prod. caspr
engineered by skrwd
mixed and mastered by Patrick Gardner

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I just wanna talk about it but you don't hit my phone up
I got too much in my system, fucking throwing up
I've been working every night, just have to count it up
Tell you I miss you, but you don't wanna speak much
I feel so lost when you're not here
I can't fucking sleep when you're not near
I swear I care, but we don't even talk and it's not fair
I've been losing my mind and I'm holding onto you
Trying to figure out a way to give it back to you
Overthinking every word I ever say to you
I'm trying my best, don't know what else to do
I'm so scared you'll leave me here, I worry so much you'll disappear
I just wanna talk about it, you don't wanna talk about it

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I haven't seen you in weeks, you're not too far from the city
You tremble when you speak and I know it's on me partially
Talk to me softly, tell me that you want me
Laying in my bed, yeah, longing for your heartbeat
When I'm with you it's not so bad but every time you leave, I just get so sad
You're the only one that knows me like that so I'm so scared that you won't come back
You're the roof over my head, eyes got me focused
Every time I inhale your scent, I'm in heaven
You're the one I'm flexin, not even a question
Tell me what's on your mind, maybe it'll kill the tension
We'll be alright, only a matter of time
Even from far away, you're the color of my sky

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

swear w/ skele (prod. caves)

novocaine (original pitch)

Prod. P4RA

Lyrics:

ima turn my body into ashes
ima let my body down cause i let everybody down
ima get a car just to crash it 
i dont wanna live no more im driving til i hit a wall

hope you still thinking bout me 
hope you see things that i see
hope you still care about me
hope you wonder where i be

i let my guard down
why did i trust on a hoe now
i think she hurt now
new man be telling her lies now

i dont wanna fall and regret it
but baby i wish that you meant it
i dont wanna love so forget it
i dont wanna fall and regret it

i let my guard down
why did i trust on a hoe now
i think she hurt now
new man be telling her lies now
i dont wanna fall and regret it
but baby i wish that you meant it

ima turn my body into ashes
ima let my body down cause i let everybody down
ima get a car just to crash it 
i dont wanna live no more im driving til i hit a wall

hope you still thinking bout me 
hope you see things that i see

lavender (prod. P4RA)

produced by caves : )

were u being sincere when you calling me
everynight for a few months you were onto me
its getting too much when you leave
why'd you make it so hard just to breathe
i blame it on you but i think it was me
i knew you would go but i thought we would speak
just stay get rid of my fears
the last thing id say is that i love you dear
your head on my bed im holding you near

im nervous another year you look over
you're perfect i need to let go of her
but i cant but i cant wish i could but i cant
but i cant cos i loved her

id kiss on your neck but it brings it my tears
stay right here get rid of my fears
i cant even say your name
no way your happy being mine
touch my neck im getting shivers down my spine
not getting better but i tell everyone im fine
i think that you would be happy when i die
i want it end it all when i see him lie
i wanna hurt him bad if you cry
all i ever had was the sky
now its all bad when you fly
im really not glad your my ally

im nervous another year you look over
you're perfect i need to let go of her
but i cant but i cant wish i could but i cant
but i cant cos i loved her

now your just a name on my phone

nervous

produced by neverforever

completely non profit

lyrics

told her do not worry
trouble getting up in any way without a coffee
fuck it gimme tea, gimme chai inside a latte
pass the competition no Ferrari I'm Bugatti
summer ain't for me I like my coats with excess pockets

don't go minding me I like to blend in with the objects
from my corner read the room out like a blurb and all its contents
drunk and in the city streets I'm walking singing nonsense
since we were 17 I've never stopped to watch the comets 

ay

lately do not fuck with outings 
no I do not wanna party
everybody here draining
u can keep all of ur conversations 
think that I'd rather just talk to the table
it kinda get me 
it kinda wobbly n never just stable
throwing up on this instrumental
fractured words gonna border mental
I'm offline and she's temperamental
talking shit on her screen of metal
how u let twitter impact how ur head screwed
how u let people decide who can love u
lately I sit in my room
and I just smoke thru
I'm losing the will just to pull thru
but honest it's been good to see u

good to see u
can I get a preview
let me see the other side
and tell me was it peaceful 
come and see u?
I can barely speak dude
I vomit words onto a beat 
but conversations where I'm weak

where I'm weak
and so I weep

winter heat drops
all the leaves rot
my face will leak snot 
I'm like a tea pot
my heart will weep blood
it's filled with red muck
don't mind my weed cough
my lungs are black sludge

I got bad habits in my backpack
how u fuckin with a thumb tat
I got a razor blade and a bruised waist
I don't eat enough and that's my bad
too many fakes just chasing plays
u ain't ever blowing up and it's so sad
I'm not chasing fads I'm just born to rap
I ain't even wrote this down in my notepad

it's off the dome
kicking in the streets without a home
and I almost copped a charge but I came home
so lighten up there's not a lot of hope
and what u got is what u taking home

vomit (neverforever)

