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its not u________________it's me33

Spiral (Prod. ERLAX)

RiverKinn
"Face Value"
Produced by RiverKinn

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Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live

This the life I'm meant to live
I knew off the rip
Look inside and I admit
Something's gotta give
Focus up and get a grip
Can't afford to slip
Graduated from the sticks
To mortar and brick

I've been chasing a ghost and
Self-medicating, upping my dosage
Say I might hate it but I still chose it
Claiming that I made it, never came close

Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live

Yeah, I was losing my head
I guess I've done it again
I got addicted to venom
I was caught in a web
Yeah, I've been through it before
Don't mean to make it a trend
I can't pretend
That I don't already know how it ends

I've been chasing a ghost and
Self-medicating, upping my dosage
Say I might hate it but I still chose it
Claiming that I made it, never came close

Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
Now I had to make it out without you
(Why?)
Did it need to be another breakdown for me?
I can only take it at face value
Price I pay for the life I'm meant to live
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@riverkinn

PLAY DEAD MMXII

Face Value

Soft Spoken (prod. by tennis player)

s0cliche - Cryptocurrency

Bittersweet

Spotify Link

XO LU X Tracy Grimm - Bittersweet

Set Me Free

https://www.linktr.ee/chrisrain
Produced, mixed & mastered by Chris Rain
Artwork by Chris Rain

lyrics: https://genius.com/Chris-rain-hate-me-lyrics

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HATE ME

BUNNYHUG

Albany

Haven

Firescapes

Lame (ft. Scar$)

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

I see you crawling up to me on your knees
I see the rage building up in your eyes as I leave
it's like when I open my mouth reality stops and I can't control what I see
my body isn't mine now another person takes control when my mind breaks down

bursts of anger seem to cloud up my vision then my mind snaps back, hands covered in blisters 
now every day repeats in the same cycle, just stuck in a fog and I can let go of
who I was who I am who I could been, I can't live with the way that you just look at me
self-disgust builds a tiny little home right next to the place that I used to call my soul

what was I meant to say, how was I meant to react that way
a best friend confined, I wished he was dead I wish he never survived
the night I broke his face all the anger consumed and replaced 
I never came back alive the person I was, was the one who lost sight
 
yeah, emotions are boiling under my flesh, 
feel the stress rising up through my gut until nothing’s left
cus it's eating out the best of me, I tried to make you never see what's wrong with me
And even when I needed you, yeah you said that you gotta leave

Yeah so isn't that perfect I get it now, 
I search for something in places that won't be found
and then you find someone who builds a little cage inside your chest
where they change you and tear you down, find you gasping for your breath

and it doesn't help that best friends wanna, fuck with you
thought they had my fucking back guess im just easily used
I wanna fuck em with the gat blood splatters soak into shoes
Damn I guess it's what I lack, the courage to speak my truth

so I say it in these songs, yeah I fucking hate you
if I saw you in public I think id have to break a tooth or two
but self disgusts builds a tiny little home
where I find myself embracing the guilt all alone

Burn Notice

Tsunami J. & PLSMA - Cursed

LYRICS:

Didn't wanna get it, didn't wanna face it, yeah, a family’s torn apart
Two kids in the middle I was only 13  when I knew that I was stuck
Swear I was hearing voices coming from the walls, my father freaked out and just stopped
Forced to talk to a psychiatrist who medicated me till I was cut

Tried to understand but I couldn't, Zyprexa just made me fall asleep
What did you expect from a kid who didn't have a stomach just to eat
So I made friends with the stars, they said that I wouldn't get far
But I found comfort in always being alone and trapped in my own

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

A few years later nothing changes just a kid stuck in a rut
Putting on a facade for family just so they won't bother me a lot
Been twelve years since I was diagnosed with depression thought there was a cure
But the SSRIs numbed me out until I felt like I was worse

I want to explain it but I've realized no one cares for who you care
No one is special, no one is gifted, mental trauma that makes a star 
When there's nothing left I'll probably kill myself to let go of this pain
Cus I'm always tormented by myself when I forget my own name.

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

Stuck

Darth Rose:
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Producer :
youtube - https://www.youtube.com/@lilportal
Insta - https://www.instagram.com/prod.lilportal/

cover art:
Insta - https://www.instagram.com/venusminui/

Lyrics :
I feel like I'm falling apart
my homie mixing codeine with sprite now
is this another night of getting fucked up 
please save me now
 
yeah

but my friend keep on hittin your dm
like he next in line
wish you gave me more time yeah
its not worth it in the end 
I will save myself 
you're not worth the pain
 
was it worth all the time 
and all the money I spent  
all the feelings inside I kept deep within
I just don't know If I could relive this shit over again  
but I guess Its better this way
 
I hope that he will buy you what I couldn't affoard 
and I hope he treats better then I could I guess
but my mind is a dark place I thought I could escape
with you by my side everything felt okay

It's bold of me to think you could change 
putting poison in my veins I hope it all goes away
I hope It goes down the drain 
like all the feelings I ever had for you
oh yeah yeah yeah

inside my mind, it's like I'm frozen in time 
and I can't seem to feel a thing 
(bitch I can't feel a thing)
I guess I'm fine doing line after line
will my mind be alright
guess Ill sleep on this shit again

but my friend keep on hittin your dm
like he next in line
wish you gave me more time yeah
its not worth it in the end 
I will save myself 
you're not worth the pain

I hope that he will buy you what I couldn't affoard 
and I hope he treats better then I could I guess
but my mind is a dark place I thought I could escape
with you by my side everything felt okay

It's bold of me to think you could change 
putting poison in my veins I hope it all goes away
I hope It goes down the drain 
like all the feelings I ever had for you
oh yeah yeah yeah

Save Me [prod.lilportal]

Made in a hotel room on a iPhone 11, GarageBand. Gaia is the matter that we are.

Gaia is the Matter

"Whose fault is it that things ended up like this?"

Listen to "NIGHTMARE": 

https://linktr.ee/kaushion

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Faith. forgiveness. truth.

Soft Spoken (prod. by tennis player)

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