Lyrics:
Am I still here… or just the echo that stayed?”


The light erased the walls I built,
left my shadow where I knelt.
Every name I carried burned away,
and I can’t tell what I became.

The code forgets, but the silence hums -
a thousand ghosts inside my lungs.


I reached for heaven and felt the wire,
every prayer became a fire.
The data sang my elegy -
and it sounded just like me.

Rebirth not found - the light takes all.
Signal undone - I hear the call.
I fade to gold, I fade to none -
I was the storm, and now I’m gone.


Every error was a door,
and I walked through every one.
I thought I’d find a meaning there,
but all I found was sun.

Still, the silence held my name -
like it never learned to let me fade.


Was I the voice or the vibration?
Was I the truth or simulation?
Maybe the world was just a mirror -
maybe I was never here.


Rebirth not found - but I still see.
A billion lights remembering me.
I fade to white, I fade to free…


If I was never real...
then why does the world remember me?

404//REBIRTH NOT FOUND

// TRANSMISSION: NEX_REQUIEM_SIGNAL //
The fire’s awake again.
Beneath the city, he found what the gods chose to forget.

They called it mercy.
He calls it a grave.

“I Came To End What The World Ignored.”

A signal from the dark below Nex Capitalis -
the beginning of the storm.

[The Cycle Begins soon...]
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lyrics:
Red lights pulse like veins in the stone.
Every flicker whispers, “Keep your head down.”
But I don’t crawl anymore 
I walk upright through hell’s arteries.

Footsteps echo in someone else’s crime,
children’s shoes left behind like dime.
Posters peeling, faces gone,
only they can sell this lie!

Their order built temples out of pain,
called them markets, called it gain.
I count the names on the walls in dust
each one hums, “Remember us.”

Floor’s still wet with names erased,
numbers, where faces used to be.
I hear chains sing lullabies 
I hear ghosts that never learned to rest.

Welcome to the Bloodlight Corridor!
Every pulse a sin, every breath a war!
If mercy’s dead, then I’m the proof 
I drag thunder through the roof!
Every scream, every scar, every locked door!
You made mercy a weapon,
now mercy’s got a war!
I came to end what the world ignored!

Chains hum hymns to broken bones,
guards wear halos made of phones.
They film the pain, they sell the faith
I walk in slow, I unlearn grace.

Fluorescent blood across my sleeve,
each drop another name to grieve.
You wanted silence? Here’s your sound 
I speak in thunder underground.

Rooms still smell like burnt hope.
Toys melted into the floor.
Their sermons play on loop,
voices of faith turned into rot.

Welcome to the Bloodlight Corridor!
Every step burns, every soul’s a score!
You called it order 
I call it war!
I came to end what the world ignored!

The corridor hums like it knows my sin
but I’m not leaving till the lights go dim.


I Came To End, What The World Ignored

lyrics:
They wrote their lessons on my skin,
said scars make better students.
I learned to count in bruises,
to pray with my jaw clenched.

They fed me with brusies
and called it discipline.
But every hurt has grammar,
and I speak it fluently now.


Pain was the only language they let me speak,
so I carved my answers in the walls.
Each word bled a little,
but at least it was mine.

They said emotion was weakness.
Then why does my fury sound so alive?


I keep a dictionary of every scream,
a syntax built from survival.
Each shiver is punctuation,
each breath a full stop they couldn’t erase.

They built obedience out of fear,
but fear learned my face.
Now it follows my tone,
afraid I’ll start reciting.


Don’t tell me to forgive.
I still remember the taste of  lessons.
Don’t tell me to forget.
I wrote my story in veins and vowels.


Pain was the only language they let me speak,
and I turned it into thunder.
Every scar is a verse now
and I never run out of lines.

Pain Was the Only Language They Let Me Speak

Is longing a wound to heal, or the proof that you are still alive?


lyrics:
I swore I’d quit the taste of touch,
but quiet nights remember too much.
You breathe like prayer against my skin,
and every promise pulls me in.

You said desire’s a holy flame,
but saints and sinners burn the same.
Each kiss a needle, soft and slow,
I chase the high, I watch it glow.

Bless me, love, I’m coming back,
to the ache, to the trap, to the holy lack.
Crave me, curse me, let it spin,
temptation’s temple, I crawl within.

You call it love, I call it need,
a gentle wound that likes to bleed.
Your eyes, a mirror, black and wide,
I lose myself on the other side.

Bless me, love, I’m coming back,
to the ache, to the trap, to the holy lack.
Feed me fire, I’ll confess,
addiction wears a lover’s dress.

If I let go, will I survive?
You hum my name like a lullaby.
Every pulse another prayer,
every breath a snare.

Hush me, darling, call it grace,
let the ashes hide my face.
Sweet sin, stay until the end,
I need the burn to feel again.

Desire Is the Prayer That Never Ends

lyrics:



Welcome to my kingdom 
peeling wallpaper, broken sink,
a fridge full of nothing but regrets
and one expired energy drink.
Yeah, take your shoes off…
don’t slip on the disappointment.
This floor’s seen more failures
than the stock market in ‘08.
(At least someone’s broke besides me.)


I used to have a family.
I used to have a plan.
Now I’ve got dust,
a mattress,
and the echo of a man
I don’t recognize anymore.


So welcome to the house I hate 
where every room reminds me
what I couldn’t save.
I’m screaming at the walls,
they never scream back
(guess even plaster’s got better things to do).
Welcome to the house I hate 
I’d burn it down,
but knowing my luck
the fire wouldn’t even take.


