the hard way 
So you don’t have to 
But you won’t listen just like me
And you’ll learn it through the tough way too 
But that’s just you 
And you’re just as likely 

All details left behind by blurred leering eyes 
With the deafening and dampened cries 
We find again and again and again 
Yeah we find again and again and again 
I got 3 3 3 that’s 9 out of 10 
Got these angel numbers keep on living up inside my head yeah 
Wanna go and take from us I vet that 
Mmm mmm
Still got your life and I don’t think you wanna bet that

I I don’t think so
It’s cause I know so 
Make a bit alone might just do it solo
Hit the armory yeah flaunt it it doesn’t bother me 
Visit when you want takes some honesty yeah honestly 
Take in spades the suits won’t even talk for free no
Roll another couple G’s yeah my g’s know
Breathe out easily
I’m focused I’m alright 
They ask the difference it’s difficult it’s always like 

I don’t know how to tell 
My mental hasn’t been doing oh so well 
This feeling seeming bottomless 
I know because I fell down 
And I haven’t reached an ending 
I think it’s all depending
And I’ll learn it all the hard way 
So you don’t have to 
But you won’t listen just like me
And you’ll learn it through the tough way too 
But that’s just you 
And you’re just as likely 

I’ll round the bend now I just need to lend a hand 
Take hold now but make that choice alone 
Allow the rest to take the mend and fill the land 
Yeah you may have won but take a look at what you’ve sowed 
The blade it takes but it gives in bold 
Told again this past has got its hold

leering (irby)

lyrics

every piece of me is saying
word on the streets is you’re not staying
beg on my knees for you to say it
x2
but pleasant grove is all you know and fractured homes with broken family
i can’t tell you where to go
but every road led back to folly

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

iv been throwing up, iv been throwing up all on the pavement 
she’s said it’s so frustrating 
she said i wish you were happier
so now every smile feel like a facelift
now you got tears running down your face 
but you took it all and i gave it
i know it’s not good for my brain 
but i have more fun when im wasted
now i been drinking every night but safely
six months ago this looked so much different 
but word on the street and my mind says you hate me 
that would rip my heart in an instant
last time we had a fight 
i remember what it felt like to cry 
got smoke in my mouth and got tears in my eyes
cuz i don’t want the last time
to be the last time we say goodbye 

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

sticks and stones tend to break me down
try to grab the wheel but im crashing out
mom and dad don’t like me know
it hurts because they used to be proud
why you never around 
when i’m calling your phone,you’re just putting it down
iv been falling apart on the burial grounds
iv been screaming for help but can’t open my mouth.

folly w/ notahero [king theta]

fireflys
i dont even understand how theyre alive
darkness every night is filled up by their light
i cant even light up my room if i try
cuz ima be in the same spot every single night
its not been great but i know that its gonna be alright
i walk outside and it feels so hard just to try to survive 
and this the last time ima walk away from the places that i havent been

always asking what i did
ill tell em what i do 
trouble breaking promises and never ever telling truth 

shout out to fire flies theyre keepin me alive
cuz theyre out every night and theyre spreading the light
sometimes ill be petrified and i hate that new state of mine.

lately ive been going over things that have been underlined
i can be a loyal man
medieval knight
this armor weighs me down but ima stand up ima fight
explain every single reason that i need you in my life
all these consequences tormenting my mind i cant describe
nobody gives me a single reply i guess its fine

i get it now, im not theyre type

silent where theyre still around
its so astound how they leave me out when they’re in town 
cant make em proud
i been working down into the ground
theyre in the clouds
i cant wait until they make it down
to where im found

i give all glory to the god above 
he gave me sound
put everything around me he surrenders all doubt
he can save me if theres nothin in my life-its going south

i get it now, speak through my mouth

I get it now (yunnygoldz)

really struggled with this one, i hope u enjoy ☆

//
fill my screen up with words
only works when it hurts
till it starts feeling worn out

hands flushed
with my blood
from the cold
in the streets
they go silent by sundown

and my knees running weak
feel the ice up my sleeves
like it's minus degrees tonight

and the path full of smoke
made me sore in my throat
like the systems in me collide

eyes locked, everythings so slow
look how i'm just wasting all my time again
like why can i not write a single line again
maybe i should drop it all and try again
//

sundown (despairintoashes)

i swear im sorry, i dont mean it
i just, i just
i guess i always get this feeling
i been, i been
i been coping with the feeling

i been feinin for this moment
ever since the day we met

just want your lips
you feel like bliss
every time when my hands up on your hips

you get closer, im just tryna breathe you in
its been too long so tell me baby where you been

girl im aware, i know im a mess
give me time i promise that i’ll be better
my brain is fucked, i swear it’s just bipolar weather
i know i crashout but your passion keep me centered

your passion keep me centered

where you been?
its a sin
pulled me out the water cause i dont know how to swim

Fein 4 U (prod Chroma2k)

shoutout underoath im sorry i stole ur hook dont hate me i love u

im known for the pain that comes with the silence
you only see grace, not war that defines it
i breathe in the ache, the exhale feels violent
if i lose my home, it's twisted reliance

scared of the past but can't realign it
buried in scars, i learned how to hide it
hope's just a ghost, im stuck in the dry end
but love is a drug, so i still invite it

it's all in my head, if you want, you can look inside
nothing but red, and all the mess i've been
it's all in the way i say what i do mean, i don't think i should
i need to speak of you

Fein 4 U (prod Chroma2k)

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