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Napalm Set (3/20/22)

Hatch Workshop Set (4/28/22)

June's Memorial Set (5/7/22)

Napalm Set (7/16/22)

boogies 2

clean songs

ft @fountainhead777
mastered by me
mixed by me + fountainhead + me adding effects to fountainheads vox
Shawty in my dms every season
Every single day has been feeling like the weekend
I've been trying to be happy fighting off my demons
My no reason to live has just turned into some reasons
I don't give a fuck long as it's myself I'm pleasing
You never wanna know how fast my heart is beating
Don't care what I'm saying, but you're the one that was reading
2021 I just hope this year can meet it

Will it meet my expectations
Last year was so frustrating
I thought it would be my year
But I was left in tears
I can't be a disappointment
But at least I'm not to myself
And I know I may have failed
Thats ok I'm doing well
And those past feelings that were felt
Cuz I don't need em now
And you only hear the sound
Of succeeding with my patience
It may take some time 
But I know that eventually everything will be fine
I know that there are some days that I'll be feeling off
But that's okay cuz I know you all do that a lot



I just robbed a cop 
I'm faded while you're not 
I know that you're an opp
Snuff you out like a moth
In truth I'm always fucked up 
I have faith in my mind's eye (don't care)
She ask me if I'm high 
She can't tell the fucking difference

Shawty causing dissonance 
And I've been having visions of 
Some people causing friction 
Benediction through my prison
I just got her call
they don't want you known
leave you alone
Tell you what I'm on

Shawty in my dms every season
Every single day has been feeling like the weekend
I've been trying to be happy fighting off my demons
My no reason to live has just turned into some reasons
I don't give a fuck long as it's myself I'm pleasing
You never wanna know how fast my heart is beating
Don't care what I'm saying, but you're the one that was reading
2021 I just hope this year can meet it

Spotify!

2021! / Shawty In My Dms (Roko Tensei, Silo)

prod. @windyboi
featuring @toxin_brewer
mixing/mastering
@joshiguess -by myself
@toxin_brewer -by himself
lyrics below
they be saying next up, she be acting extra,
if we keep this at our force won't ever be against us,
hiding in the spectrum, you won't ever be a victim,
 unless you coming up to me and  hit hard with reflection,

and i've been gone, for a while, 
we can't bond, with this pile,
of pillows, collapsing, all over, our bodies,
 and
we'll talk with walkie talkies, 
and i've just wanted to feel you around but it's too distant,
wont you be my mistress, i wish i had these kisses on this bed,
 in my head it circulates these thoughts of you,
and i can't feel the way i wanted me next to you

every time i'm next to you i just wanna die, baby hurt my feelings, girl i really hate the way you make me feel, everything you said i know you never meant it, everything you meant i know you never said it, looking at my face, i was ??? looking at the screenshots of your messages

walkie talkies w/ toxin brewer (windyboi)

prod. @ohhellonokia

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

This time i wanna do this right
This time, i don’t wanna fight
This time, i won’t say goodbye
This time, ill be alright,

I never wanted it to end up this way
so i gotta go ahead and take a detour
but i didn’t expect for it to stay
so im staying all alone like i am eeyore

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time

this time w/ nokia2k

afterlife
- https://linktr.ee/prod.afterlife

jolst 
- https://instagram.com/prodjolst
- https://youtube.com/c/jolst

Lyrics:
@joshiguess
I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
i swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

I called her to the dance, but she left me in a trance, she's not just a fan, want me to be her man, don't know if i can, i just might be banned, i sent her home with a stain on her pants

Falling in love, or am I aromatic, I can't ever trust, a loner or myself, I really need help, is life really worth it, the time will tell, but I don't think that I deserve this, 

my ex friends think it's urgent, that my only purpose, is to ruin their own living, they really got me tripping, cuz that's what they do, they avoid the truth rather see me in a noose, they just wanna see me blue

Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why
Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why

I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
i swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

@akiradoves
hurt me now 
hurt my emotions
give me now
give me your potion
and you're far away from me
leave me there running in the street
hurt me now 
hurt my emotions
give me now
give me your potion
leave me there right on the floor
you're gone

@cypression
when you left it took a piece of me
 i gave everything and you left me here to bleed
 i tried my hardest to make you stay 
but i guess it never mattered at the end of the day
(oooooooooooo--- woah-----)

@joshiguess : Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why

spotify

river spirits w/ akiradoves & cypression (afterlife x jolst)

She want me when she with another guy
He ain't gonna like it when I go between her thighs
We smoke another blunt and then we gettin way too high
Still dreaming about her and I still wonder why