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LYRICS 

where’d the love songs go yeah is been a while 
haven’t seen in you so long you’ve changed your style 
where’d u go thought I knew everything bout u 
never wanted anything different feeling see through 

rough edges turned smooth shattered glass in the ocean 
double take step back no emotion
all black fit customs sew it 
steal another bottle keep it flowin 

and that love in ur hearts 
like a drop in the ocean 
haven’t been the same since
since the day you cut me open 
i been laying low
keep an eye on what u postin 
but she don’t give a fuck ): 

she cut me up
oh god !!!
and i’ll fuckin hurt myself
that what u want?
i can never tell 
so i call ur bluff
but i’m always wrong
im such a punk 

and u cut
cut real deep 
i been laying here for hours
i can barely sleep, nah 
thinkin u havin fun
cus he cute
he way better than me 
til i pull up n pull the gun
n let the 32 speak 

like red light, red light 
stop right there
big scythe 
on my back
i’m a nightmare 
red light, red light 
stop right there 
red light stop right there

rough edges turned smooth shattered glass in the ocean 
double take step back no emotion
all black fit customs sew it 
steal another bottle keep it flowin

ocean glass ft. sendflowrs (jolst)

As far as I can take
As long as I've been waiting
I know it goes away
When you're gone

Waking up on the east side
But I don't know what to feel
Thinking of when you'd hold me 
The safest I'd ever been
And you don't know that you fixed me
And I don't know if you care 
So I don't think that I'll tell you
To let you know that I'm here

Things hold and things decay
I've always felt the same 
My hand against your cheek
To see you face from under your hair
I hope you know that I listened 
I'm holding onto it still
And when I know that it's over
The only thing that I'll miss

So don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

Wait for a break in the morning
Ask me to stay it's important
I've had these feelings before it
Spoke out to me in the forest
I put a name to a context like
All of this time and we lost it
But I just retreat where the fog is
Just know that I loved you through all this

The last trace of my body's been gone now
The best days of your life I don't know how
The last chance I could tell you but I still can't
The lights dimming but its painless you should know that

Don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

If It Still Matters

a trace of me
spend a night invested by the sea
spend a life not knowing what it means
but you could always have the best of me
at anytime in any form you please

maybe we take enough to miss the signs
i couldn't handle another night
held in your prescence in coastal light
glimpse of your life its been all of mine
i take it in and i come to life
i make a move like its justified 
fuck it all up for the hundreth time
travel your thoughts and its hard to find

spend a night invested by the sea
spend a life not knowing what it means
but you could always have the best of me
when you come home its easier to breathe

i wonder how its different second time
funny how it changes in your mind
stumble through the wreckage of your life
numb yourself to make it out alive

all that you are
just as all that i want
find me closing the door 
see me turning it off

something wasn't funny but i could not change like
i've been outside in a fucked up brain
felt so much that i could not say
when it gets this dark never goes away
i start getting tired of it
all in my thoughts its just siphoning
all of my life im inside of it
we should have died but its fine its only me

spend a night invested by the sea
spend a life not knowing what it means
but you could always have the best of me
when you come home its easier to breathe

but i would take it back now if i could
tuning out my senses just enough
and yeah i know we all think way too much
searching for a trace of what it was

By the Sea

produced by my brother wisssery 

was saving this one for an album but i need to drop more singles so here u go 


this armour has become a coffin 
i drop to my knees and hear nothing 
this great sword is holding me up
as i look down at my chest
see arrows; i’m coughing 
up blood, and i’m feeling so nauseas  
this battle was ours and we lost it 
i promise that when i return 
to the kingdom of god
i’ll be clear of my conscience 

don’t wanna see the king, i can’t save shit 
and i’m not half the man that your grace is 
so i wipe off my steel plates
plan to get away
i’ll return 
in april or may, then 

once again i’ll walk this pavement 
with my helmet in hand and impatience 
and this time i wont go away
i will face the knight
that is standing 
at those wooden gates, and 

wooden gates 
i lift my shield
and i embrace
the next 25 seconds
is the end of my fate
so i brace, mace in my hand
need a brave face 
and it’s been years 
since i held a blade
gotta vacate 
with my family’s crest on my back
and my hands cold 
i will dance with the devil
in this kingdom of coal
don’t send for me
after this
leave me alone 
in the trees 
with the animals
and the sharp thorns 

and i know i’m not the one you want
but i’ll be right here incase you want me
i’ve always been strong and can swing steel battle axes but one look from you baby 
it dropped me
i’ve spent so many nights
with just me and my horse
sat thinking of small subtle ways i could copy
the knight that you lusted so long for
will meet his match soon
god will strike that man down if it’s not me

steelplate (wisssery)

And they always ask 
How did you forget 
I didn’t choose to 
I got distracted 
and that’s my fault 
I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk 
If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call 

(brecken)
I was walking so far
Thought everything was okay
Locked in my car
All the stuff you’d given back to me
One chance now its all gone
Coulda give you the world but now i write a song
About all of the misery that me and you have come by
I don’t need you temporarily like i need sunlight
Like life forever and ever just take me back
I could write a letter cause we’re better with a gap
I thought it was all good
Gave you everything that i could
But you never gave it back to me

(halfhearted)
Tryna find my way back up
Bet you wish you never messed around
I been tryna keep my head up
But my demons keep pulling me down
I gotta get outta this town again
But you made it so i never get out
Lay me down to rest in a flowerbed
Pull my petals and my roots out the ground

And they always ask 
How did you forget 
I didn’t choose to 
I got distracted 
and that’s my fault 
I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk 
If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call

how did you forget ft. brecken + halfhearted (michael harrison)

lil booj

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