I’m a Christian myself and do believe that God loves everyone! 
Your songs are beautiful and inspiring!  Keep doing what you’re doing… I’ll keep listening! 😃

No Way Back

MMMM,,

Los Abuelos

They said “you’ll be fine, just wait and see,”

Verse 1
I’m surrounded, but I feel alone,
Happy voices, in a happy home.
They’re laughing, but I’m not really there,
My mind’s somewhere I can’t repair.

I’m here in the noise, but I don’t belong,
Holding my breath just to stay strong.
Every smile’s a mask I wear,
But no one really seems to care.

[Pre-Chorus]
I am dreaming, drifting slow,
Half awake, when I lose control.
Can’t tell what’s real or in my head,
Wanna scream all the things I never said.

[Chorus] 
Can’t escape the noise inside my head,
Screaming loud, but no one hears what’s said.
I’m reaching out, but I fade instead,
Lost between the living and the dead.

Every thought’s flying outside my brain,
Every echo calls my name again.
I’m breaking down, I can’t delay 
I’m drifting, drifting away.

[Verse 2 ]
It’s getting harder just to feel myself,
I’m slipping deeper, and I asked for help.
They said “you’ll be fine, just wait and see,”
But their words don’t reach the real me.

[Pre-Chorus]
I am dreaming, drifting slow,
Half awake, I lose control.
Can’t tell what’s real or in my head,
Wanna scream all the things I never said.

[Chorus]
Can’t escape the noise inside my head,
Screaming loud, but no one hears what’s said.
I’m reaching out, but I fade instead,
Lost between the living and the dead.

[Bridge] 

Bring it down 
Tear me open,
Let me breathe again! 

So many thoughts
they're lost in the void!
I’m falling faster 
Don’t let me decay, 
I’m drifting further,
Drifting away…

[Outro / Final Chorus]
Can’t escape the noise inside my head,
Every word’s a ghost that I’ve been fed.
I’m reaching out, but I fade instead,
Drifting away… drifting away.

JDAM - The Drifter

I hold the door, I force the smile,
A gentleman for such a while.
But my patience is gone, away,
It's now my turn to make you pay!

No texture left, no colored paint,
Just hollow eyes, no self-restraint.
I see the greed, the pure despite.
They don't just hide it, they fucking bite. 
It isn’t flaw, it’s how they’re built:
They thrive on chaos, feed on guilt.

For forty years I watched this trash,
Spit on workers, count their cash.

Every stolen parking space,
Every arrogant, smirking face,
Every shoulder-check in the hall 
Another brick to build the wall.

Another pound of TNT 
Light the fuse and set me free!

I swallowed bile for all these years,
Drowned my honor in their smug-ass jeers!
AND I’M WAITING!

I am waiting for the spark to fly!
For some asshole just to cross the line!
But the fuse just sputters, damp and grey!
It never catches, anyway!
And the disappointment is a second blow,
I'm begging for the world to let me GO!
But the bomb just waits... and grows.

So now I’m searching, I'm looking for the trigger.
Provoking the complacent, the belligerent figure. 

"What did you say?" 

I ask, with honey in my voice. 
"Please, complete your awful choice." 

I want the confrontation, I need the release! 
I’m praying for the end of this fucking peace! 
I step into their path, I stare them in the eye!

GIVE ME A REASON TO LET THIS DIE!

…they say sorry, then walk on by.
…they apologize, then pass me by.
And just like that my rage subsides...


I am waiting for the spark to fly!
For some asshole just to cross the line!
But the fuse just sputters, damp and grey!
It never catches, anyway!
And the disappointment is a second blow,
I'm begging for the world to let me GO!
But the bomb just waits... and grows.



Pressure builds ,  the casing strains,
Poison pulses through my veins.
I’m carrying a kiloton of rage,
Not a bomb, but a cracking cage.
A living, breathing, private hell,
Forty years and I’ve held it well.
No turning back, no more excuse!

LIGHT THE FUSE!

And…nothing. Air so still. The weight settles.
It's building up, and that's so rough, but
This bomb will never go off.

JDAM - Light the Fuse

“Never Even Held You” — an R&B story born between universes.
A song about the one that slipped away before love could even start.
When time froze… and all I had left was her memory in another life.

NEVER EVEN HELD YOU - LATIN SOUL

Where love fell, light stayed. Your shadow didn’t break me — it protected me

WHERE YOUR SHADOW FELL - ALTROCK VERSION

Life moves quicker than my heart can follow… but I’m still here, dancing through memories, moments, blessings, and futures I pray to reach.
God’s been good.
And the music keeps me breathing through the rush of time.

TIME ON MY SKIN - PROGRESSIVE HOUSE

Staring at the city and asking the question we’re all thinking: Is this stress really worth the success they promised? For everyone who followed therules but still feels lost.

IS IT REALLY - ALTROCK

Summernight Dream

This is my Sunday prayer song. I am a gay christian, catholic actually - but I digress. I believe in a God that loves me. I create songs for him too. I just hope they spread the message of love and hope that I intend. I love you all! Thank you for listening!

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When I pray you protect me
When I’m lost, You help me see
Your light shines through the dark of night 
My heart follows, my soul takes flight

You lift me when I fall
Your mercy moves, when morning calls
Every heartbeat sings Your name
when the stars fade, You remain

When shadows steal my song away
Your promise pulls me through the gray

My savior, You are my hope, my home
The fire that burns when I stand alone
You are my peace when the storm winds blow
My savior, You’re all I need to know
My savior, You are my hope, my home

You calm the waves that draw my fear
Your sun dries away each tear
Your presence makes my sky so clear
I always know when you are here

Grace unending, truth divine
You make this broken soul align
Your hands of healing intertwine
Your will design becomes mine

When shadows steal my song away
Your promise pulls me through the gray

My savior, You are my hope, my home
The fire that burns when I stand alone
You are my peace when the storm winds blow
My savior, you’re all I need to know
My savior, you are my hope, my home

All creation sings Your name
Your glory echoes, wild, untamed
Radiate Light, through joy and pain
Your everlasting love remains
You lift me higher, set me free
Your holy voice sings in me

You are my hope, You are my song
The One who’s loved me all along
Forever faithful, forever known
My savior, you are my hope, my home

My Savior

I'm a songwriter lyricist and a singer. I'm sure you can tell I'm also a gay man. I write my music from my perspective - but I'm not a parody, my sounds aren't vulgar even if they walk the line of being provocative. I sing on a few of these tracks, naturally :-) but now I'm able to create the songs as I hear them in my head. My music tastes are eclectic. I truly love all music. My process is melodies to lyrics to songs ... then on paper (old school, lol!), all my songs are a part of who I am. With a lifelong love of the audio-visual world, I'm now stepping into the spotlight to share my songs, each a story pulled from my life. I invite you to listen, feel, and connect through my music. Thank you for being a part of my next chapter.

My Savior

Javier Oseguera

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