(it's very seldom and we're ordinary people and we’re alright, tell myself it's alright)
Yeah it's dull enough for the eye i don't think it's blinding
In spite of all the opposites tired of their findings
I'll mull it off with tonics while opulent confiding    
I used to think of you so highly no lying   

Now i keep a tighter schedule every hour take a pill
This house was unattended for a while where's the thrill
Irritate provoke the selflessness it's what we hope for 
I checked the walls and every corner of this floor
Sometimes you find something you wish you'd never seen 
It steals away expression yeah it takes the only gleam
And your vision now is blurry muddled out 
Expression everywhere you see without doubt  

This pattern i recognize its steady all around me 
This lack of strength is serious discouraged by the founding 
A formless sort of figure follows on it plunges equal
This optic sort of horror full of elms upon a steep hill 
This distraction 
I admit
Entertains for the moment 
Occupy this until it
Will, become my proponent

Yeah it's dull enough for the eye i don't think it's blinding
in spite of all the opposites tired of their findings
I'll mull it off with tonics while opulent confiding    
I used to think of you so highly no lying

dull enough (dead spyro)

lyrics 

if u take my hand
i will guide u back
and if i took that chance
u would break my back
on the ground we stand
over buried bones
i find it hard to scream with a broken throat
i got blood pouring out
of my fractured nose
im freezing to death
in this forest cold
theres bugs climbing out
of his porous skull
and his life went to waste
what a poor soul

and i hear you when you scream out for help
cuz i been there
and nothing was brought to my aid
but i wouldn’t accept any help
so i brought it upon myself 
what a shame

and if i disappeared 
would a thing change
im brought to tears
but i push thru the pain
and my face turns to ashes at night when i rest
and my eyes burn hard at the sight of your face

if u take my hand
i will guide u back
and if i took that chance
u would break my back
on the ground we stand
over buried bones
i find it hard to scream with a broken throat
i got blood pouring out
of my fractured nose
im freezing to death
in this forest cold
theres bugs climbing out
of his porous skull
and his life went to waste
what a poor soul

follow my lead cuz i think i know where im going (prodsecre)

prod yunnygoldz

lyrics ⬇️ 
lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat
just look at my characteristics 
i swear i got nothin to show
a lot less than most
not what you expected not even close
when i look in your eyes mine dont wanna close
if i love you then everyone knows
that i wont make it there without a new dose

yea i swear you look beautiful in every single pose
not an angle to imagine that i think uou could blow
but everything explodes when your over 
and nothing ignites as we planned
i can tell how tonights gonna be in advance 

ive lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat

whys it so hard just to look ahead in my life for a minute 
everyones upset i dont know why theyre livid
can you tell me when it’s finished 
oh they think im trippin out on the barstreet
but really im just chillin with grayson
so when you tell me that you love me
it only seems like its partly

hardly ever wanna step foot inside house now days
and i dont wanna look up
yea
cuz i would rather hide my face
and its hard not to tear up
when i think about everything i fail in my life in your eyes
but its okay
and i cant even flinch when they hit me with those words in my face cuz i know that theyre coming
doesnt matter what i think cuz im a still a disgrace according to their wording
but im hurting, tell em everyday and only thing they say is sure thing

tell me when it’s finished

I keep hoping for more… w/ getbetter

allamericanwendigofreestyle (p. Pandemxnium)

movie sample : bull durham (i recommend)

lyrics
i think itd be better if i stopped breathing 
how u take your time will ot stop the bleeding
oh i tried to recognize and it just left me healing
ur face appears in dreams n i cant handle what im seeing

oh i let it slip out my grasp
i take another sip from the flask
maybe if im drunk ill relax
maybe when im dead this will pass

i cannot forget u
i shouldnt have met u
im giving myself room
but that wasnt for you
it happens like time and time again
when this is over can we be friends

how can i rationalize
the shit that goes on in ur mind
i thought i saw but it turns out im blind
give it some time
ill be fed to the mice

ok , you win .  (wraithontheporch)

lyrics

one look and i am petrified
if you could see directly into my mind
it would hold on to you too
im still holding on to everything that i dont want to
if your dreams arent waht they meant to be theyre nightmares come to haunt you
i could fight off all the demons only if im right beside you
we went rocking in the parlor La Gal right outside the highschool
feel like persian in the mirror then i shock em like im raichu

baby you light me up, wick
i seen hoes around the country you the only ten i seen
picture perfect baby you could be on a tv screen
im so pinsir baby youre so ribombee
amiro angels music in the afterlife
but while im here i promise ill stick by your side
and now that you see me in a whole new different light
baby im so petrified
2 gram blunt split with my guys

one look and i am petrified
if you could see directly into my mind
it would hold on to you too
im still holding on to everything that i dont want to
if your dreams arent waht they meant to be theyre nightmares come to haunt you
i could fight off all the demons only if im right beside you
we went rocking in the parlor La Gal right outside the highschool
feel like persian in the mirror then i shock em like im raichu

bigwappa x notahero - petra (p. legos)

lyrics


when i woke up 
i saw ur body in that box
uve made ur decision 
while i sit here and rot
i keep tryna push off these blessings that i got
tell me would you still be there when the frost forms
im so damn greedy oh we couldve got more
i reject the meaning should i sit and watch more
i was never real so i bought more 
oh i bleed in bad forms

not what i want
disbelief in what i saw
is it all good now
as it all burns down

bullshit on my phone
i had to cut it off
tell me am i prone
to losing what i got
sometimes u jus have
to let it run its course
i pour up this liquor 
and my fate restored

when i woke up 
i saw ur body in that box
uve made ur decision 
while i sit here and rot
i keep tryna push off these blessings that i got
tell me wuld you still be there when the frost forms
im so damn greedy oh we couldve got more
i reject the meaning should i sit and watch more
i was never real so i bought more 
oh i bleed in bad forms

made of ice (sorrowbringer)

rocket ship

Rio (Prod. Quintuple)

Sleepless nights, painful discoveries, & hopelessness. Sometimes love can be painful to feel. Sometimes we love because we were never loved properly and our emotions are too hard to handle. We're so unhealthy that we begin to eliminate the person we once were, or even alter someone else's personality for the worst. This EP is the story of a toxic cycle and being too afraid to continue our own self journey. Things that hurt us often seem so familiar and comforting when we face new challenges. I only captured one dream sequence of the story, what will be yours?

SOUVENIRS

Alternative musician in St. Paul, MN  

you’re never alone in life 

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