guitar @pekarot

she lacking empathy she gone tomorrow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
think you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that i don't wanna swallow
body's got a fleeting feeling and i got all my sorrows
how do i stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that I'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cos I'm going full throttle
stop drinking your life away your grasping at a bottle
i think i might hide away and talk to you tomorrow 
i know its not healthy but I'm full of sorrows
i bet you wouldn't help me if i left tomorrow

paint me a picture that's hard not to swallow
when your with him i feel like being hostile
i like the idea of moving to a castle
lets build some high walls, fuck I'm an asshole
your growing in mold, the more that u hassle
do what your told, before that i let go

she lacking empathy she gone tommorow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
think you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that i don't wanna swallow
body's got a fleeting feeling and i got all my sorrows
how do i stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that i'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cos i'm going full throttle

tomorrow

prod. sinxi


Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Im running where the sun wont face yet
U can see it in my eyes im faded 
Im waiting 
for nothing 
Leave something
Oh
Don’t run away 
I don’t wanna lose you
I won’t love again
Im not used to that
Don’t call me back
I wanna leave the past
Id feel better with a heart attack

Don’t talk to me 
Im too out of it
Left out alone
Don’t try again
Like honestly
She won’t lie again
Im too far gone
Leave me out of it

Im tryna quit
No Time for this
All my words fall flat again
Still arguing
Swear she’s such a bitch
Please let go 
Let me outta this

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Bottom of the ocean 
drowning 
you alr let me down
Fucked up
Can’t say that u want me now
Its been 2 months 
you don’t have to cut me out
I can’t breathe when you’re not around

Faceless
You can see it in my eyes im faded
No thoughts promsie u won’t change it
Im waiting for nothing
Tell me im trying for something

Changing
U keep telling me u never wanna face it
Fucked up got my heart beat racing
Im faded off nothing
Tell me im waiting for something

faceless

@tnvr555 

you always bring out the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
watched u burn our home straight to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
u burnt it to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

i want to take the blade
slice across my throat okay
hurts more than i’ll ever say
hurts more than my music could ever convey
don’t come and play your games with me
i wanted somewhere i could breathe
it hurts
it burns
so endlessly
i swear to god you’ve ruined me
and i don’t ever want to feel
if this is love i rather bleed

spotify

i hate myself so much [tnvr]

now i’m wanting to die 
take the knife and twist it baby
i’m over this life 
know that i tried 
swear to god don’t say you miss me 
cause it’d be a lie  
 
new face, new lovers :/
i’m still stuck on the old one 
i’m sorry now 
still cold 
same covers 
cry myself to sleep 
cause ur not around 

yeah oh i guess fuck all and my mental 
drowning i’m sentimental 
don’t even want to help myself 
yeah oh took my heart and disassembled 
swearing that you were gentle 
nobody hears a cry for help :/

swear to god, don't say you miss me [drma]

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

weak w/ heylog [oc]

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

@decayinganyways @tnvr555

// decaying
break it down, all to the ground
and one day now, you will be proud
of the things I’ve done, all over round
and I’ll try my best, and hope I don’t drown

and i, i don’t wanna die young
guess i’m feeling like i haven’t done enough
wasted all this time so now i gotta catch up
but everything i’ve done it never feels like much

i was so fucked up in that year
and ever since then now, it’s so clear
and everything i fear now, i hold dear
oh no

so is it fucked up
i been feeling like i haven’t done enough
and i been feeling like i haven’t tried enough
tell me why i always gotta mess it up
fuck it up
so is it fucked up
i been feeling like i haven’t done enough
i been feeling like i haven’t tried enough
tell me why i always gotta mess it up
fuck it up

// geist
oh oh
so they all listen now
guess i’m on a roll
do i make u proud?
you’re the sweetest ghost
knew what i’m about..
now i’ve lost the most
can i make it out?

aha
sit back
watch afar i swear i’ll make a change
it’s sad that
that our paths will never cross again
it’s all love but we have to go our separate ways
cause i can’t follow you if we don’t see the same

there’s music in my veins
i bleed to numb the pain
if i die young
i’m grateful that u knew my name
if i die young
just know i’m in a better place
so promise you’ll remember i gave everything

// geist & decay
i’ll dream tonight
hold it tight
hope my life
turns out fine

hope my life turns out fine w/ DecayingAnyways [Tnvr]

@prod-oc 
@iamvagrxnt

a little numb, little sore
just kidding, i’m fucking torn
tell the lies, you adore my eyes that will never glisten again
i’ll bury you with all my friends

so
take it all
i really wanted to stay
but now I’m covered in blood, I took a punch to the face
so I’ll
take the fall
i don’t know what to say cause I x2

guess i might have caught you in a bad mood
hands deep in my chest now I’m screwed
holding on your waist, what I’d do
you can take control cause I’m through

with your lying eyes
you could have taken away
every part of me
that thinks its all in my head
dont wanna thank you
i just wanna tell you
that you are something of toxic remains

but your dark oak eyes
are always my demise
i wish to take it away
before i can realize
that you are leeching
bleeding at the sore seems
wishing to be fix something worse than you are

so
take it all
i really wanted to stay
but now I’m covered in blood, I took a punch to the face
so I’ll
take the fall
i don’t know what to say cause I x2

guess i might have caught you in a bad mood
hands deep in my chest now I’m screwed
holding on your waist, what I’d do
you can take control cause I’m through

cause im through
and you tore me
blood can drift from my wrists
just like the stories
you cant save me
theres no trying
i'd rather die here tonight than have you call me

TORN [oc]

I'm Geist