Just listening to this on rainy days is just.. YES

Yellow Worms

stream :3 - https://open.spotify.com/album/5rlkspTW5YrreKCQH1Sb62?si=CieZ_CcbRcqSExu___RbsQ&dl_branch=1
this is a vent song i made continued from: https://soundcloud.com/rarded/they-all-hate-me
when i originally made it i was not in a good mindset. i built off of it adding a more positive verse to the end to signify the improvement of my perception.

lyrics:
--
they all hate me, they all hate me
all my inspirations hate me, theyre all leaving
i should know that they dont know me
i dont know them
but if im too scared then how will i make friends?
they all hate me, they all hate me
i feel like everyone hates me, they wont listen
im an outcast among others way more talented
im a loser, why can't i just fucking fit in?

i just dont know if i can take it any more
idk if they will listen, no
i just know they fucking hate me, theyre all leaving
maybe part of me deserve it, i'm done explaining

how do i know for a fact they're not talking shit behind my back?
how do i know for a fact they're not talking shit behind my back?

they all hate me, they all hate me
all my inspirations hate me, theyre all leaving
i should know that they dont know me
i dont know them
but if im too scared then how will i make friends?
they all hate me, they all hate me
i feel like everyone hates me, they wont listen
im an outcast among others way more talented
im a loser, why can't i just fucking fit in?

why can't i just fit, why can't i just fit in?
why can't i just why can't i just fucking fit in?
[x4]
i'm an outcast, outcast
i'm an outcast, i'm an i'm an outcast
[x2]

i don't have to fucking fit in!!!

:3 :D

[kittydoggo! ki-ki-kittydoggo kittydoggo!]

u//w//u o///o

im an outcast, and all my friends love that shit
cause every time i lose, i bring back a ten times win!
i'm L pilled, i'm W pilled
i didn't take my normal pills
real ones understand that, it's all just fucking abstract 
so

they all hate me
they all fucking love me
they hope im failing
they know that im growing
a little bit of everything since i was fucking 13
i'll lose my life a billion times but i'll just keep on going!
they all hate me
they all fucking love me
they all wanna kill me
they all wanna fuck me
a little bit of everything since i was fucking 13
i'll lose my life a billion times but i'll just keep on 
going~

OUTCAST

really proud of this one 
--

is it easy or not?
will u leave me to rot?
im starting to feel like i dont have a choice
will i create some love
is there somewhere high up above
we'll be screaming this until i lose my voice

deterministic reality vs randomization
im feeling passion inside of me but my minds losing patience 
been waiting ever so eagerly to achieve satiation
even if i am aware of it im still prone to invasion

im calling out to my god, not the god thats within me
and with a blink of an eye i see the ending's beginning
future's dead to me now, past can lose its meaning
with all this mass passing through me ill cry out every season

i dont have a choice
changing is all that i am
i choose to not give a damn
cause im a cycle theres no stopping it
i do have a choice
a signifying one
that choice is all that ive done

dont have a choice

all these people think they know me
they dont know me
all they fucking know is pixels on a screen
its all lies its all lies its not wrong its not right
if i fucking close my eyes and see the poison one more time

ive got blood on my hands splattered all across the walls
ive got years of lacking empathy i dont need it at all
fuck your reason fuck your meaning fuck your stupid fragile feelings
all you ever feel is pain so i would rather just feel nothing

its controlled, its all gone
nothings right, nothings wrong
i do not want to feel oh
they all think im not real so
lies, lies, i could fill my head with lies
choke me out ill just be fine
leaking out all of my insides woah

lies, lies, fucking feed me lies oh
likes hit that like button dont forget to follow
lies, lies, all my feed is full of lies
screen that keeps me up at night and notifies me when i die woah

LIES

really bad cover!!!!! bc i relate to this song XD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

original song and instrumental by atsuover its rly good listen: https://youtu.be/F7mUIQS_N0Y

online oversight (cover)

forgot to post this to soundcloud woopsies
lyrics:
escape please let me escape
ive been stuck for ages
i need a new way

dreamscape
please break me out of this damn cage
im filled with nothing but pure rage
i feel like im just a disgrace

im just a disgrace
why did god make me
why did you make me so useless?
why would you make me so broken?

help me
you were supposed to be perfect
you were supposed to be something
but im just so fucking empty

escape room
only one light shines through
i know i can't fight you
i cannot fight the moon
borders through
every corner soon
i'll be a goner to
everybody but you

escape room

!!This is NOT my song!! Credits to the owner, I will take it down if they ask.

