glass

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

prod by stezzyxl 
guitar by michael harrison 
enjoy ^\^

lyrics:
she’s like a mystery, a puzzle i can’t solve
i try reach out but she ghostes, and withdraws
she loves to keep it to herself, silent resolve
the more that we don’t talk, the length of it evolves

she invites a side of her, a stranger i don’t know
her words and action are like poison she can’t control 
as her dark side emerges, fear begins to grow
the more I fight, the more she tightens up her hold

maybe someone else needs come and take my place
to whom i once loved to the point i’m losing faith
10 months have passed yet, you remain the same
you turned into the being, that u know i hate

oh
where have u been
no one likes me anymore (x2)

(leave me)

she makes me turn into the person that i don’t wanna be
she ripped my heart out of my chest and layed it so we can feast
her actions says it all she will not change even if she tried
but i’ll still hold on to her even if it makes me die

why would i
go ahead and ruin my life
for someone like yourself
if i didn’t even care for ur health
so tell me 
why would i
try so hard to make this work
if i didn’t even care for ur worth
but u treated me like i’m dirt 
so tell me (x2)

ive done some things that i dont like to say
i’ve been all of the the things that i say that i hate
a cheat, a lie, the smoke in the sky
i don’t want u to see, can u please close ur eyes?
but i have learned from all my mistakes
i will never go back to reside in that place
i have changed for the better and that i can say
i put that on my grave (x2)

back in time ll

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

No way you’ve run
No way you’d harvest 
All of my bones
All of the forest
Grass isn’t green 
I need to plant it
No room for seed 
Nowhere to hold it 

Im not your king 
Don’t let me breathe
Pull down my crown 
Get hold of me 
For all I’ve done 
This can’t be happening 
Reside my throne
A thousand miles away 

I don’t
I don’t really even need much
Just a little conversation and comfort and love 
You 
You don’t even care to explain
Ask for my advice I’ll leave you sitting on the pavement 
You look so basic when you walk around
Why you stringing him to get it you can get it now
Cause I don’t give a fuck if you desert me
But why you in a rush to downgrade, not learning 

Must not know how to treat someone adequate 
I’d love to see your broke self work outta this
There’s no way I’m in a rush to hear you calling
And thank god I won’t see you in the morning 
Yeah
Pissed off I make two fists
Knuckle broke in my hand but you knew this
He’s got one black eye, make it two
I’m not the type of person that you ever knew
It’s far from the end it’s not over yet
I’ve got four more bars written out for you
Little fuck face you’re a parasite 
Get down on your knees, not uncommon for you

Anxiety’s killing me
What’s left of my wrist starts to bleed
I walked through the forest 
and found someone who looks like you
These plants die around me
I’m in this hole deserted
I found myself hiding 
From anyone like you

It’s so late out here
All I can tell
Is that you’re better here 
and happier without me now
I’m such a hypocrite 
In all these songs I give
I keep complaining just to get off
And make myself worse

like you

@decayinganyways
@milli2nd 

tripped into the lobby
and now i look around and hope
that no one saw me
i lost myself inside the club
with ghouls and zombies
and now they wonder where I’m at
but please don’t call me
no, no please don’t call me

tripped into the lobby
i dont know what's inside my cup
but it makes me happy
oh love you act like you're so tough
when you're around me
and you know that ill call your bluff
so please don't call me
no please don't call me

tripped and said i'm sorry
but truth is i might fuck this up
and i cant stop it
i see the angels sniffing dust
with shinigamis
they hand a knife and said to kill the
ghouls and zombies
oh the ghouls and zombies

and when i wake up
it’s all so unknown
i piece it back, found footage on phones

oh, my head is screeching
i feel a knot inside my chest
the drinks are leaving
i hear my phone i get a text
from those ghouls zombies
they wonder where the fuck I’m at
but please don’t call me 
no, no please don’t call me

oh and the lights they fade out 
don’t wanna leave but slow down 
love that sound it cuts loud 
20 more shots too slow down

spotify

ghouls & zombies w/ decayinganyways (nightcore) [milli2nd]

Oh
I can see you when I fall asleep
You live in my head now you're haunting me
Holding my hand and then you cut my veins
Squeeze every ounce of my blood you can take
Oh...

