Depressed Peeps

songs i made during hard times

https://soundcloud.com/joshigues/vacation-nightcore-jxsie-beats

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

She only love me when on anti-depressants
When she's off of them I can't get her attention
Her minds been going in every direction
But you know I can't follow directions
Cause anywhere I go
Can't make it back home
To the place I used to call
Everything and all

Feeling like I'm Autumn now, faded into fall
And I'm feeling like I'm Casperrr, now that I'm a ghost
And I'm feeling like Eternal
Cause I want you to say hello

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

She thinks I'm falling out of love, but I'm just falling out of trust
She thinks it's falling into dust, I wish you knew I give a fuck
Ex-friends coming up to me I know they always fuss
Wanna turn 'em into goldfish, so I can name 'em Hush
Maybe then that'll be the time that they could shut up
I just know I had enough, and know that you have had enough
We can never get enough
In this thing called love

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

visualizer

vacation (jxsie beats)

"if it all goes wrong" is a song released by joshiguess exclusively to the archive. this was not a song he wanted to release officially as all it was was a rant about life in the state he was in at the time. this song is very teen suiciide inspired with the distortion and style.

if it all goes wrong [moucha]

Big shoutout to the producer TK Beatz! This wouldn't be possible without him.
Prod. TK Beatz 

(Track Details)
https://genius.com/Visualize-VLZ
❗️HOOK SAMPLE: Nicole Cross - Break the Cycle - You+Me❗️
❗️https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCen1_zw353ryY5fKhl56uVA❗️
🔉Mix/mastering - MP Studio🔉


------------------ Lyrics  ----------------------
(Hook)
Circles and cycles and seasons
For everything there's always reason
But it's never good
Never turns out as it should

No one ever held you
No single moment of truth
But if you were mine
I would've looked into those eyes
And said,

(verse 1) 
So, what did you expect from me? 
I ask myself this every day. 
proceed to argue.
Just to keep, all of the pain away. 

I still regret on what I said, while knowing I can’t bring back time. 
Relive the moments, just to fix shit’ up, and end them fine. 
But, now you’re gone, and I’m still locked behind these endless walls 
While watching all our pictures getting burnt, and almost lost 

Seems like a sign to me, that things will never be the same 
we passed through times, we both called hard 
but ended in a different way.

I kept on asking, but the answers disappeared in time 
Cuz, my beliefs were empty 
As all reasons, why you never tried 
And still I can’t forget you though 
Cuz damage is already done 

But what I finally realized is that 
nothing heals what I’ve become
 
So, tell me how to live with reminiscence of this stupid pain
And deal with facts that you are gone
And things will never be the same

You made me realize why 
Straight’s useless 
When guts’ve push too far
cuz as they fell on ground 
the broken pieces, left a larger scar

That makes it harder to forget 
The best of what we’ve done past time 
And pictures that we made, 
Which kept the moments on their storyline  
All simple things, which meant the world to me
When they were said 
And also, is the reason
Nothing change the fact, you fucked my head 

Unfinished chapter
With a hopeless angle of our view
But even through the darkest nights 
I saw the light which points out you 

And still… 
(Hook)
Circles and cycles and seasons
For everything there's always reason
But it's never good
Never turns out as it should

No one ever held you
No single moment of truth
But if you were mine
I would've looked into those eyes
And said

(Verse 2) 

But now when I can see you
With all rumors pointed from your head
I can’t believe eyes 
You still remind me of how shit has went 

It drives me crazy knowing 
We’re no longer spending time 
And then I saw your boyfriend 
That will never give the same as I 

But as we’re moving on 
And things are changing from the past
I slowly got an insight of
Why two like us would never last 

It’s hella crazy how we got along
Inside this life 
And all the goddamn feelings 
I’ve been fooled by 
When you still were mine 

Thanks for the knowledge 
That I’ve got, from wasting our time
And sorry for the choice I made
But sorrow overcame my mind


I’m feeling hopeless
Cuz my heart still got a lot to say
And dope is not the answer
When my passion never walks away 

It’s hard to tell you
But, it’s even harder to pretend
If we, do have a chance to talk
And leisure time we could have spent  

Lost in illusions, many conclusions
But stay sober
Realizing life’s just a game
And the plot twist of it is the “game over”

Still hope these words will make you stay
And probably wanna listen
Cuz we both know shit happens in this life
for more than just a reason


