sanity

this song is completely non profit

Lyrics

Every time I love another it just leaves a pain inside my
Heart that's covered with the clutter, I don't like my emotions
I'm broken, can't cope with anything inside my mind that might remind
Me of all the better times that I can't find in the present that I'm dealt with
It's a far away from Heaven, I don't know if I should reach for help
Or let the hurt just set in

Not where I imagined I would be
Can't talk to the people that I know get me
Say they wanna move on, they wanna get better
I don't think I can if we're not together

I was looking for you so long
You were letting go I tried to hold on
Don't laugh at me for missing what we had
I swear to God I care but you don't see that

I don't know why I can't feel my heart beating in my chest
I don't wanna see you again, you're just like all the rest
Baby I don't wanna sleep in my bed, put me to rest
In the grave is where I think my life would serve me the best

Why can't I not care like you?
Nobody left here, I'm through
I can feel my death near, it's true
I don't wanna die, I just wanna find a friend

i miss you. | Produced by omito

@unknxwn7

I been living inside my head for the past couple years now
I’m waking up from the nightmare I put myself in
It’s time to get real now
I used to think I would be fucking sad until I die
But everything comes to an end
It’s hard to make music when I’m not depressed
But I’m glad that I know I can mend

I’m getting better while finally finding my peace in myself
I accept what I felt
Life isn’t just gonna turn out the way that you want it
If you’re not even looking for help
One day you just gotta choose to be better
While putting the work for the life that you dream
Not that it’s easy but being depressed
And you wanna be isn’t as hard as it seems

I been living inside my head for the past couple years now
I’m waking up from the nightmare I put myself in
It’s time to get real now
I used to think I would be fucking sad until I die
But everything comes to an end
It’s hard to make music when I’m not depressed
But I’m glad that I know I can mend

Everything is better now
I’m picking myself up from the ground
You gotta play a different note to get a different sound
You're only good as you believe, that’s what I found

unknxwn. - found. - (prod. Ouse)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

i'll be okay.

wired.

i do.

unknxwn. - i get so fucking low sometimes. (prod. blue moon ring)

unknxwn. - don't take it. (og) (prod. metlast)

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

Lyrics

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

You never told me how you really feel
Silence took over and it broke our deal
My heart gets broken and it never heals
I want to forget so I resort to pills

You played along like you actually cared
You couldn't leave me cause you were too scared
All of my problems you just couldn't bare
You used to be here but now you are where?

These words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

unknxwn. - dead

dead memories. (2017)

Lyrics

I act like I don't but girl I miss you
Every thought of you cost me another tissue
I don't wanna make another similar issue
So I won't another get as close as I let you
Come back, please, come back, I'm so sorry
I didn't mean to hurt you, I know the cost now
But if you somehow hear my heart out
I'm sorry that I put our loves flame spark out
If you feel like it's not you I'm talking about know I miss Oats too
I miss all the times we would say some weird shit
When we spent all our nights watching shit on Netflix
I want back all I let go, I fucking hate it, I don't wanna feel love no more

LRG. (2019)

@hatefulbeats

Lyrics

How in the fuck did I manage to lose every person I spent all my time with
Tryna create a connection thats stronger than time and that could be considered as timeless
It hurts even more cause I'm still tryna figure out where in the hell it went wrong
I don't wanna talk about how much it hurts to a person so I take it out on a song

I take it out on myself, I take it out on my physical and mental health
I fucking hate what I felt, I'm getting worse and I don't even think you can tell
I make myself wanna quit, filling my mind with a person I need to forget
Honestly I'm fucking pissed, I can't see the future but I never thought it'd be this

I don't really wanna try meeting new friends
I don't wanna waste my time on something that'll end
What the fuck is happy? I can only pretend
Leaving it to God in itself is a sin
You're the only person with the power in your life
That can change for the better with the state that you're in
You're the only person that can give your life a purpose on this earth
And make it all worth it again

I don't wanna feel this pain
I don't wanna play this game
I don't wanna keep writing songs that're sad
I just want my life to change
I just don't wanna let life slip away, and die with a void of regret
I don't wanna keep waking up and not get out of bed because I'm too upset

unknxwn. - i still feel it all

i still feel it all.

spotify.

i still feel it all. | Produced by hateful

Lyrics

Lost heart, can't find it
Tear me apart, don't mind it
God I fucked up, look at what I did
I'm on my own wave, I'm feelin' sea sick

I might jump ship, can't steer clear
My thoughts so loud, can't hear clear
I promise I don't hate you, I'm sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I lied, I should of told you what I won't do

Cause I broke my promises
Promised it would never come to this
Thought if it did, that it wouldnt be from my end
I showed you the real me, you were never frightend

I can never get that back and I know that
If I could, wanna know why I would go back?
It would be to never hit you up
Then I would of never fucked you up

I hope you'll find someone who deserves you
Unlike me, I hope that they never hurt you
I'll still be here if we're not together
I could never break the bond we tethered

