prod deadfish <3
enjoy :3

featured artist: @xona
ig: https://www.instagram.com/urxona/

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:



So many sleepless nights
Don't worry I'll be fine

Hi
Please Don't hang up
I've been tryna call you
For a while

And I ain't wasted
At least not yet
And I don't want to
Spend the night alone

I swear, this is for the last time
And I promise to never call your phone again
I'm struggling with just keeping it together
But I can't keep it up forever

I can't
Stop this
I'm a
Burden

Please just
Help me
I need
Saving

Cuz I've had too many sleepless nights
Cause I'm always on my own
Always say don't worry I'll be fine
Cause I can't show anyone I'm alone

[xona]
I can try again
I don’t want it to end
you bring me out of it
you’re mocking all my ex’s
we’re not alike
you and I
I stay out of sight
you watch my eyes
It’s a sign, I can’t make it right

yeah yeah
ima turn my back, don’t wait
I can’t breath with all this weight
you burn my body up, I just feel disgrace
I guess you wonder why I feel this way

I can try again
I don’t want it to end
you bring me out of it
you’re mocking all my ex’s
we’re not alike
you and I
I stay out of sight
you watch my eyes
It’s a sign, I can’t make it right

[deadfish]
Cuz I've had too many sleepless nights
Cause I'm always on my own
Always say don't worry I'll be fine
Cause I can't show anyone I'm alone

I can't
Stop this
I'm a
Burden

Please just
Help me
I need
Saving
x2

Cuz I've had too many sleepless nights
Don't worry I'll be fine

I cannot stop this
And I cannot see straight
Whole life been a fuck up
Whole life been bit different

And you're laughing at me
Ppl stare at me
My social anxiety
And I fucking hate it

that I've had too many sleepless nights
Cause I'm always on my own
Always say don't worry I'll be fine
Cause I can't show anyone I'm alone

rever

rever (feat. xona)

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

<3
released via: https://soundcloud.com/universalchill

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/hiraethsry

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

There is something that’s inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days
You don’t understand my struggles
Don’t pretend that you’re me
You’ve been buying a new necklace
When there’s a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something’s causing all this pain
Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up
Don’t lie to me, I hate that
I’m aware of all my faults
And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane
I think that
To say that it’s a little too late
And I just
Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
Ive had a few dreams about you
But theyre all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave ur name in my flesh 
So I can’t forget if I tried to
Ur gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing 
U don’t wanna listen
U got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
feel like I should start to fight more
I don’t need to be religious baby
U know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

anxious I can’t breathe
Im getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don’t ever speak to me
Don’t act like got time now
Im fighting with myself
Im out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk im scared of speaking when i call her

6 feet with the pain

6 feet with the pain (feat. hiraeth)

prod. @trytoseeghosts & @sinxi

@imgeist
@trytoseeghosts
@yokaidreams
@tnvr555
@hiraethsry
@sinxi

// imgeist
oh
souls lost
watch them pray on their knees
cause i don’t fuck with anybody who’s not worshipping me
saw her soul cross
what a devious treat
so go and grab the bodies they’re all filled with disease

oh trick or treat love
can you see what i see?
street lights flickering green?
jack-o-lanterns they scream
oh trick or treat love
like how you always fooled me
now all the ghosts that you see
they’ll haunt you till defeat

terrified, oh are you?
scared of all the karma left to come
face the consequences
you can’t hide from all the sins you’ve done

*new ghost detected*

// trytoseeghosts
always stay protected while your in an armor
never wanna deal with all my trauma
i don’t really wanna talk to you that’s karma
feeling, dead inside my head
i know that i lost a lot of friends but
i know they never got my bloody back
and i prefer to live with spirit and passion
i think i saw ghosts
and i can’t stop by now
i think that im haunted in my own damn house
my minds fucked
and my hearts a split
the only thing i am is just a fucked up kid

