Deathbed (prod. deadhill)

its not personal, its strictly business
prod. @jolst @irby314

im drunk again
i miss your face
just wish that i 
could replace 
the memories 
that are haunting me 
i miss the simple pleasantries
like sitting with you
staring at the sea 
this sullen panic
slowly surrounds me 

you dont know
you dont know
wat you're doing to me
you dont know 
you dont know 

you never loved me and it shows
it hurts me more than u could ever know
that im not the one you chose...

i wake up, 4 am
staring at the clock
wishing that i was him 
u dont know what your doing to me
baby
thought you were the best
rip my heart 
out of my chest 
i know that you 
would do it all again

i know that youd do it all again
but lets be real 
you're proabably better off with him
you're probably better off with him

you're probably better off...

im drunk again
miss your face
just wish that i
was what you wanted...

Spotify

better off [+irby & jolst]

Hyperpop Heartbreak (johnnyfriend)solo version

Dreamer (yungcray/ghostbxy)

Prod by Me :D 

LYRICS 

Open my eyes once again 
I feel confined to this bed 
Everything you ever said 
I cant just get this out my head 
Take my life Take my time Take me right back 
In the strife hit rewind make it right 
Thats all I wanted from the start 
All I wanted was your car 
Gas pedal and keep it on 
Leave the mourning let it pour 

Leave me alone 
I dont need nobody else 
She blowing up my phone 
Let me calm your feelings though 
Look like this 
She dont wanna call her friends 
Up all night cuz we fucked again 
She dont wanna tell me that she hates my friends 
Fuck you die with them 

Let you go 
I Dont really wanna let you go 
But the feelings gotta let me know 
That you aint it 
I dont wanna see your face again 
I dont wanna go right back to friends 
Always said this was the end 
Hope you know 
So tell me you dont change me when you change me 
Or you break me when you break me 
I cant take the thing you tell me to my core 
Leave me all alone again 
To lost how I want no friends 
Faded all this time again 
I cant fucking lie 

Leave me alone 
I dont need nobody else 
She blowing up my phone 
Let me calm your feelings though 
Look like this 
She dont wanna call her friends 
Up all night cuz we fucked again 
She dont wanna tell me that she hates my friends 
Fuck you die with them

ALONE

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

sinister w/ zoltar

fuck that label, i swear i didnt want it
i thought that this was normal, didnt care if i would flaunt it
until i got much older, and my friends, they all got sober
i went the other way, but couldnt stop, i went way over

only used it just to cope, help me cling onto fake hope
so i never grab the rope, shit dont work, it fucking broke
but i only weigh 110, on a good day if im fed
i just never want to eat, no appetite, im filled with dread

once a sadboy, im a sadboy forever
nothing feels right when everything inside has died
i dont want to be this person, like by now thought id be fine
but its been a whole life, and im barely getting by

sadboy forever

"sadboy" forever prod Blunkd

I can't be your man, I only come the way you say I am
I can't be your girl, I'll be your gun
My baby looks like Hollywood, I'm doublewides and dollar shots
I like it here the best when I'm drunk
And I look like an animal, always too much or not enough
The pills will bleach my insides 'til I'm done
My baby's sleeping beauty, all Klonopin and makeup wipes
They like you here the best when you're young

I might run away but I'll come back
And bring a bird in my teeth
I'll never be an inside, I'll never be a inside
I'll never be an inside dog

I might run away
But I'll come back
And bring a bird in my teeth
I'll never be an inside dog

inside dog

day 3

lyrics

you come out when i sleep
and walk all over my dreams
you tore me to the bed and I couldnt breathe
i've held my eyes shut all week

i'm holding down the wildfires
with picture perfect nightskies
if you call I might cry
for now i'll lay a light sigh

wait for the sunrise
no patience you're out of your mind
I loved you one time in my life
and I could for more than eternity
yeah tha is what I said
hold me firm, ill grip you to the end 
know its hard but something better left
left alone when inside it is dead

no sound of a breathe when you're waking 
went cold yeah he just couldn't make it
it's all smoke when you live for the payment 
tears turn to shards and you'll start to get anxious

no waiting, no saving 
too late in this mist i'm fading 
rung smoke, I got blunts piling up like pages
bong rips, see the sky go from clear to anxious

i'm so jaded, think I'm hated
I'm not drunk enough, i'm caving
dark surrounds my soul
I dug deep to get out of this hole
but there's more to this than you could ever know
throw wood fire in the pile just to watch it grow
sparks being sent to where my energy went
I'm just trying to find home

hold heart there's no remedy
just get lost in the seven seas
don't lose sleep on where you're meant to be
but lose breath on the memories

we hid in the shadows and got stuck in the pages
and now we know that this is one for the ages
casting the spells like your blood is of mages
I've got a viking heart, I'm courages

it might be all they're offering 
but I fought for this 
burning the land in return for the conquering
couldn't stand for this had to drift with the ocean
drift with the wind while enchanting my potions

rant my emotions
is it open i'm hoping
this undertone comes with a gift and a notice
the smoke in the distance the quickest erosion 
can't lie to myself do I live with this knowing

wildfire

wildfire (jacob vallen)

@h8 wtv this iss

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

"sadboy" forever prod Blunkd

HKFIFTYONE

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