Lyrics:

God please, teach me how to grow

I got bad habits and good ideas
haphazard when near ideals
subpar, that's the default feel
thusfar I don't know what's real
I imagined my friends hid hate
I'd create what I thought they'd say
Inundate me to altercate
is this really my fate?

I told them that I'd change
I molded to the pain
Land lower than I aim
It always ends the same

I'm never getting saved

kintsugi

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with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

it's not lost on me, i just needed space

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

they got queer kids in their crosshairs 
and their deaths never make the news
i live every second building upwards
and i'll use that just to ensure that you lose
tell me that the dreams dead cus you want it to be
i failed the way they designed
couldnt feel safe with myself 
tried to improve it with time

peerless, led to crosshairs
would my death ever make the news?
we lived every second building up hatred 
i can see it in all of your views
wishing that a dream's dead cus you need it to be
fell out of what they designed
trauma wont dictate my path
removed for how i align

with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

saw the patterns before everyone else
i gave em warnings, didnt matter, i'd offend when i'd tell
i can feel subtext from miles away
doesnt matter, to this day i'm still turned into prey
with no chance

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

Excuse

http://plasterbrain.bandcamp.com/track/modal-shanghai
NOW THERE'S A LINK TO BANDCAMP, so you can get it for a dollar that might otherwise be sent on something stupid and useless, like food, water, and shelter.

You're encouraged to post comments because I like to read them and sometimes they creep me out, so that's fun too.

this is a song for my boyfriend of the week, Medic.
YES I'M SERIOUS u wanna fite m8??
Some people express their devotion through shitty fanfiction. I do that but also this.

~*~*~*~ Fun Production Anecdote ~*~*~*~
Me: *recording*
Jello: We've got a lot of livin' to do! ♪ Like from Bye Bye Birdie. Did I get it right?
Me: no
~*~*~*~ End Fun Production Anecdote ~*~*~*~

Brief Q&A:
Q: Why is the album artwork so creepy?
A: Art is hard and I was being RUSHED! BY! A CERTAIN SOMEONE! WHOM I WILL NOT NAME!! BUT I WILL LEAVE YOU THIS CRYPTIC CLUE!! ELLO-JAY APOCALYPSE-AY!! 

Modal Shanghai

someone

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stems: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1TQBHkbvyX4ZwgnO0qRR23mzbrNigNcFq?usp=sharing

Be My Time Machine

avi art is by twitter.com/Pizzzatonix !!!

LYRICS:
What do I want from you/
What do you want from me/
Am I your everything/
Or am I worth pennies to you like I think/
Either way, try and keep it together/
Hold me by the feathers/
And push me in the dirt/

I don't really care if it hurts, I just want you/
It wont satisfy me if your efforts wont leave bruises/
I don't lie and I wont soon/
so cut the "caring" rouse/
it's losing it's charm/

Shotgun drinks that i've never seen/
Lose balance, but gain self esteem/
Play all your cards just to impress me/
It doesnt matter either way, I would've stayed/

BLEEDING COLORS

FEATHERS

raviolo

She's A Big Boy

Ginger Root - Weather

may or may not be a track off an album im making

lyrics:
I used to punish myself for existing
Thought friends were waiting for the day i went missing
I pushed them back with my thoughts
Convinced that I was hated, i just reaped what i sought
Imagined anger in jokes
So everytime they poked I shot back unprovoked
It's not the way that i am, but that's what self hatred can do to a man 
Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
Let alone a kid who thinks his life lacks reason
Let alone a loner losing all his day-ones
Every day I wake up and rue what I have become

what i've become

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In Time (ft. Soumia Ghechami)

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22 y/o nb gay artist n musician 

all vocals, lyrics, and instrumentals are by me unless mentioned
(i will credit any samples that are major parts of the song tho)

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Ivory Rasmus