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released via: https://soundcloud.com/universalchill

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/hiraethsry

socials:
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lyrics:

There is something that’s inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days
You don’t understand my struggles
Don’t pretend that you’re me
You’ve been buying a new necklace
When there’s a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something’s causing all this pain
Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up
Don’t lie to me, I hate that
I’m aware of all my faults
And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane
I think that
To say that it’s a little too late
And I just
Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
Ive had a few dreams about you
But theyre all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave ur name in my flesh 
So I can’t forget if I tried to
Ur gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing 
U don’t wanna listen
U got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
feel like I should start to fight more
I don’t need to be religious baby
U know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

anxious I can’t breathe
Im getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don’t ever speak to me
Don’t act like got time now
Im fighting with myself
Im out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk im scared of speaking when i call her

6 feet with the pain

6 feet with the pain (feat. hiraeth)

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

@tnvr555 

you always bring out the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
watched u burn our home straight to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
u burnt it to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

i want to take the blade
slice across my throat okay
hurts more than i’ll ever say
hurts more than my music could ever convey
don’t come and play your games with me
i wanted somewhere i could breathe
it hurts
it burns
so endlessly
i swear to god you’ve ruined me
and i don’t ever want to feel
if this is love i rather bleed

spotify

i hate myself so much [tnvr]

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

prod @tnvr555 

you wake up in the middle of the night
and push my hair out of my face
hear you smiling
turn to your side and i’ll hold you
wake up in the morning
and i’m right where i’m supposed to be
homes complete
it’s you and me
feel at ease
promise you’ll never leave

so say that we worked it out
that it’s all good now
cause i need you here with me
and you know i love you
how i can’t sleep i’m bound
to see you in every dream

take me back now
to the summer where we met
where i was starving for your love
writing songs about our death
and the feelings never die
trust me that i tried my best
but the feelings never die
feels like my heart is in your chest
oh

we got lost a few times
u skipped states
i wrote rhymes
i still hurt every night
i can’t stare in your eyes

i see u in every dream

i see u in every dream [tnvr]

lyrics:

intro: ohmace
how far would you go 
to tell me i don’t know 
well drive along the road 

chorus: ohmace
tell me to my face how you feel
thought we were in love it wasn’t real
everytime i fall in love
i feel like i was never enough 
stop calling i know what you want 
stop telling me that i was the one
stop lying you’re not in love 
just tell me that i wasn’t enough 

verse: murph
just tell me that i wasn’t enough
cuz i know what you think
when you look at me that way
yeah it’s so clear to see 
what you really think of me
so go and speak your mind
i ain’t got no time

and you keep on wasting it
stepping out of bounds
baby tell me what you make of it
started with a white lie, 
and that was just a taste of it
now you’re a pro when it comes to faking shit
so i did it on my own 
got my ass off my phone
and i made myself something big 
huh, now you’re saying you’re alone 
and there ain’t no one home 
and you need someone to have fun with

please tell me are you kidding?
cause it feels like everytime i speak 
that you don’t even listen
yeah, i feel like everytime i leave 
you call on him to hit it 
i’ll say it once ill say it again 
i’m only stickin to business, ugh..


chorus: ohmace x murph
tell me to my face how you feel
thought we were in love it wasn’t real
everytime i fall in love
i feel like i was never enough 
stop calling i know what you want 
stop telling me that i was the one
stop lying you’re not in love 
just tell me that i wasn’t enough

never enough w/ b murph [tnvr]

Can’t say ur not breaking me
It takes all that I have
Just to sleep and then wake again
Barely eat cause I can’t
My body’s not made for this
Cause half of it is urs
Remember when I said
“For this girl that I adore”
Ur nothing but memories
Keep
Pulling me apart
I could never be used to this
It’s only the start
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1000 images or more
And I don’t need to see em
Cause They’re all memorised
I’m burning through these highs
u don’t even ask how I am
it feels like nothings right
Fuck this u never tried
Try to see thru my eyes
The way I suffer every morning
U don’t ask me nein
“Why u awake so late”
I’m Just talking to friends
U won’t believe a single thing my mouth has ever said

Cause it’s so late
And it’s so dark out
Are you home yet ?
It’s not safe out now

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die
How could we say it’s us till we die
How should I know
And I can say this without any lines
With my eyes closed
Cause I mean it
This isn’t a story
I can’t go back to the start
And ur leaving
Moved on while I’m shuffling cards

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die

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prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


you & i

you & i w/ sewerperson [oc]

@onlyfriendyeah 

// onlyfriend
i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
so hate me
fuck your friends and move on with your life
it's taking everything i've got to even try
now i won't say forever, forever's come and go
cause people change and people leave
it's just the way it goes

i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
i've been dead and gone for six weeks
won't take you back
don't hold me down
please don't tell me how you feel alive
whenever i'm around

// i'm geist
ohh
you have a way with your words
to always get what you want
no
i’d tell you how much hurts
but what’s the point of it now

six weeks dead still in my bed
and the sheets stained red, holes in my head
and after all was said, i watched you burn it down
had me holding on tight, to a love in the ground
promised we’d be alright, so how is it over now?
oh if you just stayed the night, we would have figured it out
now i’m stuck here without you
minds plagued full of doubt
and there’s nothing to amount too
with these stains on my crown

six weeks

six weeks w/ onlyfriend [iof x king theta]

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

i see how you love
and you see i cant trust
and you say "i dont know"
if its you cant fold 


[I'm geist]
i’m just gonna die right here 
oh the paranoia’s rotting all my head i 
fear 
but you ripped apart my trust 
to say that i don’t care?
well i’m gone my dear
so don’t you look my way away again 

so don’t you look my way away again 
and just fuck off of my friends

(its clear)
 you thought i can't help you none
i know what she wants
and i know what she got
take my life, for fun

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

Prod.iissaa

thank you @imgeist

i hate myself so much [tnvr]

I'm Geist