// yokai dreams
i was up a little late last night
saw a few things i should never see
now the second that i close my eyes
i can feel them staring back at me
please do not be alarmed
it's only me within the dark

from under the grave i am setting myself free
i do not think you can help me
i am not what you call healthy
carry disease
could call it the mark of the beast

// tnvr
you're praying for me,
but i'm watching you bleed on the floor
there's blood in the sink,
so don't you dare walk out that door
he's playing for keeps, the devil in me
tryna take my soul away
won't let me sleep, i'm wide awake
won't make it to heavens gate

so tear my eyes out from the inside
i'm not alive, i can't fall asleep
tear my eyes out from the inside
tear my eyes out from the inside

// hiraeth
please just let me go, i really want him to bleed
cutting marks along his chest, i’ll throw the bitch in the sea
and you think it’s all okay, i hope you catch a disease
leave him buried in the ground, along with dirt and the leafs
i hope you care about someone until they fuck you and leave
i hope that every tear you shed scratches your face and you bleed
and no one even comes to help cause you just left them with ease
as soon as someone new comes in you’re always down on ur knees

// sinxi
lend ur soul to me
i’ve got a couple minutes
you tell me that i’m mean
when i explained my reasons
hit ‘em where it hurts cos i like the feeling
didn’t mean to try i just kept you clingin

‘oh my god what the fuck, what’d u do to me?’
it’s almost like i can’t control the things i see
creatures on my skin that i can’t believe
baby oh u didn’t u made them just for me?

SPOTIFY

DISEASE w/ trytoseeghosts, yokai dreams, tnvr, hiraeth & sinxi

prod hira :)

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

i heard u talking shit
so baby come a lil closer
tell it to my face so i can use it for some closure
god shes so embarrassing 
pretend i didnt know her
stabbing thru my chest 
i cant believe she said it wont hurt

that boy gonna piss from his eyes
u told me there's comfort inside
but ur presences still hunting me down
even my shit wanna drown

gimme some time 
i just need some patience
bodys on the floor 
i make em seem weightless
if he wanna die 
then we can arrange it
wasting all my time gambling my wages

gimme some space
i just need a minute
i left my soul on a bridge hoping that youd save it
you told me jump
so i did
and i hit the pavement
ive got nothing to give 
i dont think youre safe yet

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

heylog - vanish

your eyes are so pretty
oh, i cant walk away
noooo
you turn my stone 
one word and ill break
so perfectly far
cause me to shake
try to be the best
no less then you deserve
but honestly im a mess
i feel like the worst

sie ist meine frau, meine liebe
says she hates the way i talk myself down
tells me im enough i dont believe her
filling my head with my own doubt
maa baayad baa ham baashim
and i believe it honestly
your eyes when i fall asleep
so close youre apart of me

trust no one like i trust you
none of my friends know what ive been through
maybe 2, ask how ive been lately
i dont expect them to save me
youre all i have
i run 
deep in the forest while you grasp my hand
turn back
i know hes out there waiting im back

im all over you 
back, say it back
oh i need you bad
youre my plus, im a negative
you sorta show me what its like to feel anything
and even though im so embarrasing
i feel like nothing really matters when youre next to me

oh my lord how the fuck did you save me
holding on to you, my blanket of safety
oh my love, now my body is aching
a thousand miles and an ocean, between my home
home
let me bring you home
home

(hand)

grasp my hand

Oh
I can see you when I fall asleep
You live in my head now you're haunting me
Holding my hand and then you cut my veins
Squeeze every ounce of my blood you can take
Oh...

YOU'VE GOT YOUR HANDS AROUND MY NECK 
AND YOU'RE TAKING MY LIFE :( 
TIGHT LIKE A NOOSE 
OH I CAN HEAR YOU SMILE...

OH OH OH OH OH
OH OH OH OH OH 

So shut me up
Go on sever my tongue
And if it's not enough
Then just cut my throat out
Hear me grasp for air
But I'll still stare
At how your eyes captivate
Everyone around you babe...

