https://soundcloud.com/idletears
https://soundcloud.com/cpt_sad

lyrics:
until my heart stops beating 
and when my lungs stop breathing 
i thought i cared 
it’s losing all its meaning 
i’m unprepared 
i f*ck it for no reason 

i took the blame to say 
how you couldn’t try this
i’m living every day 
and i know i f*cked it up 

just hold my hands to yours 
you don’t know, you don’t know 
leave my bands to ya 
i’m solo, i’m solo 
couple xans i try 
to hold on, to hold on 
think i’m on on my own 
i’m alone, i’m alone 

no reason to believe me
im so f*cked up, im so crazy
and the thought of you leavin
makes me wanna keep drinkin
in my past life 
bet i knew u so well
will you keep me held down?
i dont see the sun now
cuz u never come around

im too far gone
and done grievin
no more sad songs
im done dreamin
all my vices
comsume me
i keep racin
wont stop movin

you mightve bit off more than you can chew
its so wrong how you dont think about me whenever you move
thought we were past this
youre made of plastic
i know that lovin me's a lot
never worth more than a thought, no

just hold my hands to yours 
you don’t know 
you don’t know 
leave my bands to ya 
i’m solo 
i’m solo 
couple xans i try 
to hold on 
to hold on 
think i’m on on my own 
i’m alone 
i’m alone

alone

idle tears - alone (ft. yesterday)

offbutton(voidrave99)

deep october - palm in your hand (hurtclub flip)

Ya Ruh Al-Ruh

THE STAR

Fundamentally, “Word Garbage, Sent” tells a story of a ghost who doesn’t know they are a ghost; they’re just waiting for their crush to recognize that they exist. I wrote it two years ago when I felt really, really lonely. To me, it has lots of layers, yet I don’t make art simply for myself, which means how it communicates with you is what gives me the biggest joy. I also pushed some buttons, vocalized some things, but without my beautiful husband, my muse’s magic, it wouldn’t be possible, so thank you, Roge! And absolute genius Rob mastered it with love, for which I’m forever grateful!

 I’m at the point of my life where I can better understand the shades of punctuation marks, and some things are not replaceable, whereas others bring alternatives. Being an artist was never a choice for me because it is rooted in the answer to this question after all the traumatic experiences I’ve had since I was born: “Would you like to lose your mind or learn from your experiences to express yourself in creative ways?” So my songs and other forms of artistic expression come with the rawness of being human, complexity in the nuances, the depth that you may not always immediately realize, you might see it if you give yourself some time to think, and I’ve always truly loved art that I find relatable, because when I can’t relate, it does not feed my soul; I feel like I’m either being force‑fed or choked in the disengagement, where even misunderstanding does not give a definition enough for me to feel something, or anything.

Right now, this song means a lot of things for me; most likely they will shift and change, which is a neutral thing. I hope it can mean something for you too, and whatever that feeling is, it could make you feel seen and acknowledged, because overall, life isn’t short; often, time is.

And thank you to everyone who has supported my art! 
November 28th is going to be really fun!
  

Baha Jarvis - Word Garbage, Sent

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

https://soundcloud.com/volk_volk
https://soundcloud.com/anobodyreally

spotify

did it mean anything w/ convolk (prod. ʎpoqou)

prod. taurs
Linger is now out on all streaming platforms!
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/linger-single/1481789312
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/408OCr8qp9iGZ0SI1dhimE?si=4HBgqJ-PQzKMvJTrFJWEbw
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Lyrics:
stumble out of bed at five like
yeah sure i'm fine oh never mind sike
I can see your actions are in vain
The more I linger pointing fingers is much easier a game
got me nauseous thinking thoughts bout back before I knew insane
I can't help it feeling helpless it's like I don't know her name
on a whim the trust within slowly melted and became
toxic thoughts and memories I hide away out of my shame

look I'm sorry our canoe couldn't stay afloat upon the seas because of you
this was a sad excuse for a relationship got me feeling mentally abused
yeah i'm sorry you can't take that
I just hope I can escape that
No I really cant mistake that
Am I insane to wanna stay with you i'm attached

Latching onto who I thought you were
afraid it got me catching feelings for you don't embrace it
she's a psycho she is type manipulative 
but i still wonder If she was the one I hated
guess i'll never find out
I just smoke away the pain won't face it unless its packed loud
I can't take this I am struggling to stay on top
how can my life just change so quick one day onto the next wow

Linger

[prod. sketchmyname] @sketchmyname

Lyrics:
I wish i could go back in time
Just to make things right
Id give up my own life
Just to stop your tears
Just to make you feel alright
Again

Now im the one thats playing pretend
Cause your moving on 
But i can hear you louder inside my head
One day imma die and youll forget

About me
Maybe as a ghost youll want me
But im sure your fine without me
I had to let you go and it haunts me
Ive been all alone and im wanting

Something different, something better then this
Ive lost hope i think im dying from it

Everyday single day i just feel like shit
My hearts losing blood and ill soon be dead
I cant ever seem to let it all out
Dying inside but these tears got a drought 

Every crack in my heart just cant be fixed
Barely getting by i dont know how i live
Time makes things better but it dont move quick
I dont know myself and why im so selfish

One day ill be fine yeah i have my doubts
Every word that i type i cant get it all out

I cant get it all out
Im a surely drown

ABOUT ME

[prod. Dead Spyro] @deadspyro

Lyrics:
[Frvr]
I can feel my insides 
Crumble into pieces
Everytime i think of you again
You again

I know that im not fine
Baby you can see it
Do you even think of me like that
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

Baby i was falling way before

[Kais]
do u even think of me?
Im not who you want me to be and I know 
think of things we’d see
I know you cant do that, im already jus a memory

time dont fly by,
i feel like im stuck in your eyes
why do you use a disguise
I crumble to pieces at night

[Frvr]
I can feel my insides 
Crumble into pieces
Everytime i think of you again
You again

I know that im not fine
Baby you can see it
Do you even think of me like that
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

Baby i was falling way before

Crumble Into Pieces ft. Kais

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=osqAqTgm6ys