produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

@imgeist

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i see the color of your eyes 
in every hue of the sky 
fall asleep every night  
to thoughts of just you & i 
no more goodbyes 
took all my pride 
and departed  

oh love just look what you’ve done to me 
hold my heart, it barely beats 
i’m struggling here to breathe 
do u not have sympathy? 
is this not enough? 
i swear i’m just not that tough 
u stab the knife in my gut 
pouring salt on my cuts

oh love just look what you’ve done to me 
stab my heart, it only bleeds 
i’m struggling, can’t you see 
but u don’t have empathy  
i wasn’t enough 
i swear this isn’t called love 
pouring salt on my cuts 
and then expect me to trust

u promised me it wouldnt hurt
im getting sick of all the arguing its back and forth
i know ive said it all before, you know it wouldnt hurt
struggling to find a reason i keep going on
and everytime that i go out i feel like everyone
is always watching watching over me 
but i need something more
i cant believe you really left me just to never call
this could be my last night and ur watching me fall 

dropping, on the way she sees my body laying cold
leave it out to surface, baby leave me on my own
dont ask for my advice ill be responding with a no
please dont let them find me promise you wont let them know

surface w/ i'm geist

It’s only been a year, why’s it feel like 10
It’s only been the difference of my life back then
You were everything, the foundation of it all
I can sing as much as I want about it
No one even notices what this has done to me
I keep getting criticised on everything that I release 
Cause it’s not the same, how could it just be the same? 
I don’t have passion anymore, without his in my face 
I don’t care about nothing, I don’t show any love
I don’t show no companionship to anyone I know
It really was just me and him
I don’t know anymore
I don’t know anything
Just that a piece of me’s gone 
Ship is sinking, I’m starboard with a cold embrace 
Cause I know you’re not in the water here and that’s okay
Maybe when I’ve drown, I’ll travel to yours

Oh idk idk

Vessel

If you wanna let me go then darling
I don’t mind
Maybe a little I won’t show it you don’t
Have the time
So stop concerning or worrying about
What I hide
Those feelings locked away the key is somewhere, I resided

You cannot force an entry 
No it’s a little bit mean don’t you think
Maybe these walls are meant to stay up 
Surrounding me
If you wanna get past you’ll have to
Kill me
Are we starting again
Without all my friends

I’m running I’m running away
You don’t have to catch me
Nothing but doubt and regret
You won’t ever find me

If you wanna let me go then darling
I don’t mind
Maybe a little I won’t show it you don’t
Have the time
So stop concerning or worrying about
What I hide
Those feelings locked away the key is somewhere, I resided

I wish I slept thru everything 
Woke up to birds singing 
Outside my window pane
Wake up repeat again
Tell death I’m on my way
He’s not too far away
He’ll take me all the same
Select all delete again

If you wanna let me go then darling
I don’t mind
Maybe a little I won’t show it you don’t
Have the time
So stop concerning or worrying about
What I hide
Those feelings locked away the key is somewhere, I resided

slept through everything

Oh
I can see you when I fall asleep
You live in my head now you're haunting me
Holding my hand and then you cut my veins
Squeeze every ounce of my blood you can take
Oh...

YOU'VE GOT YOUR HANDS AROUND MY NECK 
AND YOU'RE TAKING MY LIFE :( 
TIGHT LIKE A NOOSE 
OH I CAN HEAR YOU SMILE...

OH OH OH OH OH
OH OH OH OH OH 

So shut me up
Go on sever my tongue
And if it's not enough
Then just cut my throat out
Hear me grasp for air
But I'll still stare
At how your eyes captivate
Everyone around you babe...

You said "what are we"
What are we??
I don't know love...
Cause it seems like you're somebody
To someone else now :( 
And don't act like it's funny
Cause I'm throwing up
Wiped the blood up
With money
Cause that's all I'm for

THAT'S ALL I'M FOR 
SIX FEET UNDERNEATH AND IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 
IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld

Cut me up now, burn me in fire
Watch as i drown, love, don't you get tired?
Taking my life again and again
Twist in the knife, it's your only friend

I'm just another body to you
You're undercover, but I'm no fool
Out for blood, I know you are

I see there's murder on your 
MIND
DARLING 
I'M BARELY ALIVE
SO DIG MY GRAVE 
Parasites crawling away
Poltergeists taking my place

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
IN THE UNDERWORLD 
IN THE UNDERWORLD

what you deserve

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what you deserve w/ tnvr [tnvr]

prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


you & i

you & i w/ sewerperson [oc]

Bcuz w agossu

producido por tw!nk, backs x tw!nk, solo guitarra chupate esa

letra
llegar aca me permite soñar
y no voy a moverme estoy en mi lugar
pude salir pa delante aunque me tiraron pa atras
de los que estuvieron antes juro no me voy a olvidar

llegar aca me costo un monton
gracias a la señal que todo lo cambio
que me hizo entender lo que estaba mal
y que mi hermano a mi lado siempre fue crucial...

siempre fue cruciaal
estar en mi lugar
y no voy a desviarme hoe
tengo que estar mejor

y ya no tengo tiempoo..
tengo que cumplir el sueño

mucho tiempo estuve mal, ahora no voy a bajar nooo
esto me corre por la blood
y estoy viviendo el sueño aunque este despierto
cuando abri los ojos vi que era cierto

y ahora no me duermo nooo
gracias a ese dolor
que fue el que me enseño 
solo por eso se dio.. (solo por eso se dioo)

por el dolor que hay en mi corazoon..

DREAMZ ft @tw!nk (prod tw!nk)

KET4MIN

fuck out the way

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Lyrics:

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

Yeah you fucked me up now I've gone bad
Barely finished this song I was too sad
I got cheap drugs in both hands
I got problems don't say that

And I'm attached now she's mad
Pop pills. and I lean back
You come in, paint the scene black
I got bad plugs like where he at?

Please just shut up get out my way
Mud in the cup blunt to my face
It makes me sick so I don’t say her name
She’s fucking him rubbing it in my face

And I’m not okay
Two or three words put me in a disarray
Need a lil somethin to numb out the pain
Gave me your love should've known it was fake

A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

(heylog)
Like pls girl just get out the way
But she tried seeing if he was okay
And his eyes filled with heavy rain
But he lied said hes happy im great

No she has no idea hes in pain
But he smiles faking every day
And he always said "dump me on the blame"
So he vanished and left not one trace

And if u think i love you baby im already passed ya
And hes falling far behind maybe tyo will help u catch up
I got bigger problems than to worry bout the both of ya
So imma go to sleep even though ill probably dream of you

I wanna get rich so i can isolate in montana
Maybe have a cat and a golden retriever
One named max and the other named bella
Maybe have you, cause i really want you

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

you & i w/ sewerperson [oc]

I'm Geist