forsaken foreskin

guitar played by @prod-oc

lyrics:
you hold here
stop it
it hurts 
here stop it
destroy myself
for you
destroy myself
for you
for you
don't don't 
don't don't

forever

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

Wrong One

+ i'm geist, decayinganyways, yokai dreams, ohmace, iissaa, yona, grasior 
+ coprod. mix/master - oc 

// i'm geist 
the seance has started :) 
find his heart in the garden 
don't look too hard my darling 
you'll find bones you once held dearly..
oh 
you once held dearly 
oh 
severed cleanly 

parasites are rotting with the snakes now? 
carving all the fakes fucking 'round me its a takedown 
everybody's sitting on their ass with their phones out 
swear i'll see the reaper b4 you catch me taking breaks love 
aha 

// decayinganyways 
walking out the bar not alive 
seen a name on a grave and I’m thinking that it’s mine
“mine” 
i’m not alive, I’m just another fucking ghost who’s out of time 
who’s out of time 
oh 
i wish I could just come back 
won’t see me now a heart attack 
i just wanna haunt inside your dreams 
i just wanna haunt inside your

// yokai dreams 
this is getting sickening
i think i'm getting sick of me
rip up every inch of me
i no longer resemble me
look at what they did to me
look at what they did to me !
am i not deserving of some sympathy?

give it my all for as long as i can
when the day turns night we gon have the upper hand
turn the lights off baby
i can't stand them
feel like someone else, you don't know how i am

lately i've been on some shit you wouldn't understand
another nail in the coffin, leave me where i am
getting kinda hard to tell the man from the myth
mark my death with a kiss
let me rot or take my hand

// ohmace 
six feet down rotting in another grave
turn me to a geist as i slowly decay
the dreams on my mind and they wont go away
and I dont know what else to do or to say
its in my brain,
somebody help my im going insane
call me a doctor and tell him to hurry
cut out the demons Im starting to worry
theyre taking over me
my blood seeps through as theyre ripping the seems
theyre taking over me
theyre haunting me in every dream

//iissaa 
i'd rather go 
somewhere that you don't know.
someplace that i dont show
somewhere behind the snow
is it fair that you can't see me now
tried so hard but i'm letting go
it's my fault, i said i'm where you go
my god i wish i never told

// yona 
look around with dead gaze
i dont think i go this
the leaves turn from green to orange
it feels so nostalgic
used to hold your hand, and fall asleep to your heartbeat
now ur gripping at my wrist, saying "how long u got bitch?" 
ive been panick struggling trying to get of the floor
grab me by the waist, cut me open some more
youre the ghost of a person i feel before
now im crying in fear, begging no more

// grasior 
fuck yall be saying i'm sick of it all
my stomach keeps turning i'm leaning on walls
scrolling my phone till i feel it collide
my anger is rising cause i'm in denial
i need to man up i'm not on my own
notes that i wrote considered the unknown'
seeing a grave all on my own
a body is showing of someone i know

raise the flags in the frontline
might be dead but i'll fight till the sun rise
left or right paranoid can you talk to me
hear the horns in distant calling me
want it to end sacrifice all my peace
silent but deadly i'll take them with ease
my body is rumbling I'm feeling the thrill
killstreak in a nuke with how many i've killed 


919

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séance w/ 919 + grasior

oh
you’ve got everyone here fooled
it’s all an act
and you’ll use us like tools
i don’t have much left that i’d say to you
so i’ll take the fall
but i can’t play it cool

i watched the blood dripped till nothing was left
i pulled you in for a kiss then you laid me to rest
but those nights were my comfort
oh they were the best
what i would do to feel you on my chest

but the serpents got his tongue
inside of your mouth
i’m a devil of my word
mean what i say love
i can’t let you back in
cause you’d cut yourself out
and bring all of my insides
with you to the south
oh no

valentine?

