thank you for listening <3
@yokaidreams
@livingpuffy

// lyrics 
// geist
up all night till i blackout, yeah
lights off at your place now, yeah???
eyes glued to your waist down :)  
getting so sick of this ghost town 
 
tell me whats been on your mind 
you seem so out of it 
truth is I’ve been killing myself 
to stay relevant 
i don’t want to talk about it
just take me to bed again 
cause everyone’s a friend 
just to reap to the benefits  
 
won’t tell you how i feel cause i might regret it
i don’t want to be the one who’s losing now  
steady building skeletons in my closet 
everybody smiles but i’m still breaking down :(
in the middle of the night 
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 
fake another smile, tell another lie
tell me it’ll be alright, be alright 

// yokai 
hands around my neck I'm choking out
hard to be me when they say that
i’m too laid back
never gonna make it
grow up, face facts
gotta make the payments

and she tells me that we'll be alright but i doubt that
i gotta find a way to get out but i’m trapped
i thought that i could finally find a way to bounce back
forget it tho

spotify

be alright w/ yokai dreams [living puff]

@prodjpjp
@imgeist

use me for my skin, you can have it
stressed out, cant stop it's a habit
fucked up she wont talk when i'm like this
no thoughts, bringing shame i cant manage
no feelings, i feel like i might have lost it
hate my own skin get me out its getting toxic
fucked up i kinda feel like i dont want it
no feelings i feel like i'm out of options

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

i’ll leave you in the sea
i know what’s best for me
and i, held on tight when it was hard to breathe
and i,
fell apart when you crossed my name in red
and u saw how much i bled

fucked up
how she’s wanting me now
wait till i cut off all my hair and throw a fit in this town
cause i’m
stuck up
feel my ego rebound
at the end of the day
i’m a nobody with a crown

don’t waste my time
i’m wanting out
so say goodbye
leave with the crowd
every part of us is gone

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

anxious w/ i'm geist [prod. jpjp]

love u 
@prodjpjp @pichu500

// lyrics 
i pray they don’t feel like me
don’t feel like me 
it’s awful 
i overthink and criticize myself till 
i’m full of hate can’t recognize 
my own face 
get me out of this place

baby, dont look at me 
i look at you so often 
pretty as the stars that fall when i’m sad 
i make a wish that we could save what we have
make a wish that we’d be saved

said that i’d be better off as bones 
i knew it 
as i laid there in my blood 
hope you’re not the one to find me in my room 
as blue as the sky you love 
and i got sick of picking up the pieces seemed like i’d never be enough 
i’m so sorry to the ones i disappointed but i’m done, i’m giving up 

oh 
i’m not okay 
i need a break, woah 
saving face 
i’m a disgrace, oh 
fighting for my life but now i’m home
knowing i'd be better off alone 
i’m not okay 
i’ll leave this place, woah 
waking up 
just to decay, no 
paper bag over my face, oh
don’t look at me i’m such a waste

i pray they don’t feel like me
don’t feel like me 
it’s awful 
i overthink and criticize myself till 
i’m full of hate can’t recognize 
my own face 
get me out of this place

baby, dont look at me 
i look at you so often 
pretty as the stars that fall when i’m sad 
i make a wish that we could save what we have
make a wish that we’d be saved

make a wish that we'll be saved 
i'll make a wish that we'll be saved

paper bag [pichu500 x jpjp]

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

single off of my debut album "home away from home" (track 5)
shoutout to @xona for featuring on the track :)
produced by: azure & aidanhan
special shoutouts to @bitekivibes for being the goat too

LYRICS:
murph:

i walk out in the forest
but quickly i lose the light 
and my skin turns to mould
and the birds start to fly
i thought that i was safe, in my home away from home
but as i saw the creatures running i simply do not know

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

and now you're looking at me must've came back as a ghost
i love the way there's blood splattered all over the walls
can we find a way to give me pain, 'cause i need me some more
she put diamonds on her pinky ring, i love it when she flaunts

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

xona:

i'll decide what i do now - i'm reeling in "ours"
uh, leaving the pits that i found myself
(myself)
you desired my help
but i'm sick of words when its just pure guilt
so it's on me, awfully killing my health
i'm sorry i reached this point myself
the story goes on, to build a home
where we stay safe from the cold

murph:

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold
(s.o.s)
s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

- if u reached the bottom have a good day/night 333+ -

s.o.s w/ xona

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

anima

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

Produced by @hiraethsry 
Check out @hiraethsry and @sinxi
Lyrics

You don't need a lot to get me fucked up in my head 
I barely keep a lock on anything I hold 
You wont know the things I really feel 
When I been up inside my bed 
I swear theres shadows in my room they keep me warm 

So I fuck up my room 
Throw your clothes all away 
I'm as toxic as the day 
you were cheating on me 
Put a ladder to your problems 
Cuz your tryna relate 
Kick the ladder while your climbing 
Falling down to your fate 

Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
              (stop,ok)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk 
Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
           (throwing fire)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk

I can’t relate 
To mistakes you seemed to make 
My hands are tied
My heart unwinds 
               
Sorry i’m late but these days 
I find it hard to make up for mental stains 
It ain’t you oh i promise love 
It’s just life drive for pinnacles
               (run)
Run I needed more I needed more I needed more time 
I know my patience is running on a thin line 
Leave I gotta leave I gotta leave I Gotta decline 
My body’s aching 
You can bring yours closer to mine 
Oh I 
Wont lie 
I’m getting sick of being just another guy 
Oh I
Wont lie

Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
              (stop,ok)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk 
Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
           (throwing fire)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk

RUN w/ sinxi & hiraeth

CALL MY NAME

Getting tired of the government and all their crap, this song is for you.

be alright w/ yokai dreams [living puff]

I'm Geist