Want me to hit you up but when I do you don't reply
Unless it's on your neck baby promise I won't bite
You know she want the addy but I hit her with the psych
Cuz I know when she back home another dm she will slide
Trying to expose me I can literally just hide
Cuz I'm not dealing with any other fake people in my life
Wanna do this on my own so I won't take your advice 
You know you can't always get away with being so nice

Got trust issues, say I won't miss you
Then I get the tissue, she off the mildew
And I can't control what she won't and she will do
So you're in the moment then you take it too far
And I know you got all these scars
Gotta stitch when I do my part
But continuing is hard
When I feel like I'm falling apart

And I know you got all these scars
Gotta stitch when I do my part
But continuing is hard
When I feel like I'm falling apart

She want me when she with another guy
He ain't gonna like it when I go between her thighs
We smoke another blunt and then we gettin way too high
Still dreaming about her and I still wonder why

Want me to hit you up but when I do you don't reply
Unless it's on your neck baby promise I won't bite
You know she want the addy but I hit her with the psych
Cuz I know when she back home another dm she will slide
Trying to expose me I can literally just hide
Cuz I'm not dealing with any other fake people in my life
Wanna do this on my own so I won't take your advice 
You know you can't always get away with being so nice

visualizer

trust issues (love race x paulfix)

Dedicated to @akiradoves

Days feel like a waste
Stab my back with a blade
What the fuck did I do
Took my name off your phone
Tell me if you did
Tell me is it real 
I don't even care
About my fucking self

You won't hit my phone anymore
She just chooses to ignore
Every day I feel so bored
Need someone to comfort me
Making new discoveries
Listening to mp3s
While we're playing ps3s
You know she is on her knees

Clouds that I face
Feeling small like a dace
Wishing I could embrace
Tie me up like a lace
Never winning in this race
While you're picking up the pace
Knowing days feel like a waste
Content locked like EA

Days feel like a waste
Stab my back with a blade
What the fuck did I do
Took my name off your phone
Tell me if you did
Tell me is it real 
I don't even care
About my fucking self

You won't hit my phone anymore
She just chooses to ignore
Every day I feel so bored
Need someone to comfort me
Making new discoveries
Listening to mp3s
While we're playing ps3s
You know she is on her knees

Konami to cheat on me
Take you to Shinigamis
The death gods in Japanese
Now you beg back for me, please

Days feel like a waste
Stab my back with a blade
What the fuck did I do
Took my name off your phone
Tell me if you did
Tell me is it real 
I don't even care
About my fucking self
prod @jxsiebeats

waste (jxsie beats)

I'm alone when I see the stars
Watch the moon while it gets dark
I'm alone when I see the stars
Watch the moon while it gets dark

You've been walking round with tired eyes
Make yourself chastise
Wish we compromised
You never show you're always in disguise
No I won't survive
Wish I was still your guy
Take me back to '04 in July
So I can revise
And restart my life
I feel like a puddle when it dries
Cuz I feel dead inside
I know it's my demise

I'm alone when I see the stars
Watch the moon while it gets dark

Remember days you spent at all these parks
Now you've lost your spark
Feels like a broken heart
I remember when I left my mark
Now she's at the bar
Well my bar is low
Feels like it's going slow
Like I'm low battery
My life is congested like it's fucking allergies
 At least I still got that light that i will always believe
 And I know that many lost it and they started smoking trees

I'm alone when I see the stars
Watch the moon while it gets dark
I'm alone when I see the stars
Watch the moon while it gets dark

july (jxsie beats)

mixed/mastered by me
prod by @st1x51

Lyrics:
it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

when you hit me up it's like a bookmark
 leave you alone then i go back to restart
now you in the back of the seating chart
need to pay a toll whenever you're the one to park
you show no remorse

you're envisioning my corpse
if i'm not interested i'll cite another source
feel like i'm playing sports
always a competition
 not easy living
 this life being a musician
 cast a spell i'm a magician
i just wait on this transition

(like just worry about your own life what is mine to you?)

it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

i can't hang around these people
when they acting way too evil
i'm just stuck at home 
while my friends are hanging at the regal
gonna see the view of the ocean like a seagull
i'm consuming water you're consuming what's illegal

bad sign, bad time (st1x51)

"convince myself" is a track released by joshiguess only on soundcloud as of speaking. this song along with a few others were changed when josh got more confident in his voice and mix on these songs. For a while there were a few things Josh didn't like about the original and thought this version was more of a head banger and fixed the mixes flaws. While that still applies in some way, he prefers the original speed nowadays due to its emotion and just overall feeling.

