guitar @pekarot

she lacking empathy she gone tomorrow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
think you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that i don't wanna swallow
body's got a fleeting feeling and i got all my sorrows
how do i stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that I'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cos I'm going full throttle
stop drinking your life away your grasping at a bottle
i think i might hide away and talk to you tomorrow 
i know its not healthy but I'm full of sorrows
i bet you wouldn't help me if i left tomorrow

paint me a picture that's hard not to swallow
when your with him i feel like being hostile
i like the idea of moving to a castle
lets build some high walls, fuck I'm an asshole
your growing in mold, the more that u hassle
do what your told, before that i let go

she lacking empathy she gone tommorow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
think you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that i don't wanna swallow
body's got a fleeting feeling and i got all my sorrows
how do i stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that i'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cos i'm going full throttle

tomorrow

produced by branwen

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lyrics

turn it up turn it up for another night
getting drunk on a sunday till the morning light
waking up in a monday in a strangers bed
i think i finished all my drinks theyre in my fuckin head

holy shit here i go again
i been off my meds for a while
n im a god again
i dont really know who i am
n im alright with it
at least im being honest
if it hurts then u dont feel regret

ur head will hurt in the morning
u dont give a fuck
shes kinda cute might as well go n try ur luck
she thought that i was 25 holy wtf
so this wont go past tonight idgaf

19 i make connections when in drunk until i break them when im sober
in my heart im older
i bleed from underneath the scotch tape thats holding me together
its forever

why waste my time writing all these fucking metaphors
im still in love with the person that i met before
gave her my heart n she threw it on the fucking floor
i find it hard just to trust cus in the end
fucked my best friend
said she wishing i was dead
u live in my head
both u n him
and its such a mess 
that u have left
that u have left
that u have left

(hero)

i find it funny how we repeat such a cycle here again
shits so toxic its obnoxious she refuse to leave my head
and im okay with that, as okay with being sliced in half
"i got a thing for artists" oh i want ur take on that
chugging octane to experience a numbness when she on me
stop me, id like to see u try oh u could never
sulfate to really rub the cut into my skin
with scotch tape to wrap the fatal wound once again

scotchtape & sulfates ft. hero (branwen)

(casperrr)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

posted, outside with extendos 
big bag, full of greens not no lettuce
in the stu with the homies good fellas
still sad but at least im feelin better

why u screamin whatchu fuckin mean 
i need real love not no rom of teens
i know im young but i was never a kid
nowadays im finding it hard 2 live

so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

(1fern)
talk shit & youre headed out the window
don't talk to me, you are not my kin-folk
2 9s yeah, we always hold akimbo
got your girl & she acting like a nympho

when i speak you respond on demand
empty ashtrays, fill em up again
so fucked up, i can't even stand
but she still askin me what's the plan

when i wake up, i'm feeling so lifeless
swear to God, i been feeling like a flight risk
can't speak cuz I feel like my brain broke
spending money on some green and a bespoke

seeing stars, even when i close my eyelids
all alone when the party subsided
i been lost & i know i been misguided
i don't really know where my fucking mind is

(casperrr + 1fern)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help

duality w/1fern (reijiro)

I’ve never made a song about my upbringing when it comes to religion but was inspired to make this one day, maybe you’ll find some solace in this track and thank you for listening ~booj

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I never said that I was a believer
I don’t try to disprove so I guess I’m neither  

recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance I’m staying 
there’s just no chance I’m staying 

the praise is way too often where’s the meaning where’s the source 
they try to make you feel all safe and sound up in those doors 
I’m not okay that I had no say in what was placed inside my brain 
ironic in the way of how that window pain was stained 
it’s how I feel inside it’s partly beautiful disdain 
but the rest I’ll sum it up it’s pretty much revolving pain 
I don’t look back and see it as helpful more so detrimental
the judgement isn’t justified it’s only supplemental 

they say it’s bad manners 
when you don’t share but I don’t want none of what you got to offer not in there no
they say it’s all that matters 
when you reach a breaking point all that’s left is that you still get to own your share 

2X
recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance that I’m staying 
there’s just no chance that I’m staying

there's just no chance i'm staying (Dead Spyro)

<33 luv yall w/ all my heart :) tysm for 30K on nites !!!

