prod hiraeth
just trying things, sorry if not best

is this as bad as before?
laid out on the floor
how can you claim you wanna know
with all my messages ignored

i don’t think you really understand
i told you alr we wont last
told me where i cut it’s getting bad
but i don’t care,
you wish i never had

fucked up got my head in my hands
i won’t love, you get it all on-demand
no thoughts, running dry like the sand
don’t leave ur all i have

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

leave me alone
i don’t wanna try but ur arguing
i have anxiety
they’re watching me
I’m tryna quit
you don’t really know me
feel like im nothing but misery
I’m tryna find a way to block out what you did to me
you can call me useless
least i had a fucking ounce of trust
let go of everyone
I’m struggling to give you up
you don’t really want me
i had everything and fucked it up
is this a sign that i should stop pretending how to love

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

start of the end

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

spotify

weak w/ heylog [oc]

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

produced by mix :<
https://open.spotify.com/track/3vsUEARbBYl2sVUUxj8BzJ?si=a8223fb7c4324dd3

enjoy <3

lyrics:

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

oh it's over, not the slightest
chance, not a four-leaf clover
but you keep going getting on closer
oh closer no, no closer

you know where im at
if you ever wanna

𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

ill turn him to dust
so dont make me say it

𝚝𝚠𝚒𝚌𝚎

we're going blow for blow
finna make him see

𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎

now he's bleeding from
the neck down, lost his

𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

(@dawsin)

i dont give a fuck, so go fuck on ur man,
i saw him outside the outskirts of japan,
remember the past when i passed you with a sigh,
now i cut the head of the snake with a scythe

your a cheating bitch that's someone i cant stand,
your acting more like a whore im not a fan.
PUT A CROSS ON MY HEART AND HOPE HE DIES
NOW SHES PESTERING ME, ANNOYING LIKE A FLY

𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚕𝚢-

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑

𝗌𝗁𝖾𝗌 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝖻𝗂𝗍𝖼𝗁 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾
𝖿𝗈𝗅𝗅𝗈𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍
𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗅𝗈𝗈𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝖺𝗉𝗌
𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗋𝖺𝗌𝗁, 𝗒𝗈𝗎
𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖺 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗍-

𝚜𝚑𝚑, 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢, 𝚜𝚑𝚑 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢

gnat

Baby lie and say you love me, then you’ll stab me in my back 
I can’t lie to you, I’m dying from the last thing you said   

Im saying baby please don’t worry, don’t get all up in your head
We can find another way, if we could just talk instead 

Baby say you hate me 
Oh no 
You don’t wanna talk now
I know 
I don’t wanna feel shit 
I hate this 
I dont wanna say it so baby watch this 

Baby tell me what I mean to you 
You never even had a clue 
Im falling deep far more than you 
I’ve lost it all, much more than you 

Off that dank god I’m too high I’m spinning in my room 
I can’t feel, pop a pill, im saying I’ll see you soon 
But I’ll fall apart in my bed 
As I lie awake and full of dread 

Baby say you hate me 
Oh no 
You don’t wanna talk now
I know 
I don’t wanna feel shit 
I hate this 
I dont wanna say it so baby watch this 
Baby say you hate me 
Oh no 
You don’t wanna talk now
I know 
I don’t wanna feel shit 
I hate this 
I dont wanna say it so baby watch this 

Know I lose my shit everytime you tell me off 
I can’t feel my heart, and you tell me that it’s lost  
Then you wipe my tears and you tell me that it’s love 
And you’ll leave me dead when you see me fucking up

decedent

+ i'm geist, decayinganyways, yokai dreams, ohmace, iissaa, yona, grasior 
+ coprod. mix/master - oc 

// i'm geist 
the seance has started :) 
find his heart in the garden 
don't look too hard my darling 
you'll find bones you once held dearly..
oh 
you once held dearly 
oh 
severed cleanly 

parasites are rotting with the snakes now? 
carving all the fakes fucking 'round me its a takedown 
everybody's sitting on their ass with their phones out 
swear i'll see the reaper b4 you catch me taking breaks love 
aha 

// decayinganyways 
walking out the bar not alive 
seen a name on a grave and I’m thinking that it’s mine
“mine” 
i’m not alive, I’m just another fucking ghost who’s out of time 
who’s out of time 
oh 
i wish I could just come back 
won’t see me now a heart attack 
i just wanna haunt inside your dreams 
i just wanna haunt inside your

// yokai dreams 
this is getting sickening
i think i'm getting sick of me
rip up every inch of me
i no longer resemble me
look at what they did to me
look at what they did to me !
am i not deserving of some sympathy?

give it my all for as long as i can
when the day turns night we gon have the upper hand
turn the lights off baby
i can't stand them
feel like someone else, you don't know how i am

lately i've been on some shit you wouldn't understand
another nail in the coffin, leave me where i am
getting kinda hard to tell the man from the myth
mark my death with a kiss
let me rot or take my hand