YOU'VE GOT YOUR HANDS AROUND MY NECK 
AND YOU'RE TAKING MY LIFE :( 
TIGHT LIKE A NOOSE 
OH I CAN HEAR YOU SMILE...

OH OH OH OH OH
OH OH OH OH OH 

So shut me up
Go on sever my tongue
And if it's not enough
Then just cut my throat out
Hear me grasp for air
But I'll still stare
At how your eyes captivate
Everyone around you babe...

You said "what are we"
What are we??
I don't know love...
Cause it seems like you're somebody
To someone else now :( 
And don't act like it's funny
Cause I'm throwing up
Wiped the blood up
With money
Cause that's all I'm for

THAT'S ALL I'M FOR 
SIX FEET UNDERNEATH AND IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 
IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld

Cut me up now, burn me in fire
Watch as i drown, love, don't you get tired?
Taking my life again and again
Twist in the knife, it's your only friend

I'm just another body to you
You're undercover, but I'm no fool
Out for blood, I know you are

I see there's murder on your 
MIND
DARLING 
I'M BARELY ALIVE
SO DIG MY GRAVE 
Parasites crawling away
Poltergeists taking my place

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
IN THE UNDERWORLD 
IN THE UNDERWORLD

what you deserve

what you deserve w/ tnvr [tnvr]

@onlyfriendyeah 

// onlyfriend
i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
so hate me
fuck your friends and move on with your life
it's taking everything i've got to even try
now i won't say forever, forever's come and go
cause people change and people leave
it's just the way it goes

i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
i've been dead and gone for six weeks
won't take you back
don't hold me down
please don't tell me how you feel alive
whenever i'm around

// i'm geist
ohh
you have a way with your words
to always get what you want
no
i’d tell you how much hurts
but what’s the point of it now

six weeks dead still in my bed
and the sheets stained red, holes in my head
and after all was said, i watched you burn it down
had me holding on tight, to a love in the ground
promised we’d be alright, so how is it over now?
oh if you just stayed the night, we would have figured it out
now i’m stuck here without you
minds plagued full of doubt
and there’s nothing to amount too
with these stains on my crown

six weeks

six weeks w/ onlyfriend [iof x king theta]

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

i see how you love
and you see i cant trust
and you say "i dont know"
if its you cant fold 


[I'm geist]
i’m just gonna die right here 
oh the paranoia’s rotting all my head i 
fear 
but you ripped apart my trust 
to say that i don’t care?
well i’m gone my dear
so don’t you look my way away again 

so don’t you look my way away again 
and just fuck off of my friends

(its clear)
 you thought i can't help you none
i know what she wants
and i know what she got
take my life, for fun

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

Prod.iissaa

thank you @imgeist

Stand Clear

919 - stand clear w/ iissaa & i’m geist

fuck out the way

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

https://soundcloud.com/prodmichael

Lyrics:

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

Yeah you fucked me up now I've gone bad
Barely finished this song I was too sad
I got cheap drugs in both hands
I got problems don't say that

And I'm attached now she's mad
Pop pills. and I lean back
You come in, paint the scene black
I got bad plugs like where he at?

Please just shut up get out my way
Mud in the cup blunt to my face
It makes me sick so I don’t say her name
She’s fucking him rubbing it in my face

And I’m not okay
Two or three words put me in a disarray
Need a lil somethin to numb out the pain
Gave me your love should've known it was fake

A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

(heylog)
Like pls girl just get out the way
But she tried seeing if he was okay
And his eyes filled with heavy rain
But he lied said hes happy im great

No she has no idea hes in pain
But he smiles faking every day
And he always said "dump me on the blame"
So he vanished and left not one trace

And if u think i love you baby im already passed ya
And hes falling far behind maybe tyo will help u catch up
I got bigger problems than to worry bout the both of ya
So imma go to sleep even though ill probably dream of you

I wanna get rich so i can isolate in montana
Maybe have a cat and a golden retriever
One named max and the other named bella
Maybe have you, cause i really want you

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

inmyway ft. heylog (prod. xmichaelwarren)

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