w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

original song 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2MI1WHc6RI
u make me look stupid

lyrics:
i think were fallin outta love
i dont know who i could trust
i said i got issues
i swear to god this aint my luck
i fail at being honest
this was never my intention
im always lying to my parents
i dont know how i keep doing this

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

i hate how u always look at me
but it was nothing new to me
im too distracted by ur eyes
while u continue to keep breaking me
i think that we were fiction
u kept me suffocated
i know u never listened
im crying while im twitchin
your 'tude needs some fixin
thats not even a question
u got me second guessin
now im overthinkin

i tried to make u laugh
i tried to make it right
i tried to get a smile
but instead i make u cry
we'll feel nothing like the start
u just slipped out from my arms
i could never let u go
when i still have ur heart

i know i did u wrong i guess thats what i deserve
i hate to see u gone and the thought just makes it worse
u made it in another song i doubt youll even care
i know that this dont matter so i doubt youll even hear
i know i did u wrong and i know i killed us off
i know its all my fault but i made u another song
i doubt youll even care and i doubt youll even hear
i cut off all my hair just so u could stop and stare

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

heylog - u make me look stupid

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

@user-153698253 @yokaidreams @tnvr555

// ohmace
you could tell me i'm just another guy
you could lie and say i'm never on your mind
and i know that you miss being mine
we should do something about it tonight
without rules
everything was easy hanging out with you 
always had your back was looking out for you
everything isnt always about you
it's not about you, 
it's not about you
dont you know that i'm just fine without you
you think it's something i'm not allowed to do
everything is not always about you...

control is what you crave
you fucking lost your way
can't recognize your face
your love is such a waste

you're a waste i dont wanna make it work
i could find a million other girls who want to flirt
look me in the eyes baby tell me with a smirk
i could see right through it all ive been on high alert

// yokai dreams 
been on high alert i don't think i'm calming down soon
i cannot convince myself i'm doin fine without you
maybe there's no reason to hope
you're treating me like a joke and i cope
but for what it's worth
i tried
my best just to fix this
i died
inside
when you said "we're finished"

// i'm geist 
control is what you crave 
but baby i crave it more 
shut you in lock the door 
yet you'll say you adore me 

spit it out 
the bloods on the floor 
it's toxic love 
that's killing us both 
the secrets out 
so love they all know 
just get out now 
can't do this anymore 

and baby i can tell you 
this would never work in your dreams 
it only works when i'm feeling lonely 
baby i cant tell you right now 
we need to find a way out 
need to find a way out

spotify

your love is such a waste w/ ohmace & yokai dreams [tnvr]

Oh
I can see you when I fall asleep
You live in my head now you're haunting me
Holding my hand and then you cut my veins
Squeeze every ounce of my blood you can take
Oh...

YOU'VE GOT YOUR HANDS AROUND MY NECK 
AND YOU'RE TAKING MY LIFE :( 
TIGHT LIKE A NOOSE 
OH I CAN HEAR YOU SMILE...

OH OH OH OH OH
OH OH OH OH OH 

So shut me up
Go on sever my tongue
And if it's not enough
Then just cut my throat out
Hear me grasp for air
But I'll still stare
At how your eyes captivate
Everyone around you babe...

You said "what are we"
What are we??
I don't know love...
Cause it seems like you're somebody
To someone else now :( 
And don't act like it's funny
Cause I'm throwing up
Wiped the blood up
With money
Cause that's all I'm for

THAT'S ALL I'M FOR 
SIX FEET UNDERNEATH AND IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 
IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld

Cut me up now, burn me in fire
Watch as i drown, love, don't you get tired?
Taking my life again and again
Twist in the knife, it's your only friend

I'm just another body to you
You're undercover, but I'm no fool
Out for blood, I know you are

I see there's murder on your 
MIND
DARLING 
I'M BARELY ALIVE
SO DIG MY GRAVE 
Parasites crawling away
Poltergeists taking my place

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
IN THE UNDERWORLD 
IN THE UNDERWORLD

what you deserve

what you deserve w/ tnvr [tnvr]

prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


you & i

you & i w/ sewerperson [oc]

@decayinganyways @tnvr555

I feel you crawling deep under my skin
You look at me, promise it's not what I think...
But I know you'd do all it takes just to win
So I play with caution
And move in
SILENCE :)
DARLING
I LOVE HOW YOU MOVE WHEN YOU'RE ON ME GRINDING
SIN
DARLING!
SINK YOUR TEETH IN ME
I WON'T KEEP YOU STARVING

She wants to tear me apart
Oh I know...
Her eyes of gold
Always finds into my home
She wants to rip out my heart
Oh I know
But I can't stop craving
How you touch me
My love...

