w @xona

produced by sleepwater speedlmt leftquiet and xona

lyrics

i needed some revenge
but i dont wanna vent
can you hear me now
its hurting my head
stop shutting me down
you were half of me wow
but now your not here
i need a way out
u were liquid to me
maybe mixed w some sea
but now she is flying
i wanna retreat
guard my heart
while u stand
from the mill
its feeling far
when u tell me its real
how could i move on when
i dont even want to
ill let this go on
cos i dont know how to
miss you
another song where
i vent bout my issues
waitings long come rip
out my tissues
im so selfish
everyones got traumas
im not speaking can u let me follow her
do i need therapy or pills in my fucking head
my life expectancy
cheers for all this fucking stress

im escaping every night my fucking hed
pls dont aim in
counting on my fucking hed
collecting all my fucking debt
pounding hard right out my chest
guess im sleeping thats a flex
lets skip eating and have sex
what are you eating guess thats bread
what are you doing no no
who are you with now
its how it spread
would u even like me
cant u tell that im trying
oh pls just like me
i swear that im crying

xona
i thought i need to go and let loose of me
but I’m stuck inside where the sun don’t seep
so i just watch along as the days runs deep
and i got my tea in hand so I’m calm for the least
and i don’t know, who i could be
i feel alone, when there’s others around me
i can’t cope, you know it better than me
to let it go but I’m the worst you could be
to go back home
where I could find a home cause I feel alone
falling, dying right here for you

oh i dont wanna talk
im ruined

ruined w/xona

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

spotify

weak w/ heylog [oc]

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

prod @prod-oc

// lyrics 
leave me with what to prove
you speak all but the truth
and betray
such a rude display
aha

they crowd around like sheep
but i don’t really sleep
it’s for the weak
and i don’t really care
it’s not that deep no
leave her with a scare
in the wrong season

look me in the face
what’s left to say love
i’ll give them some credit
they should’ve stand down
seems like everybody’s
acting like a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

uh
i don’t fuck with your friends
i’d put that bitch in the grave love
um
keep sticking pins in your hand
you can’t go a day without drugs yuh
say your man’s in a band
i get more streams than he could understand
he doesn’t know what you do with your hands
wrap around me like a rubberband

bring the flame
set the fire
let it burn
i love pain
i love to hurt
baby kick me in the dirt now
say my name
with a passion
i’m the worst
make it heard
by the whole world
let them know
i’m out for blood now

i can feel the tension
cutting tendons up until he dies
i can fill the room up with the bodies
frame a suicide
i can be the geist that haunts your bloodline
every day and night
i can see through your disguise
all the fear inside your eyes

get your money up
get my name out of your mouth
bitch
it’s sorta funny now
all your groupies fuck with my shit
act all buddy love
bet you’re wishing that i had quit
it’s really funny now
you’re on your knees sucking my dick

blood on my hands
wiped on my pants
reload the gun and we’re ready
it’s all in the plan
stay in demand
going up we’re steady
seems like everybody’s
acting a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

scarecrows scattered across the fields
i move swift, i never yield
cover up where my arms bleed
you wont smell the blood on me

so you’ve got perfect aim
but cannot hit me i’m a phantom
promise i’m not worried
bro you’re just a fucking random
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

step out of my way
i swear i’ll turn you to an atom
and no i am not worried
guess you haven’t seen my fandom
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

phantom

phantom [oc]

sorry mix is so rough for now 

// lyrics 
guess i took a break from the red 
oh no  
now it’s all on my hair 
match my skin and bones 
i don’t got what it takes 
so you go back home 
and find somebody else 
cause i’m never wrong 

say something 
if you can give me comfort 
but i already tainted 
my house with the memories 
kissed you held tight 
and watched you slumber 
say something 
but please do not lie to me 

please do not lie to me 

i’m so sorry 
i get so silent 
the words are getting stuck 
but ik they wouldn’t make a difference   
hearts dropped to my stomach 
so aim the knife lower darling 
but i’ll say that i love you 
and i hope you know i mean it 

