i been scarred so bad
like i’m fallin at the skatepark 
and i stopped doing shit 
in my room i’m makin art 
lost my dad 
playin catch w my mom now
i land tricks
i still walk w my head down

banging on my line but i don’t want it take a step back 
needa find a way i’ll break my arms to get my leg back 
i’m crying everyday 
think i lied i’m not like that

i think i get it 
i won’t fight back 
u don’t like that 
i think i’d hate on me too if i was like u 
i would hate me too
i would give it all away if i could jus stay 
1 more night & 1 more day 
but it’s never enough
i’m not enough, anyway

i'm not like that (+michaelwarren)

i hate it here, but if u support me i love u sm.
v v v
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away 
emptychest <3
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
(needa get a job but i..)
(always hit my line for me..)
(ur fine for me..)
well i dont..
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth..
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away..


it hurts so much to be here <3

what ive become (noxiousnights x jolst)

MELATONIN (PROD NOAHMADETHISS)

@55depths

video:
https://youtu.be/uVgZnDtL1X4

track 1, an introduction to:
"si tu veux"

a deep dive into 3 pivotal relationships of the past.

lyrics:
you're running back and forth inside my head
like the thought of death
the beginning to an end
if you want
we can forget it all
you left me to fall
all alone
again

calling me out
you're pulling me down
a night all alone
to bring you home
seems real easy
real easy
calling me out
you're pulling me down
a night all alone
to bring you home
seems real easy
real easy

will you pick up
(as i'm thrown into the fire)
i've been calling on the phone
(the ashes of the past)
will you pick up
(serve forever as a reminder)
i'm tired of being alone
(that i'm always pushing higher)
will you pick up
(that i want to get better)
i've been calling on the phone
(that i need to get better)
will you pick up
(that i have to forget her)
i'm tired of being alone
(but this pain never gets better)

calling

it takes time to trust
red line from love
why did i let you slip out of my hands?
i act surprised that you went and made new friends

new friends

HOW IT ENDS FAYT REMIX

i   s w e a r   i ' l l   m a k e   i t   u p   t o   y o u   o n e   d a y  :(
produced by cxrter & flesh
mixed by yunny goldz & VITO

lyrics:
(lullabyboy)
i-i know i’m not enough
been down on my luck
i still let you know i’m here (i’m here)
i-i know that i was wrong
i know that i’ve been fucked
i swear i’m trying hard
i swear i’ll make it up to you 
one day, one day

kill myself every night
when you’re away, when you’re away
i-i fell in love
i fell in love with the memory
everyone wants something from me
from me
and i
don’t know if i can be the one i need to be
i don’t know if i can give them everything

(VITO)
miss you the most, can’t let it go (ohhh)
i just wanna know, you feel like you’re home? (ohhh)
would you still miss me when you’re staring back at the crossroads
i know you’re still listening when i’m yelling out, “is it all gone?”
i can’t lie to myself, not anymore
feels like i’ve been here before
doors been closed, outside it’s a storm
i’m still here when you need my support
drag myself through the mud like a corpse
you couldn’t look at the pain i endured
just let the rain wash away all the gore
i’ll still remain while you wait at the door

(lullabyboy)
i-i know i’m not enough
been down on my luck
i still let you know i’m here (i’m here)
i-i know that i was wrong
i know that i’ve been fucked
i swear i’m trying hard
i swear i’ll make it up to you 
one day, one day
i swear i’ll make it up to you 
one day, one day

one day (feat. VITO) (cxrter x flesh)

decompose

“Tokyosex (東京の夜)” is a dark electronic-trap ballad — glitch whispers, sultry falsetto, and a hypnotic Japanese hook. With pulsing synth bass, layered ghost harmonies, and atmospheric distortion, it captures the neon-night chaos of Tokyo love. For fans of synthwave x emo-trap crossover, electronic R&B, and cinematic late-night vibes.

Tokyosex (東京の夜)

hit me up
blow me up
tell me i aint nothing
it aint nothing 
it aint nothing 


yeah thats my problem
tell myself every night


i wish i never loved you ....


a garden without birds coming soon
produced by yozzo (71V)
mixed mastered by DJ sk11n


copyright 1992


sk11n


blow me up (prod. 71V) A GARDEN WITHOUT BIRDS

Written & Recorded by @alainite
Produced by @paulfix
Mixed by @hellosloani
Mastered by Rogan Kelsey
Artwork by @ScottySplash

Cos I don't wanna get distracted not this time
Just give me what I need a chilled beat and good vibes

Maybe something with a little definition
Gets out of focus when your heart is on a mission
And maybe yeah I'll still be the only one around
Gets hard to manage when you're caught up in the middle
Try not to panic if you give it just a little time
You've got to want it like nobody else before

And I ask myself what is it that I'm wanting
Yeah I ask myself what is it that I'm needing

Cos I don't wanna get distracted not this time
Just give me what I need a chilled beat and good vibes
Cos I don't wanna get distracted not this time
Just give me what I need a chilled beat and good vibes

Maybe something with a little repetition
Maybe something make you feel a little different
And I bet that I'll still beat the body to the floor
Nothing wrong with a little healthy competition
Help you think about the things that you could be missing out on
And I'll still beat the body to the floor

And I ask myself what is it that I'm wanting
Yeah I ask myself what is it that I'm needing

Cos I don't wanna get distracted not this time
Just give me what I need a chilled beat and good vibes
Cos I don't wanna get distracted not this time
Just give me what I need a chilled beat and good vibes

Distracted (Prod. Paul Fix)

i can’t get the sound of ur voice out of my head

decompose

hoepless