glass

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

ty for listening 
@imnotenvy
@prodjpjp

// envy
i’m feeling distant again
i silence on the outside
i know it hurts
leave me hanging
tell me you’re fine
and no one ever said
this had to be the last time
yeah, no one ever said
this had to be the last time

// geist
oh
i hear the sirens in the night
singing songs to my demise
getting lost inside your eyes
holding onto love that died…

i said that i’m fine
but i’ve been here losing my mind
and i don’t know what’s left to say
i swear that i wanted to try but i drowned in the tides and i stared as the nights turn to day

leave me alone
i’ll rot and decay
i had a good time but i’m running away
you couldn’t save geist
we’re one and the same
but no one loves me
it’s always his name

// geist & envy
i’m feeling distant again
i silence on the outside
i know it hurts
leave me hanging
tell me you’re fine
and no one ever said
this had to be the last time
yeah, no one ever said
this had to be the last time

i’m feeling distant again
what’s to say?
no better feeling okay
oh tell me this is the end
spare my heart
don’t wait it’s too late

spotify

distant w/ notenvy [jpjp]

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

Oh
I can see you when I fall asleep
You live in my head now you're haunting me
Holding my hand and then you cut my veins
Squeeze every ounce of my blood you can take
Oh...

YOU'VE GOT YOUR HANDS AROUND MY NECK 
AND YOU'RE TAKING MY LIFE :( 
TIGHT LIKE A NOOSE 
OH I CAN HEAR YOU SMILE...

OH OH OH OH OH
OH OH OH OH OH 

So shut me up
Go on sever my tongue
And if it's not enough
Then just cut my throat out
Hear me grasp for air
But I'll still stare
At how your eyes captivate
Everyone around you babe...

You said "what are we"
What are we??
I don't know love...
Cause it seems like you're somebody
To someone else now :( 
And don't act like it's funny
Cause I'm throwing up
Wiped the blood up
With money
Cause that's all I'm for

THAT'S ALL I'M FOR 
SIX FEET UNDERNEATH AND IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 
IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld

Cut me up now, burn me in fire
Watch as i drown, love, don't you get tired?
Taking my life again and again
Twist in the knife, it's your only friend

I'm just another body to you
You're undercover, but I'm no fool
Out for blood, I know you are

I see there's murder on your 
MIND
DARLING 
I'M BARELY ALIVE
SO DIG MY GRAVE 
Parasites crawling away
Poltergeists taking my place

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
IN THE UNDERWORLD 
IN THE UNDERWORLD

what you deserve

what you deserve w/ tnvr [tnvr]

@tnvr555

// geist 
take me home
i’m surrounded by ghosts
i’ve been haunted by my past too long
carry on

there’s no coming back
it’s what i had sworn
and then i saw your face
oh how i adored my
who you were
but you’re not anymore
sire me
make me yours
push me back to the floor
oh

if blood is what you need
you can take it from my veins
cause you know i would die for you
any fucking day
so take all that you want
oh baby, spit in my face
cause you know i’d give all for you
but you won’t do the 
same

// rik 
walking on my grave
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way
woah woah
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way

blood stains on the carpet once again
everyday is just another nightmare
some days i can see your ghost
it’s like i’m not always alone
this whole things like a fever dream
don’t wake me up when the bloods still clean
close your eyes
watch a madman disappear
it’s like you're mesmerized
i know everything you fear
super natural
that hungry look in your eyes
you're so beautiful
i’d kill to have you as mine 

// geist and rik 
if blood is what you need
you can take it from my veins
cause you know i would die for you
any fucking day
so take all that you want
oh baby, spit in my face
cause you know i’d give all for you
but you won’t do the 
same

walking on my grave
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way
woah woah
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way 

WALKING ON MY GRAVE 
THERE'S NOT MUCH WE COULD SAVE 
CAST YOUR HEX GO ON YOUR WAY 
WALKING ON MY GRAVE 
THERE'S NOT MUCH WE COULD SAVE 
CAST YOUR HEX GO ON YOUR WAY

walking on my grave

walking on my grave w/ revengeinkyoto [tnvr]

// geist
get me out of this misery
pretty eyes and they’re haunting me
said it’s fine but please don’t believe
cast a spell now i’m yours to keep

sent back to hell
they said please remember
you aren’t well
you died last december
now i just hate how it feels
to know that my fate is sealed
to know that i never healed
to know what’s stolen from me
but it haunts me every night
and it eats me up inside
yet i counted every time
you let me down with your lies

get me out of this misery
pretty eyes and they’re haunting me
said it’s fine but please don’t believe
cast a spell now i’m yours to keep

now i’m yours 
cast a spell
now i’m yours
now i’m yours
now i’m yours 
cast a spell
now i’m yours to keep
cast a spell
cast a spell

// kellin quinn
oh here we go
just like the last time it started
look in your eyes and i can tell that you’re not the same
your out for blood
and i can tell your taste has changed
put your hands on my skin
and you say that you wanna taste (you wanna taste)
the only way to your heart
is to let you tear me apart

so won't you tear me apart yeah
so tear me apart
i wont let you go
no i wont let you go, no
so tear me
so tear me apart

// kellin & geist
get me out of my misery
pretty eyes and they’re haunting me
said it’s fine but please don’t believe
cast a spell now i’m yours to keep

now i’m yours
cast a spell
now i’m yours
now i’m yours
now i’m yours 
cast a spell
now i’m yours
yours to keep

yours to keep

yours to keep w/ kellin quinn [tnvr]

there seems to be a problem
oh don’t wait for me
heaven’s falling down
the rooms getting colder darling
don’t look out the window
it’s falling down

you’ll see death
you’ll see me try to fix everything that we had in the past
you’ll see death
you’ll see me as i hit the ground
lost my wings all again

there’s seems to be somebody else
scraping their hands against the wall
and when hope is lost you’ll find my name doesn’t spark light
no not at all..

i don’t want to fight it
let it take control
i let you down
now you don’t love me no more
and when i hit the ground
oh not a sound was heard
so please just scrape what‘s left of me
and sell the bones

heaven's falling down

@onlyfriendyeah 

// onlyfriend
i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
so hate me
fuck your friends and move on with your life
it's taking everything i've got to even try
now i won't say forever, forever's come and go
cause people change and people leave
it's just the way it goes

i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
i've been dead and gone for six weeks
won't take you back
don't hold me down
please don't tell me how you feel alive
whenever i'm around

// i'm geist
ohh
you have a way with your words
to always get what you want
no
i’d tell you how much hurts
but what’s the point of it now

six weeks dead still in my bed
and the sheets stained red, holes in my head
and after all was said, i watched you burn it down
had me holding on tight, to a love in the ground
promised we’d be alright, so how is it over now?
oh if you just stayed the night, we would have figured it out
now i’m stuck here without you
minds plagued full of doubt
and there’s nothing to amount too
with these stains on my crown

six weeks

six weeks w/ onlyfriend [iof x king theta]

Prod @heylog

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

So ashamed of me
Feel my body limp
I was sat wondering
What I’ve ruined again
If part of me listens 
The other half’s dead
I was waiting in the corner 
I was rotting in my bed

I see waves come in
I see oceans rise 
You were there for it
Fractions of my life
I wouldn’t spend this 8th with anybody else
Know I saw through it
Puppet on a screen 

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

yours to keep w/ kellin quinn [tnvr]

I'm Geist