convince myself [nxname] (pitched ver.)

mix/master and feature by @autumndropsdead
prod @windyboi

Glass jars full of candy bars
You're so close but no cigar
People stare and they real bizarre
I'm so deprived and I need to charge
Haunting me she still in disguise
I'm over here still acting shy
Once I'm confident again, she too dry
In response to me and I try to hide

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Saves her words for later
Got em wrapped in small tin foil
They act dead to me, till I'm no longer free
Now they're rising out the soil
And i'm burning all my past memories
Stare at pots while they just boil
And all my opportunities were taken to despoil

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Paranoia, paranoia 
In the halls
Emissary for you
I won't be here for that long
Wait another second
I can make it out
It hurts a lot fucking more
When you walk through the door
That I let you in, in the first place

emissary w/ autumndropsdead (windyboi)

produced by Инеон https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuANCjKYkN8pD_xXkNYtOuQ/videos

feature https://soundcloud.com/dreamworldtony
mixed by me and tony
mastered by https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves

lyrics:
Feeling like I'm sonic I be speeding down the highway 
Shawty bad after class taking her to my place 
Saying I am trash well to me that's just a hot take
When our lips touch, she's like syrup on some hotcakes

No way, no way
 dream in the color, like he's cordae
I'm not nahmir I'm not fucking on a soul train,
She tryna come back but I'm outside of her whole lane

I've been up tonight staying recording 
High up in the sky feel like I am soaring 
Wonder what to do to make my life not boring 
Spent a few days w headwaters touring
I've been up tonight staying recording 
High up in the sky feel like I am soaring 
Wonder what to do to make my life not boring 
Spent a few days on tour with tony

(Dreamworld Tony)
Drive it like a rental car but it’s a foreign 
Hate my boring life up North I’d rather be touring 
Taking shots at the venue with a shorty 
It they pulling up with drama We ignore it 
Woke up in the car - feel like Aaron Carter 
Driving like a hundred hours yeah we just go harder 
Bitch we fast going up, got our foot in the door 
Fuck a hometown show and do a west coast tour
My beats from Ukraine 
My car stay German though 
I feel like midnight club the way my team go
Shout out to Josh's dad yeah he a real one 
California kush got me feeling like a demon
I feel like Knuckles, fuck Eggman
I’m staying up all night doing what I can

(JoshIGuess)
No way, no way
 dream in the color, like he's cordae
I'm not nahmir I'm not fucking on a soul train,
She tryna come back but I'm outside of her whole lane

Spotify

California w/ Dreamworld Tony (Инеон)

Fall away is a track made by joshiguess that he has performed a few times. Usually when performing this song to save time and prevent confusion, he takes out the pitch change at the end along with switching the speed of the song. This is also used so the static noise is transitioned to the next song. This is an example of the live version.




i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

and im shining, like a diamond, 
tears upon your eyelids, 
ima dry em off, while we stare in silence,
you like this, well i like this,
can't believe we gotta wait until the time ticks 
back to the past and back to the future, 
what is the path that i will not be a loser to them,
ahem, may i speak up please, i can only do so in song, 
so will i ever get along, with the people that i know

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

im really nervous, 
what is this purpose, 
in my own living,
 its got me tripping,

im really nervous, 
what is this purpose, 
in my own living,
 its got me tripping,

fall away(performance ver) [lil waifu]

criminal mastermind w/ love jai + jomie (king theta)

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

dont try to rescue someone who wants to be rescued & be careful rescuing someone who wants to be rescued
ohh ooo ohhh ooo
im the complete opposite of self sufficient
and i dont think that ill ever listen
momma used to say you better clean your act up
but now im out here in a room full of actors
and i cant tell what the fuck really matters
im tryna come up they keep kicking the latter
your glass filled half way well mines looking shattered
i can feel it in the air theres not much special
i dont wanna leave you let alone learn to let go
i just want the chicken cheese and guap keep the queso
fighting with you is like a war in the court room
and i lose every single time its a case closed
walking with my demon and i gave him my halo
standing on my business ima do what i say so

and sometimes i may feel like im an idiot
fuck it baby let em think that im an idiot
hold tight and we'll be there in a minute
pick a fight and jus tell me wen u finished
lately i dont like the person im becoming in the mirror 
i keep running i keep running i keep running it aint clear
and they say im close to something but it dont feel like im near
umm i cant even tell you how the fuck i got here
i dont ever think youll feel what i feel
i put blood sweat and tears in this bitch for years

unfinished draft i may or may not finish

about mlg gamer
guitar & melody by rjpasin & drums by ig: @whysodrmatic

bae i wrote u a song and it go,
u make me feel like im decaying while i coulda glod

bae i wrote u a song ft. no.cape

lyrics:

