i’ve been trying to write you
a series of poems
but nothings changing
ill bottle my problems
till i can’t contain them
they’ll stay right inside of my own head
and i just wanna know what it means
to be myself again
i’ve lost interest in the things that would help me just forget

and i don’t like the way i talk
i hate whats said
id rather just shut up
and eat this lead
i cant deal with dread
i cant deal with stress
i lie every single night awake in bed
my mind is sinking into sorrow
i cant see tommorow
yesterday was hollow
eyes are feeling shallow
i cant give a reason
why i should be breathing
wish for different seasons
so i can feel decent

some nights I lie in bed
trying to make sense 
of what i intend to be
my mom says get a job
but i cant hang on
to a life that isn't for me

but you and i
see eye to eye
as they keep movin forward
we get along
sing the same song
someday we'll make it out there

spotify

poems for myself w/ stephanie cortez (caspr & saint tommorow)

*REUPLOAD FROM ARCHIVE PAGE*

produced by poorbryan and bixby (and mostly bixby lol)
written by bixby and adapted by poorbryan
performed by poorbryan featuring aquariiius
mixed and mastered by poorbryan

lyrics:

intro:
out of options i lost to the fall
keep my eyes on the dust on my wall
fucking up my head
on saturday morning
sat by the porch and
seen all the warnings

verse:
cuz i dont know what they all expect of me
and tell me whats the point when im not worth a thing
cuz i dont even know what u want from me
so close ur eyes and leave me just to fade away

hook:
so tell me whats the reason
i can never sleep in
say that im the bad guy
god its such a bad lie
i cant seem to find home
everything is so cold
do this shit on my own
i can never find light

aquariiius (verse 2):
there may not be a reason
im still searchin for meaning
long night playing with feelings
it haunts me through the seasons
i wish i had a source
from someone to keep me whole
need someone to take control
when im fallin dont let go

it looks easy, you make it look easy
sabotage myself but im still not defeated
so exhausted, but im no longer haunted
feelin broken but i cant ask for helpin hands

bridge:
no serotonin cant catch a break
no motivation cant stay awake
dont ask about it
i cant explain
i highly doubt that you wont
walk away

hook:
so tell me whats the reason
i can never sleep in
say that im the bad guy
god its such a bad lie
i cant seem to find home
everything is so cold
do this shit on my own
i can never find light

aquariiius (bridge 2):
it looks easy, you make it look easy
sabotage myself but im still not defeated
running circles in my mind 
none of this is justified
lesson learned not overnight
i cant take my own advice

outro:
fucking up my head
guess im out for the weekend
got 2020 vision
i cant even fuckin see straight

aquariiius (outro): 
ya and theres someone that im needin
can you tell me whats the reason

reason w/ aquariiius (bixby)

Prod. LikelyBarking

Braylons mom is trash!

Your Mom Is Trash

true story

but i dont think that its the last time 
baby this is not right 
u been on my mind like all night 
but still i see u in the starlight 
all these things i cant find
n its getting harder to pretend 

i need u off my mind 
off ur love im so blind 
still miss u all the time 
cant get out of ur bind 

but still i see u in the starlight 
all these things i cant find
n its getting harder to pretend 
but i dont think that its the last time 
u been on my mind like all night 
n i dont think we just can make amends 
n i dont know if i’ll see u again 
wanna take ur hand in this bitter end 
but still i know we cant be friends 
n yet its breaking me apart 

but i know things are not for certain 
cut my wrist and lock ur words in 
but i dont know if i deserve this 
lose myself behind closed curtains
n i know maybe im not worth it 
if i could i would be perfect 
but i dont know if i deserve this
lose myself behind closed curtains

uncertain (recycleBin + nate2timez)

a fake scene awakens
curvin my bad decisions
might fall back tonight
all the paths i’ve takin 
n i keep regressing
my regrets in this

u make me delusional
f*ck u for losin hope
loose love it was conditional
used me like medicinal

i got caught up in the way that we talk
moved too fast then we swerved hit a wall
brake fast finish last
leading me along
always gettin high 
why’d u leave me at a low?
i can fix u up
let me in take it slow
fight me outside
back it up when we’re alone
u f*ck my head up like a prozac
empty like a bottle no signal like i’m blocked in

u make me delusional
f*ck you for losin hope
loose love it was conditional
used me like medicinal

consider i take the past away
or i rewash all that pain away
can’t take it back instead replay
every detail of those memories made,
we got swept up tryna force this
love n loss just part of the process
built up mountains of remorses
split us up n now we’re corpses to us,
we let the outside take us
hard to bring back 
what was had after lost trust
still look for u in the real world
were we just lust?
that we called love?

