produced by @idealismus

cover art by SirC at https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

i been feeling kind of lonely
maybe i should try and find somebody decent for me
i dont need no one to hold me
just that some of these ideas i have need to reach somebody elses ears
falling out with my peers
i dont enjoy nobody elses company and im scared
nobody really knows me
well enough to say whats wrong with me
and the people there that try deserve the deepest of apologies

took me 6 months
but i blew past
miss my medication
got brain zaps
looking at the scene
i dont reflect rap
im a skinny freckled kid
with no face tats

i live the life
if u minus all the ammunition
bitch i do the drugs
but i never wanna go to prison
my own blood turn on me
to see that shit is sickening
but i thank em for my lyrics
cause they fueled the feelings

blueberry og straight out the deal
my exes tell me im cold and i should learn how to feel
i dont feel no love because i know its never real
every girl i meet just want mcdonalds fries and a pill

i cant connect with them
the only one i liked wont respond again
id love to prove that ive evolved from then
ill never be back in that apartment

sap (prod. idealism)

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u were torn from grace ace
 
forever isnt forever

I love you, thanks for keeping me around

You don't have to question your place in my life, the seat was for you.

I never wanted to own you just protect you.

I want to go back. I wish I met you sooner.

Leave me alone in pain while u enjoy the presence of others I hope you genuinely find happiness because u searched for it in me and we both found it for a while I know we did. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry it wasn't me. I have no more words to say if I cant have you back just know i truly cared and I did love you I did. I would have done anything to meet you we had one more month till our birthdays. I hope you have a good Christmas i hope you get your recidency i hope you take care of yourself please eat well and drink lots of water and keep going even if i give up u have a reason. I love you Ace. I just refused to give up showing you and turned into an asshole trying to prove a point I never have regretted so much ive said but it was all in defense. I should have never raised my voice not even the once I should have been good to you. I wish i could take it back im sorry. I lost my mind trying to find yours & legitimately being harassed. I even got banned in my fav artists discord fighting for you nd I know i said hateful stuff too when we didnt work out but I never meant it i dont know how to explain that to you. goodbye my love I thought there was still something I could do i thought there was a soft spot i gave it everything i had Acey all year i was here for you i didnt want you to feel like me :( im sorry we used to go for record times in calls even when u didnt want to so I know you loved me and u saved me when u did we had 800 hours in vc alone just dming I cant break away so please pray for me my family leaves today for Christmas and im going to be alone this year & im terrified all im going to be thinking about is you and last year when it first went wrong I love you with all my being it hurts so much we had wings
im so happy you dont have to feel like this truthfully but u lost your wings






sap (prod. idealism)

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