So goodbye my love, I won't do this in vain
Let our hearts fly high, don't attach to the pain
We both deserve someone that's close
I could never not love you, hope you know

I can't hold on, don't want to
It's been too long, don't want you
We used to be one, now we're both two
Said that I would never but I broke you (x2)

goodbye my love. | Produced by 16preme

@paineko

Lyrics

My soul is burning from fires that I set
You said you loved me, that's not what your eyes said
You think I'm breathing, I promise I'm not yet
You know those people that suck? Yeah I'm that

On planet depression till drugs take me off it
The hope that I had slipped away and I lost it
The only bed that I need is a coffin
I'm stuck in a nightmare, won't end till I stop it

And that can mean two things, growing up and facing life
Or my blood from blew brains
Knife inside my back, it's marked with a few names
All are alterations of mine, I'm what I hate

"Damn, that's some deep shit"
Nah, it's just real
But real is buried underneath
It's locked away and it's sealed
So I guess deep could justify the fuckin' way that I feel
All the pain's in my head but I swear it could kill

Kill a motherfucker quick, pop one shot and I'm dead
I swear that I tried, I want to but I can't
All I say is TIDE! but can't get the stains out
If I don't die soon, I might blow my brains out

Mama I'm sorry, I know soon enough you'll hear this
But sometimes all of the pain's too much to deal with
I don't even wanna get better, just want to quit
I'm sorry if the day that I die, it seems too quick

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I might of took too much
Fuck it, i'll just take one more
I still ain't gone enough
Fuck it, I'll just take two more

How much more will it take?
Till I can't take it no more
Till I can't stop that shake
Till I die on my own floor

collapse. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

I don't wanna connect anymore
There's not a lot of people that I really care for
But the one's that I do, I try to give it my all
And there still ain't nobody there to catch me when I fall

Thoughts that I don't like to think about, I'm feelin' anxious now
Locked inside my room, I'll make a song to let the hatred out
Don't know what to do, say that a lot, but fuck I'm lost a lot
I wish it was through, I need a drug cause I can't make it stop

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

broken. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

I put my heart into this music tryna make it out of where I am
All the words in the world couldn't even make you understand
How much it would mean to me to make enough with ends to meet
From talking bout the shit that I don't talk about as easily

Cause I'm afraid of judgement, I'm afraid of being vulnerable
It isn't honorable when I'm put down for being true
Took so long to be myself when all I tried was being you
Cause I don't think I'm liked enough when I show leaves that I have grew

I'm kinda weird and not because it started being cool to be
But because when I was still in school they made a fool of me
Not because I did dumb shit or acted stupidly
But because I was myself when most people just couldn't be

I like who I am, don't make me second guess
Don't try make me turn into you just because you're like the rest
That shit isn't my fault that you hate yourself enough to change
For people that just want you for a moment but would never stay

And I promise that I could, I swear to God I can
But you just keep on knocking me back down till I can't even stand
So know that when I do again I'm only gonna walk away
I can say truly tried, you're the one that chose to waste

I don't regret shit, I flex on those who make me want to
Don't think you know shit when you don't know the lengths I've gone to
I'll prolly live a thousand lives by the time I die
When one thing doesn't work, I think of new shit I could try

I don't know why I feel alone when there's people all around me
I'll surprise you, don't you doubt me
I've been growing cold with the things I know, I've been floating need some grounding
Love? I try to, you won't allow me

Or won't I allow myself cause I'm scared of help
I'm afraid of a touch that I never felt
Is it my fault that I'm like this?
I don't think it is in the very slightest

I didn't break my own damn heart
I didn't write pain in my stars
I never told anyone to hate me
I'm kinda fragile, don't you break me

I'll snap at any moment I feel it in me
Had enough fake, show me something real please
I want a feeling real enough that it could kill me
Don't make me want to, just fucking end me

fragile. | Produced by INFELIX

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I'm a lost lonely soul, I do not like this
I been hurt for so long, why should I fight this?
Was a lie all along, you're the reason I'm pissed
And it's sad I would take you right back so quick

Why would I do that? You might ask
I ain't ever had another feeling like that
I call it love but it's more like a drug
Cause I keep running back, I just ain't had enough

You're my twin flame
I miss your face
Can't say your name
It makes me break

I miss everything that we ever did
Talking bout our life and what we would name our kid
I ain't ever think I could love someone like this
I'll always be here for you, don't care what you did

I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love I'll make sure no one can
That's just how I feel, that's not what I am
But without you here, don't know who I am

Lost my mind when you said bye
Who's that guy? Please don't tell me another one of your lies

You're my twin flame
I miss your face
Can't say your name
It makes me break (x2)

twin flame.

