Hyde

It was about 4AM after a gig. I was in my apartment and couldn't sleep so I turned on the tube. Other than infomercials, the other typical programming at that hour is some religious zealot or some self serving save the children infommercial. Sorry for the jaded commentary. I just get angry when these so called "philanthropists" live in mansions and drive a mercedes. How much is really going to thise that need help?!?! In any event, this particular program focused on three kids in different parts of America that were poverty striken. Part of the theme of the piece was around it being great to help underprivelged kids around the world but lets not forget there are many in our own backyard. As I listened to their stories, I began to cry remembering a time when I was in similar circumstances. As heard the statistics, I felt a wave of overwhelming helplessness think, there is nothing I can do. I Aplogize became a premetive apology to the unborne child that I cannot help

I Apologize

Roadkil

Former band mate Keith Williams had this very cool riff he actually wrote from a Bugs Bunny cartoon of all things. Dug it immediately. Earlier that day we had spoke "deep sixing" another song we weren't fond. I was like, poor song doesn't know it's getting buried. Imagine if it was aware. ooh ooh (yes I did say that_ Imagine if it was one of us.

Under

I call this one my "Prince" moment as I recorded and performed all tracks. It was about this chick I had a crush on and she liked me and we almost got romantic but in the end we did share some nice memories. The song was more of a plea for her to give it a chance

01 A Moment Longer

I wrote this song about an ex who was a bit loco and she insulted my mom and family because I wanted to spend time with them alone mind you we'd only been dating less than a month. She had it in her head that I was a "mommas boy" or her other phrase a "family boy" and that I needed to be saved from them. I didnt say it but my mind retorted "YOU're the one that needs to be saved". Save Me was born

Something Cynical

Save Me

Unfortunately, this song was written about my abusive father. I was watching the movie Halloween and rembered a dusty dirty room and it propelled me back into a tough memory. There's still pin but this song actually helped/helps me to manage it

Recall

I was on Church St in lower Manhattan during 9/11. I was on an uptown bus when my mom called me and informed me of a plane hitting the WTC. Knowing I was in the area I popped my head around and saw nothing. In my mind it was some small craft. It wasn't until the bus made a sudden stop thinking it had received a flat. We all had to get off and felt this wierd heat and dust and looked up to see this black cloud. My mind connected it to my moms call but wasn't sure what had happend. It was the second plane hitting I realized later as I sprint towards my apartment. As I got far enough and looked back, I saw the huge plume. In my apartment TV on, reaity hit home. I wont get into more detail of what happened from that day over the next two weeks simply because I dont want to remember it now. In any event Phoenix rose from the ashes in this song and that Phoenix, was an American Eagle

Phoenix

I good friend of mine came to me needing an ear and whatever advice I could muster as he was afraid his wife was falling out of love with him and he didn't know what to do. I asked if he had a frank conversation with her. He said, he doesn't know the words to use to have that conversation. I thought about myself and thought, yeah, that's tough. I can see getting bogged down by your own preconceptions, experiences etc. I said, just speak and the words will come if love is behind them.

No Words

This song was actually written by my very good friend and fellow rocknaut Carlos Cabrales.

Fear Me

Also written by the illustrious Carlos Cabrales

Ignorance

I saw a calendar with this powerful image of a red rose in full bloom just at the early stages of deterioration. It hit me that that flower had to live its entire life in a desert. I though how sad but how brave of this being to have survived and bloom.

Hyde

Jayrock