A quick assessment of any plan out of town
Looks like just another lonely ride home to her
The pretty white lights hang from the veranda
And they light up faces that slur out the words
“This year felt so long but somehow we all have survived
If next year is this hard then fuck I think id rather die”
So lets relive and regret cause there’s a year's worth of it and we only got time
But If it took us this long to recover then winters gonna eat us alive

The empty roads
Of the oceans coast
Provide shelter for
Her spent wary bones
In attic suites
When ur all alone
Will u remain headstrong
Or will u long for home
Id like to think that by spring were fine
but winters gonna eat us alive.

winters gonna eat us alive

“This year felt so long but somehow we all have survived
If next year is this hard then fuck I think id rather die”

winters gonna eat us alive

winters gonna eat us alive (nico north)

feat https://soundcloud.com/ilyl1ght
prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodbyjoshwa
https://open.spotify.com/album/1OdvK8PePuUVnuXNXCUih8
Baby what a sight to see
All day in the sun just you and me like
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh (yeah)
My friends all tell me watch out
But I got a feeling that they're all wrong 
They all said you're bad for me
Won't you stay here adore me
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh
Baby tell me something 
I feel like i'm in love and
You know

You know
Every time no response yeah you ghost 
But you know once you loved me the most
And I wish you would hold me close

And I can't stop staring 
At these messages you sent me
It's gotten me transcending to a whole another dimension

And girl I got questions 
Are your intentions
To lead me in this direction?
Got these butterflies in my intestines 
But I guess it's just to leave impressions

And you know you got me
Without having to prove (anything)
But you staying right within my dreams

Baby what a sight to see
All day in the sun just you and me like
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh (yeah)
My friends all tell me watch out
But I got a feeling that they're all wrong
They all said you're bad for me
Won't you stay here adore me
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh
Baby tell me something
I feel like i'm in love and
You know

woahohyouknow w/ ilyl1ght (joshwa)

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

I take in the fresh air as I continue breathing
And you don't gotta worry what you do and don't believe in
Just as long as you don't battle me with your own demons
Cus it's hard for me to handle anyone close that is leaving

He's stuck with her and I just gotta accept that
And my other friends busy and I wish I could prevent that
Ghosted about a year and i'm still tryna get back on track
Without their energy i'm missing my other half

Yeah the percent is 50
Josh nowadays doesn't feel too nifty
Lost track of my mind when I had an epiphany
Yeah I'm always coming down like Santa from a chimney

I can't keep running away from this society
But it's hard to keep these feelings that are inside of me
I used to have a lot of people that were right behind me
But once they keep on moving forward they say bye bye to me

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

And yeah I may be afk
But i'll still try to be there any day
Just wish it didnt have to be this way
If only my mind could never break

Never break
I made too many mistakes
I just gotta teach myself to behave

long distance

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

Now i'm truly stuck in the middle of nowhere
And I cannot choose between my long or my short hair
Is this town vintage or modern like warfare?
They told me at least I got a room to record there
So why not take my time and go and explore there
Before the time expires and it starts to outgrow there
So let's go and try and start to make it a home there
They try to tell where I am like, it's a no share

And there's times I know i could be elsewhere
But you know I won't feel like myself there so

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

There's no escape now there's no way to transport
Unless I'm getting to the bag like i'm wearing Jansport
Or I truly use my legs, yea it's a man's sport
Catch me chilling in the back of a vans store
Of a vans store

middle of nowhere

I got perfect timing, (I got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (We got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (I got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (Yeah we got perfect timing)

You should stop from hiding, i gotta keep finding, you with all
My sightings, it struck me like lightning, am i in the rightening? or could
I be wrong, why am i still writing, for this stupid song, you should change
The lighting, if you're at the club, why do i keep on fighting, if im so in
Love, you think i am flying, cuz i am above, i got it provide it, may not
Have enough, if you see me sighing, that is just because, i am on the run
Through the world among, started a new future, new past has begun, night after the moon, days will show the sun

I got perfect timing, (I got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (We got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (I got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (Yeah we got perfect timing)

Be here with the timing, never stop shining, reach that perfect
Lining, in this stupid mine, go one at a time, just need some more dimes
For some more rhymes, you should combine, all those freaking signs, stop me
From big climbs, better just ride, walk home with no pride, feeling like
Hiding, always been denied, its time to divide, time to match the ties

I got perfect timing, (I got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (We got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (I got perfect timing)
I got perfect timing (Yeah we got perfect timing)

(High Note): I've got perfect timing! (I've got perfect timing)
I've got perfect timing! (we got perfect timing!)
I've got perfect timing (I've got perfect timing)
Yeah we got perfect timing (Yeah we've got perfect timing!)

