https://soundcloud.com/joshigues/vacation-nightcore-jxsie-beats

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

She only love me when on anti-depressants
When she's off of them I can't get her attention
Her minds been going in every direction
But you know I can't follow directions
Cause anywhere I go
Can't make it back home
To the place I used to call
Everything and all

Feeling like I'm Autumn now, faded into fall
And I'm feeling like I'm Casperrr, now that I'm a ghost
And I'm feeling like Eternal
Cause I want you to say hello

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

She thinks I'm falling out of love, but I'm just falling out of trust
She thinks it's falling into dust, I wish you knew I give a fuck
Ex-friends coming up to me I know they always fuss
Wanna turn 'em into goldfish, so I can name 'em Hush
Maybe then that'll be the time that they could shut up
I just know I had enough, and know that you have had enough
We can never get enough
In this thing called love

I've been trying my best, but I can't take it
She's been wanting the rest, while she is taken
She's been loving me less, she seems to hate it
Why don't she just take a vacation

visualizer

vacation (jxsie beats)

Music and visual art that I created. Lyrics:

what have i become

someone who wants to be numb

all the pain i feel

while searchin for crumbs

no one to trust

tell me the deal

tell me what's real

now i think it's none

but a dream 

who hears if i scream

don't know where to go

don't know where i've bean

off the dillies and the beans

on the side and the down

the bright side i feel blinded now

blinded to your lies

don't wanna scream but I try 

there's always some good to find

lately i don't see da light

only up at night

and these days so week and my temper rises

it's so short

ticking time bomb blow up the courts

on lines like the quartz, still shine like the quartz

tell time like the quartz, i'm fine you a whore

yuh, you ain't fine you are so ugly through to your core

all i can do is try to change, like the seasons the rain

washes my sins away, I'm still a heathen i pray

to the unknown, the one that creates

everything that I have become
I am so numb I am so dumb
I don't know where I have gone, no 
what have i become

someone who wants to be numb

all the pain i feel

while searchin for crumbs

no one to trust

tell me the deal

tell me what's real

now i think it's none

but a dream 

who hears if i scream

don't know where to go

don't know where i've bean

off the dillies and the beans

on the side and the down

the bright side i feel blinded right now

WHAT HAVE I BECOME? (PROD. GRIM JONES)

asuka (Prod. by idkmel)

mixed/mastered by me
prod by @st1x51

Lyrics:
it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

when you hit me up it's like a bookmark
 leave you alone then i go back to restart
now you in the back of the seating chart
need to pay a toll whenever you're the one to park
you show no remorse

you're envisioning my corpse
if i'm not interested i'll cite another source
feel like i'm playing sports
always a competition
 not easy living
 this life being a musician
 cast a spell i'm a magician
i just wait on this transition

(like just worry about your own life what is mine to you?)

it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

i can't hang around these people
when they acting way too evil
i'm just stuck at home 
while my friends are hanging at the regal
gonna see the view of the ocean like a seagull
i'm consuming water you're consuming what's illegal

spotify

bad sign, bad time (st1x51)

But Anyway (Prod. MCN x Jaylap)

LUCKY 2 LOVE

tan me up (prod. Andrew beatz) [OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS]

Produced by Gorestain (๑*ᗜ*) IG @prod.endyz

Written, recorded & performed by Endyz 

Beat production, mixed and mastered by Gorestain [GAMES]

I fell in love with her face
She got me caught up
What she thinking
What she doing today
Babe come over when you're bored
I know you're stressed from the day
When she calls me up
She asks me what yea doing today
Gage what yea doing today
I feel in love with her games
She's always texting me come over
But everyday feels the same
And now my time just feels so fast but maybe I am to blame
She always calls me up
She asks me what I'm doing today
Gage what yea doing today

You think you're crazy
So am I
I guess it's fine
Wasted all my time chasing ghosts and girls online
You think you're mad
Well so am I
I guess it's fine
Wasted all my money having fun
Or getting high
Getting high

I fell in love with her face
She got me caught up
What she thinking
What she doing today
Babe come over when you're bored
I know you're stressed from the day
When she call me
She asks me what I'm doing today
Gage what yea doing today
I feel in love with her games
She's always texting me come over
But everyday feels the same
And now my time just feels so fast maybe I am to blame
And now she call me up
She asks me what I'm doing today
Gage what yea doing today

Games + Gorestain

wounderfull dayz

Popstar

Here's the beat I used from youtube 
https://youtu.be/sr5b72cxvJg

Here's the producer https://youtube.com/c/CapsCtrl

Pain By redfox2019386 (prod.CapsCtrl)

new album out now
tour tickets: https://ffm.bio/joshiguess

bad sign, bad time (st1x51)

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