My heart sinks for this song from start to finish because my life has went to shit and I halfway relate to this rn w a bad breakup and losing my best friend to suicide.

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

Yeah im all good yeah
Just in the wrong dimension
I think my brain in a recession
Lost soul and im payin a pension

You never know when youll be in the sunset
The ocean waves and i dont look back at it
Im finna die and theyll all laugh at it

Im rolling in the dirt i kinda like it
Smokin on that gas and its super explicit
Dont tell my parents theyll think im a misfit
Fuckin up my life like im wearing a rabbit
Fuckin on your bitch and i think that she likes it


fucking up this shit, ima crash, im the pilot
always do my best, then i fail, thats how life is
wish i could remember all the shit that i might miss
lost up in my mind now i be sitting here in silence

in this world man dont wanna be there
i just cope with it, but its not fair
i dont feel no change in the air
im not safe here, not anywhere

im stuck here tryna get out now
i tried hard but then i found out
they locked me up, and im down now
i used to smile but i frown now

i used to swim but i drown now
i used to sing but i bow out
i used to care what they said of me
but now i dont give a shit, thats how its supposed to be

i think im just lost in this dimension
i think ill panic at the slightest mention
of who i am and if i learned any lessons
dont make me think back, it just got me messed up

Wrong Dimension (feat. HKFiftyOne)

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

Lyrics:

we didn't talk 
all week 
i'm stressing out getting migraines
sweatpants
no jeans
tryna work your mind like a card game
think i miss your lips on my neck babe
think i miss your palms on my chest
don't talk
don't speak
just press your face onto my face 

-

vivid teals on the leaves
got the air smelling sweet
under rain in my fleece
and the birds and the bees
plus the shark in the reeds
got nothing on all my faults
diving deep in the trees
curl the mulch in my feet
body, mind, soul are all soft
judging rights 
judging wrongs
my perception fallen off
i don't know what's the right call

in truth my face will melt
and my mind might eat itself
it's best to save yourself
i couldn't accept that
couldn't accept that
yea
i couldn't accept that
couldn't accept that
i couldn't accept that

we didn't talk 
all week 
i'm stressing out getting migraines
sweatpants
no jeans
tryna work your mind like a card game
think i miss your lips on my neck babe
think i miss your palms on my chest
don't talk
don't speak
just press your face onto my face 

MAOW

we didn't talk 
all week 
i'm stressing out getting migraines
sweatpants
no jeans
tryna work your mind like a card game
think i miss your lips on my neck babe
think i miss your palms on my chest
don't talk
don't speak
just press your face onto my face

sweatpants (dash)

Lyrics:
Sometimes I wonder if you listen to the songs I do
I know that music's in your blood, it's always in mine too
Since we don't talk this is my way of reaching out to you
And now the sunset makes me think your name in every hue

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

spookybands:
Are you looking at the moon right now?
I can see it in your eyes, I don't think you ever really loved me
Did you buy yourself a beer last night?
And then some whiskey right after, anyway that's how I'm passing the time

And did you tell her about me? 
That new girl that you seeing
I bet she thought my name was cool

Does she text you while you on your way over
Telling you to look up at the moon
That's what I used to do.

These memories just turn to pain
And then get mixed up in my brain
I won't ever be okay
The bar is open every day

Hold me while I drift away
You don't have to miss me baby
I just tell myself you are
To feel better (that's fucking crazy)

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

Look At The Moon

look at the moon (ft. spookybands)

curses & other horrible things

prod. poppy ozu x daniel saint

Lyrics:

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

i'm unhinged 
i'm irrational at best
i'm less convinced now by the second i should get this off my chest
fuck it
i despise your hedonism and that old group i called my friends
at least i'm not a liar, of all my flaws just give me that

she jumps from guy to girl to guy in hopes that someone can heal her
if you couldn't respect me
then how could i either
was i meant for a stage
am i meant for a theatre
caught me throwing up again
with a wonderful fever

i'm a people person eater with a face that doesn't shape
i just tear myself apart then fix myself with gum and tape
i use so many "i's" and "me's" its like the rest of them are fake
you think i'm talking to you, probably am so hear me for your sake

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

hedonism

lyrics:

do you remember that one day out at the beach
we kept hopping bars and stared drunk at the sea
you jumped in my arms and now i guarantee
the sand just reminds me what we used to be

im getting ahead of myself run it back
the first time we met, had a panic attack
you're so beautiful and im getting off track
the moments we shared, know i cant get it back

can't get it back

it tears me apart, just promise you're safe
each night, it still breaks my heart
i don't even know you, how'd you get this way

i can't protect you, you're no longer mine
i just watch from a distance and wish i would die
but i know youre too busy to be in that vibe
while you swipe through your options and leave for the night

i know you said that you're back to your old self
you said youre heartless, i know youre not doing well either
but i pray like every night for your well being
hope you find the light, i know it's hard, when your hearts bleeding

i know its hard when your hearts bleeding
i know its hard 'cause my hearts bleeding
i know its hard when your hearts bleeding
i know its hard and my hearts bleeding

bleed, and bleed
bleed, and bleed
bleed, and bleed

i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go

KnewYouWereLeavingImJustGladIGotToShareItAllWithYou

HKFIFTYONE

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