this is so beautiful wtf. release the plugged version too please

Any chance of this going on your Spotify? Absolutely love it

Guitar by Kazba
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

LYRICS
Somehow can’t believe I let you take this from me
Cut down on my own
But I won’t concede
I’m better off now
Believe it or not
I can be who I want without you

You made me hate who I was
Yeah I felt bad about it
For the first time in my life
Visions clouded by doubt
How will I make it now
After losing you
In a world so cruel

(decks)
I said I'd make it back
Two hundred foot collapse
You’ll never get it
When I left I thought we’d stay intact
But if it breathes on its own
Could you see what you know
Its a breeze from your home
I remember
To forgive is an art
And I don’t care for your heart
That's why the ties we had made are severed
I see your losses are sore
Bleeding out on the floor
And I'm okay
No it wasn’t forever

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Believe It (or Not) w/ decks [Prod. w/ Kazba]

Lyrics:
Let me introduce myself
I am a shell of what I was when I knew myself
And I thought I could escape from all the pain I felt
But the devil left me here, there was no room in hell

I wander down this path, don't know where am at
Everything is scary here, but now I'm scary back
Don't want you to see me fall apart my bones will snap
Under all the weight of knowing there's no going back

The movies lied, I thought I'd be numb
On the other side, but now I feel dumb
'Cause pardon me, if this comes off blunt
But my skin's falling off, I've been dead for a month

But,,

I still feel but I wish that I didn't
Heart gone black, haven't lived in a minute
I know it's how things go, decompose 'til I'm pitted
I'm just another hollow shell, but I know that you get it

I'm the walking dead, so I'll spill my guts
I'll just stay and rot, I don't give a fuck
I just wanted to die, but it's just my luck
When I wanted to leave, but I just got stuck

The minutes turn to hours, and then it's been days
Fester in my bed, while my heart decays
Take it out my chest and set that shit ablaze
It's alright I didn't use it anyway

I want to be left by the creekside
Six feet deep, three wide, and I'll be fine
When my body rests, will my soul fly?
Guess I'll never know, 'til I leave mine

The movies lied, I thought I'd be numb
On the other side, but now I feel dumb
'Cause pardon me, if this comes off blunt
But my skin's falling off, I've been dead for a month

But,,

I still feel but I wish that I didn't
Heart gone black, haven't lived in a minute
I know it's how things go, decompose 'til I'm pitted
I'm just another hollow shell, but I know that you get it


Corpse (I Still Feel But I Wish That I Didn't) (prod. dotbeats)

i know you hate when i smoke

Lyrics:
Sometimes I wonder if you listen to the songs I do
I know that music's in your blood, it's always in mine too
Since we don't talk this is my way of reaching out to you
And now the sunset makes me think your name in every hue

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

spookybands:
Are you looking at the moon right now?
I can see it in your eyes, I don't think you ever really loved me
Did you buy yourself a beer last night?
And then some whiskey right after, anyway that's how I'm passing the time

And did you tell her about me? 
That new girl that you seeing
I bet she thought my name was cool

Does she text you while you on your way over
Telling you to look up at the moon
That's what I used to do.

These memories just turn to pain
And then get mixed up in my brain
I won't ever be okay
The bar is open every day

Hold me while I drift away
You don't have to miss me baby
I just tell myself you are
To feel better (that's fucking crazy)

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

Look At The Moon

look at the moon (ft. spookybands)

curses & other horrible things

deathwish

prod. poppy ozu x daniel saint

Lyrics:

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

i'm unhinged 
i'm irrational at best
i'm less convinced now by the second i should get this off my chest
fuck it
i despise your hedonism and that old group i called my friends
at least i'm not a liar, of all my flaws just give me that

she jumps from guy to girl to guy in hopes that someone can heal her
if you couldn't respect me
then how could i either
was i meant for a stage
am i meant for a theatre
caught me throwing up again
with a wonderful fever

i'm a people person eater with a face that doesn't shape
i just tear myself apart then fix myself with gum and tape
i use so many "i's" and "me's" its like the rest of them are fake
you think i'm talking to you, probably am so hear me for your sake

