thoughtform collective - February 2021

I AM FLOWERBOY

kewl tunes & kewl peoples ;)))

🖤

Vocals - Drubo
Lyrics - Drubo
Mix/Mastered - Drubo
Cover Art - @luniesluniesandmorelunies on Instagram

go  - (p. moneo)

Produced by @pekarot_161
Remixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

Listen on Spotify!

Pressure! (Prod. Pekarot & Horosha)

Nostalgia (noun) - a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

Nostalgia is something that has always troubled me, as I found that it's difficult to properly put my emotions towards it into words. It's not necessarily, or at least in my opinion, a happy or sad emotion, it's just something that we feel. Remembering a possibly warped perception of the past to focus on because the present seems so grim. Looking back upon my childhood and early teenage years does invoke a sense of melancholy and nostalgia, and I tend to think that things were much more simple back then. Maybe it's because the problems of that time are over now that I am able to look at them so clearly, as the problems of the present are shrouded in fear and uncertainty.

I remember stomping through the woods with my friends, then going home to play my gamecube or gameboy, not really caring or thinking about the world around me. Maybe I get stressed out when thinking about nostalgia because I can't properly explain how it makes me feel, whether it's positive or negative, I'm not sure.

It's like a purple mist that surrounds distant memories, just slightly altering my perception of that time. It's interesting.

Thanks for listening <3

Retro Fantasia [prod. xmichaelwarren]

track 4 of Self Titled Album
@carlby
prod. metlast x 5head <3

lyrics:

stuck here for a minute tryna figure shit out
looking at the edge and i dont know how
im gonna get thru all this shit
idk how to deal

cuz my mind is hell
yeah im a little bit unwell
stuck inside this cell
all i do is repell
they all say that i need some help
but they cant even figure their own shit out....
woah oh...

(carlby)
they cant even figure their own shit out
there's a hell in my head
like im peele ima get out

got a lot of problems from the trauma
maybe i was born sick
maybe this is karma

like paying for the sins of my father
but i dont wanna die a martyr
with every hit i take
i grow stronger 
with every passing day
i wear out my stay a little while longer

they cant even figure their own shit out
now they wanna tell me how to fix myself
im stuck in my mind and im tryna get out

Spotify

my mind is hell (feat. Carlby)

New single like I promised! I might have to chill for a bit and work on an a full project for you guys

I Just Got The Feeling That You're Gonna Waste My Time (Prod. Billy Martin)

Kan't Feel My Face..D.C & BIG MAUT w/tags gonna release full version w/o tags on the album....

Kant B Me ft. Young Thug & Stak5

Down und high

come up w/ suckerpunk (prod. by Malu)

THE PRODUCER IS A GOAT BITCH
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KvCOPJjPxe0

BLANK!

BLANK! - GLIZZ X LONELY (Prod BLANKタ)

I made this song for my daughter <3 to show her how much i love her
Prod. IOF

(Lyrics)
You are the best gift for me
The best thing I could ever ask for
You give my life a new meaning 
How could I ever want more 
I wanna be the one you run up to
I wanna be the one you look up to
I wanna do everything for you
I wanna be everything for you

Cause You saved me from myself 
It couldn’t be anybody else 
You saved me from myself
It couldn’t be anybody else 
One look at your face I knew that
I was never, never gonna go back
I’m gonna be who you need me to be
A father that loves you for eternity 

Never make you doubt your self worth
I’ll try protect from the worlds hurt 
I’ll do everything that I can 
I’ll do everything to be a man 
Cause you opened up my eyes
And now Ive realized
That’s there’s so much more to love
You’re everything I could ever want 
Cause you opened up my eyes 
And now I’ve realized
That theres a reason for my life 
And you’re the reason why

Mixed by Yago Beats

Saved me from myself (prod. IOF)

feel like i'm next  *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

First single off the EP, "Liminality: Volume II" out February 26th

"I'm trying to let them know, that in this whole world, there's at least one person who cares about them"

reminiscers in a parking lot / unconditional love

Oblivion is the first single off of my upcoming project Obake Pt 1
It is the first piece of many in this album, I hope you enjoy

LYRICS: (SOUNDCLOUD HAS A STUPID CHARACTER LIMIT SO I HAD TO LEAVE THE CHORUS OUT)
down in the sewer with rats
get the attention they wanted attack
what in their eyes doesnt equal a match
lower life forms taking hits on the mat
that’s how they seem em
not worthy breathing
genuine people are busting they ass
to be thrown under the bus or swept under the rug by the predators looking for cash
libido is driving the raps
the water is shallow they still gonna crash
the bigger they are is the harder they fall so lurking in shadows is where ill be at
so what’s the deal with that
and i don’t know what a follow mean
when it’s looked at as a profit margin and not a human being

tell me what youre running from behind that big façade
a masquerade of liars think that they’ve already won
but the universe is changing constant motion leaves no one
immortal from the passage of time get up start to run

all i wanna see is the motion of a dream
predicting the trajectory of shots to make a scene
all good attention what you mean? think that but honestly
id rather be no one than have a public perception that isn’t me
leave me alone when i want you to
perceive a ghost when i talk to you
an automatic response when i shut down but that’s all i do
okay to feel uncomfortable no progress made when you’re complacent
maybe it’s time to face it maybe you’re not ready to race yet
and i never wanted to be seen as an enemy people don’t know me don’t give me a chance are they phony
for not liking me but they’re excitedly jumping onto the train that is igniting me
making a wave with my homies collectively
showing u up not even trying it’s flawlessly
work with autonomy battling herds of the sheep with no shepherd and honestly
it’s weighing down when emotion is audible
hard to decipher im saying applaud a full effort i think it’s commendable to work even if youre feeling expendable
guess imma send a full message to those who will hear this
kind of a passage of bastardized music
that’s feeding off of a self induced tension
got many problems i haven’t yet mentioned
but you never could top me and honestly probably won’t even grasp me conceptually
even right next to me you’ll be impressed by me
look at me close hold the talent internally
and im not saying im perfect im flawed from my head to my toes and that’s not even all
that’s is wrong but when i hop on a song
don’t doubt for a second i won’t fucking kill it
there’s rainy weather forever the garden will leave me forlorn im just getting started
ill peak from the curtain 33 times if i can get one glimpse of the sunshine
im not done yet
ill do this as long as i need to
till im tied to a tourniquet everyone takin bets this is a goal that i’ll see through
i came up with a vision intentions intelligible
wrote all my words and im making em legible
don’t think that im pitiful pill bottle full of oval shaped chalky blue and white chemicals
ive been sentimental bout music a little bit
some is outdated but i don’t regret it
cause without the beginning my music would never be what it is now and im thankful i did it
two years ago i made my start
to embark on a journey how i make my art
and you could never me compare to anyone else
wanna help other people while im helping myself
im a monster lyrical posture straight up not sure if this’ll ever make a pay stub
face up never gonna look down this town home to me but if i could i would leave it right now
if it led to something bigger than this everything until now been a swing and a miss
ive had victories my centerpiece is my originality tripping it u ever think that ill miss
cause im on this my guilty conscience filthy stop this before i get nauseous
i feel sick when things don’t work out
but imma never give up that’s what all of this this is really about

oblivion [prod. chxse bank]

i wish i

On a journey with no destination. 

Producer /  vocalist  / engineer 
@prodhorosha on twitter

For mixing, mastering, or beats contact me at prodbyhorosha@gmail.com or on Twitter!