3/4
@heylog
produced by me and @creativeravine

(vil)
you got me staring at the wall now
put a gun up to my head, that's all you got now?
i don't want to be the reason to set you free (i can't be who you want me to be)
you see me lying on the surface
its hard to tell who there is hurting
i know you're late and you want me to stop...
you gotta think on your own now

[chorus]
in a silo, fiending when i walk out
they go around me they don't know the shit we on about
corner breaching and i'm bringing all my dogs out
never fallout, waiting for a callout
callout, callout, callout, oh (x4)

(heylog)
you fooled a lot when you speak
it's a part of you
i know everytime you talk
it's never the truth
always stuck inside ur gut just to consume
took me years and i still barely know you
so 
how do you feel
living life faker than real
its a lot to spill
you'd do anything for will
if i could call you out
id do it by now
if i could watch you cry
i'd sip my tea and smile
please dont go
life sucks
i know

[chorus]
in a silo, fiending when i walk out
they go around me they don't know the shit we on about
corner breaching and i'm bringing all my dogs out
never fallout, waiting for a callout
callout, callout, callout, oh (x4)

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callout ft. heylog [vil synth + ravine]

produced by me and @heylog

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

stream

prod hira <3

cleaning his blood with my sword
staring my eyes kinda sore
are you trying to look like a whore
put a guard up shes breaking my wall

she kept calling every number on my phone
texting people there that i dont even know
swear she thinks i care but god i really dont
must be boring when my voice is monotone

keep him pressured, i can do this on my own
shooting arson as it melts between the snow
ill burn his house down, pouring petrol on the road
he cant leave hes getting covered in the smoke

just give it up im getting out of your life
i dont really give a fuck if no ones bothering mine
u said its okay
better dead then alive
said its not my fault
ur heart beats closer to mine
i dont know how to look at you
fighting for my life so baby please just drop the attitude
looking in the mirror
i dont know whats gotten into you
throw myself in water with some concreted tied onto my shoes
i mean nothing else to you

okay,.
die
ok
alone?

travelling at 60 going home
the bottom of the bridge is looking warm
promise me that you wont tell a soul
i gave up everything so you could have it all

she kept calling every number on my phone
texting people there that i dont even know
swear she thinks i care but god i really dont
must be boring when my voice is monotone

keep him pressured, i can do this on my own
shooting arson as it melts between the snow
ill burn his house down, pouring petrol on the road
he cant leave hes getting covered in the smoke

arson

prod hira

If I disappear 
nobody would know

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

Disappear 
Nobody will know

So please don’t let it
Go to your head love 
I’ll be fighting after the war 
Do you not feel the regret from all the  blood that you’ve poured 
Psycho little bitch should be assigned to a ward 
Ruining yourself downing bleach on the floor

You don’t wanna talk to me 
You never even had to
I’d break another bone but
I just can’t seem to fight for you
But I’d die for you
Down another bottle and I’ll lay with you

Why you gotta be so far
Put another s into the side of my arm
You could never be more wrong
Tryna let it go but I had nothing to start 
Why u tryna prove me wrong
I’m such a lost cause bitch u did it again
Drowning and it’s all your fault 
Fingers getting cold wrapped my hand round her neck 

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

after the war

@tnvr555 

you always bring out the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
watched u burn our home straight to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
u burnt it to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

i want to take the blade
slice across my throat okay
hurts more than i’ll ever say
hurts more than my music could ever convey
don’t come and play your games with me
i wanted somewhere i could breathe
it hurts
it burns
so endlessly
i swear to god you’ve ruined me
and i don’t ever want to feel
if this is love i rather bleed

i hate myself so much [tnvr]

produced by speedlmt

lyrics:
before i found u
i was going through hell
oh do you miss me
im still going through hell
i still cant even tell
what its like to be me
she doesent miss me
she doesent miss me


i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

she my bandage
walking through the forest empty handed
blood on my screen
with dirt on my shoes
where have you been
i sorta miss you
well no defiently do 
im shaking in my room
i really hate this house
im shaking in my room
i need a way out
im shaking in my room
im shaking in my room
shaking in my room

i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

isolation

@prod-oc 
@iamvagrxnt

a little numb, little sore
just kidding, i’m fucking torn
tell the lies, you adore my eyes that will never glisten again
i’ll bury you with all my friends

so
take it all
i really wanted to stay
but now I’m covered in blood, I took a punch to the face
so I’ll
take the fall
i don’t know what to say cause I x2

guess i might have caught you in a bad mood
hands deep in my chest now I’m screwed
holding on your waist, what I’d do
you can take control cause I’m through

with your lying eyes
you could have taken away
every part of me
that thinks its all in my head
dont wanna thank you
i just wanna tell you
that you are something of toxic remains

but your dark oak eyes
are always my demise
i wish to take it away
before i can realize
that you are leeching
bleeding at the sore seems
wishing to be fix something worse than you are

so
take it all
i really wanted to stay
but now I’m covered in blood, I took a punch to the face
so I’ll
take the fall
i don’t know what to say cause I x2

guess i might have caught you in a bad mood
hands deep in my chest now I’m screwed
holding on your waist, what I’d do
you can take control cause I’m through

cause im through
and you tore me
blood can drift from my wrists
just like the stories
you cant save me
theres no trying
i'd rather die here tonight than have you call me

TORN [oc]

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

@grasior @prod-oc 

// geist
don’t try to talk to me
and act like you’ve got empathy
when i won’t have to dig that deep
to see you’re not the shit you preach

don’t look my way
i’ll hide my face
can’t stand to see
what you’ve became

the bloods all on the floor
so how could you adore me
after slitting through my throat
you’ve got some nerve
to say
my name
and god it fucking hurts
that i still care
my god you’ve got some nerve

// grasior
i don't wanna mention all the things that you have done so wrong
when i hate the conversations since we never got along
feel a presence over any words that you have ever said
hear your vocal chords shiver hanging with a single thread

i know you're lacking on emotions
darling keep up to date on your omens
cant calm my nerves with some nicotine
sorry love but i'll pop till i become a fiend

nerve

nerve w/ grasior [oc]

prod, me & @leftquiet

- lyrics -
things have gone off
you saw it breaking in two 
theres something more you knew
you kept it secret
now im glad that i never told
what it wrote

my vision's 20/20 i can see through the line
darling 2020 was the worst of my life
bleeding through my iris what a wonderful time
breaking through the window tried to keep a disguise

so what you're hiding
i can't let go
i know a sighting
when you done
just wanna hold your hand
but i know you find me bland

so im holding by a threat
thats thiner than a web
countin days seekin for help on meds
drowning in the liquor by my bed
blowing up inside my head with led

so look to left and right 
you see the toxins linger all around your room
is he your perfect type
cause all you want are things you crave when your confused
don't trust you feel corrupt
cause what he said or did jsut never was enough
so bleed straight from your core
its something you wish that you never adored

so let it take away my breath
evning come and i turn into a mess
i wanna wait but i to be the bad guy
simulate my time and then im gone
whats the point of living when nobody's home
you wanna cry but you stuck inside your dome
jsut like you i wanna cry when im alone
fuck i hate when im stuck inside alone
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flower petals ✾

vision

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TORN [oc]

I'm Geist