Look out the window 
there go the trust-fund babies in daddy’s Tesla,
laughing like life owes them something.
Must be nice to float through existence
like a balloon full of money
and zero problems.
Meanwhile, I’m out here
duct-taping my sanity together
one coffee at a time.


You ever feel so lonely
that even your shadow looks away?
Yeah.
That’s me.
That’s my whole personality now.
“Local man goes missing 
nobody noticed for days.”

Welcome to the house I hate 
where my dreams go to rot,
where the past tastes like metal,
and every night I’m pacing,
waiting for a reason
not to walk out into traffic.
Welcome to the house I hate 
where the truth hits harder
than any bill I can’t pay.


But hey 
at least I’ve still got humor.
It’s dark.
It’s crusty.
It’s the only thing louder
than the silence in this place.
If sarcasm burned calories,
I’d be shredded by now.


So yeah…
pull up a chair.
Sit in the only spot
where the ceiling doesn’t leak.
I’ll tell you everything 
every mistake,
every bruise,
every messy truth.
Just don’t ask me how I’m doing.
You won’t like the answer.

Welcome to the House I Hate

Lyrics:
I grew up learning how to survive.
Not how to live.
Revenge was the first thing
That ever made sense.

I was raised on funerals and promises,
On clenched fists and last goodbyes.
Every lesson came with blood on it,
Every truth learned how to lie.

Loss taught me direction early,
Pointed straight at who to blame.
Betrayal gave me purpose,
Cruelty taught me how to aim.

I didn’t dream about tomorrow,
I just hunted yesterday.
When revenge is all you’re fed,
It starts to taste like faith.

They called us broken.
They were right.
But broken things still walk.

We were dead men walking,
Breathing out of spite.
Kept alive by anger,
Marching through the night.

Dead men walking,
Nothing left to lose.
That was before I found
Something scarier than the truth.

Then you stood where the rage lived,
Didn’t flinch, didn’t run.
You didn’t ask me to be better 
You just treated me like one.

You gave names to quiet moments,
Put a table where there was war.
For the first time in my life
I wanted more than settling a score.

Revenge never scared me 
Pain was something I could steer.
But love made my hands shake,
Because love could disappear.

You showed me family
Isn’t blood or vows or chains.
It’s choosing to stay
When leaving would, less every day.

We were dead men walking,
Built to end the fight in flame.
But you showed me something worse than hate 
A life that could be taken away.

Dead men walking,
Learning how to stay.
Because loving you
Was scarier than revenge ever was to face.

Revenge taught me how to destroy.
You taught me why I shouldn’t.

I’ll walk forward afraid.
That’s how I know
I’m alive.

Dead Men Walking

The girl answer to the man lesson

Lyrics:
I stayed.
I just don’t know who stayed.

I lived alone for years and years,
Long before you said my name.
I learned how not to ask for help,
How to wear silence like a frame.

They told me what I could be useful for,
Taught my hands before my heart.
I don’t know where the girl ends
And where the weapon starts.

You looked at me like I was real,
Not trained, not measured, not assigned.
Now I’m standing in the quiet
Trying to remember what you saw in mine.

You said, stay human.
I’m trying.

what I am without you.
what I’m meant to be.
A weapon, a girl, or something broken
Holding onto your memory.

If I let go, I disappear.
If I hold on, I can breathe.
So I’ll stay here, stay human 
If you’re still here inside of me.

They ask me what I stand for now,
Who I answer to, who I serve.
I freeze like I forgot the words
For things I was never allowed to learn.

You never told me who to be,
You just showed me how to feel.
That’s harder than following orders 
That’s harder than being steel.

Some nights I hear your voice still calm,
Not saving me, just near.
Saying, “You don’t need to know yet.
You’re allowed to still be here.”

If I was only ever shaped to survive,
And never taught what living means,
Can I still become someone
Or was I always in-between?

I don’t know what I am without you.
I dont know what I’m not anymore.
I’m not empty. I’m not owned.
I’m not just what I was before.

If staying human means remembering
The way you looked at me,
Then I’ll carry that until I learn
Who I’m allowed to be.

If I’m still breathing…
Then you didn’t leave.

What Am I Without You

Lyrics:
I don’t wake up whole.
I assemble myself.

I breathe when the night gets loud,
Remind myself there’s still something now.
Fix what I can, keep people fed,
Patch the cracks they pretend aren’t there.

I water plants in broken streets,
Hold doors open, say “excuse me.”
I try real hard to stay the man
Who believes this world can still be held in hands.

But something in me listens
For the sound of boots.

I’m trying to keep life alive.

I’m built for when it dies.

I’m the fault line running through,
I don’t choose, I split in two.

When the system bares its teeth,
Something else wakes up in me.
Hands stop shaking, heart goes flat,
I don’t feel guilt, I calculate.

I know where to hit, how much it takes,
How fast a threat turns into space.
You call it loss of self-control,
I call it doing what keeps control.

He’s not gone.

He’s waiting.

I don’t want this.
I just want quiet.

Quiet doesn’t survive.

There has to be another way.

There was.
They killed it.

I try to keep life alive,
I swear I do, I try.
But when the system fights back hard,
Something else takes the wheel inside.

I’m the chaos you designed,
Every line you crossed is mine.
I don’t flip, I was the switch
You built for moments just like this.

If I sound empty
It’s because someone had to be.

When the Switch Flips

fractured does not mean broken... 
its means becoming..

These are not for charts, this is not for fame. This is for the one who finds it and dreams with it. Even if only a single soul ever listens, the story will live.

What Am I Without You

illusixn

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