I CANT TAKE THIS MAN 
SHIT JUST NEVER ENDS 
SAY YOU FUCKING CARE 
BUT YOU NEVER SHOW IT TO ME 
BLOODS ALL ON MY HANDS 
AND ITS ALWAYS MINE 
DONT LOOK ME IN THE FACE 
CAUSE YOURE NOT MY MUSE BABY

change your name [prodsecre x heyrick]

Produced by ERXN 
@itsbuffe 

Lyrics 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And now my head can never feel right 
I got all this anxiety staying with my head 

I hope one day that I will feel right 
Otherwise im scared that I might jump right out my bed 
And if these walls around me close 
Il be memories and a ghost
Il be rid of all this pain 
Write down what you say and what you know 
Hopefully one day its close 
And you will never stay awake 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

what did you say?
you lied to my face
i can't stay
i feel betrayed

i don't wanna fight
i just keep my thoughts inside
stay out of my sight
i don't want you by my side
hate it when you were beside of me
weighted with anxiety
feels like someone's watching me
i don't know this part of me

paranoid

it's so sad it's so bad i'd rather be alone
i'd rather be at home
scratch on my neck
write your name in my flesh
carve out all of your stress
i'd rather be dead 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

REST w/ buffë

+ i'm geist, decayinganyways, yokai dreams, ohmace, iissaa, yona, grasior 
+ coprod. mix/master - oc 

// i'm geist 
the seance has started :) 
find his heart in the garden 
don't look too hard my darling 
you'll find bones you once held dearly..
oh 
you once held dearly 
oh 
severed cleanly 

parasites are rotting with the snakes now? 
carving all the fakes fucking 'round me its a takedown 
everybody's sitting on their ass with their phones out 
swear i'll see the reaper b4 you catch me taking breaks love 
aha 

// decayinganyways 
walking out the bar not alive 
seen a name on a grave and I’m thinking that it’s mine
“mine” 
i’m not alive, I’m just another fucking ghost who’s out of time 
who’s out of time 
oh 
i wish I could just come back 
won’t see me now a heart attack 
i just wanna haunt inside your dreams 
i just wanna haunt inside your

// yokai dreams 
this is getting sickening
i think i'm getting sick of me
rip up every inch of me
i no longer resemble me
look at what they did to me
look at what they did to me !
am i not deserving of some sympathy?

give it my all for as long as i can
when the day turns night we gon have the upper hand
turn the lights off baby
i can't stand them
feel like someone else, you don't know how i am

lately i've been on some shit you wouldn't understand
another nail in the coffin, leave me where i am
getting kinda hard to tell the man from the myth
mark my death with a kiss
let me rot or take my hand

// ohmace 
six feet down rotting in another grave
turn me to a geist as i slowly decay
the dreams on my mind and they wont go away
and I dont know what else to do or to say
its in my brain,
somebody help my im going insane
call me a doctor and tell him to hurry
cut out the demons Im starting to worry
theyre taking over me
my blood seeps through as theyre ripping the seems
theyre taking over me
theyre haunting me in every dream

//iissaa 
i'd rather go 
somewhere that you don't know.
someplace that i dont show
somewhere behind the snow
is it fair that you can't see me now
tried so hard but i'm letting go
it's my fault, i said i'm where you go
my god i wish i never told

// yona 
look around with dead gaze
i dont think i go this
the leaves turn from green to orange
it feels so nostalgic
used to hold your hand, and fall asleep to your heartbeat
now ur gripping at my wrist, saying "how long u got bitch?" 
ive been panick struggling trying to get of the floor
grab me by the waist, cut me open some more
youre the ghost of a person i feel before
now im crying in fear, begging no more

// grasior 
fuck yall be saying i'm sick of it all
my stomach keeps turning i'm leaning on walls
scrolling my phone till i feel it collide
my anger is rising cause i'm in denial
i need to man up i'm not on my own
notes that i wrote considered the unknown'
seeing a grave all on my own
a body is showing of someone i know

raise the flags in the frontline
might be dead but i'll fight till the sun rise
left or right paranoid can you talk to me
hear the horns in distant calling me
want it to end sacrifice all my peace
silent but deadly i'll take them with ease
my body is rumbling I'm feeling the thrill
killstreak in a nuke with how many i've killed 