// ohmace 
six feet down rotting in another grave
turn me to a geist as i slowly decay
the dreams on my mind and they wont go away
and I dont know what else to do or to say
its in my brain,
somebody help my im going insane
call me a doctor and tell him to hurry
cut out the demons Im starting to worry
theyre taking over me
my blood seeps through as theyre ripping the seems
theyre taking over me
theyre haunting me in every dream

//iissaa 
i'd rather go 
somewhere that you don't know.
someplace that i dont show
somewhere behind the snow
is it fair that you can't see me now
tried so hard but i'm letting go
it's my fault, i said i'm where you go
my god i wish i never told

// yona 
look around with dead gaze
i dont think i go this
the leaves turn from green to orange
it feels so nostalgic
used to hold your hand, and fall asleep to your heartbeat
now ur gripping at my wrist, saying "how long u got bitch?" 
ive been panick struggling trying to get of the floor
grab me by the waist, cut me open some more
youre the ghost of a person i feel before
now im crying in fear, begging no more

// grasior 
fuck yall be saying i'm sick of it all
my stomach keeps turning i'm leaning on walls
scrolling my phone till i feel it collide
my anger is rising cause i'm in denial
i need to man up i'm not on my own
notes that i wrote considered the unknown'
seeing a grave all on my own
a body is showing of someone i know

raise the flags in the frontline
might be dead but i'll fight till the sun rise
left or right paranoid can you talk to me
hear the horns in distant calling me
want it to end sacrifice all my peace
silent but deadly i'll take them with ease
my body is rumbling I'm feeling the thrill
killstreak in a nuke with how many i've killed 


919

séance w/ 919 + grasior

first song off "doomed" album
prod. @prod-oc 

// lyrics 
you fall from heaven
then you promised it won’t happen again???
your wings are fully severed
and your eyes are turning red like a fiend

oh my, alright
got a lot of blood dripped to the side
got a lot of thoughts
rotting my mind
got a lot of pain
that i’m still romanticizing
but don’t judge my insides
when you all keep on disguises
all night

you fall from heaven and said
please don’t go and tell all my friends
but your wings are god damned severed
don’t you think that they all know it’s the end

oh my alright
got a lot of scars all on your thighs
got a lot of drugs i know you hide
got a lot of pain that you’re still romanticizing
but won’t judge your insides
when i’ve kept up my disguises
all night
aha

romanticize

romanticize [oc]

breathe in
and breathe out
but you don't hear a sound
so you'll ask me if i'm okay
you're leaving
and me now
then we go back around
watched it all end on that Wednesday

please don't look at me
feel sickening
but i just want to know if you're still listening
the summer's gone and fall's soon following
will winter freeze what's left of what we had remained

watched it all end on a wednesday
butterflies around your neck
watched it all end on a wednesday
pulled you in for a kiss
cause i knew it’s the end

watched it all end on that wednesday [neverforever]

Prod @heylog

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

So ashamed of me
Feel my body limp
I was sat wondering
What I’ve ruined again
If part of me listens 
The other half’s dead
I was waiting in the corner 
I was rotting in my bed

I see waves come in
I see oceans rise 
You were there for it
Fractions of my life
I wouldn’t spend this 8th with anybody else
Know I saw through it
Puppet on a screen 

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

limp

oh
you’ve got everyone here fooled
it’s all an act
and you’ll use us like tools
i don’t have much left that i’d say to you
so i’ll take the fall
but i can’t play it cool

i watched the blood dripped till nothing was left
i pulled you in for a kiss then you laid me to rest
but those nights were my comfort
oh they were the best
what i would do to feel you on my chest

but the serpents got his tongue
inside of your mouth
i’m a devil of my word
mean what i say love
i can’t let you back in
cause you’d cut yourself out
and bring all of my insides
with you to the south
oh no

valentine?

oh oh me oh oh my
i can see in your eyes
all the blood on your face
used to paint on a smile
when i grip on your waist
and i feel your insides
yeah i’m back at your place
cause i’ve given up pride

oh oh me oh oh my
you know i don’t tell lies
cause when you told yours love
how it ruined my life
won’t let anyone feel
how i felt that night
so trust me or just don’t
i swear i don’t tell lies

i'm a devil of my word

i'm a devil of my word [neverforever]

something a lil sleep token/ brakencey/ sinxi/ deadfishy inspired
obviously


i hear a little whisper between silence on the phone
you say you really miss me, god i hope you really dont
the feelings shattered across somewhere, between the ash and gold
i feel a bit uncomfortable, pretend i really dont

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction


im sure youve heard this song before in every genre
always ranting about something and nobodys bothered
i could try be clever write a double entendre
just for you to listen and not read the lyrics
or maybe i’ll produce something spend ages working on it

-------------just to be compared to every artist that you know ----------------             
                     ===================================
or maybe it’s your fault for listening to everyone and nobody at all
i guess i could be wrong
i guess ill never know
everything’s generic so im reaping what they sow

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

i'm a devil of my word [neverforever]

valentine ghost

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