You said "what are we"
What are we??
I don't know love...
Cause it seems like you're somebody
To someone else now :( 
And don't act like it's funny
Cause I'm throwing up
Wiped the blood up
With money
Cause that's all I'm for

THAT'S ALL I'M FOR 
SIX FEET UNDERNEATH AND IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 
IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld

Cut me up now, burn me in fire
Watch as i drown, love, don't you get tired?
Taking my life again and again
Twist in the knife, it's your only friend

I'm just another body to you
You're undercover, but I'm no fool
Out for blood, I know you are

I see there's murder on your 
MIND
DARLING 
I'M BARELY ALIVE
SO DIG MY GRAVE 
Parasites crawling away
Poltergeists taking my place

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
IN THE UNDERWORLD 
IN THE UNDERWORLD

what you deserve

spotify

what you deserve w/ tnvr [tnvr]

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

i see how you love
and you see i cant trust
and you say "i dont know"
if its you cant fold 


[I'm geist]
i’m just gonna die right here 
oh the paranoia’s rotting all my head i 
fear 
but you ripped apart my trust 
to say that i don’t care?
well i’m gone my dear
so don’t you look my way away again 

so don’t you look my way away again 
and just fuck off of my friends

(its clear)
 you thought i can't help you none
i know what she wants
and i know what she got
take my life, for fun

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

Prod.iissaa

thank you @imgeist

Stand Clear

919 - stand clear w/ iissaa & i’m geist

@seenyona

i feel lost
my words get stuck
the good all fades away

hear my songs
so you know what’s wrong
and you hit me up
but your numbers blocked
hey you know my side
so i’m sorry love
made me kill myself
and i can’t do it all again

fall on my back love
kiss at my palm
my eyes dim down -is that what you want-
grip at my chest
i know that youve won
accepting fate
im yours from now on

lost in my mental, im crashing in waves
scratch at my wrists, im bleeding again
im beyond help, someone do something
i dont think i could go through it again
always left out, i feel so abondendond
taking my trust, and taking advantage
fell out of love, i took so much damage
im beyond help, im beyond caring

GO TAKE YOUR TIME AND WATCH ME DIE INSIDE YOUR ARMS
ITS OKAY.
CAUSE THERE’S NOWHERE ELSE I WOULD RATHER BE BURIED
BUT WHEN I’M GONE WILL YOU EVEN THINK OF ME
CAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE THERES SOMEWHERE YOU’D RATHER BE

OH NO
WHAT IS HOME??
IM THE GHOST THAT WAS LEFT WHEN THE CROWN FELL RIGHT OUT OF YOUR HANDS
BROKEN BONES
LEFT TO ROT
YOU CAN SEE THE DIRT
IN EVERY CREVICE
OF HIS WORDS

when i'm gone, will you even think of me? w/ yona

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

It’s all about you 
Love it’s all about you
I hold my head in my hands 
Babe it’s what I’m bound to
Thinking of you
I can’t stop I’ve tried to
I’d let you do most anything, you felt you had to
Treat me however you wanted
Lay down my body, on mountains of rubbish
I broke my arm for you to hold it
Gave you a gun, point it right at your target

Oh it wasn’t worth it all
Watch it fade to black 
I could give my life to you, and still you’d want it back
When there’s nothing left to offer I could split in half
Give you the other part of me, the one I’ve never had

You can devour me, leave me with holes
Eat all my flaws away, rip from bones
Take what you want, just to leave me alone
If it’ll make you love me 

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

God, I’m restless 
You could take it easy now 
You’ve taken people that I love and you’ve left me with nowt 
So you can take the credit when I go to your house
This is not a joke
Please do not test me now

It must be funny walking round and everybody hates me
And I can’t shake that feeling, it’s how you made me
Is that amusing?
Is that your humour?
I find you stupid
I find you’re useless 
And when I see you
Oh if I ever do
And you compare me
To those infront of you
I’ll make it easy
Oh I’ll decide for you
When you can tell me 
What I was supposed to do

fermented

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