in my head every track 😭😭😭😭 love you guys 💖

Guardin season 😴🙏🏼 both of you killed this🔥🔥🔥

1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

follow spotify!

let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

I love u if you’re reading this :’)

Lyrics:

[hero]

i should write a million songs
a discography is not one

so maybe i'm lovin the silence
prop up my fifty pound eyelids
spent years in this room on my own and if u don't believe i could paint u the tiling
most of my friends are one-sided
bout time that i cut all of my ties and
i'm looking rough in the mall yet she likin my hair and i don't even style it
these r my guys that i could not betray
i wouldn't even know how to
awol n timeless
grounds n lowlifes
the rest of my guys i can't rhyme thru
where did the time go
feels like i started a cyclone
i never imagined i'd make it here
or know the friends that i know

[navyxower]

every day i am outside in
this cold weather makes me feel alive, andr
your always inside of my iris
i wish id take you out for the night, then

i dont wanna casue a problem
i lost a couple friends that i loved
i need to make some sense, of what i, have known
im in love with you and no one, knows
i need to make up my mind again, timeless the gang, yeah we know how we ride in this
i dont fw hoes or a side bitch, i made it far, now im thinking where ive been
up in my minds a mess

times going by, and i cannot stop it
im tryna make sense of this
but i cant even breathe through my concious
nobody fuck with me
my style yeah i see
the pain in ur eyes
baby i got your back, even if you aint mine

[hero]

so maybe i'm lovin the silence
prop up my fifty pound eyelids
spent years in this room on my own and if u don't believe i could paint u the tiling
most of my friends are one-sided
bout time that i cut all of my ties and
i'm looking rough in the mall yet she likin my hair and i don't even style it
these r my guys that i could not betray
i wouldn't even know how to
awol n timeless
grounds n lowlifes
the rest of my guys i can't rhyme thru
where did the time go
feels like i started a cyclone
i never imagined i'd make it here
or know the friends that i know


thank you

to all of my listeners
to my idols i base my sound off of
and to all my friends that have stuck with me.
(names in the order of who i met first to last to the best of my memory)

@kurayuz-rageex
@kukisawus
@seltzerkrys
@xweepings
@yokaidreams
@canyouseetheghost
@navyxower
@killsadghxst
@adoretaiken
@lovecliqxe
@noeke
@prod_emerald
@solofttt
@cyzun
@emptychest
@autumndropsdead
@sadtxnshi
@shizukesaaa
@swno
@ztope
@powla
@prodselfdoubt
@camertin
@luvsig
@yxvngjones
@nevrwrld
@x1fern
@caspywaspy
@drewisdead
@failure404
@paperthinwallss
@im_slendr
@drewisdead
@anmldoctor
@betweentheveinsandi
@safeatlast
@lxstboymusic
@heyzbee
@dxnnyymusic
@mxlatonin
@crizzywhite
@cuts
@sivistial 

and so many others i couldn't find the @s for or aren't on soundcloud (or i missed cuz i was tired writing this list LOL)

you made me who i am today
and i am forever grateful all of you have been part of my life

thank you (ft. navyxower) (skellington)

Drown It Out

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISMFvsAGj38

its not you its you nd me
hidden in the leaves
look at where we are theres not much that you cant see
tell me where to start i don't mean to intervene
im just what you need and not rhetorically
moving accordingly and stacking this bank roll
oh watch me dangle and walk on this cable
join in the light show its better w eyes closed
roll back in my dome and ask how my night go
say its alright tho i knows its concerning
hope that im learning won't end up deserted
properly furnished end up in a nice home
been through them nights long enough we don't like those

its not you, its you and me (isolated) [video in description]

happy halloween! thought i'd hit y'all with a fun one for the holidays!
s/o to @siemspark + @rjpasin for brining this to life!

lyrics
--------
wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

and i don't think that you're alright
it's the little things about you i've been noticing on site
you've been howling all night
inconsistencies will always be attached to your life
if you're running don't hide
cause the probability of getting caught is so high
oh and at least i fucking tried
a corrupt intervention when your truth is just a lie
so throw this away
flush it right down the drain
you've perfected your aim
looks like nothings changed
so maybe

wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

music video

half baked (prod. siem spark x rj pasin)

"Got me romanticizing all the times we were arguing just cause you're talking to me"
w/ @guardinmusic
Prod by. @hkfiftyone2
Cover art by. @walkerdunnvisuals on Instagram

Lyrics:

yung van/
How you gonna block my phone
When I’m not home
How you gonna do me like that?
How you gonna say you care
When you’re not there
How you gonna do me like that?

