produced by @jolst and @irby314

LYRICS:
 I can't believe it's come to this 
I'm wasting my life away 
spending every day just to exist with a minimum amount of pain 

get home and stare at the ceiling 
maybe if I close my eyes, this time 
my soul will rise above the rooftops 
and I'll slip away 

'cause I'm so tired of feeling like I'm doing something wrong 
27 years and I'm bled down to the bone 
and after all this time I still have nothing to call my own 

'cause back when you were sixteen 
with the world stretched out at your feet
you had all these ideas 
and all the plans for where you would go 

I'm sorry I failed you
I swear I didn't mean to 
it's just time goes by so fast
and these paths are harder than you'd expect 

so next time around
I hope that you get the chance 
to live before you're dead. 

I can't believe it's come to this 
I'm wasting my life away 
spending every day just to exist with a minimum amount of pain 

and I can't go on feeling this way 
so I stare at the ceiling and dream of escape 
maybe when I open my eyes 
I'll find a place without any pain.

Exist (p. Jolst x Irby)

[this exclusive song from @yoimn3ver brings you through the dark forest as you string through horizons and a thick fog that follows as you follow through the crimson road never looking back. With some guitar work from 5head and beat work from Metlast, it brings you something to repeat whenever you're out and about on your adventures.]

[Artist: @yoimn3ver]
[Producers: @metlast
@prod5head]

Envy

Teddyboi - Envy (prod. Metlast x 5head)

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Production: Cursed
Mixing: Nkno x Seejayxo
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Lyrics

[intro]
you need to stop
like her giving more chances
and actually fix yourself
like im not even kidding Andrew
no hate but like 
fucking fix your actions 

[chorus:lil XipZ]
i dont think it matters anymore so i cut her off
blood drips on the floor from my wrist 
since i cut it up
you were once my girl, now youre not since i fucked it up
we went from talking everyday, but im not enough 

[verse 1: lil XipZ]
not enough
im not enough
i messed around and fucked it up
wish that i could take it back
so it didnt have to end like that
wish that i could change the past
howd i do it all so fast?
howd i mess it up this bad?
howd i mess it up this bad? 

[Bridge:lil XipZ]
and i know that i wasnt the best 
but i know that i couldve been the best 

[Chorus:lil XipZ]
i dont think it matters anymore so i cut her off
blood drips on the floor from my wrist 
since i cut it up
you were once my girl, now youre not since i fucked it up
we went from talking everyday, but im not enough 

[Verse 2: lil XipZ]
and i know if we wouldve tried it couldve been different
but i know that in my head there is no difference 

[Bridge:lil XipZ]
and i know that i wasnt the best 
but i know that i couldve been the best 

[Verse 3: seejayxo]
Yeah we used to talk like everyday 
now i barely ever see your face 
and i know you got to get away
but how am i supposed to ease the pain that you left me?
with a bad bitch, remind me of my exes
she dont fuck me the same it got me stressin
you been gone for a month i learned my lesson
i been here for some time i know its destined

Cut Her Off (ft. seejayxo)[Prod. Cursed]

old track i've had for a while i dont think ima do anything with
prod @4evrgone
hope u enjoy

lyrics:
pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

i been having longer nights
fighting with the light inside my room
hoping that this all pays off when 
i can finally dream of you
baby what i did to you is fucked up
praying that i havent run my luck up
im sorry that i been so fuckin stuck up
i just want another chance between
you and i now
thinkin where my future lies now

everything is passing in color
remember in grayscale
seeing you here but
caught up like a hangnail
used to the past
fading in like the paper
cover my walls and
remember my labor
labor of love
when i had nothing
baby girl u were my something <3

pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

someone like u (4evr)

Que ce soit la nuit ou le jour ce sera toujours pareil
J'repense à la fin et ce sera toujours la même
J'vois deux trois sourires, très peu de larmes
Même le temps qui s'écoule restera de marbre

Seeing your name
Brings me
A lot of pain

I don't understand
How i went through all this change

Why is it hard to talk ?
Why do i see all these chains ?

My chest it hurts
I'm 
never gonna learn

If u don't text me back
I'll think bout the worst
I swear i'm not sad
I'm just 
obsessed with her

I don't wanna scare you with my love 
I just wanna keep your trust
This distance it hurts

J'suis enfer ça crame, mais mon coeur est si froid
J'suis dans la lumière mais personne me voit
En moi tout est dévasté, c'est dev'nu sans lois
Chaque jour je leur montre un sourire sans joie

Seeing your name
Brings me
A lot of pain

I don't understand
How i went through all this change

Why is it hard to talk ?
Why do i see all these chains ?

My chest it hurts
I'm 
never gonna learn

If u don't text me back
I'll think bout the worst
I swear i'm not sad
I'm just 
obsessed with her

I don't wanna scare you with my love 
I just wanna keep your trust
This distance it hurts

this distance it hurts

this distance it hurts (sketchmyname)

ur not with me, but at least the bottle keeps me company w/imslendr (2001 x Jolst)

[Artist: @soulfadexo]
[Prod: @pekarot_161]
[From: Vol II: Ghxstly Memories]

Colour Me Depressed

Soulfade - I'm Surprised You Still Care

LYRICS

They said I'd figure it out when I graduated high school 
nearly ten years, I still don't know what the fuck to do 
writing songs alone in my room is the only thing I ever learned how to do 

I wasted all my time,
on fairy tales and lies 
so should I draw the line right here
before it's too late? 

I used to pretend my life was a movie 
with credits rolling as chapters closed 
in the back of my parents' car 
with the lake disappearing slowly 
I promised myself I'd remember this feeling 

Now it's 2021 and I'm still here on lockdown,
but life is the virus that caged me, I can't get out 
I can't remember the wind through the wind through the trees 
and the sun at my back, when my mind could just be at peace 

cuz that's all I really need, just some relief from being me

a quiet desperation

Sleep so much but I'm still fucking exhausted
bags around my eyes and they're steady getting darker
catch me in the mirror, I don't recognize myself 
is that what I look like to everybody else? 

If I can just make it through this week 
I think that I can make it out alive
just gotta stay on my grind (x infinity✨)

and maybe this is all I can ever be 
maybe this is just who I am now 
and maybe there's no point in anything 
if everyday I just wanna be asleep

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happy halloween you degenerates

vocals by @melmige and @evergxrden

produced by roko tensei

no way! [prod. roko tensei]

I made a bit of a first-time remix to Ella Mai's already perfect 'One of These.' I'm always here to mess up music! 

Ella Mai - One of These - Arcade Echo Disco House Remix

On a journey with no destination. 

Producer /  vocalist  / engineer 
@prodhorosha on twitter

For mixing, mastering, or beats contact me at prodbyhorosha@gmail.com or on Twitter!

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