Dr. Jank - Nothing to Lose EP - FREE DOWNLOAD
Featuring Young B, Kai Mata
Prod. Dr. Jank, NINE THE GEE WHIZ

lyrics~

chorus 1:
mmmmmmyeah,
all the time im walkin about,
i got people talkin to me, what you talkin about?
i said it's really not that hard for you to figure it out
if you just look at my mouth,
or do i really have to shout?
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out babe

verse 1:
yeah i hit up that atm
i got rival PC's (player characters) yellin ey! BM (bad manners)
yeah im that ladies man
dont be no safety pin
but if you got some digits on you ain't no secrets then,
harlem im trottin
while so called homies be plottin
when it's me they be spottin
they think deez nuts i done got em,
but im more of a problem
on math tests im at the bottom
so if you thought this would be easy think again because i brought em!

chorus 1.5 (with kai mata):
all the time im walkin about,
i got people talkin to me, what you talkin about?
i said it's really not that hard for you to figure it out
and if you look at my pockets then you know there's no doubt
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just walking on clouds
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out
I'm just livin it out babe

vocal yeah solo

chorus 2:
got these people talkin to me and i dont know why
got these people talkin bout me and i don't understand why, why
am i your conversation piece?

verse 2:
Your peace,
why do we gotta make this mess with cheese
when we could just be smilin sayin thank you and please
and please, please don't leave me, oh,
you are my cloud you are my basis
i see this look upon your faces
it makes me find my good graces
and i had better tie my laces, it's racist
how all these people ignorin the facts,
and ignorant's back
and how could you take that back
and how could i keep the stack
rollin like trains on the track
yeah i know i got some fixations in my brain it's amazin
Amaziiiiiiiiin

chorus 2


Walking On Clouds (feat Kai Mata)

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I want to give you up.
I want to let you go.
I want you to know.
I am giving up. 

[Verse 2]
I want to walk away.
But leaving is too tough.
I’m not strong enough.
So please walk away from me.

[Chorus]
They say time…time heals every ache.
But it was time that let my heart decay.  
I can’t wait…wait another day.
I can’t stay—but I, too, can’t walk away.

[Verse 3]
I want to see your face,
And feel no more,
Or even just ignore
My heart’s racing pace. 

[Verse 4]
I want to hear your voice
And feel no more. 
I want to lock the door;	
This was not my choice. 
Like it isn’t yours.

[Chorus]
They say time…time heals every ache.
But it was time that let my heart decay.  
I won’t wait… wait for you to say
That you don’t love me…love me in that way.  
I need to walk away.

[Bridge]
Run away.
Because I can’t stay; I can’t stay.  I can’t stay.
Run away; I’ll run away,
But to my dismay, my heart won’t sway,  though it decays. 
It wants to stay.  

[Chorus]
They say time…time heals every ache.
But it was time that let my heart decay.  
I can’t wait…wait another day.
I can’t stay, 
but I too must walk away. 

[Outro]
I want to give you up.
I want to let you go.
I want you to know.
I am giving up.

Decay (Time to Shine Album)

Lyrics:

Taken away from time to think.
A heavy heart is meant to sink. 
What does it take to make me sing? 
Who ties the knot?  Who cuts the string? 

Underneath the tallest trees
Isn’t where we hoped to be.
Stuck in shadows, forced to hide. 
A heavy heart can’t see the light. 

Is timing right? 
Afraid to fight. 
Under the weight
Of yesterday.
In this seed
Is destiny.
Will destiny
Survive the night?  

Washed away to fairy land.
Where’s the space for us to stand? 
Pixie dust falls from the sky.
Well a heavy heart can’t fly tonight.

Is timing right? 
Afraid to fight. 
Under the weight
Of yesterday.
In this seed
Is destiny.
Will destiny
Survive the night?  

For every morning comes the kiss 
Of today’s fortune: is it bliss?
Or is it mourning?  Tell me this.
Will we be mourning?  Tell me this.

Will destiny survive the day? 
And face the fears that come our way.
Will we learn the lessons they bring? 
For your beautiful heart is meant to sing.

Heavy Heart (Time to Shine Album)

Lyrics:


[Verse 1]
Welcome to this land,
Oh, come on, and take my hand. 
I’ll show you crystal seas.
And a heavenly breeze.
See the magic. 
Feel the magic.

[Verse 2]
You came here to heal? 
Oh, that’s a story I know well.
Look at all the others,
See, they run from their own hell.
Feel the magic.
Albeit tragic.  

[Chorus]
Are you ready? 
Cuz you can’t hide
If you run, and run, and run
Towards the light.
There are many
Who lose their sight
Cuz they ran and ran and ran
Too close to the light.
They’re left blind.

[Verse 3]
From the heartache to the trauma, 
There is loss and there is pain. 
If you only seek the pleasure,
There’s no healing you will gain.
There’s the magic.
Dark magic.

[Verse 4]
I can see you running far away
From your own mind.   
Just because you are searching 
Doesn’t mean that you will find
The magic.
The magic. 

[Chorus]
Are you ready? 
Cuz you can’t hide
If you run, and run, and run
Towards the light.
There are many
Who lose their sight
Cuz they ran and ran and ran
Too close to the light.

