I feel so at peace with this song I love the guitar it gives me mad nostalgia <3

im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Lyrics:
i know im always saying that i wanna die
but what i really mean is i dont wanna cry
if i could go back and manipulate the time
then i could maybe change the way we see our lives

if i could save you id do everything i can
if i could go back to that moment, take a stand
you know i love you so it makes me really mad
that nothing i could do could take away the past

but now im here and we're okay, i promise each and every day
ill keep you right here by my side until our demons fade away
ill always need you next to me because i feel like easy prey
and if i wake up from a nightmare then you make me feel okay

yeah you make me feel okay
x4

i swear i wanna live if you're here by my side
you always wanna hear the thoughts i keep inside
and all the scary corners deep inside my mind
i promise baby that im really doing fine

cause now i know i got a reason to survive
because your smile and your laugh keeps me alive
i wanna get up but i never have the drive
until you look at me and i know im alright

You Make Me Feel OK

you make me feel ok (prod. splashgvng)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

lyrics:

this is me sending a letter
jot down your name and the sender
i hope that you get this you better
the signals been fucked like forever

shout through the void if you hear this
im dodging my demons i near missed
count myself lucky im fearless
dont care anymore bout the sheer jist

of everything thats really going on
im only alright when my phone is on
the way that im thinking i know is wrong
i wish i was dead but im going strong

i hope you is too, i stare at the moon
i think bout the time by the river in june
the sound of your laugh always brighten a room
alright now you get it ill shut up real soon

hello out there, im still fine
talk in present, like youre still mine
like where are you, i cant see straight
and youre far too, and im too late

ill hold it in, cause im tough these days
i cannot sin, if theres no price to pay
im cold within, soon my mind will break
im falling in, save me from my fate

i promise im trying but i give up
it takes all my spirit just to get up
and you will not find me where ive been stuck
it will not define me it still got me fucked

hello out there, im still fine
talk in present, like youre still mine
like where are you, i cant see straight
and youre far too, and im too late

Hello Out There

hello out there

Stab wounds

OSHTE TE OBICHAM.m4a

Or At Least Thats What I Tell Myself

There's A Monster Inside Of Me

odium

Debut album out 10/31 on Halloween!
Thanks for listening friends, this was a really fun track to make
<3
Shoutouts
@sewerperson
@sorrow_bringer
@iofmusic

And on a side note THANK YOU FOR 50K on Loveless
You guys are awesome!

*lyrics by request*

(Fearce)
Cant believe my eyes
Look how far we made it
told to never cry
now we just get faded
might see you at my show
too high to even notice you

someday came suddenly
another feeling gone
always time to leave
timing
dont mean a thing
when everything gets lost
it was just a dream
but 
all of its so vague now
can you help me figure out

so many stories i couldnt remember
when all i could think of was falling asleep
you distance yourself from the past and the present
now all that you're left with exists in a dream

but we're so much farther
than the people we used to be

(Sewerperson)
black ash
seeing thru the serpents eye
whip lash
i could barely sleep at night
breaking the walls of my mind
baby i had enough
chained to the pole by her side
baby im giving up
and i never leave
i just fade into the background
they aint let me breathe but i promise you i am now
 ever since i known her she cant help the way she stand out  
baby ill see you in your dreams and i promise you ill stand down
woah
lights on top these buildings offer shelter from the snow
i cant even decide just where the fuck i wanna go
far away from anybody i would ever know
i could feel this tingle in my hands before they glow

The People We Used To Be feat. sewerperson (prod. sorrow bringer)

main guitar loop by Sorrow Bringer! @sorrow_bringer

Nosedive 2

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

hello out there

HKFIFTYONE

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