(i gotta yell here? f*ck)
u make me delusional
f*ck you for losin hope
loose love it was conditional
used me like medicinal
u make me delusional
f*ck this make me risk it all
loose love thinking you ripped me off
too high off your counter love

medicinal

This will be my last track for awhile since I am starting college, hope you enjoy and a huge thanks to my friend Kirsten for joining me on this song! We've got some pretty fire songs together but this one is truly my favorite! 
Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7aBem4wXAnrJFebJwpyTp1?si=AivQKSiMROeouV11Lokjtw

Wish You Knew (Feat. notcursed)

Lyrics/Letras

I'm moving on, I'm moving on 

I'm moving forward on my own two feet
If you'd wanted me that would have been so sweet 
But you didn't so I gotta skip that beat
Your memory I'll make it obsolete
No eres bienvenida, I don't wanna talk to ya 
Your life is over and mines just beginning 
And I'll keep on winning laughing and scoffing 

Looking down on you so how's it feel
Man I bet you wish this wasn't real
I got Latinos right by the heel
Some them call me rey like no me mates wey
Stay out of my way and do yo own thing 
Oh that's right you can't it ain't been working 
You crawl back for scraps you a beggar
Go back in your hole you little goffer 

Sorry to be blunt
but I'm not really fucking with you
I think your a cunt 
I sure hope you had fun fucking with me
Cuz when I'm on the TV then you gon see

Ya I used to be in the dirt now you are 
Sure I keep a scar but I got a new car
And your ass in retail and yo bitch is a barista 
My little tortita born and raised in Costa Rica
Now I'm Lima like what's up qué pasa causa
I got new bitches in the tub inside the sauna 
I swear I'm happy but my heart is like the tundra 
And if I die I'll probably stick around to haunt ya

I'm moving forward on my own two feet
If you'd wanted me that would have been so sweet 
But you didn't so I gotta skip that beat
Your memory I'll make it obsolete
No eres bienvenida, I don't wanna talk to ya 
Your life is over and mines just beginning 
And I'll keep on winning laughing and scoffing

Just the Beginning

11-Caminos distintos Feat Dairzboy prod.ALYAPOH

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

A love song I wrote for my incredibly precious loving girlfriend whom is the reason I smile, her name is Jamie. I hope you enjoyed my song, please share it with your friends! 

Lyrics

昔、心がひんやり
季節、さびしい
今は、楽しい
Jamie 一緒に
いつもそばに
共にいたい
隣いていい？

She melts the ice off my heart
And she really cute kinda like a poptart
She was there for me when i was falling apart
And its thanks to her i got a brand new start

その彼女は僕の月
神様くれた奇跡
毎日愛してるJamie
You'll just have to believe me
That your a walking symphony
You live in my destiny
All of you so mystically
Your like a movie made so beautifly
Your my studio gibili in a world of
mass trash walt disneys
Beam me up scotty, tpa shawty
旦那さんになりたい、Jamie girl なくない
Ima slash set home and you'll never be alone

Shes my anchor, my safe harbor
And everything I do I wanna do with her
So don't get any closer lil boy thats an order
Cuz if it was for her I might even murder
Whenever were apart I swear that its torture
but i'll keep laughing in the rain like I'm Eren Yeager
And when it comes to loving her I don't ever waver
I never stagger, never wonder, I just stay beside her

When she came into my life she took all my trust
We built our love up from the dust
Like diamonds shining in the crust
We don't need that fleeting lust
Let our love burn and combust

永遠の炎のように燃え続け
僕を助けて、ずっと一緒にいて
僕も、いつも、そばにいてね
自分の妻になってくれ

Jamie My Kiseki 奇跡

oskuridad ft rodriria

I write songs, sing, produce beats, and mix vocals.
"Wish You Knew" Just hit 1,000+ plays on Spotify, Thank you!

Just the Beginning

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