does the skin i wear define me?

JesseMelancholy (Feat. @lyrahgray) - Falling

Prod By: Dercept
Mixed By: JesseMelancholy & lyrah
Mastered By: lyrah
Written By: Jesse James Pontt & Rory Glab
Cover Art Photography: Tom Siely 

Watch The Music Video: https://youtu.be/oig5oHWvnyA?si=CfbiaXSsThmNUPYI

Lyrics:
[Verse 1: JesseMelancholy]
I can't lie
There's not a minute of the day you're off my mind
Your new boy looks like he's just there to pass the time
I know I messed up and I wanna make it right
Let me just try

[Chorus: JesseMelancholy]
'Cause, Baby, I've been falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you

[Verse 2: lyrah]
I can't lie
Lately you just cannot treat me right
I've been so down bad for you
I know I made a lot of bad mistakes before
But I was feeling so in love, head over heals for you
Now I'm wanting just to get right back to you
You know I can't resist being away from you, oh
No one ever told me that you would move on fast
I can't react, like
Baby, you just wanna treat me like a has-been, I know that it's true
It's the fact that you hate me
Do you hate him too?
I never had a choice but to say fuck you

[Chorus: JesseMelancholy]
'Cause, Baby, I've been falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you

[Bridge: lyrah & JesseMelancholy]
I'm falling down
No one is around to save me now
Guess I'll figure out where to go
Now that I've lost all hope

[Chorus: JesseMelancholy & lyrah]
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you
Falling down to the floor, 'cause I need you
Stalling, passing the time 'til I see you

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Falling

Falling (Feat. lyrah gray)

JesseMelancholy - Yarramie

Prod By: drma, yunnygoldz, JesseMelancholy & cultclassic
Written By: Jesse James Pontt
Mixed By: JesseMelancholy
Mastered By: lyrah

Lyrics👇🏼

So I build a new bridge and I break it down
Can’t find a face I can trust in this town
The friends that I had were in pieces
Asking myself do I need them?
Everyone’s got a little secret
So many ways to perceive them
Everyone’s got a little secret
Can’t find a person to keep it

So I build a new bridge and I break it down
Can’t find a face I can trust in this town
The friends that I had were in pieces
Asking myself do I need them?
I said what I said so carelessly
How could I be so blind?
It’s never the same as it used to be 
‘Cause everything changes with time

We’ve been here before and we know how it goes
(So why do we try? Why do we try?)
Biting my tongue with a lump in my throat
(You’re telling me lies, you’re telling me lies)
So I got no choice but to step away
I wouldn’t have it any other way, no
‘Cause I’m sick of it, there’s no difference, if I’m not there

Near the house I was in when I was 14
When I was so blind to everything 
She wants me to stay, but I’ve got to leave
She wants me to be anyone but me
I’m sorry I can’t hold your weight anymore
I can’t keep on picking you up of the floor
There’s people I cannot believe I adored
They’re not coming back and I know that for sure so

Can you even see the blood that I bleed?
(Oh my god, just look what you did)
Breaking me down won’t give you what you need
(Oh my god, just look what you did)

So I build a new bridge and I break it down
Can’t find a face I can trust in this town
The friends that I had were in pieces
Asking myself do I need them?
I said what I said so carelessly
How could I be so blind?
It’s never the same as it used to be 
‘Cause everything changes with time

Everyone’s got a little secret
So many ways to perceive them
Everyone’s got a little secret
Can’t find a person to keep it
Everyone’s got a little secret
So many ways to perceive them
Everyone’s got a little secret
Can’t find a person to keep it

So I build a new bridge and I break it down
Can’t find a face I can trust in this town
The friends that I had were in pieces
Asking myself do I need them?
I said what I said so carelessly
How could I be so blind?
It’s never the same as it used to be 
‘Cause everything changes with time

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Yarramie

Prod By: cultclassic, Hayden Chamberlain & JesseMelancholy
Written By: Jesse James Pontt
Mixed By: JesseMelancholy
Mastered By: cultclassic
Cover Art Photography By: Tom Siely
Managed By: CultAtMidnite

watch the video here: https://youtu.be/4bUwa6rw8mk?si=wy2uieGISGgX-7l5

Lyrics👇🏼
I wish you’d take me off the pedestal, ‘cause I keep on slipping off it
I keep speaking hypothetical, like one day I’ll be something
Something more than what I am right now, I’m terrified I’ll let me down
This feeling is unbearable, I still don’t know what caused it

I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I’ve made my choices and I can’t remove them
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)