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

hedonism

sometimes i feel like a ghost in a crowd
its purgatory and i wont make it out
im not alive and i dont really know how
i got no voice youll never hear if i shout

i know im dead to you, but i got unfinished business that i gotta do like
tell you that i love you still,
even if i never made enough to pay the bills

im working hard in death
got so much on my plate i never catch my breath
i swear it helps to know that im already dead

sometimes i feel like im a ghost

like im dead, like my coffin is my bed
i want to finally rest, but your voice is in my head
ive haunted this whole town, but im still left feeling down
youre the only one i want
i cant have you, i cant touch you,
im a ghost

i know you wont look my way
its done this time i know itll stay
each day act my part in the play
i know youre gonna say, that i just need to pray

i need to find something that makes me feel magic
i guess thats weed and alcohol makes me manic
i try to be okay now but its too tragic

sometimes i feel like im a ghost

like im dead, like my coffin is my bed
i want to finally rest, but your voice is in my head
ive haunted this whole town, but im still left feeling down
youre the only one i want
i cant have you, i cant touch you,
im a 
ghost

Ghost (Unplugged)

ghost (unplugged version)

this is the story of a boy who knew too much
so the world was always gray, and he had no sense of touch
and he kept himself real safe inside the confines of his bed
but he was not alone, hearing all the words been said

all my friends are the demons in my head
and we always have a talk every time i go to bed
but i don't think they're my favorite, they just wanna rub it in
that you're probably gone forever, but i should not give a shit 'cause

that's life, but i really wish it ain't
'cause like everytime i panic, i can't breath and then i faint
but it's probably 'cause i never eat enough, now i'm drained
i just got no appetite since you split, i'm detained

this is the story of a girl who felt too much
she just wanted to be held, but she rarely felt a touch
and the distance always broke her, the connection turned to rust
so now she's somewhere out there, and there's no one that i trust

with her

this is the story of a boy who's now grown up
he spends his time alone, he minds his business, makes some bucks
he knows he has to stay here even when he feels it tug
there's nothing on the other side, it's all the same but just more fucked

The Story

the story

i think i hate everything that i ever loved
now that the fire snuffed
baby im packing up boxes of things that you gave me
and things that im running from

but "baby" ain't "baby" no more
cause im out on my own and im feeling numb
turn it up loud on my speakers
and lay on the floor 'til i feel the drums

i cannot drink, i cannot smoke
the blood from ym vomit keep burning my throat
im tryna get by but my heart beating slow
and if i ever left i know no one would know

sometimes i find myself grabbing my phone
every time that i be way too alone
but then i just drop it cause im at the bottom already
no point now in making it known

its all gonna be okay real soon
real soon

i feel abandoned, cause im a burden
maybe im fucked up, i know that for certain
got a life sentence now this is the verdict
death penalty, to the void im returning
im hoping to God that i dont end up burning
im doing my best but im just really hurting
i just need a break for a sec now im cursing
i scream at myself with these insults im hurling

im losing myself, im losing my brains
im losing the lifeforce that course through my veins
feel like my body is wrapped up in chains
tape on my mouth so they think im okay

dont even know who i am in this verse
i feel too much, now im blessed with a curse
its just like a nightmare but way fucking worse
and the only way out is the back of a hearse

sinking

LYRICS 


S3 

By the way I am 
I can tell that you're not 
I can tell that you're mad 
I can tell that you're not 
I can tell you ain't right 
don't worry about me all the time 
I can't tell you're not alright 



HK

Wont you tell me what is now, cause I gave up
dont give a shit now cause im based up
but thats a lie cause i give a fuck
i just cant show it when i get my bucks

im ruthless, im cold as fuck
im dead inside, im feeling stuck
everytime you gone, got my Rugar tuck
need it just in case when i push my luck

everytime you gone, im not staying safe
but i pray for you in His saving grace
know its been a while, hope you been okay
know its not the same, and i know we changed


S3 & HK 

i know you stay in your own lane
you dont check on me, and i do the same
like every day, it's not worth the pain
if we ever got back, won't be the same

Pick myself back up 
just gotta keep on pushing through 
when everything is fucked
know I'ma do this I'ma be alright 
I'ma be fine 

ghost (unplugged version)

HKFIFTYONE

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