Produced by rizi

Lyrics

Why couldn't I hold on?
Now I'm left alone with no one
I pulled it oh so far
Then it snapped and our love is gone

You saved me and in return
I sent you to Hell with a slow burn
Don't hate me, please don't turn
Into the people I've known for far too long

I think my hearts gone bad with the hate I've trapped
Don't remind of myself baby, I know that
I know you deserve what's better
I'll say I let you go but just know that I'll never

The door is always open for you
Until I die I'll be waiting for you to come through
I never lied and I guess that's just why I hurt you
You're not by my side and I just wish that I could hold you

I'll try to move on but I know that I won't
I'll find a new one and try to heal what I broke
Could we have worked out? I guess that I'll never know
Not what I set out but another heart that broke

Another innocent soul that I just taught to not trust
We built up a lot, I missed a screw now it's all dust
Sorry about that, I never thought that
If I stopped for a minute you'd be gone when I come back

slow burn.

Visual: https://youtu.be/sH5eHx94_1Q

Lyrics

I looked everywhere for something that I should of found in myself
I've created my own life's hell
I'm the sinner, I'm the saint
I'm the thought you hate to think
I'm so lost, I'm in a maze
Be better off inside a grave

Alpha/Omega, fuck thinking that shit
It don't make it no better when I feel like shit
I just feel deader when I'm in the grips
Of a hand I reached out to when I need a lift

Cause if I need help, then I feel like I failed
I'm in debt to the things that I felt
Well oh well, I'm stuck here anyway
What's the point of complaining when I know I'm gonna fade?

I thought you would save me from myself
But now you're deaf to my crys for help
Baby where'd you go?
You left me so fucking alone

Hot inside my chest the night you left, I lost my breath girl
But I guess it's best, I'm still a mess, you were my damn world
Such a shame that you didn't tell the truth to me
I can't feel the same for you if you don't feel the same for me

Make a fool of me, I'ma make a fool of you
You can really rest in peace when I'm really done with you
What's got into me? I think that's got something to do
With how you just fucked with me when I never fucked with you

I should just calm down, I should just let go
But you still come 'round right when I get close
Then I just forget all the pain that you inflict
Then you say "It's a bad day" and ghost me again

Cycle repeats like clockwork
I just act like that I'm not hurt
Even right after I got hurt
Some of these girls are so nice
But none of them make me feel like her
Wish you were here on these cold nights
I swear all my songs are about her

She caught me when I fell
Without her I'm not that well
I'm not sure if I can tell
When I need to say farewell

Cause she don't make me fine
But without her I would of died
I'm not sure if I will find
Anything like that no time

Why'd you have to lie when I asked you bout that guy?
I thought you were not that type, what a waste of fucking time
Want you out my life, hold up, scratch that, never mind
Can't believe with what you've done my love for you is still alive

spotify

nightlight. | Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

I don't like the way I feel when I'm alone without you here
All I do is scream for help but I don't think you ever hear
Hate inside my veins everyday that you're away 
And I don't feel the same, I just wanna see your face

I wanna get so fucked up right now but I'm really trying not to go that route
I can't even lie I really miss your touch now, I really wish you'd come back now
I don't see the point of going on without you
I get so annoyed when I wake up without you here

I feel like ice
My skin so cold
I miss those nights
You'd hold me close

My voice breaks and cracks when I talk to you now 
I don't think we'll get back when you were still around 
I hate that fucking song where I sampled your laugh
Because it really shows you laugh at me when I'm down

I have so much more love than I would ever show 
And I did so damn much that you will never know
And it was all for you but you're a fucking ghost 
I'm glad we're fucking through but I don't really know

agony. (unwritten) | Produced by nicasso

Lyrics

I'm not what I thought I 
Was before I could see the dark skies
Through the clouds even with the help of sunlight
I don't think that somethings right, feel my nerves about to fly

Chest gets hot, I'm bouta fry
I can't stop, I'm bound to lie
Maybe I'm just a bad guy
I can't cry, don't ask me why

If I could figure it out, I would of never made a song
But maybe the way that I figure it out is breaking down and making songs

Stuck in a cycle, walk with my eyes closed
I cannot get out even if I do
This how my life go, die I just might do
You're not a good girl, fuck it I like you

I'ma regret what I said to you like I always have
Love is a thing that can turn to weapon too, I cannot fucking last

Please don't leave me, I'm really needy
Don't look up to me, you don't wanna be me
All that I do is just sit in a room
Thinking about all the shit I would do
If I wasn't sad & wasn't held back
By feelings that I should of left in the past
I know I need to do more with my life than just lay up all day being stuck on my ass

I don't know how to cope
Lost soul, don't know where to go
Getting old, growing cold
Life's hard so fuck it I'll fold

I'm a ghost in the light of the night sky
Try to cope when I try to write my
Songs, up all night long
I feel the weight but I try to be strong

I'm just a waste putting smoke in my lungs
Fuck everyday just be leaving me strung out
Hate on the tip of my tongue
You won't feel the same when my words start to come out
Friends of mine, used to have some
Life did it's thing and we don't get along now
Thoughts in my mind really wrong, so I try keeping myself always calm now

I'm not what I thought I 
Was before I could see the dark skies
Through the clouds even with the help of sunlight
I don't think that something's right, feel my nerves about to fly

sanity

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