@prodjpjp @prod-oc <3


its like you never even cared
 stripping me bare
 now i got holes in what i wear 
getting prepared
 so u can throw me down the stairs 
how is it my fault i was never even there 
blame it on me so u can sleep in someones bed
how is it my fault i was never even there
 pull me away i get so awkward and i stare 
stop waiting for me im busy pulling out my hair 
how does it feel ? 
im sick of hearing that u care :p

throw me in the sea and let me drown in the ocean 
body going numb and my heart got frozen 
i dont wanna die but my lungs cut open 
pressure in my eyes built up both swollen

crawling to demise my time im chosen
 tell another lie, ill cry, wont show it
 bleeding thru the cracks in my hands cant close them 
wish u never hit me got ur wrists both broken

did i let you down
 dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

did i let you down 
dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

Tear me up and peel the flesh off my body
“It wasnt like that” you know I wasn’t ready
And I know that, there’s nothing you could tell me
I wanted love back, the feelings getting blurry

Spending too much time on my own
Rejecting everybody that I know
 hiding every message on your phone
Start to realise that I got nothing to show

spotify!

care [JPJP x OC]

thank you for listening <3
@yokaidreams
@livingpuffy

// lyrics 
// geist
up all night till i blackout, yeah
lights off at your place now, yeah???
eyes glued to your waist down :)  
getting so sick of this ghost town 
 
tell me whats been on your mind 
you seem so out of it 
truth is I’ve been killing myself 
to stay relevant 
i don’t want to talk about it
just take me to bed again 
cause everyone’s a friend 
just to reap to the benefits  
 
won’t tell you how i feel cause i might regret it
i don’t want to be the one who’s losing now  
steady building skeletons in my closet 
everybody smiles but i’m still breaking down :(
in the middle of the night 
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 
fake another smile, tell another lie
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 

// yokai 
hands around my neck I'm choking out
hard to be me when they say that
i’m too laid back
never gonna make it
grow up, face facts
gotta make the payments

and she tells me that we'll be alright but i doubt that
i gotta find a way to get out but i’m trapped
i thought that i could finally find a way to bounce back
forget it tho

spotify

be alright w/ yokai dreams [living puff]

people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

I Miss You :(

【﻿ｂｒｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ｃｌｏｓｅ，　ｋｅｅｐ　ｍｅ　ｃｌｏｓｅｒ．】

thought i'd release something for new year's eve :')
prod @1michaelharrison
[soundcloud exclusive for the time-being]
i can't begin to thank you all for the support this past year.
i have so much i've been working on that i've been planning out for the near future.
for now, just,  thank you so much for being here & listening.
hope you enjoy. 🖤

at some point something's gotta work
when i reflect upon my actions
i always go unheard, it's like:
year's passed, it still hurts
different me, same curse
why am i inclined to feel at all anyways
'cause i hate this song, and the way that it's sang
but i'll repeat my fate
a new day's another phase
it's obvious you don't care what i say

i crave your touch but you won't ever find me
i'm sat in plain sight, with my hands on my eyes
'cause if i cover them up i have infinite vision
so why
do i keep reminiscing?

about the moves that i make
about the words that i say
about the thoughts that i think
about the time of the day

i'll take my time to heal, but it's never enough
if you got room to judge
then you got room to care
i feel so impaired
i need you right now
and i hope it works out
i hope you play fair
'cause i'm trying my best
but you're never there
every moment blends together too fast
and i hate myself for the way that i feel
liquid spills over downing some pills

what's real? (4x)

tdi on the tv
hoping i don't grow up
miss being a preteen
and not seeking closure
bring me close
keep me closer
bring me close
keep me..

different me, same curse [prod. michael harrison]

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

anima

@prod-oc 
@iamvagrxnt

a little numb, little sore
just kidding, i’m fucking torn
tell the lies, you adore my eyes that will never glisten again
i’ll bury you with all my friends

so
take it all
i really wanted to stay
but now I’m covered in blood, I took a punch to the face
so I’ll
take the fall
i don’t know what to say cause I x2

guess i might have caught you in a bad mood
hands deep in my chest now I’m screwed
holding on your waist, what I’d do
you can take control cause I’m through

with your lying eyes
you could have taken away
every part of me
that thinks its all in my head
dont wanna thank you
i just wanna tell you
that you are something of toxic remains

but your dark oak eyes
are always my demise
i wish to take it away
before i can realize
that you are leeching
bleeding at the sore seems
wishing to be fix something worse than you are

so
take it all
i really wanted to stay
but now I’m covered in blood, I took a punch to the face
so I’ll
take the fall
i don’t know what to say cause I x2

guess i might have caught you in a bad mood
hands deep in my chest now I’m screwed
holding on your waist, what I’d do
you can take control cause I’m through

cause im through
and you tore me
blood can drift from my wrists
just like the stories
you cant save me
theres no trying
i'd rather die here tonight than have you call me

TORN [oc]

id wait a thousand years, for you to be here
how many times in my life did i disappear?
my parents told me we should stay friends
but i cant handle being short of anything that we had

id lose everything
just to feel anything
if i turned to religion, id make sense of it
but its not sensible, im not very valuable
even to myself, no god would raise me as his own

just a little curious, ive got some questions
why does no one treat me like im not a weapon
when all my life ive been getting attacked
id never do that

cause its not that fun
and its certainly not pretty
i dont mind, aslong as youre the one with me
please dont do that to somebody else
i want no other guy to get used to your smell

you know hes not as good so why replace me
he couldnt give a fuck about your safety
while youre out at work, hes sat waiting
entertaining other women

you can go and ask
every message been deleted
fucking psychopath
lie to you til you believe it
hell never post about you anymore
hide you away from several different whores

i wont back down from my word
his face is clung to the curb
let him up for just a minute, cause whats next is worse
let him breathe for the last time
ill let him see all of his bloodline
but who is next, who is next in kin
to try condone anyone like him

Safety

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be alright w/ yokai dreams [living puff]

I'm Geist