people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

You should kill me, kill me, kill me
Not the real me, real me, real me
I don’t see him
Breathing, breathing
You don’t need him, need him, need him oh
And I always think about you when im sitting in the dark
Swear I feel your breath putting pressure on my arm
But what the fuck do I know
Im sat here waiting for some truth to be told

Better, know you could be wetter
Pussy so bad he pulled a weapon
My love I don’t know what you’re selling
Too bad im bought in descension

Oh god I don’t know what to get
Two minds im not losing again
What the fuck you think you’re doing in bed
I look away and now you’re fucking again

bought in descension 

This must be the end of everything that I know
Her nails are cutting marks into the back of my throat
No matter how much I clean it won’t go
Fuck you never call me your bro

You don’t give a fuck, you don’t give a fuck
I thought you had a question
Am I not good enough?
Given up now, given up
I let my guard down
Ive had enough

youre moving backwards 
give me some time, 
gimme me some space to relax love
You don’t want that
Feeling pressure around my neck love
im going fast
Imma turn my car right 
just to call it a crash
I can see you going down 
but you didnt ask
You don’t wanna try 
bitch you never have
Ruining a life that you never had
let him knock you up just to get me back
Fucking tapped

Descension

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

SPOTIFY

time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

dancing i want to go with you
glancing at the world from a better view
romance has turned into sending nudes
ill stay away from falling in love

i'll stay driving in the backroads
always on the way but i never wanna go
so ill stay dancing in the moonlight
underneath the stars with somebody i dont know

dancing i want to go with you
that's a world from a better view
i want to go with you
i want to go with you

i'll stay driving in the backroads
always on the way but i never wanna go
so ill stay dancing in the moonlight
underneath the stars with somebody i dont know

and the night's so cold
i hold you close and i won’t let go
lights off love
and you move so slow
say the times not right
like you always do

make a full twist
clockwise on your tip toes
seal it with a kiss
and a smile
feel my heart fold
whisper in my ear
say you never want to go home
but if you leave before the sunrise
how you gonna talk like that?

i can spend all night here dreaming
wishing this was something real
darling drag me whiles i’m bleeding
don’t you care bout how i feel?

spotify

i want to go with u w/ ohmace [tnvr]

@tnvr555 

always got the most to say
know your words have lost all meaning
but you say them anyway
stuck in a state of disarray
burning gardens of our love
we’ll watch the flowers all decay

but hey, whatever
i just showed up for the weather
couldn’t care for your endeavor
watched u caved under the pressure
told u shit don’t last forever
come on love i know you’re clever
keep a knife cause u know better
take the kill for me whenever
take the kill for me when-

oh well, whatever
i want to see his head severed
fill his eyes up with your terror
u know they’ll always surrender
stacking bodies just for pleasure
u love him but love me better
said that i’m the one forever
the one you’ll always remember
take the kill for me whenever

and everybody swears they’ll stay
but u know nobody but your body
will lay inside your grave
aha

can’t you tell your friends are fake
baby promise you they only want their hands around your waist

oh baby promise if you took a glance
the grass is full of snakes
i keep my friends closer than enemies,
they’ll always keep me safe
don’t you walk around so cautiously
and act like you’ve got grace
oh baby i can see the toxic traits,
it’s marked all on your face

all on your face love
cover it with makeup
you chase only the famous
then wonder why they can’t trust
say you want to change but
you’ll always be the same hun
your love is so damn dangerous
killing all that you touch

always got the most to say
know your words have lost all meaning
but you say them anyway
stuck in a state of disarray
burning gardens of our love
we’ll watch the flowers all decay

BUT HEY, WHATEVER 
I JUST SHOWED UP FOR THE WEATHER 
COULDN'T CARE FOR YOUR ENDEAVOR 
WATCHED U CAVED UNDER THE PRESSURE 
TOLD U SHIT DON'T LAST FOREVER
COME ON LOVE I KNOW YOU'RE CLEVER 
KEEP A KNIFE CAUSE U KNOW BETTER
TAKE THE KILL FOR ME WHENEVER 
TAKE THE KILL FOR ME WHEN- 

