mixed and mastered by https://soundcloud.com/harrymason6969
added some samples to the beat <3
thank you for listening, it means so much even if you hate it. thank you for letting me cope :)
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lyrics:

slash my arm just like a tire 
i’m my own hitman for hire
take my knife and spill my guts
let the blade turn to rust
i’m tired of all my thoughts
no i don’t give any fucks
let me rot inside my bedroom
i just hope i fucking die soon
feel like a burden to everyone
ima grab my gun
then the blood starts to run
i can’t have no fun
one day hopefully i’ll run
away from myself
put my brain on a shelf
ima kill myself


put the rope around my neck
i just wanna be dead
ima fill my brain with lead
take a hit instead
no i don’t want anyone
to check up on me
i don’t wanna ruin your fun
talk to you later

lately all i feel is sad
i don’t wanna be dead
but my brain tells me that i want to
but i really don’t
i feel like a liar
when i talk to myself
cause i try to be positive
fuck, i can’t help myself
oh no

slash my arm just like a tire
i’m my own hitman for hire
take my knife and spill my guts
let the blade turn to rust
i’m tired of all my thoughts
no i don’t give any fucks
let me rot inside my bedroom
i just hope i fucking die soon
feel like a burden to everyone
kill myself for fun
as the blood starts to run
down my throat
really think that i should smoke
so i take my toke
if you listen consider this
my suicide note

putridum (prod. OrigamiBlxnt)

mixed n mastered by https://soundcloud.com/harrymason6969
been having a shitty few days but this helped. i appreciate the few people who may listen to this, it means more than you know


lyrics:

feel like i’m always outta sight
feel like i’ll never ever be alright
i just wanna be with you tonight
wanna be with tonight, yea
so pls baby hold me tight
i don’t wanna cry all through the night
again, i’m always fucking feeling low
it’s cold, so cold baby feel like snow

pls just hold me tight, yea
hold me tight while i cry
pls help me, i wanna die
would say i’m fine, but that’s a lie
it doesn’t matter if i yell
they never seem to hear me scream
why don’t they ever hear me? 
can you really hear me? 
am i even here? 
am i even real? 
touch me so i know
oh my god, i’ve been feeling low
fuck
my mind yea it won’t slow
i’m dead, feeling done hoe
i can’t, no i can’t know
take drugs, feel my heart slow
i’m close to being dead, oh
fuck natural causes
ima cause this
ima boss but no one thought this
prolly cause i’m so onboxious
pls, tell me just what caused this? 
i’m done, feeling nauseas
think i’m gonna throw up, aw shit
no i don’t have time for this
when you’re gone i always miss
you, that’s all that’s on my mind now
when you talk i’m feeling right, now
think i’ll have to get a flight down
to you
cause i really fucking need you
the thoughts in my head disappear
when you’re here
baby hold me, dear
always keep me near
always keep me near

bad thoughts, but you're the remedy

bad thoughts, but you're the remedy (Chill Sebs x aton)

mixed and mastered by https://soundcloud.com/harrymason6969
cover art credit goes to my baby, toby <3
brain has still been shitty lately so i had some shit to say. it’s really cool to see improvement though! i’m actually so proud of this one :) and again, thank you for listening, it rlly means a lot even if it’s just the same two people. it means so much to me. love you all <3

[lyrics]

i’m sick of this
i wanna scream
i wanna cry
i wanna die
grab the gun, i got the beam
going far, don’t wanna be seen
look at me, i’m not too clean
bugs in my hair
i got dirt everywhere
i can never take care of myself
someone pls fix my health
sometimes i worry myself
it’s so fucking normal
i’m not too phased
smoke a blunt, it’s a portal
really hope he stays
why? i’m dead anyways
it seems like it’s my destiny
idc, take the rest of me
fucking take it all
don’t want it back
thinking of the shit i never had
damn, am i really that bad? 
y’all make it seem like that
nobody ever had my back
so now, i’m here cause of you
i hadn’t always been this blue
this is for the fucks who hurt me
fuck you, i’m still here
you can’t drag me down
hah, i wish that was true
but cause of you i fucking drown
hate this town
kill me now
get me out
ima fucking clown
got me dressed up
with silly makeup
and a funny red nose
fuck these clothes
they feel so scratchy
maybe it’s my skin? 
idk, i’ll take em both off
see what feels the best
when do i get a chance to rest?
i feel i’ve done my best
what more can i do?
nothuman, they don’t feel you
they don’t see you
they don’t hear you
they don’t know you
they don’t want you
that’s what i hear in my head
so i just lie in bed
all fucking day
damn, i’m lazy
starting to think that i am crazy
drink until my vision hazy
who am i lately? 
maybe i’m just me
and that’s the problem
rlly wish that i could solve it
but would that rlly solve it?
idk, i should go
cut me deep and make it slow
i should sleep and then i’d know
what to do do or where to go
somehow i think that i should know

cognitive immobility (prod. 808risky)

i make shitty music about my stupid fucking problems
business stuff: nothumansoundcloud@gmail.com

bad thoughts, but you're the remedy (Chill Sebs x aton)

nothuman

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