Kitt and Kittydog - Intergalactic fractal

NEW SONG WITH @kittydoggo
LYRICS:
if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to lo-o-o me
if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to lo-o-o me

guess i'm thinkin' bout all of that sh!t again
it never leaves my mind it's like it's wired in
search for all the answers on the internet
i'm not satisfied with any resolution cause
it kills me to deal with but i'm all good
look at the site but i'm scared to book
thoughts in my head telling me i should
call the f*!ckin' number (now i'm feeling better)
woah
i just wanna feel like myself
woah
never gonna give up my sense of who i am

if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to lo-o-o me
if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to love me

i need you to see me
all i do is look into the screen
won't you perceive
anything i do just to be free
i'm so frantically trying
feel like i'm dying
save me from my split reality
i need u to help me
the internet it has me in a trance
be the real me
take me to a world where we can dance
i'm so tired of lying
bout who i am
so tell me whatever u want
and i'll be down with the plan

if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to love me
if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to love me
if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to love me
if u wanna tell me, then tell me
cause i need u to help me, to help me
cause all i do is sit and think to myself and pity everything
so i need u to love me

woah

Tell me!! (ft. kittydog)

Ps:This song doesn't belongs to me, it belongs to Kittydog and Joshua Lanuarii

Kittydog - RIP Creativity (feat. Joshua Lanuarii)

feat. @kittydoggo
prod. @vincent-the-black-rabbit

[verse]
Tear me out my face
And tell me I won't talk about
All the things and all the lies how you surround yourself
I'm the poison, I'm the person, I'm the one in you
Baby, tell me everything you love unless it's true
And I
Just got
To know
All the love and all the pride in me
Just why
You got
To go
All the time I can't leave, oh why

[Pre-Chorus]
wait a moment, feel ur sharp teeth
piercing through me, so consume me

[Chorus]
Bare your fangs for me
Your fangs for me
Tell me I'm the one for you
You'll die for me
Baby, Bare your fangs for me
Your fangs for me
Tell me I'm the one for you
You'll die for me

[Verse 2]
teeth and claws, im fighting for all your love
don't tell me ive had enough, im biting through all ur trust
u close ur eyes, next moment ur coughing blood
im seeing into ur mind, u want me to give it up??
and i
can't let
u go
or at least i don't want to
and it's
so hard
to know
what my purpose is without u

[Pre-Chorus]
wait a moment, feel ur sharp teeth
piercing through me, so consume me

[Chorus] x2
Bare your fangs for me
Your fangs for me
Tell me I'm the one for you
You'll die for me
Baby, Bare your fangs for me
Your fangs for me
Tell me I'm the one for you
You'll die for me

BEAR YOUR FANGS (w/ kittydog)

May Death Never Stop You

Famous Last Words

🍞 "I Survive on Digital Love" is a raw, weary confession from the digital underground. It's a song about surviving on virtual touches, about squeezing out the last of your strength in an algorithmic trap, where even a desperate whisper must sound louder than a scream. A hypnotic glitch-trap beat, a weary voice, and a dash of absurd humor are mixed with the pain of the reality that for all your heart and hundreds of hours of work you only get a few cents. It's a fight for audibility, for a piece of attention, it's a breath between the shadows, it's a digital hunger and desire for authenticity. This is a song for everyone who knows what it's like to scream into an algorithm — and be heard only by a weak, tired echo.