I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I’ve made my choices and I can’t remove them
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I wish that I could change like everything, take me back to seventeen
I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)

(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)

I’ve been staring at my ceiling so long it’s come alive
Prosperity is fiction and everything’s a lie
If I can’t break the cycle then who the hell am I?
I wish I could answer your question, I can’t make up my mind

And that seems to be my tendency
So scared of dependency
I can’t keep my head on straight ‘cause something’s always tempting me
Yeah, that seems to be my tendency
So scared of dependency
Start to hyperventilate, I let it get the best of me

I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I’ve made my choices and I can’t remove them
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I wish that I could change like everything, take me back to seventeen
I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)

Yeah, I bet you wanna change that, I bet you wanna change
Yeah, I bet you wanna change that, I bet you wanna change
Yeah, I bet you wanna change that, I bet you wanna change
Am I ever gonna change? Am I ever gonna change?

Yeah, I bet you wanna change that, I bet you wanna change
Yeah, I bet you wanna change that, I bet you wanna change
Yeah, I bet you wanna change that, I bet you wanna change
Am I ever gonna change? Am I ever gonna change?

I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I’ve made my choices and I can’t remove them
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I wish that I could change like everything, take me back to seventeen
I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I’ve made my choices and I can’t remove them
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
I wish that I could change like everything, take me back to seventeen
I picked my poison and fuck, I consumed it
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)
(Yeah, I bet you wanna change that)

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Poison

Prod By: JesseMelancholy & cultclassic
Written By: Jesse James Pontt
Mixed By: JesseMelancholy
Mastered By: cultclassic

Watch The Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAX-Pdeqpp8

Lyrics👇🏼

When we talked for a second I couldn’t even breathe
Conversing with you means more then you’d ever believe
‘Cause you’re everything i’m not
I still accessorise my flesh and hope that you notice
And spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself I probably would

I spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself then I probably would
I spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself then I probably would

(If you-)

I spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself then I probably would
I spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself then I probably would

Tighten up the grip that you’ve got me in
Face is flushing up, need to hide my skin
Playing with my rings keep me occupied
Stumbled on the bus when I got so high
Looked me in the eyes, can you tell i’m not there?
I wanted to kiss you but I got so scared
Playing with my rings keep me occupied
Stumbled on the bus when I got so high

‘Cause we talked for a second I couldn’t even breathe
Conversing with you means more then you’d ever believe
‘Cause you’re everything i’m not
I still accessorise my flesh and hope that you notice
And spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself I probably would

I spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself then I probably would
I spray my cologne more times than I probably should
If you asked me to kill myself then I probably would

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if u asked me to

Prod By: kvn
Written By: Jesse James Pontt
Mixed By: JesseMelancholy
Mastered By: kvn

Watch The Lyric Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bg4QyaMDzRM

Lyrics👇🏼

lost a part of me, I don't know where I placed it
and I don't want to erase it
I wonder where he hides
and god knows I want to smell that scent of the youth I wasted
and play pretend that we can change the world if we try

and god knows I want to be who the fuck I want to be
and that's fine
waste all my time
let it pass me by
(I've already wasted my youth)
dirty clothes are piling up
skipping high-school to ride a dirty bus
you wanna skip town? oh that's crazy
walk out the box 'til my high-school hates me

I'm leaving the house, but i'll be back soon
i'm figuring out how to not hate everything I say and everything I do
i'm not in the mood and we'll talk about it soon
if that day comes but we both know that it won't
I look so pretty with my eyes on the phone
letting days bleed into eachother
and finding ways to validate my suffer

I want to be who the fuck I want to be and that's fine
waste all my time
and i'll let it pass me by
I already wasted my youth
between two bedroom walls
trying to find a place for me
carrying the weight of the world on top of me
I want to be who the fuck I want to be

I want to be who the fuck I want to be
I want to be who the fuck I want to be
I want to be who the fuck I want to be
I want to be who the fuck I want to be
I want to be who the fuck I want to be
I want to be who the fuck I want to be
I want to be who the fuck I want to be
I want to be 
I want to be like you

(I've already wasted my youth)
(I want to be like you)
(I've already wasted my youth)
(I want to be like you)
(I've already wasted my youth)
(I want to be like you)
(I've already wasted my youth)
(I want to be like you)

(everything I say, everything I do)
(everything I say, everything I do)
(everything I say, everything I do)
(everything I say, everything I do)
(everything I say, everything I do)
(everything I say, everything I do)
(everything I say, everything I do)
(everything I say, everything I do)
(we can change the world if we try, I go where you go, we are friends, you and I)

