my first album "pity" out now! thank you so much for listening <3 
produced by i'm geist
hosted with @bitekivibes and @ytstatic
engineered and coproduced @tnvr555

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pity

Can you just stop for the weekend
can you just stop with the tweakin
can you not feel how im feelin
can you not get what im feelin

wakin up late every mornin again
stoppin the drugs cause u loosin again
fallin asleep without you in my bed
fallin asleep and u not in my head

breakin apart and im lonely again
wishin that i could just touch you again
its 3 in the 6 and im loosin my head
takin a walk, dont get shot in the head

distance in earth is just too much to take
makin a livin off beatin me dead
i wanna move out so i can get the bread
but im stuck alone, and im loosin again

Can you just stop for the weekend
can you just stop with the tweakin
can you not feel how im feelin
can you not get what im feelin

can you just give me a reason
can you just fall with the treasen
would you just leave me in feelins
couldnt just stop how im feelin

-not home.-

felt like cutting up my eyelids
i been working hard inside the silence
running circles on the island
like why the fuck i even trying?

codeine bright violet
ive been smoking on the hybrid
thoughts inside me turn to violence
emotion seeping through the highlands

welcome to my fucking head
i take the words and i put it to rest 
garbage to still floating and filling my chest
i cant pretend like im feeling the best

i guess im next
they want me dead
pump up my head and my legs with the lead
she second guessing im fucking her friend, yeah

Give Me A Reason w/ not home. (prod. nvki)

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

je te tieandrai dans mon coeur jusqu'à ce que je puisse te tenir dans mes bras.

lyrics:

shiki
I see why you left, this is awful
I don't wanna die anymore, I just want you
Kiss me while I'm dying inside of this bottle
Fall in love with strangers, now my heart is a hostel

Left my love on the east coast
But I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone, no
And you can text me good morning, but we're in different time zones
And I know that you don't care like I do
I'll find another one just like you
I'll find a new one, call her your name
Black my eyes and paint my face a new shade of grey
I ran away, in East LA where none of my love can get in the way
And baby, I don't think that you could save me
But thank you for trying

I hope you don't know it's about you when you hear this
But I knew you'd listen, only reason I wrote this
And I would bleed for you if I thought you would notice

I'm too scared to dream since I saw you
I told you I would move to New York and write a novel
But I'm still in my mom's house
The one that you warned me about
The one you said was haunted
I'm nauseous, I can't stop heaving
Who would want this? I'm still bleeding
Hide my ribs like, yeah I'm eating
Come save me, this room is freezing

skele:
I know why you left, this is terrible
As I was writing this, I wanted to let you know
It's getting really hard to let you go
I wanted five more minutes baby, just so I could hear you talk
Cuz everything I knew just fucking fell apart
You never really cared, you just played the part
And now you're gone, it's all my fault

hostel w/ skele (love,matt x chris marek)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

ty for listening 
@imnotenvy
@prodjpjp

// envy
i’m feeling distant again
i silence on the outside
i know it hurts
leave me hanging
tell me you’re fine
and no one ever said
this had to be the last time
yeah, no one ever said
this had to be the last time

// geist
oh
i hear the sirens in the night
singing songs to my demise
getting lost inside your eyes
holding onto love that died…

i said that i’m fine
but i’ve been here losing my mind
and i don’t know what’s left to say
i swear that i wanted to try but i drowned in the tides and i stared as the nights turn to day

leave me alone
i’ll rot and decay
i had a good time but i’m running away
you couldn’t save geist
we’re one and the same
but no one loves me
it’s always his name

// geist & envy
i’m feeling distant again
i silence on the outside
i know it hurts
leave me hanging
tell me you’re fine
and no one ever said
this had to be the last time
yeah, no one ever said
this had to be the last time

i’m feeling distant again
what’s to say?
no better feeling okay
oh tell me this is the end
spare my heart
don’t wait it’s too late

distant w/ notenvy [jpjp]

1st song off my album "pity", out september 25th 

@lilskeleskrrt @bitekivibes @ytstatic
produced by me, guitar @ikarinan @tnvr555

lyrics:
i started running from you
too fast
n i fell to the ground
spilled out blood on the grass
you said you needed me
like you could never leave
and i fell for it dreaming
made it easy to breathe

but you broke it all
paper walls
you were supposed to be here
but you’re so good being gone
and i felt it all
8 missed calls
hit me up when u need me
and leave me hurt when you don’t

don’t act like you’re so innocent
like it’s not what you want
i gave u all that i had
while u were holding the gun
oh god
it was everything you said from the start
i was waiting on it falling apart

oh oh
what a waste of my time
but if it’s all with you
i’d gladly waste my whole life
oh no
i wish i didn’t say goodbye
the paper walls are burning down
our home is gone..

god damn
i feel my heart tear on every beat
the silence is deafening
truly it’s killing me
u try to forget who i am
i try to forget how your eyes were like thousands of galaxies..
oh, consumed i’m so lost in your stare
comfort i felt like i wouldn’t have fears
writing you poetry wishing you were here
if i held on longer would i still be scared

paper walls w/ skele

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

i suppose time will wear away the pain of not seeing you again
the memory of you
the loving of you
time won't take that away

it would be easier to die

i cant fathom
the fucking feeling in my chest
i inject the venom
hope it leads me to my death
i’ve lost all passion
this isn’t music i just vent
cause i can’t fathom
i take the blade and then i’ll rest
oh
cause i can’t fathom
how u breathe when i’m not there
cause i can’t have love
if it’s not u it’s nowhere
and at this point it’s not fair now…

i never want to fight love
i’ve made you so tired
if we can just rewind
and not get caught in the moment
i know now that our times up
but love you all the same now
yeah we cannot rewind
but i’ll hold on to the moments