oh oh me oh oh my
i can see in your eyes
all the blood on your face
used to paint on a smile
when i grip on your waist
and i feel your insides
yeah i’m back at your place
cause i’ve given up pride

oh oh me oh oh my
you know i don’t tell lies
cause when you told yours love
how it ruined my life
won’t let anyone feel
how i felt that night
so trust me or just don’t
i swear i don’t tell lies

i'm a devil of my word

i'm a devil of my word [neverforever]

give a big frown
and cold shoulders 
carving up my heart  
like it’s still october 
face down 
guess it’s over 
i’ll still say goodluck 
my four-leaf clover 

i miss your face 
how you’d come and just lay down 
kiss you on the cheek 
and then it’d all feel okay wyow 
now i wake in pain ow 
the rush all to my brains gone 
skipping meals all week 
cause i can’t seem to keep them down

season’s almost over 
god i hate the way 
that i can’t stay sober 
reason’s getting colder 
so tell me to my face 
that you miss me lover :(

god i hate the way that i miss you lover 
god i hate the way that i miss you 
 
// verse 
sick to my stomach
trying not to vomit 
say
why’re you running? 
are you hiding something :/ 
stay 
i’m not sorry 
but i need you dearly 
sick to my stomach
i’ll jump off the summit 

sick to my stomach
trying not to vomit 
people like to doubt me
last i checked i got my money coming 
hey, what’s the problem 
why you acting funny 
people like to doubt me
like their numbers can’t be made with pennies

tell me to my face, that you miss me lover [prodsecre x jolst]

conversation, we should give it up
i think im struggling to fight you
and theres no need for me to act so tough
id throw my life away to find you
and we can stop, tell me its enough
inflict all the damage you want
you can bruise my bones and be rough
id never tell you to stop

this is the only time i get to hear you
ive wasted all my life, trying to see you
and i dont go outside, cause im ashamed to
id rather stay and hide, its what im bound to

bound

prod stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

ft @xav0id

her soundcloud - 
https://on.soundcloud.com/vMttEe6irRmQ5eXX9

(and aydan)

lyrics:

(hey j, um it’s aydan, ur kinda of a bitch now, so. anyways. bye bye)

ARBYS WE HAVE THE MEAT

stezzyxl-
watch ur tone, u need a clamp among that tongue bitch
watch ur phone, get the noti, dropped a song “snitch”
all that talk is cheap, i had to up the payment
say u run the show but barely even claim shit?

they think i fell off
i still make music, no?
“stezzy pop off” 
i make what i want bro.
i do everything
no one else can ever do
so don’t compare me
to his little “crew”
they think i fell off
i still make music, no?
“stezzy pop off” 
i make what i want bro.
i do everything
no one else can ever do
so don’t compare me
to his little “crew”

u used to go by j
now then call u jen
dosent change the fact u fucked with all my friends
tryna run away?
from ur problems; say?
u think that people will forget 
ONCE YOU SWITCH UR NAME?

ONCE U SWITCH UR NAME
WILL FORGET WILL U SWITCH UR NAME?
ONCE U SWITCH UR NAME
WILL FORGET WILL U SWITCH UR NAME?

xav0id-
watch ur tone, u need a clamp among that tongue bitch
watch ur phone, get the noti, dropped a song “snitch”
all that talk is cheap, i had to up the payment
say u run the show but barely even claim shit?

shit
shit
shit
shit

they think i fell off
i still make music, no?
“brizy pop off” 
i make what i want bro.
i do everything
no one else can ever do
so don’t compare me
to his little “crew”

u used to go by j
now then call u jen
dosent change the fact u fucked with all his friends
tryna run away?
from ur problems; say?
u think that people will forget 
ONCE YOU SWITCH UR NAME?

LOL

u dumbass ass bitch how did that fist taste?

watch ur tone, u need a clamp among that tongue bitch
watch ur phone, get the noti, dropped a song “snitch”
all that talk is cheap, i had to up the payment
say u run the show but barely even claim shit?

how did that fist taste?
LOL

snitch w/ xav0id

im sorry its quiet messy, it was supposed to be one take throughout i just couldnt do it, im sure you can hear. lyrics can be found on sleeps version.
i miss you sm buddy

anxiety - sleepwater (one take)

[Verse]
Dark and void
No breath no name
Empty sky
No spark no flame
Waters churning
Endless night
Where was the voice
Where was the light

[Chorus]
And He said let there be
And there was
And it was free
Let there be
And it was good

[Verse 2]
Split the sky
The heavens wide
Land rose up
The seas collide
Seed and root
The earth gave birth
Colors blooming
Fire and dirt

[Prechorus]
Oh the rhythm
Oh the sound
Life was pulsing in the ground

[Chorus]
And He said let there be
And there was
And it was free
Let there be
And it was good

[Bridge]
Sun and moon
A dance on high
Stars like sparks in a painted sky
Beasts that crawl
The ones that soar
Every heartbeat
Every roar

i'm a devil of my word [neverforever]

valentine ghost

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