track 4 of Self Titled Album
@carlby
prod. metlast x 5head <3

lyrics:

stuck here for a minute tryna figure shit out
looking at the edge and i dont know how
im gonna get thru all this shit
idk how to deal

cuz my mind is hell
yeah im a little bit unwell
stuck inside this cell
all i do is repell
they all say that i need some help
but they cant even figure their own shit out....
woah oh...

(carlby)
they cant even figure their own shit out
there's a hell in my head
like im peele ima get out

got a lot of problems from the trauma
maybe i was born sick
maybe this is karma

like paying for the sins of my father
but i dont wanna die a martyr
with every hit i take
i grow stronger 
with every passing day
i wear out my stay a little while longer

they cant even figure their own shit out
now they wanna tell me how to fix myself
im stuck in my mind and im tryna get out

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my mind is hell (feat. Carlby)

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prod by @jolst and @remghost
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nah n i dont wanna know
its too bright to see
but i cant manage if i dont
n we all bleed the same
im goin straight back down that road
its a centerpiece
n i can leave but it still goes
its too bright to see
but i cant manage if i dont

n im headed straight into the wall
i hit the ground into a deadend
why u actin tight im just done sittin on the fence and
i see poison every side
i guess my life became just tending to my messes
i cant lie im on my way
n i just pull it in im so fixated
on the dirt in which i lay
its all just a contemplation game
offer empty hands n always press at who i am 
just know i'm never gonna change
yeah its see through
i seen how you live n still i wouldnt wanna be you
n all this space feels so much better with the solitude
used to go step out n instantly become the elephant inside the room
no, no, its so hard to do
n im just aimless
got aversions to the plan and to the follow through
no, no, not good enough for you
throw me away cause if you dont im steppin in and doing it for you

centerpiece (jolst x remghost)

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

deep october - palm in your hand (hurtclub flip)

i remember on that day
the sky split open like a wound
the river spelt your name

and once the storm was done
only heaviness remained
my ribs collapsed beneath the weight
a force too strong to contemplate

i swore id find you in the space between
the waves and changing currents
of the way we know we ought to be

thought that no one wanted us
but i guess now its only me
held on tight for way too long
to broken lungs and shattered dreams

fuck, i don't want to let you go
things felt really weird wanting to live but now i know
i swear i got a taste of what this life could really be
when i saw you standing there upon the sand along the sea

fuck, i don't want to let you go
the sky opens again and now i'm drowning way too slow
that's just the way it is i know
i've been living without breathing anyway i suppose

i remember on that night
the stars burned out like cigarettes
their glow was lost in time

and in the quiet i could hear the hollow in your voice
the same as my own emptiness
the words reduced to noise

i said id find you in the space between
but every echo fades before it even ever reaches me

traced your name into the sand
the tide wont let it stay
i guess the ocean always know
the things i couldn't bare to say



i had it all figured out

i think it's sad you never cared
you said you did
or maybe i'm just wrong
i tend to split
they say its borderline
a dark abyss
and i say its really hard
but lets call it what it is
i'm so scared of getting close if you hurt me ima dip
i'm so paranoid you lying, i ain't seeing what i did
i just threw it all away, its only way that i'm equipped
you can call me Bojack i'm a Stupid Piece of Shit
i betray myself like every single thing i do
now you know my secrets when i spill them in the booth
i think i'm way too old to still be here to tell the truth
i think i'm way too old to still be smoking on this-
i'm still getting paid, still my money stack
still it doesn't change all the weight that's on my back
i could say i'm fine but i know that's cap
why the fuck i'm such a bitch, i ain't even got my back
i don't know how i should be
i thought i'd know by now at least
self-deprecation brings me peace
if you can't relate i know you can't see
i wish all the hate were to die to me
i wish all the pain weren't inside of me
my torn up lungs cannot lie for me
my secret's safe, it's gonna die with me




SPOS Freestyle

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Lyrics by: $lump Doog
Prod by: LIL XB 
Label: THE DOOG$

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