The Upload

know better w/ eric godlow (prod m.e)

lyrics :

Its babyghostboi

Can you open my eyes 
To the things you see
Cause honestly to me this all some fuckery 
I really wanna hear what your theory is 
Smile on my face but I don’t wanna live 
Whats the point of all this shit I gotta do 
If I knew this from the start id be bulletproof
Now I take my meds with some eighty proof 
Take my life away I got nothing to lose 

I got no shame 
& I wont blame 
Play the same game 
& what is so strange 
Is that I wont change 
You still downrange 
& what can I say 
Is this my fate? 
Will I be famous? 
Or stay nameless 
& end up like Frank from shameless
This is painless 
Old faces 
Ill spend all of my money in Vegas 

Nobody knows the type of shit that goes on 
If I think about her I done wrote 
A hundred songs
In my arms is where she belongs 
Way too much shit to ever right my wrongs 
Yea I’m sorry 
She knows that is my favourite word 
Another rumour & lie 
I don’t know what you heard 
Your kiss is intoxicating had me slurring words
Yea you always look good in a mini skirt 
Its thoughtless forever 
Cult Blasé the sweater 
Too long on a bender 
I missed you way before November ah yea
Why I always gotta lose 
The ones that stay close to me 
Life is a war & I guess my heart just a casualty 
How could you sit right there so casually 
Oh now you wanna change so suddenly 
You already had me keep me custody 
Yea you only love me so violently 

I got no shame 
& I wont blame 
Play the same game 
& what is so strange 
Is that I wont change 
You still downrange 
& what can I say 
Is this my fate? 
Will I be famous? 
Or stay nameless 
& end up like Frank from shameless
This is painless 
Old faces 
Ill spend all of my money in Vegas 

Its long live Milly for fucking ever 
Wait till you hear the rest of this shit
Nobody’s stopping me now nobody
We going straight to the top with this shit
You heard

thoughtless forever

shameless

COVER ART BY KAIZEN

LYRICS
harmonies come
as the memories go
i had to take a deep breath
i had to take it slow
i move too fast in my head
there’s enough that i know
that i’d be wasted to death
left in a bottomless hole

and i don't wanna go back to the basics
girl i've got a problem but i know that i can face it
wasted all my time but i'm thankful for a placement
i think it's pretty crazy what we do inside a basement
on god
never thought i’d have to find a way
to never let go of life again
i guess there's some things i can't arrange
things unlike my pen

and i can't stop all of my pacing
a life that’s worth erasing
take me home
and i can't shake myself awake no
it’s just not in my make up
take me home

give me the means to fade away
and i will fade all in good grace
all on my own
just give me the means to fade away
and i will fade all in good grace
all on my own

all on my own

(and it's my fault)
and i feel shifty as i fade
was a lone rider
but the times have surely changed
so i'm behind her in any single take
yeah it hurts my heart
which was always bound to break
on god
never thought i’d have to find a way
to never let go of life again
i guess there's some things i can't arrange
is why i stay in this bed

and i fell for you
right when i was supposed to
i can't undo
all the things i want to now

and i can't stop all of my pacing
a life that’s worth erasing
take me home
and i can't shake myself awake no
it’s just not in my make up
take me home

give me the means to fade away
and i will fade all in good grace
all on my own
just give me the means to fade away
and i will fade all in good grace
all on my own

all on my own

s0cliché X Dingobeatz X Drunk Girl - TAKE ME HOME

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written by kobayami, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy
produced by jxsie beats
mixed by Lxst Boy & kobayami
mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by kobayami

-lyrics-
(Verse 1: kobayami)
been about a year since I felt your grace
and I wont lie
I been missing that pretty face
with bangs on the side
thinking bout what i could've done better for you
should've adored you
should've gone for it and kissed you
well you know it wasn't always that bad
got to finally meet when you drove me mad 
with your beautiful looks
and the rope that you took from me
I know what I ain't took
but you put the life back in me
2 weeks into meeting you and we're talking in the dms
blowing up my phone, stating up until the a.m.
talking bout cute days but we'll never see them
cause I dont talk to you no more
I'm sorry babe I should've done more
without me though you're much better off
I'm not the same as i was before
mostly cause I'm such a bore