She wants to tear me apart
Oh I know...
Her eyes of gold
Always finds into my home
She wants to rip out my heart :(
Oh I know
But I can't stop craving
How you touch me
My love :)

Lost in the crowd with nowhere to be found
I thought I found a place to just make it out
Knowing that I feel so hypnotized
Lost in this maze and out of my mind

Is it you?
Is it me?
Something in-between
Bloody shoes it seems
Something in my dreams...
So sick i've turned green
Want love so pristine
Take me to somewhere we can't be seen

OH MY FEAR
DON'T HOLD ME DEAR
MESS WITH MY HEAD
BUT I KNOW WHAT I SAW
MY CAROUSEL LOVE
PREPARE FOR THE FALL!
OPEN MY HEART
AND I SAW
THE DEMON THAT YOU KNOW YOU ARE-

WHAT YOU ARE
WHAT YOU ARE
WHAT ARE YOU

SHE WANTS TO TEAR ME APART
OH I KNOW!!!
HER EYES OF GOLD
ALWAYS FINDS INTO MY HOME :(
SHE WANTS TO RIP OUT MY HEART
OH I KNOW!!!
BUT I CAN'T STOP CRAVING
HOW YOU TOUCH ME
MY LOVE

SHE WANTS TO TEAR ME APART
OH I KNOW
HER EYES ARE GOLD
HER EYES ARE COLD!!!
SHE WANTS TO RIP OUT MY HEART
OH I KNOW :(
BUT I CAN'T STOP CRAVING
HOW YOU TOUCH ME
MY LOVE

carousel

carousel w/ decayinganyways [tnvr]

prod by icantsleeplol

lyrics:
why
am i
close to u
i
havent
seen u
in years

i
dont like to think at night
cause i could cry sometimes
shake it off, im alright
(inhale)
(exhale)
i guess im alive
i cannot stand the light
i feel so dead inside
standing in fear and fright

maybe then ill leave
this town
no trace or sound
no one will find me
around
no calls or texts i wont be 
found
𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥
𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍
fₒᵤₙd
punoɟ
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
d̸̞̰̓̃̈͐̉̒̇̑̚͝

wipe that grin
off ur face
and take me too
the place u hate
oh its in my room
i know it too
i feel the tension
impending doom

dont like to think at night
cause i could cry sometimes
shake it off, im alright
(inhale)
(exhale)
i guess im alive
i cannot stand the light
i feel so dead inside
standing in fear and fright

found

@seenyona

i feel lost
my words get stuck
the good all fades away

hear my songs
so you know what’s wrong
and you hit me up
but your numbers blocked
hey you know my side
so i’m sorry love
made me kill myself
and i can’t do it all again

fall on my back love
kiss at my palm
my eyes dim down -is that what you want-
grip at my chest
i know that youve won
accepting fate
im yours from now on

lost in my mental, im crashing in waves
scratch at my wrists, im bleeding again
im beyond help, someone do something
i dont think i could go through it again
always left out, i feel so abondendond
taking my trust, and taking advantage
fell out of love, i took so much damage
im beyond help, im beyond caring

GO TAKE YOUR TIME AND WATCH ME DIE INSIDE YOUR ARMS
ITS OKAY.
CAUSE THERE’S NOWHERE ELSE I WOULD RATHER BE BURIED
BUT WHEN I’M GONE WILL YOU EVEN THINK OF ME
CAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE THERES SOMEWHERE YOU’D RATHER BE

OH NO
WHAT IS HOME??
IM THE GHOST THAT WAS LEFT WHEN THE CROWN FELL RIGHT OUT OF YOUR HANDS
BROKEN BONES
LEFT TO ROT
YOU CAN SEE THE DIRT
IN EVERY CREVICE
OF HIS WORDS

when i'm gone, will you even think of me? w/ yona

From heartbreak to horsepower — a Fusion lost, an F-150 found.

your love is such a waste w/ ohmace & yokai dreams [tnvr]

I'm Geist