OH WELL WHATEVER 
I WANT TO SEE HIS HEAD SEVERED
FILL HIS EYES UP WITH YOUR TERROR
U KNOW THEY'LL ALWAYS SURRENDER 
STACKING BODIES JUST FOR PLEASURE 
U LOVE HIM BUT LOVE ME BETTER 
SAID THAT I'M THE ONE BETTER 
SAID THAT I'M THE ONE FOREVER
THE ONE YOU'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER 
TAKE THE KILL FOR ME 

PROMISE IF YOU TOOK A GLANCE 
THE GRASS IS FULL OF SNAKES 
I KEEP MY FRIENDS CLOSER THAN ENEMIES 
THEY'LL ALWAYS KEEP ME SAFE 
DON'T YOU WALK AROUND SO CAUTIOUSLY 
AND ACT LIKE YOU'VE GOT GRACE 
OH BABY I CAN SEE THE TOXIC TRAITS 
IT'S MARKED ALL ON YOUR FACE 

ALL ON YOUR FACE LOVE 
COVER IT WITH MAKEUP 
CHASE ONLY THE FAMOUS 
THEN WONDER WHY THEY CAN'T TRUST 
SAY YOU WANT TO CHANGE BUT 
YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE SAME HUN
YOUR LOVE IS SO DAMN DANGEROUS 
KILLING ALL THAT YOU TOUCH

WHATEVER

WHATEVER [TNVR]

@user-153698253 @yokaidreams @tnvr555

// ohmace
you could tell me i'm just another guy
you could lie and say i'm never on your mind
and i know that you miss being mine
we should do something about it tonight
without rules
everything was easy hanging out with you 
always had your back was looking out for you
everything isnt always about you
it's not about you, 
it's not about you
dont you know that i'm just fine without you
you think it's something i'm not allowed to do
everything is not always about you...

control is what you crave
you fucking lost your way
can't recognize your face
your love is such a waste

you're a waste i dont wanna make it work
i could find a million other girls who want to flirt
look me in the eyes baby tell me with a smirk
i could see right through it all ive been on high alert

// yokai dreams 
been on high alert i don't think i'm calming down soon
i cannot convince myself i'm doin fine without you
maybe there's no reason to hope
you're treating me like a joke and i cope
but for what it's worth
i tried
my best just to fix this
i died
inside
when you said "we're finished"

// i'm geist 
control is what you crave 
but baby i crave it more 
shut you in lock the door 
yet you'll say you adore me 

spit it out 
the bloods on the floor 
it's toxic love 
that's killing us both 
the secrets out 
so love they all know 
just get out now 
can't do this anymore 

and baby i can tell you 
this would never work in your dreams 
it only works when i'm feeling lonely 
baby i cant tell you right now 
we need to find a way out 
need to find a way out

your love is such a waste w/ ohmace & yokai dreams [tnvr]

+ i'm geist, decayinganyways, yokai dreams, ohmace, iissaa, yona, grasior 
+ coprod. mix/master - oc 

// i'm geist 
the seance has started :) 
find his heart in the garden 
don't look too hard my darling 
you'll find bones you once held dearly..
oh 
you once held dearly 
oh 
severed cleanly 

parasites are rotting with the snakes now? 
carving all the fakes fucking 'round me its a takedown 
everybody's sitting on their ass with their phones out 
swear i'll see the reaper b4 you catch me taking breaks love 
aha 

// decayinganyways 
walking out the bar not alive 
seen a name on a grave and I’m thinking that it’s mine
“mine” 
i’m not alive, I’m just another fucking ghost who’s out of time 
who’s out of time 
oh 
i wish I could just come back 
won’t see me now a heart attack 
i just wanna haunt inside your dreams 
i just wanna haunt inside your

// yokai dreams 
this is getting sickening
i think i'm getting sick of me
rip up every inch of me
i no longer resemble me
look at what they did to me
look at what they did to me !
am i not deserving of some sympathy?

give it my all for as long as i can
when the day turns night we gon have the upper hand
turn the lights off baby
i can't stand them
feel like someone else, you don't know how i am

lately i've been on some shit you wouldn't understand
another nail in the coffin, leave me where i am
getting kinda hard to tell the man from the myth
mark my death with a kiss
let me rot or take my hand