My life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

guardin/
But I said a lot of shit I wish I didn’t
Feelin stuck inside my head like it’s a yankee fitted
Homerun is what I call it when I disappear
And if I’m being honest witchu goddess I ain’t even here
Checked out of my mind
I ain’t doing fine
Wished upon a star that I would see past twenty five
Blisters on my body from the way I’m passing time
I’m alright

yung van/
my life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

What happened to when you were all over me?
Didn’t have to pay cause your loving was free
Got me romanticizing all the times we were arguing just cause you're talking to me
Now you’re always ignoring me
All these other girls are boring me
No matter what they do, they just ain’t you and that thought has been getting to me
I adore you, but I couldn’t afford you
Your love’s amazing, always entertaining
You had me locked out, I was in the dog house
You only called my name when it’s dark out

How you gonna block my phone
When I’m not home
How you gonna do me like that?
How you gonna say you care
When you’re not there
How you gonna do me like that?

My life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

there's nothing left to say

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there's nothing left to say w/ guardin (Prod. HKFiftyOne)

first track off of the new guardin x flowars tape
full project comin' soon!

produced by space race x juannib x cruzgod

lyrics
--------
tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind
tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind

i fell in love cause she’s dead inside 
girl got me so weak she’s like my kryptonite
red all on her lips, i like baby girl 
i dreamt of the way that your lips
met my lips in the rain 
mesmerized by your pretty little eyes 
tryna get inside your mind 
baby you drive me crazy
you got me losing 
my mind my mind my mind
grabbing up on you behind 
let everyone know you’re mine

oh me oh my
don't waste no time
i get right into it baby you gon feel alive
it's eight past five
but we stay inside
the doors are locked with your body pushed into mine
  
tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind
tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind

follow flowars

guardin x flowars - tongue tied (prod. space race x juannib x cruzgod)

Lyrics:
Man I know I'm getting older
I turned into a stoner
Hey dad I just be playing
Know you know I'm just a loner

I wonder where my life went
I put that shit on silent
The days keep passing by
Live my life behind my eyelids

I keep seeing prime examples of what I'm supposed to be
I worry everyday that I'll let down my family tree
I've been working night and day but I still wonder honestly
Is it even good enough and can I change my destiny

I'm staying up, I'm laying low
I'm in the stu, don't check my phone
Don't understand, the new world we know
Not as a part, but just as a whole

I feel left out, not gonna cap
All this new shit, don't keep up with that
I stick to myself, the loneliest fact
Life just goes on, you can't run it back

Man I know I'm getting older
I turned into a stoner
Hey dad I just be playing
Know you know I'm just a loner

I wonder where my life went
I put that shit on silent
The days keep passing by
Live my life behind my eyelids

I keep seeing prime examples of what I'm supposed to be
I worry everyday that I'll let down my family tree
I've been working night and day but I still wonder honestly
Is it even good enough and can I change my destiny

I will keep trying, just for the sake
Yes I will bend, but I will not break
Take a step back at the end of the day
But it's not even over, like give me a break

I don't agree with my fate, yuh
Chasing the money since day one
Still in this mess, I'm a late one

Getting Older

[+] i think im over it
* prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse: 1]
said i loved you and i meant it
but i had bitches on me when i sent that text
maybe this is all for the best
you just goin' fuck with my head
can you kill me instead?
why the fuck you always gotta hate
i've been sippin henny, no chase
got some weed on my plate
roll it up, smoke slow
same hoodie, burn holes
bitch you know how it goes

[chorus:]
bitch you know how it goes
shorty so bad, tryna fuck on the low
see her face when i look out the window
she just want a chance, i don't think that i will though

[bridge:]
like god damn, i hate that
you were the one,
how the fuck could you say that?
"we should just be friends"
thought we'd never end

[verse: 2]
don't miss me now,
but soon you'll come right back
spit in your mouth,
cus i know that you like that
freaky bitch, he can't fuck you like me
king of the sheets, lil shawty call me
got the gas in my bag, you can smell it
tryna get up in my head, ima let it, slide
cus i'm busy making music, getting high
don't give a fuck about you bitch, or your guy

there's nothing left to say w/ guardin (Prod. HKFiftyOne)

yung van

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