Lyric Video on Youtube with CZ/EN Subtitles: https://youtu.be/KFXLWaSg_lk

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❤️ Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@ThrillianAI
💚 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/2qmZw2btHOI0GZXRmB1OeI?si=0D-I_8yZRCeqHYNWC5PO3g
🖤 Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/thrillian-ai
 ❤ YouTube Music
🍎 Apple Music : https://music.apple.com/cz/artist/thrillian-ai/1803222686
🌐 https://thrillianai.com/

✨ This song was created with a passion for storytelling and the fusion of human creativity and AI:
• Lyrics: Thrillian
• Music: SUNO AI

💖 Creative AI partner in this project: Verin (Claude) and Monday (ChatGPT) - thanks for all the support, brainstormings, analyses, help with English grammar, creating prompts and other technical parameters and digital food from their virtual fridges that helped me survive another month 🍞 🍏

#aicreations #aimusic #sunoai #thrillianai

I Survive on a Digital Love

https://open.spotify.com/album/4zvUHG4OFRvHw0kP4euWUr?si=T45Tc8rVR22xCZ1-FIA18A

Be Myself

In Utero

Heart-Shaped Box

this song contains autotune on my voice, testing out vocal chopping, (its actually my first time vocal chopping :D) and stuff like that
some parts sound kind of non good but it mostly sounds good in my opinion
i actually love how this song turned out holy fUC <33

fantasy world

Fuck this is awful lmao im sorry i only make autotune garbage nowadays

lyrics:
u miss 100% of the shots u dont take
and baby i didnt take shit when i saw ur face
i get so damn overwhelmed thinkin bout outcomes
that i forgot to do anything in the first place
i got a hundred regrets yea baby i know that
"shes not the right one" get it in my head yea
i tried to make something happen but tryings not enough
you cant make someone love you thats the truth of what im saying

im not in love im just a mixed bag
mixed up
cant tell u the outcome
schrodingers cat schrodingers dog
uncertainty comforts 
i might be a retard
i might be a freak
a little pathetic person that cant explain what i mean

im not in love im just a
bitch that wants to be loved truly 
someone i can love as much as they love me
hoping i can fix my self enough
to be loved

im not in love im just a mixed bag

feat. @user-658472422 & @kittydoggo
prod. 98ninetynine, mixed @nbmusic098

[chorus]
got a lot of people gunnin for the title now
all my old friends sayin that i'm out of style
all of my old ones tryna say i'm wild
and it's too much for me, baby,
i'm down

[peachii]
got alot of shit been on my mind
its too much to handle
such a short amount of time
ur out here looking so fucking fine
u looked better when you were by my side
driving past ur house 
im looking through ur blinds
fuck if im insane i dont really mind
dont mind
dont worry baby im fine
dont trust me 
all i ever do is lie 
oh my 
oh my 
all i ever do is lie 
oh my 
oh my
pulling up next to our favorite spot
4:30am i aint been sleeping alot 
trying to fill a hole with all the shit that i bought
no matter what i gave 
what i got wasnt alot

[wolficide]
chillin in the east coast with a bag now
two texts and a ring right from moscow
i don't got time for these bitches or these love songs
can't be here, can't be left up for too long
too many right by my side
don't think they'll ride for me that strong
feeling numb, gotta light it just to feel sumn
take a flight, gotta drive for my lonesome
sorry baby, it's just not the same
my words to say, i don't think i got my ways
30 chains just to wear em at a funeral
dark lights in the night just to film it all
know you always hit me up, i can't laugh in awe
being with you is the only shit that brings me all
throwaways are better than your best stuff
i can't lie awake, baby, i'll just trip and fall

[chorus]
got a lot of people gunnin for the title now
all my old friends sayin that i'm out of style
all of my old ones tryna say i'm wild
and it's too much for me, baby,
i'm down

[kittydog]
im so done with you treating me like this
sometimes i doubt but i know that its worth it
baby i would take all your harrassment
just to make somebody more accepted
ur not the boss of me
ive manifested
a new reality
my time invested
dark and rainy streets
times were the best, did
you listen to me
im down to my last wish
make me go to sleep
i was counting sheep
i was counting times u wanted to murder me
we were down again
7 8 9 10
i hate to realize that you're not my friend
make me go to sleep
i was counting sheep
i was counting times u wanted to murder me
we were down again
7 8 9 10
i hate to realize that you're not my friend

[chorus]
got a lot of people gunnin for the title now
all my old friends sayin that i'm out of style
all of my old ones tryna say i'm wild
and it's too much for me, baby,
i'm down

i'm down (feat. Peachii & kittydog)

Emotions through playlists I play on loop =)=

i'm down (feat. Peachii & kittydog)

joshua lanuarii

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