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mixed by crayon
mastering by crayon

no fun
no fucks
you did me bad
i dont wanna know why you came back
can we just forget each other
sorry right to my mother 
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other 
sorry right to my mother
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

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prod me

i'll turn into a ghost
and i'll sacrifice ur kids
it seems such a shame
but u know thats just how it is
writing poem after poem
about how im so helpless
i rlly wasnt lying u can see it on my wrists

i know nobody can help me
kick me when im down
and im so unhealthy
cut away a frown on my face
and lets see
u run away from town
without me

im a clown
im a sucker for u
like wow
who else would suffer for u
like i do

i know nobody can help me
kick me when im down
and im so unhealthy
cut away a frown on my face
and lets see
u run away from town
without me

writing poems

it's 12 am, i'm still asleep
i'm zoning when i'm off the tree
i'm stupid and i don't know how i live like this

i'm real off of the lsd
i'm fighting just to keep the peace
i'm stupid and i don't know how i live like this

i try my best for you and you dont even bat an eye
i've done too much and now i'm stupid and my brains fried
you call me weird when i cry but you're the reason why
it's a full moon girl, you're my zombie bride

seriously HOW did I sleep in til 12

know you're looking at me, wishing I was a different guy
i see you on my feed, it makes me wanna fucken die
think it's what I deserve, cause I'm a pretty sleazy guy
only sins no good deeds, and they'll be haunting me for life

estella:
you say that you love me, realize my love is do or die
the way that you look at me, i swear that you just wanna cry
is something wrong with my face, your glare just punched me in my eye
did i just make it up, is all that you said just a lie?

wont you die already? w/ estella

lyrics:Tell me why I got these cuts on my palms, on my palms Tell me why you like to turn me on, turn me on Why do you always want to be right when you're wrong? I'm such a loser, can't we just get along? You say I'm rude, but I did not mean to hurt you your so fake u act brand new now I know ur so see through You said you hate me, but you wanted to date me But you were kinda crazy, you were not my lady

your wrong in literally every situation

#1 - what a pathetic story

Why, you're wasting my time
Tell me how it felt to commit your crime
In my head I only hear your cries
And you're dead with the pills unadvised
I'm living a lie, I feel so livid all the time
Abandon me, you left for one night
Like a sick dog maybe I should just die
And I'm
Stuck inside a life, that I know isn't mine
Spit in my grave when I'm villainized
Shit never changed, guess I'll be this way until I die

I cannot just leave my past behind
It'll always come back to me, a remind
I can't take back your innocence, already intertwined
Carrying this weight on my shoulders, I've been so blind

Why, my dirty little mind
Plays tricks on me all the time
I need this I need that, no I fucking don't
I just need to take a break and regain all my self-control

My heart's pounding inside, I pray to God I don't die
What comes next for me will be fire
Cause I couldn't get over my desire

I'm living a lie, I feel so livid all the time
Abandon me, you left for one night
Like a sick dog maybe I should just die
And I'm
Stuck inside a life
That I know isn't mine

Prod xy1va

abandon

#3 - what a pathetic story

I think you're my new obsession Take me out from my depression
I know love is all about progression I'll spill your guts and teach you a lesson
Sick inside the head, but I can't control you
I can't control my hands, I can't help but hold you
I'll make you remember every fucking word I told you
Then I'll dismember your whole body after I scold you

I want to control you I'll lock you in my basement where no one can hear you
The shock is in your face, I'm loving the fear too
I'll make you feel safe, but I still wanna hurt you
You're a bitch, you're a slut, but you're everything I want
Spent my last dollar on you
I'm a fucking cuck, but I'll get my revenge on you
I'm so sick and you're so cute

I'll harass you and beat you
Why would I treat you like anything more than a toy?
I'm so fucking see-through, all I do is feed you lies
And take away your joy

sorry mom im sick and perverted

#2 - what a pathetic story

I bet you want my drugs, my teeth, my lips buried in your skin
You look like someone I met from my past but I just can't put my tongue on it
Our friends don't know we're sick in the head
So much shit I've done that I regret
If I could I would change it all but I digress
Cause right now we're off the shrooms
And that be feeling the best

I'm going back to L.A. this summer
I'm stuck chasing a feeling that makes me feel younger
As I grow older I get a little dumber
My heart can't love right, it gets a little numb-er
Can I see you in L.A. this summer?
It sounds like a good plan, I'll regret it after
I wanted a good time, we got a disaster
The joke is on me, I'll be the stock for your laughter

Am I just an option? I learned my lesson long ago
I'm just being cautious, I've lost so much love to these hoes
I start feeling better till she starts ringing on my phone
I can't help but answer cause I hate living so alone

should've bit my tongue w/ overtonight

prod. paloma

lyrics:
twenty twenty five
how am i alive
i aint got twenty five reasons
i just wanna know
where the time go
cuz its been going so fast
why did you steal my past
i cant think of anything without you
please dont forget what we been through

member when we were at that table for two
i looked at you
beautiful view.

twenty twenty five
how am i alive
i aint got twenty five reasons
i just wanna know
where the time go
cuz its been going so fast
why did you steal my past
i cant think of anything without you
please dont forget what we been through

twenty five reasons (prod. Paloma)

Your life is ruined, ruined
Why did I do this, do this?
Feel so stupid, stupid
I'm not a human, human
I shouldn't've met Cupid, Cupid
Cause I'm so clueless, clueless
I'm a user, abuser, sweet naive girl, I choose her
I just threw my life away
I don't know how many more days
Until they find her, find her
'Til they find her, find her

Never told you how fucked up I was, I guess that's why you don't really care
I know why I'm losing all your trust
Something tells you I'm not fully there

should've bit my tongue w/ overtonight

imar