// ohmace 
six feet down rotting in another grave
turn me to a geist as i slowly decay
the dreams on my mind and they wont go away
and I dont know what else to do or to say
its in my brain,
somebody help my im going insane
call me a doctor and tell him to hurry
cut out the demons Im starting to worry
theyre taking over me
my blood seeps through as theyre ripping the seems
theyre taking over me
theyre haunting me in every dream

//iissaa 
i'd rather go 
somewhere that you don't know.
someplace that i dont show
somewhere behind the snow
is it fair that you can't see me now
tried so hard but i'm letting go
it's my fault, i said i'm where you go
my god i wish i never told

// yona 
look around with dead gaze
i dont think i go this
the leaves turn from green to orange
it feels so nostalgic
used to hold your hand, and fall asleep to your heartbeat
now ur gripping at my wrist, saying "how long u got bitch?" 
ive been panick struggling trying to get of the floor
grab me by the waist, cut me open some more
youre the ghost of a person i feel before
now im crying in fear, begging no more

// grasior 
fuck yall be saying i'm sick of it all
my stomach keeps turning i'm leaning on walls
scrolling my phone till i feel it collide
my anger is rising cause i'm in denial
i need to man up i'm not on my own
notes that i wrote considered the unknown'
seeing a grave all on my own
a body is showing of someone i know

raise the flags in the frontline
might be dead but i'll fight till the sun rise
left or right paranoid can you talk to me
hear the horns in distant calling me
want it to end sacrifice all my peace
silent but deadly i'll take them with ease
my body is rumbling I'm feeling the thrill
killstreak in a nuke with how many i've killed 


919

séance w/ 919 + grasior

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

i see how you love
and you see i cant trust
and you say "i dont know"
if its you cant fold 


[I'm geist]
i’m just gonna die right here 
oh the paranoia’s rotting all my head i 
fear 
but you ripped apart my trust 
to say that i don’t care?
well i’m gone my dear
so don’t you look my way away again 

so don’t you look my way away again 
and just fuck off of my friends

(its clear)
 you thought i can't help you none
i know what she wants
and i know what she got
take my life, for fun

i dont wanna stay here 
i dont wanna play here
feel like im out of my brain
stand clear
feel like im just gonna die
right here

Prod.iissaa

thank you @imgeist

Stand Clear

919 - stand clear w/ iissaa & i’m geist

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cares when I say it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
Aren’t I stupid ? 

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid 

Eyes glued to my screen all night
Fall asleep without my high
You don’t get it and nor do I
I swear I only use it to pass my time
But what time is it now ?
I’m starting to feel better can you slow it down
I’ll stay awake till I go outside
And pretend it’s not ruined my life

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

stupid

🎵 A Place to Call Our Own
by The Mainside Project

The world feels heavy, and I’m losing track,
The roads ahead are fading into black.
But in the quiet, I can hear your voice,
It calls me back, it gives me a choice.

To leave behind the weight of time,
And find the place where hearts align.
A secret path, a whispered sound,
Where only we can be found.

Take me to a place to call our own,
Where the stars will guide us home.
Where the rivers run and time slows down,
Where we can breathe, where we’re unbound.
I’ll hold your hand, we’ll face the unknown,
Together, a place to call our own.

The trees are swaying like they know our names,
The wind is dancing, carrying our flames.
The echoes fade as we leave the past,
In your eyes, I’ve found a love that lasts.

No more fear, no more disguise,
Underneath these open skies.
This is the haven we’ve always sought,
A place that time forgot.

Take me to a place to call our own,
Where the stars will guide us home.
Where the rivers run and time slows down,
Where we can breathe, where we’re unbound.
I’ll hold your hand, we’ll face the unknown,
Together, a place to call our own.

When the storms arise, we’ll stand as one,
When the shadows fall, we’ll chase the sun.
No matter where the journey bends,
With you, the road never ends.

Take me to a place to call our own,
Where the stars will guide us home.
Where the rivers run and time slows down,
Where we can breathe, where we’re unbound.
I’ll hold your hand, we’ll face the unknown,
Together, a place to call our own.

So when the world feels cold and alone,
I’ll find you there, a place to call our own.

your love is such a waste w/ ohmace & yokai dreams [tnvr]

I'm Geist