@infamousrad 😥😥 every.song.kills.me.

“I just wanna feel good i just wanna get better” ❤️‍🩹

forget me like forgetting the lyrics to my old songs

produced by @taxpurposes
thank you all for listening <3

SPOTIFY

the gallows (p. taxpurposes)

Blurry Ft jdsoill

meu canal: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCVaPNT91ahZf0DWTJxT-yhQ

lil bo weep - not ok but its ok

spotify

apathy w/ guccihighwaters

Untitled

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO
---------------------------------

www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJpmpm9I-Zc

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domynoofficial

lyrics
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i just wanna feel good
i just wanna get better
i know said i’d quit
but that was last september
if i keep this up
ill be dead by december

i can’t even live w/o that rush
yea i can’t even live w/o that cup
with u im dead
without u im empty
i took too much
but i swear its not enough 

yea i want u so bad
oh u make me so mad
i should leave u the past 
but i know that i cant
i been starin at the mirror
i don’t really like what i see
see my vision getting clearer
now i gotta make it burry

how u sayin
let it go?
when u all know
i just wanna coast
fall back
right in to the door
always do the most
needa smoke
roll me up some dope
then i swear ill go
u wont see me
ever again
i hope u know

dead by december 
will u remember me?

produced by domyno

dead by December [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

S P O T I F Y

I'll always forgive you (ft. Aiko)

Some boring, Love Stories

Spotify

i can't sleep (Prod. Sarcastic Sounds)

prod. sapphire2001

lyrics:

i can feel in the air tonight
smoke seeping from my lungs tonight
i dont wanna disappoint you
i dont wanna disappoint you

yeah you are so toxic like a poison i just threw up in the bathroom
medicate myself until i feel like i dont have you
stab me in the hall, leave my body by the stairway
bag me up and throw me somewhere nobody will find me
you cut me off so the cuts are on me now
i was by myself, now im choking claustrophobic
medically diagnosed depression from my therapist
you say im faking, check the fucking trash bin

disappoint myself and everyone else thats around me
you wish you were richer oh my god now thats astounding
i wish i could be a different person than myself yeah
ive been making plays might book a show at the foundry

chemically engineered they say that im so toxic
everyone around hates when i sing cause im obnoxious
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna fucking be me
ima shoot myself the day i see my face on tv
ima get a bag like my name was louis v
ive been making music vids im on a shooting spree
i dont wanna live and i dont wanna make you cry now
all the voices in my head are telling me to die now

u cut me off so the cuts r on me now..

prod. @notmorgn

[Verse 1]
What's wrong or what's right?
I'm 'bouta take a flight, like should I say goodbye?
Fuck that I'ma hold onto my pride
Momma raised a soldier so I can't afford to cry
Lookin' back I see the knife in my back now
Lookin' at life wishin' I was in the background
Lookin' back I see the future in the past now
90 in the whip, like should I fucking crash now?

[Chorus]
I'm so sick of this, I'm so sick of shit, nobody listening
Demons all around me, diamonds wet just like a christening
Wait, why you always high when you call me?
Why do you ask what's wrong when you saw me?
I'm so sick of this, I'm so sick of shit, nobody listening
Demons all around me, diamonds wet just like a christening
Wait, why you always high when you call me?
Why do you ask what's wrong when you saw me?

[Verse 2]
Chemicals running through my veins, I just wanna sleep
Feelings bleeding out my brain but right now I can't feel a thing
Woke up late, time to waste away
My favorite days are the rainy days
Let it soak in then I throw it all away
I try my best but this feeling always stays
You know, I try but you gotta gimme space
(Gotta give me space)
And I don't wanna hurt you if you get in my way

[Chorus]
I'm so sick of this, I'm so sick of shit, nobody listening
Demons all around me, diamonds wet just like a christening
Wait, why you always high when you call me?
Why do you ask what's wrong when you saw me?
I'm so sick of this, I'm so sick of shit, nobody listening
Demons all around me, diamonds wet just like a christening
Wait, why you always high when you call me?
Why do you ask what's wrong when you saw me?

[Verse 3]
Reach out just to waste my time
It's the young waste of space
With his headphones on
Call me when you need me baby
But I know I'm the last resort
You said that you love me
How the fuck could you just love a ghost?
You said that you love me baby
I said we are not that close

[Chorus]
I'm so sick of this, I'm so sick of shit, nobody listening
Demons all around me, diamonds wet just like a christening
Wait, why you always high when you call me?
Why do you ask what's wrong when you saw me?
I'm so sick of this, I'm so sick of shit, nobody listening
Demons all around me, diamonds wet just like a christening
Wait, why you always high when you call me?
Why do you ask what's wrong when you saw me?

i'm so sick of this (stripped down)

love me again (ft. lil narnia)

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

Day 38

day 38 (prod. shon lindauer)

"𝕀𝕥𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕒 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕦𝕣𝕥𝕤 𝕔𝕒𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕚'𝕞 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘"

______________________________________________________________
lyrics:
why the fuck you gotta lie I can't take this
I can't make this up , I gotta break this
this was one whole big mistake
I'm forsaken d
lie awake and toke inside my basement

this was all fuel for the fire
you are a liar
I can't believe what you said
flashback, memories of us making out in your bed
I try to believe that she's alright in the head
honestly I cannot get over her
Its the idea that hurts cause i'm hating the real thing
constantly thinking bout her
yeah my visions a blur I've been drinking a lot
getting so high of the pot
will I come down again? hopefully not
maybe Ill try again
I think to myself I know that
I can do what I wanna do
my mind,  yeah I control that

why the fuck you gotta lie I can't take this
I can't make this up , I gotta break this
this was one whole big mistake
I'm forsakened
lie awake and toke inside my basement
x2

don't even bother bitch don't hit my line
I won't reply
when we were still dating you texted so dry after that night
and you had the nerve to ask me for help bitch that's fucking absurd
bitchin bout problems that you left uncured I've had enough of it kicked to the curb won't let you return
get the fuck out my life
gotta move forward forget all the strife
now I've opened my eyes
fuck all the others; stick to my own strive

Liar [prod. ryini]

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

Ghost Me

SPYDER

ghost me [prod. spyder]

i've become everything i hate (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3sg1aqLsJU

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dead by December [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

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