(Verse 2: Vertigo)
never been that into bangs but they look good on you
I never meant to change my ways, sorry if I failed you
now i just need you to know that I made every shot count
and I counted up my sorrows while I'm still on this couch
got ice cream and movies, yeah thats where I'm at
I'm feeling empty in my chest, dont know where  my head's at
I got a grovel to my voice, she said lets smoke till 2
i like that you think that, so lets go smoke on the roof
wish that I could've brought some weed and ride the high like noble steeds
but instead I grow like weeds
and affect your love too
she said I always seemed like the man with the plan
those people annoy be though, they're the type i can't stand
and so I'm sorry that i bored you with my lackluster ways
i hope that you'll forgive me
maybe
maybe someday

(Verse 3: Lxst Boy)
yeah
brush your bangs up off your face
looking so cute
I tried to be a better person
but that's far from the truth
and baby i cant fall asleep
cause I'm thinking bout you
constantly i find myself
walking straight up the moon
i miss your pale white face
in the glow of the evening light
talk about our past decisions
one day maybe get it right
yeah
or maybe get our act together
I sit and ponder petty things like the rainy weather
you picked me like a rose and told me I was something special
and now i wither and I die, never elemental
I grow as old as the trees as they surround the middle
I'm sorry that I'm boring
oh baby just a little

you're boring (kobayami, jxsie beats, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy)

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would you hear me if I said I’m sorry

@sorrow - sunshine (prod. 8ROKEBOY)

boredddddddd but heres one with umu :)

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fallen skies (w/umu)

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featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/hiraethsry

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lyrics:

There is something that’s inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days
You don’t understand my struggles
Don’t pretend that you’re me
You’ve been buying a new necklace
When there’s a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something’s causing all this pain
Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up
Don’t lie to me, I hate that
I’m aware of all my faults
And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane
I think that
To say that it’s a little too late
And I just
Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
Ive had a few dreams about you
But theyre all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave ur name in my flesh 
So I can’t forget if I tried to
Ur gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing 
U don’t wanna listen
U got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
feel like I should start to fight more
I don’t need to be religious baby
U know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

anxious I can’t breathe
Im getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don’t ever speak to me
Don’t act like got time now
Im fighting with myself
Im out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk im scared of speaking when i call her

6 feet with the pain

6 feet with the pain (feat. hiraeth)

i wish i could fix myself 4 u (demo lol)

Up Up

Up Up (prod. siem spark, milodrama)

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Produced by Chris Stiliadis
Mixed & Mastered by Chris Stiliadis
Guitar by Chris Godfrey, Jimmy Nguyen & Randy Bachman

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Ollie - Home

visual/lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVdAtXTN6e4&ab_channel=ghosthands

late june evening (reimagined)

Never have I ever been addicted to the 'presence' of someone who's so far, so fast, until now. I don't know how to feel, or how to act.

LYRICS¬

all the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
im a ghost dont hit my phone x2


All the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
Ima ghost x3
Ima

Ahem
Uh (yeah,yeah)
Anyway (yeah)

I fell in love 
i know we haven't met but you still hit me up yeah
so far apart
Thinking about the distance got me feeling lost yeah
And I need your love, but your so far
Ion think ima get it baby I lost out
But
If we met in a past life would it be different or not
Would it be different or not 

all the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
I'm a ghost don't hit my phone x2

All the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
Ima ghost x3
Ima

Ahhh
Bcos
To be honest im pretty uh

fucked up
I should prolly warn you that im fucked up 
insecurities a product of my past love
So im sorry if i keep my mind locked up
Yeah
Open up
Even when i really wanna i keep shut up
Dont ever wanna bring up what once was
stop digging through my past oh my god
Yeah

all the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
im a ghost dont hit my phone x2

All the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
Ima ghost x3
Ima

distance (secre swallowtail)

