always start to feel better
just a little too late to soak it in
this is just the way it always ends

no time to count all of the times
i wish i could change my mind
about changing who i am

sharp pain in my chest
can't tell if its sadness or a heart attack
i'd prefer the second, god i wanna bring myself back

the sun is out the sky is blue
so why the fuck can't i be happy too?
everything's alright, so what's wrong with me?
don't want pills or therapy cause they just numb me
or leave me be
cause i'm just not fucked up enough
is this really what i've become?

don't wanna drag you down with me
cause you're the only thing i see
in my future, whatever that word means

they say van gogh only sold one painting
while his beautiful heart was beating
but i'm a joke so where does that leave me?

the sun is out the sky is blue
so why the fuck can't i be happy too?
everything's alright so what's wrong with me?
don't want pills or therapy
cause they just numb me or leave me be
cause i'm just not fucked up enough
is this really what i've become?

written hundreds of songs
written thousands of words
is this empty life really what i deserve?
stick it all in a bottle and send it out to sea

the sun is out the sky is blue
so why the fuck can't i be happy too?
everything's alright so what's wrong with me?
can't afford pills or therapy
cause i just loathe in my own pity
i've dug my grave i've made my bed
so i'll just go sleep in it

i am sleeping on a sinking ship

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