Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

Stay Away

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz

Lyrics:
She's got a dress made of leaves, blood dripping
Pentagram occultic circle; not Christian
She's got tricks up her sleeve; coalition
Candle lit Forest meeting tradition

Blood Chants and that girl sprouts trees as limbs
Eyes glow green, Got bark as skin
Hear the crows in the distance
Sunset dims
Dark engulfs the forest rims
But the ritual still bleeding light
Forest hit with blight
That girl seeps the life out these nature sprites
Evil spirits swirl around
This ain't the work of Christ
Got to take the chance to leave before she takes my life

She's got a dress made of leaves, blood dripping
Pentagram occultic circle; not Christian
She's got tricks up her sleeve; coalition
Candle lit Forest meeting tradition

Well I ran when I could
Made my way out the woods
Left without a fight, still got thorns in my foot
Didn't dip out empty handed, I had stolen her book
Flip through all the pages, Learn the knowledge I took

The Ritual [prod. yunny goldz]

Sick
I'm tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm
Sick

I'm gonna make it out
I fucking swear, I fucking promise
Only one way to the top bitch
I could take my time to teach you
But I know you ain't gon' rock this
Only one thing on my mind
A couple months I'm out this block bitch

Every time I take a loss
I swear I get like five more wins
Ima stack it for myself
Ain't got no bitch, ain't got no kids
Ima keep it to myself after all the work I done did
Man I know I'd live a lonely life
Ever since I was a kid, huh

Sick
I'm tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm
Sick

Know it's lonely at the top
But it's lonely at the bottom
All the same you gon' get rocked
I'm still sticking to my guns
It's laser focus, gotta lock in
Now my only friend my Ruger
'Cause I still can't find my Glock bitch

I know I got big talk
But I never plan on stopping
Ima get up out this bitch
First thing I do when that guap hit
When I'm highest in the building
Overlooking all that mob shit
Bitch I'm really gonna do this
Ain't just bars for this bop shit

Sick
I'm tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm

Sick
Tired of losing, I sort through the wreckage
My hands keep on bruising
Sick
I'm so done with choosing, which vice I'm abusing
To get through the day, and I'm

Sick

Going To Win

feel like Yelawolf but doper cause im floating when im in the cut
fuck around and make a band, i do the drop while smokin up
making moves while crashin out cause i got diamonds in my blunt
say you gettin money why you cappin homie thats a front

always keep it low, a couple lines but i wont say too much
know we got the juice, im sippin fast so ima need a crutch
its my own supply just keep it hush but ion give a fuck
call me Daddy Crashout way im movin ion give a fuck

i tell you how this shit go
flip a pack, i wanna lay low
im a addict for the pay though
tell me get a job but im like what the fuck do they know?

dont piss me off cause im fuckin lit
and i just might snap, i already did
now im goin off, call that a split
you borderline close to a ditch

got BPD, swear every bitch
but i do too, i know how it is
so my circle tight, ion trust a bitch
money on my mind, so im stacking chips

keep it steady, i cant be slowed
wont see me move, my hustle cold
i cut you off if you break the code
already got my bag, i stay alone

aint no love, i been on my grind
and im chasing bread, cant waste my time
nah aint no way im gon let it slide
i tuck the Rugar when i go outside

feel like my name Jason when im putting on the mask
cant nobody see me when im handing off the gas
if you see me, no you didnt, for your health you aint gon ask
i know the boogeyman, cause thats my homie, he move fast

Going To Win

HKFIFTYONE