'let's get u home' produced by heylog

lyrics:
it feel like no one lives here
it's so alone in this house
i miss the days cuddling on the ground
well time flies by when ur having fun
u went too fast, it hit harder than a gun
and when i walked down the stairs
ur sound asleep in the living room
hi baby girl, it's your brother to guard u
just know i'll fight off anything that gets close
i'll be your provider and get u home

and get u home
n get u home
and get u home
n get u home

it was 3/25
when everything bent
i've cried to the point where i don't have water left
u were the piece that was missed all along
the piece that completed me and made me strong
and when i walked down those stairs
ur still asleep in the living room
i wish i spent every second i had w you
just know i'll kill anything to come close
i'll be your protector, let's get u home

let's get u home..
let's get u home
let's get u home

it's so hard knowing ur not here, it tears me apart
i'm losing grip, always fail from the start
life is disgusting, hold no remorse
live everyday in doubt and always mourn
folks that i love feel too far away
i'm out of reach, they get farther by the day
16 years pass that i won't forget
so low i'm used to living in wretch

spotify

let's get u home

'destroy' produced by heylog

lyrics:
often this summer we fight & start over
u were the best but this bye ain't forever
i'll make some space for ur tears on my shoulder
cus i'll still be here when ur ready to come home

don't cry i'm here with u
through every bump i still love you
don't give up, we'll survive the storm
i promise to keep u warm
babe i try but it's so hard
another boy is probably locked in ur arms
i have no hope of trying again
do u believe we've come to an end

i'm so goin numb, rip my heart out and my guts
love for me is lost and this pain is all for what?
(why)
i built an outer shell, ain't no one allowed in here
i keep my circle small and i shrink it every year
i'm still growing up and i fear the endless void
that i might get sucked in and soon to be destroyed
(destroy)
never would i want u to feel like ur not safe
i see fear in ur eyes when i found ur true place
why u always lie
don't joke it's not the time
i'm not here to pick sides
i'm just here to sit tight
she leveled to my waistline
and give me the rude eye
no something don't sit right
emotionless incline

I ALWAYS GET WORSE BEFORE I GET ANY GOOD
WHY CAN I NOT LEARN WHEN I KNOW I PROBABLY SHOULD
I LOOK AT MYSELF AND I HATE THE FACE I SEE
YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THESE WORDS TRULY MEAN
	
i just need to isolate before i go and lose it
on some stupid situation i have no control with
watch me think over my head
at this point i'm useless
i won't match up to your degree
who in here is uncommon like me
just leave me alone
before i destroy us
away with everything
and everyone

destroy

Air feels heavier when you're not there
I can't eat a full meal without being sick
Everyone told me I should keep my options open but I didn't
And now I'm suffering
I don't even know what I want from you
Spent money on my momma I would spoil you baby
I been in the twilight zone since I lost you
Yeah you were perfect
Wait I was distracted yeah

I'm hopeless
I'm losing it all I can't fix it
You've changed your mind
How you wanted me once now you don't
I don't understand it
I'm hopeless
I'm losing it all I can't fix it
You've changed your mind
How you wanted me once now you don't
I don't understand it

So you bring me up just to wring me dry
You hold me down like I don't know why
But if I'm honest and I always am
I'm so fucking exhausted I want it to end
I been focusing on me replacing memories of you
I don't think this where I should be
I don't know what the fuck to do
I feel hopeless
I feel hopeless I can't help it
I hope you don't notice

I'm hopeless
I'm losing it all I can't fix it
You've changed your mind
How you wanted me once now you don't
I don't understand it
I'm hopeless
I'm losing it all I can't fix it
You've changed your mind
How you wanted me once now you don't
I don't understand it

i'm hopeless w/ love jai (p. yunny goldz)

Artists:
@imgeist
@jatchi

Lyrics:
im steady burning pages
i dont want this no more
lately ive been feeling like a walking corpse
im so tired yea my chest is sore
i wish i had you to keep me warm
it gets so cold at night
i wasted all this time
theres talk of suicide
but ill lie
and say im fine

i’ll say i’m fine
if you’ll be mine
i’ll say i’m fine

froze to the bone, got my heart torn out
blood couldn’t flow, wouldn’t make it home tonight
i don’t want to save my life
aha
i can’t even get out of my bed now
truth is i can’t get out of my head love
all the words you’ve said how i let you down well
i’m a walking corpse in this dead man’s town

but i’ll say i’m fine
as i lose my mind
as i’m clearly dying
holding on for a sign that there’s still hope
i gave it all but i know that you want more
took the fall, now my body is so sore

The Upload

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