“Reasons” Daniil Trifonov ©

It's all fading to black

Reasons

please leave me alone

nights like this

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NLT (feat. JER)

[mix by @joshiguess x @elena-paisley]
ill be doing this til my last breathe,
doesn't matter if i make the bread,
im just taking the things from my head,
i swear joking was all that you said,
i swear you were all joking bout death,
but now that one's dead ya talk less,
i swear yall put on the stress,
i just hoping that they stayin blessed, 

i was hoping to come in and check,
checking if u were alright,
left me on seen didn't text,
time passes by and i cry,
why would it ever happen,
i pray to god that it wasn't true,
i swear to god if i wasn't attracted,
i wouldn't be feeling so blue,
wondering what i should do,
am i the one that's the target,
i can't be actin all flawless,
cuz you know that there's many you have,
i swear you ain't going out sad,
you need to get over this,
i swear this life is feeling unlucky,
need a four leaf clover bitch,
this life is about success,
it's not about being the richest,
i swear i want the hugs and the kisses,
quarantine making me miss it,
like the suicide death of effect,
that it's taken on this toll of world,
when you seem to have lost a best friend,
no one can replace that girl,
i hope that she's good in another world,
hoping she's not in the underworld,
it's something i couldn't control,
it's a pleasure of guilt that i hold,
and that maybe i shouldn't have told,
i swear life has been getting more cold,
only warmth is from your computer,
why you feel like you're such a loser, yea

i swear that i cant do this anymore

Stop Joking Bout Death (MaxoKoolin, Wendelstyzer, Topo)

You may think that I hate you, but that just isn't it,
it's rightful that you blamed me i committed a sin,
and im asking for forgiveness, but i never could win,
i swear i didn't want us all living all in pretend,
but lets face it, you know i couldn't make it, every time
i'm uncomfortable with basics, and i knew i couldn't handle
 datin,  i never wanted to but with you feel i made it,

and i didn't wanna ruin reputations, i swear sometimes i hope this life is 
simulation cuz i don't want it to be true, when you livin with this on you, what you got? you got friends
who weren't really there that constantly remind you and you're staying from your distance and realizing
you're a fool, frickin loser in the pull, ain't doing things in school, for the past few years every time 
you've fallen off, and you've stayed inside your room because you fear of the outside, cuz the public probably hates
you now, im blessed with quarantine cause i do not need to be seen, cuz i swear i make it miserable for any other being
and there's people that will love you but how long will that last, want another future but im stuck inside my past
gotta fix myself up
 right now
(right now)

I swear there's a lot I could change from,
I can focus on myself now that it's done,
But when I feel like nothing what is there to take on,
I swear I always try to make my life more fun,
With you I felt complete I couldn't lose you, 
But it's rightful that you decided to lose me,
I swear if everyone be trying to expose me,
And I can't help but face the facts, but can't control me

(control me, wish you could be here and hold me, i know thats not a possibility anymore)

All My Fault

All My Fault (Capsctrl + Eddie B)

https://songwhip.com/joshiguess/shouldve-known-better
this was a one take, straight from the heart..
i should've treated you better, now it's just rainy weather, can't maintain self control, my heart's been getting cold, you really understood me, why
cant i understand you, i tried my best to handle, put myself in your sandals, here i go light the candle, i swear you were correct, can't get it out
my head, that you tried protecting, you saved me from ending, all that i could have been, wstill wish i was ur friend, i didn't need more or less,

i should've just known better, this is a homage letter, thought we would be together, longer than i'd remember, now we're both in our leisure, but my minds
like propellors, its going round in circles, trying to pass the hurdles, of those that criticize me, they want to hypnotize me, into thinking difference,
wish she was here to save me, at least i have her mittens, she was the perfect lady, i didn't treat her fairly, i really should have did, cuz lately i really 
miss, not just a simple kiss, just need to receive more comfort, didn't wanna make her heart hurt, i didn't respect her space, but to come back too late,
she'll never want me back, enemies love that im sad, they try to make fun of me, say im not improving, do they remember me, swear they obsess with me,
since they still message me, they keep on gossiping, keep my name out your mouth, you only give more clout to, a person that always doubts who, he could really
be, needs someone there for him, i can't say that i am nothing, cuz i know that i mean something, but im missing a part of me, the loving type energy, the norms
of a human being

All My Fault (Capsctrl + Eddie B)

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