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same
even when the words aren’t spoken

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same

i can't fathom // goodbye pt. 3

produced by i'm geist
guitar @prodjpjp 
engineered @tnvr555

i burnt the words off of my tongue in dismay
they scraped my lungs on the way
oh how i love you i’d say

i watched the flowers decompose at my grave
you’d leave a rose everyday
and then regret you didn’t stay
ohh

i don’t want to talk
but i miss you
starting a new slate that’s been past due
you’re holding on to love but it’s gone blue
i’m holding on to love but it’s not you

i don’t to want to go
but my hearts bruised
there’s someone waiting for me that i can’t lose
choking on my words swear my tongues glued
i can’t say goodbye but i have too

her eyes as green as dancing trees in the rain
i watched the leaves all decay
there’s nothing more i could say

a perfect story, perfect song that had changed
all because i didn’t stay
and now i can’t be awake

oh
u don’t want to talk
but i miss you
promise that i’ve changed its a new hue
you’re letting go of love say it’s all blue
i’m letting go of love cause it hurts you

i don’t want to go
but my hearts bruised
there’s no one waiting for me and that’s fine too
choking on my words but it’s not new
i can say goodbye
it’s all that i do

oh
write the words in the stone
r.i.p. to our bones
petrify me my love
forgive me
i’m not that tough
my patience
trust
it’s all fucked
i’m sorry love
but hey..you might the one
your voice brings me a new calm
so promise me that you’ll come
and hold me close

stone

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

last single off my album pity out next week
thank you for listening :)

// geist
so let it all dissipate
there’s a lot on my plate
but you’re not on the list love

wipe the smile off my face
you just come and you take
like you want to let me down

but come on now, you left
so leave me alone
i smell the blood
spilled fresh, cut to a bone
and it’s all so tempting
the scent
pheromones
you stare at me
and whisper words like a ghost

"you look like a ghoul
the way that you walk
your eyes glisten red,
are you hungry my love?"

no i'm just a fool,
and i shouldn't talk
i'll sow my mouth and i'll give this all up
yeah i'll give this all up
cause i'm never enough

// yokai dreams
guess u havent had enough yet
havent filled ur gut yet
leave me to the crows
dead on the road
sight will make ur gut wrench
where her heart was supposed to be is just a silhouette
cigarettes and empty threats
tell me, are you finished yet?

stealing a look in the moonlight
ur alive now
and the moods right
im a night owl
til noon light
imma lie down
til the times right
my lover loves to make me believe
that she keep the peace on those good nights
second i'm sleepin
she's barin her teeth and
she could bite
but i don't mind

guess that i'm not used to falling in love
everyone i used to know has move on
and i know you will too
nothing has improved
said we're gonna change, just not any time soon
guess that i'm not used to feeling this way
everything i used to feel has decayed
got the heart of a ghoul
selfish and cruel
thought this was love but i was just a tool

ghoul w/ yokai dreams

produced by i'm geist
engineered @tnvr555

how do i feel now?
stuck inside my room love
tell me it’s a ghost town
these ghosts all i know now
i can see you in every surface of my room
engraved in every thing i do

well here i go
back to the city in a bag of bones
no heart, no soul
don’t need your pity
got a 1000 ghosts
yeah, i’m not here alone
i rot with the ones i love the most
and they hold on close
kept me alive for far too long

so say i’m faded
i’m just devastated
can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t take this
rotting in the basement
just another day
i’m stuck missing your face
and soon i’m gonna pack my bags
and get out of this place
so yeah i’m wasted
you know how i cope
it’s not the best i’m selfish
hate myself it’s endless
and i’m sorry i’m this way
and if i could i’d stay
but we’ve grown far apart in ways that’ll never be okay

sorry i'm this way

produced by i'm geist
guitar @vito2300
engineered + live band @tnvr555

it’s the sentimental feeling when the knifes on my skin
i watched you cover me in blood like you weren’t killing a friend
oh
come on baby
can you tell me where’d the time go?
cause it’s been 6 more months
i’m starting to just lose hope

don’t need your pity
i can fight for myself
i’ll make the city
light as bright as your smile
oh come on baby
life without you is hell
don’t want your pity
i can feel for myself

oh baby if you’re quick to leave then just go
u got somewhere else to be then i wouldn’t waste your time now
maybe in a different life it’s just love
but there’s too much on your mind and it’s so clear to me it’s not us

i can feel the pressure building underneath my skin
wanna hide that’s funny think you’re so intelligent
wanna get inside my head might let you again
take what you desire you know i’ll always let you in

cause i
could give a piece of mine
would give a thousand times
you cut into my flesh
take me home with you tonight
look into my eyes something there you hoped to find?
consume or be consumed you're the one that holds the knife

cause i can feel the chills around me like a fucking ghost town
you think you’re better off without try to get away now

cause there’s this ghost inside the wall where your voice is
you say you hate me baby tell me all your choices
cause enough is enough
and enough gets done
imma hold you down while you’re on the run

please don’t count the bodies
i just couldn’t help myself
when you’re on the run
the hunt feel so damn heaven sent

well you ripped apart my heart
so it’s been fair from the start
you can’t hide now in the dark
circle round you like a shark

sink my teeth in your veins
tell me how u love pain
feel the blood as it drains straight from your neck
we’re not one of the same
i’m a lot more insane
you could never escape what will come next

i can't fathom // goodbye pt. 3

I'm Geist

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