[Bridge]
They’re left blind.
And deafened by the sounds,
As they sink into the ground,
Yet hope they’re taking flight.  

[Chorus]
Are you ready? 
Cuz you can’t hide
If you run, and run, and run
Towards the light.
There are many
Who lose their sight
Cuz they ran and ran and ran
Too close to the light.

Magic (Time to Shine Album)

Lyrics:


[Verse 1]
The stars are ready. 
The sky turns heavy
Shades of blue. 
The light’s beginning. 
The trees are singing,
Just for you. 

[Pre-Chorus]
In the night time
Things don’t ever take their time
Things don’t ever take their time
So will you take your time? 

[Chorus]
Or will you run? 
Leaving everything behind. 
Running back to better times.
Longing for the other side. 
Where will you go? 
Back into what used to be? 
Jumping in the unknown sea?  
Take a minute; stop and breathe.  

[Verse 2]
The words are ringing.
The eyes, they glisten.
Feel the fear.
The heart: unsteady. 
The mind has many 
Thoughts to hear. 

[Pre-Chorus]
In the night time
Things don’t ever take their time
Things don’t ever take their time
So will you take your time? 

[Chorus]
Or will you run? 
Leaving everything behind. 
Running back to better times.
Longing for the other side. 
Where will you go? 
Back into what used to be? 
Jumping in the unknown sea?  
Take a minute; stop and breathe.  

[Bridge]
Will you take a minute? 
Will you take a minute? 
Will you take a minute with me? x2

[Chorus]
Or will you run? 
Leaving everything behind. 
Running back to better times.
Longing for the other side. 
Where will you go? 
Back into what used to be? 
Jumping in the unknown sea?  
Take a minute; stop and breathe.  

[Outro]
Will you take a minute? 
Will you take a minute? 
Will you take a minute with me?

Take a Minute(Time to Shine Album)

Lyrics:

[Chorus]
They wonder, “Darling, are you lost now?”
They wonder, “Darling, are you lost now?”
Well, I say “No, no, no, no, no! 
I’m just finding my way!”
They wonder, “Darling, are you done now?”
They wonder, “Darling, are you done now?”
Well, I say “No, no, no, no, no! 
I’m just starting my day!”

[Bridge]
But where do all the stray souls go?
When everybody else seems to know
Of a place they call their home—
Or so they say.
What do all the hurt hearts hold
When writing all the words left untold.
Living for the new revolt
Made up of strays?

[Verse 1]
Strap your boots on;
We’re going for a march now.
Bring your roses,
But be careful of the thorns.

[Chorus]
They wonder, “Darling, are you lost now?”
They wonder, “Darling, are you lost now?”
Well, I say “No, no, no, no, no! 
I’m just finding my way!”
They wonder, “Darling, are you done now?”
They wonder, “Darling, are you done now?”
Well, I say “No, no, no, no, no! 
I’m just starting my day!”

[Verse 2]
Let the sun rise.
We’re going to need the sunshine. 
We are here now.
And we’re ready to be seen.  

[Chorus]
They wonder, “Darling, are you lost now?”
They wonder, “Darling, are you lost now?”
Well, I say “No, no, no, no, no! 
I’m just finding my way!”
They wonder, “Darling, are you done now?”
They wonder, “Darling, are you done now?”
Well, I say “No, no, no, no, no! 
I’m just starting my day!”

[Bridge]
But where do all the stray souls go?
When everybody else seems to know
Of a place they call their home—
Or so they say.
What do all the hurt hearts hold
When writing all the words left untold.
Living for the new revolt
Made up of strays?

Kai Mata - Strays (Time to Shine Album)

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lyrics
Come and hear the words they say. 
“Are you bi or are you gay?” 
“Oh, how I thought you were straight.” 
“What a pity; such a shame.” 

“You both look so feminine.” 
“Don't you miss it with a man?” 
“With two girls, how does 'that' work?” 
“Because I can always be your third.” 

Well, I'll answer all your questions, 
Though I know it won't fit in your fantasy. 
Despite the ego telling you, 
Our bedroom does not want your company. 

So go and lust, and fantasize, 
But nothing more despite your tries. 
I don't need a diiiiiiiiiiiiiictator 
to tell me what I need. 

No this isn’t just a phase. 
Doesn’t even work that way. 
You think you can turn me straight? 
Well, maybe I can turn you gay. 

Oh, did I just cross a line? 
Because you’ve been overstepping mine. 
It seems your masculinity 
Suffers insecurity. 

So go and lust, and fantasize, 
But nothing more despite your tries. 
I don't need a diiiiiiiiiiiiiictator 
to tell me what I need. 

Is it so hard seeing two girls in love? 
So hard, as if it’s not enough? 
So hard, it’s only okay because it 
Makes you hard. 
Is it so hard seeing two girls in love? 
So hard, as if it’s not enough? 
So hard, it’s only okay because it 
Makes you hard. 

So go and lust, and fantasize, 
But nothing more despite your tries. 
I don't need a diiiiiiiiiiiiiictator 
I don't need a diiiiiiiiiiiiiictator 
to tell me what I need.

credits
released June 8, 2019 
Song written by Kai Mata 
Produced, mixed, and mastered by Rizal Abdul Hadi 
Photography by Mark L. Chaves 
Cover Art Design by Kai Mata

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