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we can change the world if we try

prod by: @xenura
co-prod: JesseMelancholy
mixed by: JesseMelancholy
written by: Jesse James Pontt
mastered by: @xenura

watch the music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMXnfGITODg

Lyrics👇🏼

i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself
i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself

i miss my internet friends, i’m doing my best to pass all the time
until the day i see your face left behind (oh-woah)
i want to spread my wings, you cut them off my body
hearing you speak is really just a hobby
and i can quit that at any given point in time

i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself
(god knows i wish you well, ooh)
i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself
(i don’t wanna ooh-ooh-ooh)
i can’t be there for you, when i’m not there for myself
i already said that i can’t be there for you, if i’m not there for myself

i’m glad that we spoke but truly you make me bored
i’m far from the joke, the one that you’ll play me for
and i want to know, what am i waiting for?
cover up my skin so you won’t hate me more

(i can’t be there for you)
when i’m not there for me (ah)
hate my worn out skin and my grin and my fucked up teeth
(ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
yeah, i don’t know what to wear and the time is getting scary now
leave my house again, it’ll probably wear me down
joke of the high-school, everybody’s laughing
sorry i despise you, where is my compassion?

(everything i say - i can’t be there for you)
(everything i do - ooh-ooh-ooh)

i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just-i just-i just

(ooh) and you put me in a box (oh)
but you’ll never keep it locked (oh)
see my city getting scared ‘cause my shit fucking knocks
and you were never there go and kick fucking rocks
(uh-huh) i just want to be myself, wish i knew who that was
change the pigment of my hair, do it again in a couple months
and you just want me there but i can’t be there for you, no
(i can’t be there for you)
(uh) miss me with that 9 to 5, my ceiling has come alive
you wish we were fortified, i think there is more to life
i just want to sleep but everybody’s watching
want to spread my wings, you cut them off my body

(oh)
(oh)
(oh)
(oh)

shaking and i’m scared, i feel it in my lungs, i’ll take a deep breath in
and play that i don’t care but fuck me, am i dumb? because i always did
i want my tongue unbitten and i really want to speak it
i want to say “it’s fine” i want to really mean it
i want all of the flaws on my body deleted
i want to draw a line, i want your eyes to see it
i want to make friends with all the streetlights
ginger in my tea, half the screen time
do i want to change, or do i want to hide?
do i need the space, or did i tell a lie?
petrified of compliancy and the complacency
won’t put your blind eyes on something you weren’t made to see
and that’s okay with me
yeah, that’s okay with me

(everything i say, everything i do, everything i say, everything i do)

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wings

does the skin i wear define me? out now everywhere

prod by: JesseMelancholy, @macey-official
co-prod: Hayden Chamberlain
written by: Jesse James Pontt
mixed by: JesseMelancholy
mastered by: @xenura

Lyrics👇🏼

leave my house trying to find something that I can’t get inside my room
leave my doubt, it’s a hopeless thing, I hope there’s something i’ll find soon
I grow two left feet when I look at the time
(you’re not going anywhere)
got no sleep but i’m happy I tried
(you’re not going anywhere)

my skin is burnt, it’s best not to touch
(ooh, ooh)
I’ll wait my turn, ‘til push comes to shove
(ooh, ooh)

I fear i’ll never change, it barely matters what I say, it always ends up playing out the same damn way
now I try and fit the shape of somebody you won’t hate, i’ll find another stupid character to play

slip a white lie out my mouth, i’ll make it all feel weird for the rest of the night
not sure what i’m talkin about, it’s best to bite my tongue til the day that I die
hung up on the things i had
hung up on the things that I won’t get back
hung up on the things that I seem to lack but you seem to have oh, oh

i’ll tape my mouth trying to keep it in, I hope I rid of self-doubt soon
take one breath and I face the wind, I hope it takes me somewhere new
where i’d dance around the subject
(‘til my feet are getting tired)
and you’ll treat like a puppet
(but you wouldn’t even hide it)

get home safe the doors unlocked eternally, demonstrate what I can’t verbally
my skin is burning up, so don’t look and please don’t touch
accessorise my flesh but i’m still who I am
don’t have the strength to change, when i’m barely half a man

my skin is burnt, it’s best not to touch
(ooh, ooh)
uh, I’ll wait my turn, ‘til push comes to shove
(ooh, ooh)

and I fear i’ll never change, it barely matters what I say, it always ends up playing out the same damn way
now I try and fit the shape of somebody you won’t hate, i’ll find another stupid character to play

