Unofficial Freestyle 2019

I carry this pain
Underneath my eyelids
Spitting out my teeth

Searching for somewhere to place the blame

A river tainted
With the blood that i have lost

Cant see the sunshine when im feeling the rain pouring
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Looking in the mirror
I dont know what i see
Disconnected 

Stressing over things i cant control

This cant be the end
I have to find a better way

Cant see the sunshine when im feeling the rain pouring
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Here i lay broken
The crows pick at my bones
As im rotting away
Theres nothing left here to say
Thats how the story goes (x2)

The rain is pouring 
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Im sick of hiding
And crawling in my skin

This is no way to live
I feel it in my chest

downpour

Blah Blah Blah

too deep in the moment or thinking too far to see
that if she’s falling back, falling back on me
or is she crawling back, crawling back to me
i thought you wanted to be like my enemy
and in my life i can’t tell who’s my frenemy
like is he plotting on, plotting the end of me 
is it only cause he’s afraid me?

i didn’t know that thoughts could make my body ache 
a blow like that, i’m not sure how much i can take 
i thought my skin was tough but this here wasn’t fate

i didn’t have the strength to call you back
what is so wrong with me?
maybe i’m the one that’s falling back
what if she’s onto me?
if i could travel time, i’d roll it back and do everything that you pleased
daily i could feel you pulling back
you still left me on my knees

i can’t see the gains throughout everything that i’ve been through
i pray i’m okay with bailing out and finding someone new
nowadays i think i’m missing you longer than how i knew 
nowadays i’m pacing hundreds of miles inside my room

but i don’t wanna fight the truth
it’s everything that i go through
my mistake was only learning something new
but every time i still think what’s the use?

FATE

now, the sky consumes me
it's getting harder to see myself
will my vision ever clear?

water in my lungs
it's getting harder to breathe without you

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets where we used to hang around

whatever you're looking for,
i pray it's what you found


never again will i lose myself
in someone else's bone and flesh

put too much pressure on you
can't count the things that i regret

i held you back
and chained you down
there's just no way around it

you're just too gentle to admit it
but i know it's true

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets we used to hang around

i wrote this song just to let you know

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets where we used to hang around

whatever you're looking for,
i pray it's what you found

the other day
i was driving down
where we used to hang around
wish you could see me now

i want you to see
what's become of me
i want you to see
i'm not who i used to be

swallowed by the sky

So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed
Some days I feel so much disservice I should be disowned
I guess I’ve been taking Too many things in my control
Too much of a load, I just wanna break the mold
It’s an endless cycle It's not something I condone
Sometimes it’s when I make a track I feel like I’m the one
Didn’t like the last song that I made, like what could I have done?
Always chasing greatness but it’s always on the run
I only focus on weakness it’s taking out the fun
This is just an exercise for skills I’m tryna hone
I wasted so much time overthinking, I must atone
I don’t expect to make a hit of everything I wrote
Like how Every plant I try to grow just starts to decompose
Honestly it sounds appealing doing what I’m told
I can’t live that way, I cannot be controlled
I could’ve sold myself for an amount I can’t disclose
Actually it was only like 80 thousand what a joke
Within 2 working years I would end up going broke
I guess I’ll just stay broke, not giving up my hope
I am not a product I swear I won’t break the code
I’m perfectly happy Inside the comfort of my home
I picked up the call the second you had phoned
I promise that I’m sticking To the standards I uphold
I can’t play the victim from the trauma that unfolds
It’s so hard keep my head up I still fold
So many moments have been lost in time cause I was stoned
Ever since that I got sober, feels like I was cloned
A hallow recreation, I can feel it in my bones
Sealed, then lost in transit with my confidence enclosed



control

prod @flesh

most days it's dark, but i want u until we fall apart 
when i wake up, i'm overthinking the beat of my heart 
when i'm alone, i create space that no one else can go
need u to leave but i don't want u to go 

think you can see it, the things about me no one wants to know 
but you don't need it, i do i get attached so pls just go
i know you want it, so won't u come and get it from me
u wanna see everything before you leave 

you wanna see everything before you leave
i know that u can't wait to see what's underneath pls
don't be scared what u see cause u don't know me
i know i've said it before most people scare me

could take a minute or more to know what's on my mind 
i know that you wanna know but trust me when i say it's fine
i'll be okay on my own it's what i learned how to survive 
want to feel safe but i don't cause i just know that most days it's dark

need you to leave but i don't want you to go

that lil hoe a monster
fuck me up fuck me up, watcher
fuck me up, ion need no doctor
ok maybe i do, i wanna look like you
upload hoe, live leak
why this bitch like me
i can't breathe, i bleed
he get shot, get leaked

fuck that lil hoe
i know that lil bih trickin
i walk in that hoe
and unload yeah i'm wicked
i'm fucked up, i fucked up
i fuck with them bitches
that fuck wit them switches
that fuck with them bitches too

lil hoe walk in with that sticky too
i kick his ass like im wendy wu
i kick his ass like i'm lucy liu
i need a hoe i can shoot wit too 

i walk all over the place
i got fye strapped on my waist
i got blood all on my face
think im coming all the way down

i wanna look like u

The first single of off our new upcoming album "Addig Jó!" 2025.

Redrum Sindicate - Addig Jó!

the pit.mp3

prod me and that dude @ilypelican

looking through my head at everything I've ever done or said
I'm so annoying I hate everything I ever did
don't know why I would even tell you you don't give a shit
I finally understand the reason I don't see you
[HOOK]
you don't listen to me 
life feel like a fucking movie
I'm  thinking of ending things
maybe then you'll say you knew me
you just saying anything
don't know what you meant to me
blood all over everything
I don't want your sympathy
drag me through the dirt saying 
what happened to chivalry
I feel like your secretary
all the shit you give to me
I thought when it happened
wonder why you're picking me
I know why this happened
me and all my misery
[VERSE]
fucked up fucked up 
I get so
you're stuck up you're stuck up 
you don't know
I'm trying so hard to do this on my own
lying I said I'm good alone
stuck here and I'm faking I'm okay
I don't wanna wait another day
feels like they're lying to my face
just cant keep up I'm out of place
I know its temporary 
do it again and again
another January
I don't know how I should spend
tonight yeah more than ever
I feel like this is the end
they said it gets better
I don't know why they pretend
[HOOK]

swallowed by the sky

shinigami