guitar by @hiraethsry

// chorus (geist)
what a bad day,
constant overthinking i’m not okay
don’t know what you want love is it headspace
cause lately I’ve been feeling like a mistake

// verse (geist)
and it’s cold tonight
won’t you hold me underneath
and stare with your golden eyes
tell me what you see
cause i’ve, lost my light
somewhere in the seams
oh is it over i,
cant seem to believe

// chorus (geist & envy)
what a bad day,
constant overthinking i’m not okay
don’t know what you want love is it headspace
cause lately I’ve been feeling like a mistake
now the skies gray
rainclouds follow me right off the highway
you said that we're fine well why the sad face
oh love just spare a smile can’t take the heartbreak
the heartbreak

// verse (envy)
you promised me that you would fucking call again
it's always something i never did or said
my breath is finally leaving this is how it ends
cause i just keep competing with myself
my mind is empty and i'm losing control
the thoughts they come and they go
i'm fighting ghosts yeah i know
i'm fucking comatose
oh you said it yourself
i'm always somebody else
i'm only poor mental health
let's fucking call this hell

and i can't even change myself the more that i get used too
the thought of you not being here i question do i miss you
and all this fucking time i wasted, oh i wish that i knew
everything single day i'm holding on, oh what did i do

// chorus (geist & envy)
what a bad day,
constant overthinking i’m not okay
don’t know what you want love is it headspace
cause lately I’ve been feeling like a mistake
now the skies gray
rainclouds follow me right off the highway
you said that we're fine well why the sad face
oh love just spare a smile can’t take the heartbreak
the heartbreak

Spotify

rainclouds w/ notenvy

3/4
@heylog
produced by me and @creativeravine

(vil)
you got me staring at the wall now
put a gun up to my head, that's all you got now?
i don't want to be the reason to set you free (i can't be who you want me to be)
you see me lying on the surface
its hard to tell who there is hurting
i know you're late and you want me to stop...
you gotta think on your own now

[chorus]
in a silo, fiending when i walk out
they go around me they don't know the shit we on about
corner breaching and i'm bringing all my dogs out
never fallout, waiting for a callout
callout, callout, callout, oh (x4)

(heylog)
you fooled a lot when you speak
it's a part of you
i know everytime you talk
it's never the truth
always stuck inside ur gut just to consume
took me years and i still barely know you
so 
how do you feel
living life faker than real
its a lot to spill
you'd do anything for will
if i could call you out
id do it by now
if i could watch you cry
i'd sip my tea and smile
please dont go
life sucks
i know

[chorus]
in a silo, fiending when i walk out
they go around me they don't know the shit we on about
corner breaching and i'm bringing all my dogs out
never fallout, waiting for a callout
callout, callout, callout, oh (x4)

spotify

callout ft. heylog [vil synth + ravine]

thank you for listening <3
@yokaidreams
@livingpuffy

// lyrics 
// geist
up all night till i blackout, yeah
lights off at your place now, yeah???
eyes glued to your waist down :)  
getting so sick of this ghost town 
 
tell me whats been on your mind 
you seem so out of it 
truth is I’ve been killing myself 
to stay relevant 
i don’t want to talk about it
just take me to bed again 
cause everyone’s a friend 
just to reap to the benefits  
 
won’t tell you how i feel cause i might regret it
i don’t want to be the one who’s losing now  
steady building skeletons in my closet 
everybody smiles but i’m still breaking down :(
in the middle of the night 
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 
fake another smile, tell another lie
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 

// yokai 
hands around my neck I'm choking out
hard to be me when they say that
i’m too laid back
never gonna make it
grow up, face facts
gotta make the payments

and she tells me that we'll be alright but i doubt that
i gotta find a way to get out but i’m trapped
i thought that i could finally find a way to bounce back
forget it tho

be alright w/ yokai dreams [living puff]

prod me

our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you don't think twice when i tell you i've grown all alone
was i the one that you wanted before it begun

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
destroy me leave me out, you annoy me your a cow
got some grass to feed, hear me out
you on the fully feed, on the ground?

our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you hide everything you do i'm inside of everything i knew
wipe tears behind pine, get back beside my life
i love you how fuck me then tell me to be fine

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted

@prodjpjp
@imgeist

use me for my skin, you can have it
stressed out, cant stop it's a habit
fucked up she wont talk when i'm like this
no thoughts, bringing shame i cant manage
no feelings, i feel like i might have lost it
hate my own skin get me out its getting toxic
fucked up i kinda feel like i dont want it
no feelings i feel like i'm out of options

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

i’ll leave you in the sea
i know what’s best for me
and i, held on tight when it was hard to breathe
and i,
fell apart when you crossed my name in red
and u saw how much i bled

fucked up
how she’s wanting me now
wait till i cut off all my hair and throw a fit in this town
cause i’m
stuck up
feel my ego rebound
at the end of the day
i’m a nobody with a crown

don’t waste my time
i’m wanting out
so say goodbye
leave with the crowd
every part of us is gone

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

anxious w/ i'm geist [prod. jpjp]

lina - heylog (transparent)

@heylog @prod-oc 

they crowd around like sheep
i count them i can't sleep
and who can i believe
when they all watch me bleed

u used to be home but
now i don't know u no more
say you're gonna change
but now you're acting like a whore

how could you hurt someone
that u swear to still adore?
don't you call this love
when it's rotten to the core

they crowd around like sheep
what watches over me
and we've all been warned
what lurks within our core
now that we fell off i'll soon be away
hate how i walked cus my arms barely swayed
now that i'm gone i think you'll be okay
ur not who i wanna be with anyway
if anythings wrong the tone raised too quick
who do u think u are giving me lip
glad that i left while i could i'll say this
i'll feel bad for any guy u end up with
enable the moon picture on my phone
i wanna ignore, wanna be alone
i'm not sorry at all for leaving you
by far the best decision i could do

sheep w/ heylog [oc]

@prod-oc

i can’t fall asleep
when you’re not here with me
so promise that you’ll pay a visit in my dreams
my eyes they start to bleed
but please do not worry
i rather wipe the blood than what’s left of my tears

oh oh oh

saw my angel’s wings tore apart again
now i’m gone adrift no guardian
so ive lost some friends
it’s all part of it
but when i’m on top
don’t say my name

there’s that girl in red…
everybody seems to adore
got blood on my fit
now im starting to get real annoyed
and when winter’s gone
you’ll wonder why it’s still getting cold
with severed wings
you’re all sanctioned here
left to be doomed

doomed

doomed [oc]

DARK LIFE (Punk Remix)

Back Then

stream anywhere :) https://fanlink.to/read-receipts-ft-heylog

written & performed by: @lonesity & @heylog
produced by: @lonesity
engineered by: @camjmusic & @lonesity

lyrics:

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin' for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 1:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
that i'm not perfect
but random people love me
i don't get it
don't know what they see in me
i'm just curious
i'm thinking back on what you said to me
i don't know what i am or what i'm supposed to be
in the end i'll be there when you're close to me
i doubt you'll ever get there, but we'll just wait 'n' see

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 2:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
i'm a lost person
i smile finally
but it don't last for long
99 percent of the day
i wear a frown
i swear to god i don't belong with anyone
'cause they tend to fall out of love
keep that in touch
i swear to god no one
understands me
and i end up pissing me off
it's not healthy

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

be alright w/ yokai dreams [living puff]

I'm Geist