919

séance w/ 919 + grasior

prod stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

ft @xav0id

her soundcloud - 
https://on.soundcloud.com/vMttEe6irRmQ5eXX9

lyrics:
stezzyxl -
hold me tight to the bitter end
wrap a rope around my ankles till i’m in ur bed
hmm “hold me close” we’re the words she said
loving u is brutal, when the love is dead

gotta carry on
i don’t wanna love you; gotta move along
gotta walk it off
maybe in another life
in another time
maybe then you’ll change your mind
then you’ll change your mind, but then again you won’t
but then again you 
wont
but then again you 
won’t
but then again you 
won’t
but then again you 
won’t

xav0id w/ stezzyxl -
please don’t leave me again
darling please stay
everyday i pray 
(x2)

stezzyxl -
monsters fill my room
they smell like her perfume
there stuck with me like glue
the image i have of you

stezzyxl w/ xav0id -
ohh
ohh
ohh 
ohh

xav0id -
i 
dont like
to fight
with 
myself
at night
(x2)

move on w/ xav0id

oh
you’ve got everyone here fooled
it’s all an act
and you’ll use us like tools
i don’t have much left that i’d say to you
so i’ll take the fall
but i can’t play it cool

i watched the blood dripped till nothing was left
i pulled you in for a kiss then you laid me to rest
but those nights were my comfort
oh they were the best
what i would do to feel you on my chest

but the serpents got his tongue
inside of your mouth
i’m a devil of my word
mean what i say love
i can’t let you back in
cause you’d cut yourself out
and bring all of my insides
with you to the south
oh no

valentine?

oh oh me oh oh my
i can see in your eyes
all the blood on your face
used to paint on a smile
when i grip on your waist
and i feel your insides
yeah i’m back at your place
cause i’ve given up pride

oh oh me oh oh my
you know i don’t tell lies
cause when you told yours love
how it ruined my life
won’t let anyone feel
how i felt that night
so trust me or just don’t
i swear i don’t tell lies

i'm a devil of my word

i'm a devil of my word [neverforever]

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

It’s all about you 
Love it’s all about you
I hold my head in my hands 
Babe it’s what I’m bound to
Thinking of you
I can’t stop I’ve tried to
I’d let you do most anything, you felt you had to
Treat me however you wanted
Lay down my body, on mountains of rubbish
I broke my arm for you to hold it
Gave you a gun, point it right at your target

Oh it wasn’t worth it all
Watch it fade to black 
I could give my life to you, and still you’d want it back
When there’s nothing left to offer I could split in half
Give you the other part of me, the one I’ve never had

You can devour me, leave me with holes
Eat all my flaws away, rip from bones
Take what you want, just to leave me alone
If it’ll make you love me 

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

God, I’m restless 
You could take it easy now 
You’ve taken people that I love and you’ve left me with nowt 
So you can take the credit when I go to your house
This is not a joke
Please do not test me now

It must be funny walking round and everybody hates me
And I can’t shake that feeling, it’s how you made me
Is that amusing?
Is that your humour?
I find you stupid
I find you’re useless 
And when I see you
Oh if I ever do
And you compare me
To those infront of you
I’ll make it easy
Oh I’ll decide for you
When you can tell me 
What I was supposed to do

fermented

// yona
cling to your waist, god dont let this be a dream
its been so long, since someone's appeared in front of me 
ive been dying in the midst, fill my heart with vacancy
in my head i still believe that, ill....

lay out my arms
your head falls down soft
do you mind laying here with me?

cos were out in the sun
fell asleep so damn calm
how long till we lose this memory?

thought you were all i need

// valentine ghost 
i saw the love leaving your eyes
you said it was you and its i 
its always a lie 
tell me how you feel inside? 
are you just sick of us trying? 
i guess i should die 

cause i don’t know how you sleep soundly at night 
cant even breath when you’re not by my side