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

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dead (heyylotus & warheart)

w1th0ut 4 tr4c3
f4b13
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@jolst & @punkworldthreat
art: @ejcarrmusic
ep soon...
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lyrics:

aint shit hard for me at all
i be down so much i forget i know how to ball
i can’t get enough when im wit u i want it all
i been up i cannot fall
hit the pen then dip im writin fables on the wall
hear my story loud im quiet im not standing tall
i cant rly stand up for myself much anyway
feel the consequences while im withering away

back n im takin the backseat
baby i need to relax we
takin it quicker than maxi
yeah, uh
thick skull like a pachy (dinosaur reference)
order up for the pack meet
re up at the acme
i been on go so long i forget how to sit down
i smoke double duffel bag i cannot sit down
i know shit always come up so i dont go out
this the hardest part of livin on my own now
no one ever ask me why im on my own now
shit like this why im always in a break down
this november so much colder than the last one
maybe thats a sign i gotta move it past ya

aint shit hard for me at all
i be down so much i forget i know how to ball
i can’t get enough when im wit u i want it all
i been up i cannot fall
hit the pen then dip im writin fables on the wall
hear my story loud im quiet im not standing tall
i cant rly stand up for myself much anyway
feel the consequences while im withering away

its silence that haunts me
i cant focus im watching
where u go when im talking
u once told me u want me
whats the point in such conflict
life is futile and short lived
i cant spend it in jersey
losing friends before thirty, fuck

i been wasting so much time
next thing i know 20s gonna pass me right on by
gotta get it goin fore im running out of time
always running out of time

without a trace

fable [jolst x punk]

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v13wf1nd3r
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@jolst & @toobears
ft. @fantasycamp
art: @ejcarrmusic
ep soon...
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lyrics:

(decks)
i cannot try
i cannot fight for u
baby in all my life
nothing was right before u
u know i miss it
nothing is given
not gonna push my luck
but i'm here when u need it

i see flaws, nothing lost
not worth losing sleep
a hundred calls, in the fall
what it meant to me
i just reminisce on you all the time
i cycle thru all the views, i can’t find her
i’m the viewfinder

trail of tears where i lay
set to rinse and decay
i confess what i say isn't real
my image is homemade
but baby, we’re falling out
i can’t say how
lets live for now
i'm trying to see this out
i won’t look now
we’re upside down

i don't know how i got here
one step too far ur gone
i wish i had an answer

i cannot try
i cannot fight for u
baby in all my life
nothing was right before u
u know i miss it
nothing is given
not gonna push my luck
but i'm here when u need it

i see flaws, nothing lost
not worth losing sleep
a hundred calls, in the fall
what it meant to me
i just reminisce on you all the time
i cycle thru all the views, i can’t find her
i’m the viewfinder

(fantasy camp)
i'm looking out
but i can't seem to find you wherever i go
where are you now?
been a wreck since the night that you left me alone
so where you at? come and stay by my side
i won't forget all the nights that you cried
but you're the one that i need and can't find
now i'm falling behind
so can you save me? be my baby
goin crazy without you lately
maybe i'll just hit your phone and try to remind you
wherever i go, I can't find you

viewfinder (ft. fantasy camp) [jolst x toobears]

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ｔｈａｗ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｕａｒｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｓｈａｄｏｗｓ　ｍｅ

produced by dash vv
https://www.youtube.com/@dash8518

love y'all so much.
thank you for listening.
thank you for being here
more to come, in hopes

realistically wasting my time, and
don't claim you understand
you'll run out of road if you're way too gassed
we'll never last this
i wanna know myself 'fore i should take my life

the other side's so inviting

why you hanging 'round the wrong peers?
2D smiles but they're full of fear
i can see through the white lies
fuck a check, i ain't switch sides
matter of fact, think i'll own mine
call it wraps, called her 5 times
colon cramps, body's prolly fine
i been worse, and burnt more ties than mountains climbed
what the fuck

i hardly get any rest
when i lay me some ground
all my dreams make me sweat
well, honestly what'd i expect, i'm a tremor
who's born to make course with a crest
and since you've got room to assume,
i'll repaint the walls to a shade you once knew
but i'll say it once to conclude
it's only to falter youth

sending it down through my face to my gut
fireworks sound while i've waited enough
i ain't care much, i been down on my love shit
after effect of it damage and lunges
kicking and punching
wonder and covet
smoke in this oven i claim to be nothing
under the covers, i wake into sunder
and panic, then start to malfunction
these eyes are so indecisive
catching the sights that are so uninvited
well, anything but ultraviolet
going outside, my anxiety heightens
so i'll stay inside and be silent
minus the music and all of the crying
don't keep a snooze 'cause i'm up when the sky dim
yet prone to mute and respond autopilot

