mixed by @six-days-after-christmas

dreaming of the winter
on a warm sunny day
dreaming of the summer
when its to cold to go out and play 
dont forget her face 
cus she'll go for once and for good 
dont forget her smile 
cus she was just misunderstood 
soo dooont
please dont leave me alone 

dreaming of her touch 
when shes out and away 
when shes here for you brother 
you say you need space

don't forget her

i can see thru ur glass face
the way the sun would glimmer on your eyes
you're the reflection of my skin
and i cant seem to let you go tonight
come on just show me all my flaws 
before i go away
i wont let you get the chance again
bring me down

show me things i havent seen before in life
show me what it means to be alive
i'll show you everything that ive had in mind

i only see myself

produced by crayon
mixed by crayon
mastering by crayon

no fun
no fucks
you did me bad
i dont wanna know why you came back
can we just forget each other
sorry right to my mother 
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other 
sorry right to my mother
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

felt ur love sorround me
thought i couldnt lose
put ur arms around me 
it left me confused
took too long for me to understand
i'll always fall for you until i cant
put ur arms around me
dancing in my room

i met you around this time of year
i dont want u in my head i want u with me here
we fell in love that summer
fell out at the same time
i dont wanna trust her
im way too dependent i'll leave it to you
the knife's in my chest but i'll leave it through
i spent all my sunny days believing u

arms around me

you're such a bore and i'm not patient anymore
and i'd adore my fucking body as a corpse
i don't care anymore and now my pride is on the floor
can't go back to before sit in silence and ignore

waste

If I could take my time I'd make it right with you
And all the lovey-dovey letters that I type are true
Tell me why I'd wanna move on to something new
I tried to talk to other girls and they're just not like you

I don't like it when you hang out with your trashy friends
They try and tell you that I'm crazy and you don't need men
Paranoid, these visions always running through my head
Something tells me I'll end up in either jail or dead

I didn't ask to be this way
If you knew my troubles would you love me the same
I hate that it has to be this way
Every night go to sleep thinking damn what a shame

I don't wanna make you feel this pain
But I'm scared cause I know you'll find out one day
But they won't find where I buried you
They won't find where I buried you

be this way

#1 - hey i'm still thinking about it

i say what's up you laugh and run, when you're the joke it's not that fun
i've had enough, i grab my gun
i'm on the run, i'm on the run
the loneliness keeps adding up and adding up and adding up, and you don't love me bad enough
my life is tough, you called my bluff

damn you got me lol

Getting better, I'm not getting better at this

It's now or never, I should say whatever to this

My favorite sweater, write the perfect letter in it

Cause I killed Heather and he doesn't know I did it


Crawl in your body, I can feel you, feel you

Thank God you're mine, won't let him steal you, steal you

I hate myself because I'm not you, not you

You can see that in me so I almost lost you


No one asked me how I'm feeling today

They only ask me if I'm free, don't care what I gotta say

I spent all of last night throwing up cause I feel so ashamed

It's not a really good feeling when you throw your life away


I'll live the rest of my damned life wearing this mask on my face

Cause they won't know who killed that girl, it's one complicated case

I wanna kill myself so I can make it all go away

I'll take the pill myself, I promise that you don't gotta lace me


Peel off your skin and I won't use a blade

rather use my nails the scratch is satisfying

Oh it just takes it all away, takes it all away

loser aka incel aka disgusting freak aka murderer aka suicide is the only cure

Gotta change my ways or I'ma end up in a ditch
I know when I fuckin' die, they won't really give a shit
If you wanna kill me, it'll be like I never exist
Make my dreams come true, that's my only fuckin' wish
I know that you're disappointed, I was hopin' you'd forgive
Why are you acting so shocked? You knew I'd end up on the list
I got something up my sleeve, it's my one last trick
Really hate my life, but I'm too scared to commit
I don't have any friends, cause I push them all away
You just wanna keep me around when you're tryna save face
I just look into the mirror and I hate my face
Layin' dead on the floor with a fuckin' blue face
I'm really psychotic, suspect of a cold case
Didn't wanna kill that girl, but she wanted me to stay
I'm a gross fuckin' creep, I wish I could be erased
But my time's comin' someday, it'll be okay

interlude 2 - i’ll end up just like him

#2 - what a pathetic story

I bet you want my drugs, my teeth, my lips buried in your skin
You look like someone I met from my past but I just can't put my tongue on it
Our friends don't know we're sick in the head
So much shit I've done that I regret
If I could I would change it all but I digress
Cause right now we're off the shrooms
And that be feeling the best

I'm going back to L.A. this summer
I'm stuck chasing a feeling that makes me feel younger
As I grow older I get a little dumber
My heart can't love right, it gets a little numb-er
Can I see you in L.A. this summer?
It sounds like a good plan, I'll regret it after
I wanted a good time, we got a disaster
The joke is on me, I'll be the stock for your laughter

Am I just an option? I learned my lesson long ago
I'm just being cautious, I've lost so much love to these hoes
I start feeling better till she starts ringing on my phone
I can't help but answer cause I hate living so alone

should've bit my tongue w/ overtonight

prod. paloma

lyrics:
twenty twenty five
how am i alive
i aint got twenty five reasons
i just wanna know
where the time go
cuz its been going so fast
why did you steal my past
i cant think of anything without you
please dont forget what we been through

member when we were at that table for two
i looked at you
beautiful view.

twenty twenty five
how am i alive
i aint got twenty five reasons
i just wanna know
where the time go
cuz its been going so fast
why did you steal my past
i cant think of anything without you
please dont forget what we been through

should've bit my tongue w/ overtonight

imar