I fear i’ll never change, it barely matters what I say, it always ends up playing out the same damn way 
(you’re not going anywhere)
now I try and fit the shape of somebody you won’t hate, i’ll find another stupid character to play
(you’re not going anywhere)

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character actor

does the skin i wear define me? out now everywhere

prod by: @charlie-zacks
co-prod: JesseMelancholy
additional guitars: @macey-official
written by: Jesse James Pontt
mixed by: JesseMelancholy
mastered by: @xenura

Lyrics👇🏼

my frail frame touches you, I want to know you’re there
I want to see your innocence, I want to breathe your air
I want to hear you tell me all the things you think I am
and when I disagree you can utter them again

the wind blows the clothes off the skin I wish I loved
you kiss all the flaws, then you dress my body up
I wish that you saw yourself through a lens that wasn’t filtered
I let go of myself, just to drown inside your glitter
(oh no)

push the red curtains from my face, I want to watch your pupils dilate between every word I say
I sit patiently with cowardice, observe you from afar
I wish that you knew I wish that I was half of what you are

the wind blows the clothes off the skin I wish I loved
you kiss all the flaws, then you dress my body up
I wish that you saw yourself through a lens that wasn’t filtered
I let go of myself, just to drown inside your glitter
(oh no)

(oh no)

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glitter

does the skin i wear define me? out now everywhere

prod by: cultclassic, JesseMelancholy, @macey-official
co-prod: JesseMelancholy
written by: Jesse James Pontt
additional background vocals: @macey-official
mixed by: JesseMelancholy
mastered by: @xenura

Lyrics👇🏼

blisters on my feet, i’ll walk a little longer
all the things i’d be if I was a little stronger
thought I wouldn’t run this time, but I did and it’s fine, i’ll just close my eyes again
finding my way back home, inebriated, I felt my size again

everybody’s got the things I want, they’re not concerned with what I need
I thought that I had something to say, but it’s probably best to keep it to me

(so I keep it to me)

I long to find joy in the smaller things, the air, my hair, my bedroom walls
it all exists in front of me and yet I feel so uninvolved
a phone screen whispers everything, my frail frame’s an accessory
I spread myself out too thin, it won’t change the trajectory 

everybody’s got the things I want, they’re not concerned with what I need
I thought that I had something to say, but it’s probably best to keep it to me

everybody’s got the things I want, they’re not concerned with what I need
I thought that I had something to say, but it’s probably best to keep it to me

(fuck)
(it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts)
(fuck)

i’ll walk, i’ll walk, i’ll walk, it hurts
i’ll walk, i’ll walk, i’ll walk, it hurts
i’ll walk, i’ll walk, i’ll walk, it hurts
i’ll walk, i’ll walk but fuck me, it just doesn’t stop

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blisters

does the skin i wear define me? out now everywhere

prod by: @kevisnot
written by: Jesse James Pontt
mixed by: JesseMelancholy
mastered by: @xenura

Lyrics👇🏼

I want to be who the fuck I want to be and that’s fine
I won’t be defined by the bags under my eyes
or the eyes that rarely cry, even when I really try
or the skin that I despise, ‘cause some people hardly seem to mind
i’m not the past or the future, or anything between
the marks on my stomach, or the bruises on my knees
the blisters on my feet, or even my disease
I am and only want to be me

does the skin I wear define me?
does the skin I wear define me?
does the skin I wear define me?
does the skin I wear define me?

lock me away from the world
51-50, i’m a danger to myself
spent the better half of my adolescence wishing I was somebody else
and god, I miss my old house now it sits in the dust
my shack too and the people I lost
the saturday mornings with nothing to do, the kid that I was before I had a clue
i’m sorry to my mother, couldn’t keep me in school
sorry to my dad, I hated football
sorry to the boy who couldn’t set his head free
if me and you were friends then i’d be a better me
there’s too much inside me that i’m scared to show
and too much about me that i’m scared to know
i’m more than the flesh i was given, i’m more than i think and i’m more than the things I was told

sky turns red, i’m still here, i’ve been this way for many years
everything I thought I’d be I feel as though i’m not 
fragile head fumigates my vision so I never really know
one small glance at the mirror and I can’t keep it composed 

does the skin I wear define me?
does the skin I wear define me?
does the skin I wear define me?
does the skin I wear define me?
i’m not the past or the future, or anything between
the marks on my stomach, or the bruises on my knees
the blisters on my feet, or even my disease
I am and only want to be me

(everything I say, everything I do, everything I say, everything I do, everything I say, everything I do, everything I say, everything I do)

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