she told me that i'm smart
"i'm better than that?"
she told me i can start to feel something
she told me i could be something greater
then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater

no one
to lend a hand
through the sawdust
in this foreign land
is this all that you want?
forever we run, even if we're not
indefinite rot
smoldered lungs while i talk

and no it ain't from the green
from birth i've been clean
but i kinda wanna be, to escape reality
no way this life was meant for me
never will i come to be fine with low expectancies
i'm fucking selfish, can't you see?
a frozen-hearted entity
thaw the guard that shadows me
too intolerant to speak
cut my lips and break my teeth
numb my limbs, but make it brief
i've got nowhere else to be
but miss the way it used to be
did you feel the same for me?

my eyes cry with the help of high life
can't you tell i repel with a fat lie
any sort of love will numb me;
numb enough to pass life
i sense two decisions
one's to splurge my thoughts and cast rhymes

it was 8 in the morning, i'm shipped like i'm cargo
heart in my chest beating out like a bongo
swipin' a scan of myself like a bar code
way past the date by some days, not alarmed though
rotten a bit, feelin' sick, sorta rank
'lil bit of soap, it could wash out the stains
i ain't been fuckin' with none of y'all lames
a couple of plays, now you thinkin' you great
this not a game, fuck a charade
pressin the keys until i feel okay
throughout the day
'till i collapse and wake up on my face
block out the sound with a video game
or something to drink
lemon and sugar remind me of fate
it's sorta sour but sweet by the grain
sweet by the grain, ay

she told me i was smart
"i'm better than that?"
she told me i can feel something
she told me i could be something greater
then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater

by the grain [prod. dash]

where did you go
cus you’ve been runnin 
you’ve been runnin from me 
and you’ve been runnin 
you’ve been running from me 

i’m from the city of the foxes
i been tryna set trends 
but i won’t ever sell a soul 
not mine or any of my friends 
n i been stickin to the pavement 
don’t forget what you said
“everybody has their price” 
but mine just never made sense 

but now i’m finally paid
so i guess i’ll make do
with all the finer things 
but my hands are too cold
n i cant feel a thing, nah 
i didn’t hear a thing  
when the fire came but
we all got our payment 

so i guess i’m cooked 
n i’ve been down for too long
finally gettin up 
startin to feel like player 1
i grab my gun and look 
upon this battlefield i lost 
so baby wish me luck
my baby wish me

when this war is finally done 
yea ill come make u blush and baby wtf 
i’ve never been good with words
is gratitude enough? 
is gratitude enough?
but it never is 

so i’ll just sit here on my own and pour this medicine
i drop blue pills in sugar free i’m smokin kerosene 
i should’ve never been so dumb to fuckin let you in
sorry for my temperament 

i’m from the city of the foxes
i been tryna set trends 
but i won’t ever sell a soul 
not mine or any of my friends 
n i been stickin to the pavement 
don’t forget what you said
“everybody has their price” 
but mine just never made sense 

but now i’m finally paid
so i guess i’ll make do
with all the finer things 
but my hands are too cold
n i cant feel a thing, nah 
i didn’t hear a thing  
when the fire came but
we all got our payment

kerosene (sustain)

she does what you never did
you don't know how hard it is
to wake up alone
if it's over it's funny it still makes you cold
when you know

that you couldn't step away
in hopes that a memory
of something you need, would ignite from the first thing
that i thought was real but it's not

and i said i'd wait for you
in silence and in solitude
if it can't get better
there's darkness ahead
but it's safer together
i'm gone

shake at the thought of you
i still think a lot of you
of things that you said
feel at home with the worst things i keep for myself

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
so i don't trust a fucking thing
the nicest face could do the same
i think about it everyday
i wish i never let you in

make it quick i'm still here waiting
lost my mind way back in Salem 
all at once you've only been all i want

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
wait for the day that your body decays
just to hear that they love you
cause they never will

Snow Cabin

guitar by melonmusik <3

lyrics:
no one to call my home 
you were gone before i had even known 
never safe when you were close 
youre not my home 
we’re so unpredictable and now i know
it was never my fault 
nothing i could’ve done would have changed the outcome 
you were never my home
never safe when you were close 

always alone 
maybe i’m better off on my own 
do still think of us? 
and what once was

no one to call my home 
you were gonna before i had even known

kerosene (sustain)

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