Athryn & JoshIGuess - Perfect Timing Original Mix (Prod. LiLJxnkins Beatz)

featuring https://soundcloud.com/emoflytrap
prod https://soundcloud.com/nejdos
mixed/mastered by me 
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don't @ me,
you've been warned,
that you hurt me,
like piles of thorns, 
hit me hard, 
like you were thor,
 but you gave me, what i asked for,

waste of space, 
thats what i am, 
while you rise up,
 i sink in sand, 
when one picks up,
 one just ran,
 when i mess up,
 can't take my stance, 
hard to take,
 more romance, 
when i know,
all won't go as planned

 i dont wanna pay
 i just want the cake
 sorry that im late
 im just hella fake
 back it up in the club 
got my lights in the puff,
i know life sucks 
im just tryna get by, 
you hurt me, 
and the words gone away,
dont hurt me im just tryna stay away
you hurt me, 
and the words gone away,
dont hurt me im just tryna stay away

what i asked for w/ emoflytrap (nejdos)

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

i've been going through a lot of nonsense
its gotten to where i feel very cautious
what'd they do with my brain yeah they washed it,
too much numbers in my head apartment complex,
and i'm just blasting off just like a rocket,
i feel like i'm playing tag just cuz i'm just not it,
and i'm washing all these thoughts just like a faucet,
so i'm the one that made em wet, just think about it,
yuh

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

live performance <3

hugging my pillow (sleepydex)

slid in dms, i let you in, i became your medicine, i'm always the cure,
i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more i always felt a different thing,
spending time with you, i just take this time to sing, to express my feeling past and present, i worry about the future too much,
but honestly it's looking good now, couldn't feel a thing, anything but you really got me in a mood now,

gotta get through this won't complain, i'm glad about what we have today, we got a reward at stake, and we always got the goals to chase,
you know what we got to get through, in this life there is a maze, of these choices we give or take, and impress it to our amaze,

i am nervous, to serve this purpose, but it's just the way life goes now,
do i deserve this, of course it's urgent, now you know you'll never feel alone now,
i just got to take past actions with a grain of salt, 
cuz even when things were my fault, i put those things to a halt now,

and i just got to improve every day that i can, i need to prove, that i'm a man, that really cares so deeply, for his beings in his presence,
and i can be your medic, even when its hectic, i promise i won't let it,

ohhh-- ohhh--- ohhh--- ohh---

live perfomance <3

medic (kudyo)

w / soundcloud.com/athrynb
soundcloud.com/akiradoves

Heart eyes, heart eyes when I see you
Inspirational I really wanna be you
Doors locked and I need to find the key thru
Lock into the heart that you see thru

Heart eyes, heart eyes when I see you
Inspirational I really wanna be you
Doors locked and I need to find the key thru
Lock into the heart that you see thru

You're the one, that ends the pain
You're the sunlight to my rain
We won't sit, talk and complain
But we'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day

Look around it's hard to see through
All the hardships, you have no clue
Inspirational, heart is what I come to
Take what I've said for redo

Clouded minds fill the open air
Heart eyes come but so rare
Life's hard you make it fair
Heart eyes cleanse the despair
Heart eyes, heart eyes when I see you
Inspirational I really wanna be you
Doors locked and I need to find the key thru
Locked into the heart that you see thru

All the pain, all the hate
Disappears without a trace
Heart eyes, opens our fate
To the new things for debate

You're the one, that ends the pain
You're the sunlight to my rain
We won't sit, talk and complain
But we'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day

Yeah you're the sunlight to my rain

Yeah you're the sunlight to my rain

Yeah you're the sunlight to my rain

I know that it's hard sometimes baby come and hold me tight
I've been lost, and I'm lost
Every time I start to cry you were never there at night
Why were you gone, when I was lost
Kinda wonder why you hate me
I kinda want you to love me (woah-oh-oh-oh)
Do you ever say goodbye?
I don't want this to ever end
So we'll fly like the doves yuh

You're the one, that ends the pain
You're the sunlight to my rain
We won't sit, talk and complain
But we'll get better at the end of the day

performance

heart eyes w/ athryn & akiradoves (redmosk)

new album out now
tour tickets: https://ffm.bio/joshiguess