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Reality Ripper (prod. hero)

prod by melon @melonsly <333

i think its wise
to let it go unsaid
theres words that dont sit right
dont know if id regret em
but youve been so unkind 
were signs i just misread em
these feelings tucked inside 
only show through if i let em

why do i
feel so replaceable 
wonder why
thought i could wait for anyone
this might come back to bite me
if u listen at all
at every step know youl fight me
wont get far at all

u dont understand
i cant talk to u
say it all in ur absense
if i wrote a letter id find it in half 
i thought it'd be better when i got attached
u dont understand
i cant talk to u
say it all in ur absense
if i wrote a letter id find it in half 
i thought it'd be better when i got attached

i think its wise
to let it go unsaid
theres words that dont sit right
dont know if id regret em
but youve been so unkind 
were signs i just misread em
these feelings tucked inside 
only show through if i let em

unkind

lyrics

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

youre tryna build me up but
i love just breaking down
i live with my head in the clouds
i need you to pull me down when youre around
ill reveal the scars on my back
im so fucked up my heads gonna explode
and maybe im okay with that
its about time ive had some relief from the plight that was bestowed upon me
for the past few months i dont even feel like me
im tryna burn the bridges ive been getting third degrees
i think im cursed or maybe i just got a new disease
either way i hope and pray that youll still stay with me
keep my hopes up, but my eyes low
and ill try to call you on the iphone but youre never picking up

youre never picking up
like this time is it really done
im still just leaking all my blood
i guess im used to all the cuts
i could never lie to you
everyday i wake up just to try for you
seems like nothing i say is getting through to you
swear to God that ill wait till i break for you
my love dont answer when im calling
i put too much on it often
please just listen when im talking
in my dreams i see us
falling down
i dont know who the hell is gonna try to save me now
oh what id do for one more night
God, what id do for one more time

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

amber w/ skele (p. acey)

lyrics ⬇️ 

she said that i wasnt able
to fix her heart but im faithful still
i cant depart til we stable-real
wish that our love wasnt fable filled
but trust turns out fatal and i cannot feel
like this is what ima need
i cnat tell you that its all gonna be alright
way too luch pain
its been a lot
but i feel like i need some change in my life
wait til you see it, its not the same
not as it seems anymore 
not as it seems anymore

and i wish that you could see me how i really am 
but i bet youd hate me
so i drown out feelings with whats inside of the can
oh i swear that they made me
they cant be serious in saying
that our love was only ever failing
and i hate that im faded
spent 90% of my life feeling wasted

i think if i didnt waste it
i think id be something i think that id make it

but now that its over I wish what i did that i could just retract it

stretching our love out elastic
it dont work out and its tragic
telling me lies i dont love it
i still want you it’s unfortunate 
ohh
i dont think that i was meant for this
i been feeling like its sad at most
maybe if is then I’ll remember it
I’ll remember you when im a ghost

its been a lot
but i feel like i need some change in my life
wait til you see it, its not the same
not as it seems anymore 
not as it seems anymore

not anymore

Wake Up w/ Brecken

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

in order <3 prod nevrfall
@breckenford
@user-642636378
@kiddamo
@notaheroo
@notcursed
@alex-thomas-fox

hurt (w/ brecken, halfhearted, kiddamo, notahero, notcursed, vails) (nevrfall)

Another demoish song lol

Prod: underthemapletree
Mix: me
Voice note: @Rall333

Lyrics: 

lately ive been feeling like myself 
tug of war with my mental health
i dont feel like oh to well
but its fine cause i know i finna dwell

on these thoughts for like oh forever
shit aint happen but never say never
shit aint happen but i feel like a lever
people keep pulling on me like a lever

they say they miss me honestly thats misery
i just think it's history the way they been dissing me
ion even fuck with them i piss on em like pissery
this shit like my message i send it like a missionary

woah-oh

im like a prophet the way im moving off it
pop the ollie rocket i got that like i stocked it 
pop the heelflip on it im moving like an onyx
aint got no wax so i push like bionic
 
yeah i
push like bionicles
robotic flow when i write these chronicles
spit so fire my flow full conical 
99d im hard like im coming close

100 degrees it's hot like im boutta doze off
the way im moving i feel like lara croft
man im sleeping up in the loft
that shit made me fucking cough

yeah it made me so sick
now im pissed off
writing all this so quick
and i feel like i just need to rest now (outside in the sun)
i just need someone to no get pressed now (outside in the sun sun)

in the sun im on a fucking run
im running away from all the problems i face
i love fun
man i miss this shit ion wanna be a disgrace
get the fuck outta my face if you just fill it with hate

it's not like im already busy doing that by myself
i dont need your fucking help

tug of war (under the maple tree)

Lyrics⬇️

its not a coincidence that i ruin everything in life
maybe if i just applied myself then they would think I tried 

i cant get myself to try if i dont think i have anything i should live for
why dont i just do more
cuz i spent way too many cold nights on the floorboards
i wish i could restore
i wish i could feel more

but i been stuck like this for longer than you know 
i dont feel like anybody even thinks that i could grow
cuz its been like this forever i dont see a place to go
i dont think that its been better but i swear that i can hope
i wish that you saw my life through my eyes and then you’d know 
that every single night since you been gone i felt broke
& i dont even tell you why i love myself, i dont
cuz i dont even tell you that i trust myself, i dont

i check my phone
its jus like a 100 messages to come home
i dont wanna do that anytime id rather be alone
 i been chillin on my own
im still happy what i chose

back then i swear i would do the most
and nowdays im not even close but you still think ill overdose

and it dont matter what i say if you dont think ill ever know
just how you really feel every time i touch the stove

all my cells have been straight burned from all the stuff inside my body
clearly i been stuck on every oerson who ever turned on me

please dont stab my back
i would rather do anything just to hear ur laugh
again 
i would do everything i never did up inside my head
i was stuck up in my bed everytime you time you said im next up
i dont wanna hear u tell me that im just the best of 3
bet those 2 other people had everything over me

best of 3 (mackk)

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

prod dash 

sample from whiplash
lyrics ⬇️
theres not a future thought in my head oh well
well i could tell you what i want next 
but you would yell
yell at me for my best
for secrets that i had kept
then wonder why i aint slept
oh well
think this is something i cant repeat
keep stoopin low
you gonna find me out in a ditch
i dont want you to know
i dont think i dont think i can be seen like this
id rather you go tell everyone im just in an abyss
stuck out in the snow
way too cold so i couldnt flinch oo

think my lil brodie jus hit em a clip
360 y y hit on yo miss
and he doin damage so that you cant stitch
all of the stuff that you wish he aint did
act like my wifi aint runnin so i could just possibly find me some rest
act like this wachu been wantin
honestly please come be my guest

white paint on my whip
all of my vices green
i dont want you to trip
but i dont wanna you to cling
like what do u mean

well its pretty easy if you would just listen just for a minute 
i could tell u how i really have been 
like walkin to finland
thats how the distance feels between us when you get tempted
if i had wishlist you wont get it
ill throw that lil promise over the hedge

hits like a comet covered in ship
if we woulda saw it it would be sick
hints like a comment you wont forget
but we had a problem thats what we missed
covered in star dust under the mist
woulda been harder not to be hit

barley had started when you had dipped
hate you departed think we had skipped
my head been clouded hate to admit
i hope these feelings diminish they cant replenish
you act like a skit but this now a show
like where did u go
if i had a blick then i woulda blown
like you didnt know

and i cant explain how im feelin alone
every night i feel like theres not a phone
no where to reach
nowhere to be
part of me feel like im left out to bleed

finland (dash)

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tug of war (under the maple tree)

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