produced by killedmyself

completely non profit 

lyrics

stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

ur life is over just as its begun
she found the sun inside anothers arms
and to a brother that had sworn no harm
i think ill stay inside long until the weathers calm
she got a humble cause
tearing u in half
tryna mend ur heart
she wanna leave some scars
head
whats going on in ur head babe
eyes are feeling like an xray
honestly i think im too dazed
feeling like its been 2 days
caught up in all of my blue days
that is not worthy of news page
so how r u liking my new face
ripped the skin off of my mainframe
rolled it around in an ashtray
stapled it back onto my veins

its alright
its alright
its alright
its alright

stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

poetry from a diary i found buried by my headstone (killedmyself)

Hope you're all having a good day/night. Enjoy the song :)

lyrics:

(And I keep fading in and out between reality)
(The sorta shit that makes you crave your own fatality)

I’ve been losing all my friends do I have to lose you too?
I’ve envisioned my own end and my fate is fucking doomed
But I can’t shake off this dread and this thought of losing you
Standing over the edge I can’t fucking follow-through 
Baby I’m cursed with a horrible gift 
A broken heart that you’re unable to fix
You said you’re here for me, well that’s a load of shit
Cause if you were then I wouldn’t be in this pit 

And I keep fading in and out between reality
The sorta shit that makes you crave your own fatality 
And I’ve been running but the demons they’re catching me
You said you’d save me but the words you say are blasphemy 
And I just fall back in the arms of the demon queen
The temp is rising baby I just love your body heat
The devils grinning, but she ain’t showing no fucking teeth
I think it’s finally the end of my suffering

And I know you won’t apologise 
Cause that’s just not in your fucking mind 
Deception mixed with all these lies 
That’s what’s ruined my fucking life 
I drink it straight from the bottle, straight to the bottom, just to throw it all back up
I know I’m not the one that you love but lie and say that I was enough 

And I keep fading in and out between reality
The sorta shit that makes you crave your own fatality 
And I’ve been running but the demons they’re catching me
You said you’d save me but the words you say are blasphemy 
And I just fall back in the arms of the demon queen
The temp is rising baby I just love your body heat
The devils grinning, but she ain’t showing no fucking teeth
I think it’s finally the end of my suffering

Love u all and thanks so much for your support 333+

cursed reality

i'll make this my own if it kills me

credits:
@jolst
@toobears
@punkworldthreat
@x1fern
@fantasycamp
@ejcarrmusic

lyrics:
autumn skies, sober lies, where the time gone
i want u in my life while i can love
i still try all the time to get off of
all the shit that i had ‘fore i lost ya
i know im in despair, subtle from over there
i’ll get outta ur hair, know i leave u impaired
all the time, u and i, know its all love
i still repair what i can cuz i gotta

i forget to eat but know im doin fine on my own
terms are settled and im spending all this time all alone
i been free, in the trees, hope ur proud of me
know it aint perfect but this life is moving hourly
send me condolences, its just sobering
i cant move forward with all this pulling
my life isnt backwards but im losing track of
the days in the month, i can’t handle a rut like this

entirely
up to what i can see
i’ll make this my own
if it kills me

autumn skies, sober lies, where the time gone
i want u in my life while i can love
i still try all the time to get off of
all the shit that i had ‘fore i lost ya
i know im in despair, subtle from over there
i’ll get outta ur hair, know i leave u impaired
all the time, u and i, know its all love
i still repair what i can cuz i gotta

last week took the shit outta me
i gotta go 2 times just to cover the fee
i cannot handle 2 lives, yet thats what i lead
i need to calm down what the fuck has got into me

i need to slow down, slow down
le-le-lemonade gonna make me slow down
i cannot pretend i aint on my own now
know that its okay i can do alone now

spotify & apple

entirely [jolst x punk]

don’t wanna fall in love unless it’s with you
keep u forever in my heart like a tattoo
as soon as you leave i miss you 
now to get the same high i gotta pop two

every second every day
i got u on my mind 
every dream i ever have 
you’re all mine 
baby pls just tell me i’m the only one you callin 
im head over heels for you and now you got me fallin 

i gotta pop two 
this ain’t no clean sprite 
emoflytrap and she know ima do her right 
spending money at the mall 
a walking fantasy  
you can have it all baby you’re my everything 

when i’m with you i swear that i’m ok
can u call me on the phone and tell me that you love me?

don't wanna fall in love (unless it's with u) [prod. xtasane + jayysoul]

Candelabra hold me up until I’m burning out again  
Appalachia in the mountains how much money can I spend 
Foreign objects all around me is there something that I missed
Smoke what’s left of what i got and now they put me on a list 
My chains they hit together that noise will make you shudder 
These fools think they know me boy you are not my brother 
Keep my wire on barb tight knit no stressing
effortless like the way I’m dressing

FFY

Scars not healing 
Nothing that I’m feeling 
spent the bag and made it back 
That’s not something that I lack 
Finding meaning 
Staring at the ceiling 
Copped a fit and it’s all black 
Who could’ve guessed that 
They can’t keep up so then they try to bring me down but it don’t faze me 
I’ve been moving city to city you lookin lazy 
Said that you got something to say so make it hasty 
Thinking you could do it like me you must be crazy 

Candelabra hold me up until I’m burning out again  
Appalachia in the mountains how much money can I spend 
Foreign objects all around me is there something that I missed
Smoke what’s left of what i got and now they put me on a list 
My chains they hit together that noise will make you shudder 
These fools think they know me boy you are not my brother 
Keep my wire on barb tight knit no stressing
effortless like the way I’m dressing

I brought the keys out to the surface now let’s put it all to work 
And After after all that time spent you’d hope it’s better off than worse 
I dyed my hair to match the fit like what you know about it 
I won’t give up until this shit gets crowded 
Round it up like I’m trippin over every sentence 
Someone tell me what I’d like to hear it’s almost near me 
Close by my side but it fear me 
Gray skies blue lights follow around again 

Candelabra hold me up until I’m burning out again  
Appalachia in the mountains how much money can I spend 
Foreign objects all around me is there something that I missed
Smoke what’s left of what i got and now they put me on a list 
My chains they hit together that noise will make you shudder 
These fools think they know me boy you are not my brother 
Keep my wire on barb tight knit no stressing
effortless like the way I’m dressing

Yeah I’m in the Big O take a look at the bank now 
On the road smoked out take a look around 
Tripps at the mall we gon need another minute 
He can do it he just need to make decisions









Scars not healing 
Nothing that I’m feeling 
spent the bag and made it back 
That’s not something that I lack 
Finding meaning 
Staring at the ceiling 
Copped a fit and it’s all black 
Who could’ve guessed that 
They can’t keep up so then they try to bring me down but it don’t faze me 
I’ve been moving city to city you lookin lazy 
Said that you got something to say so make it hasty 
Thinking you could do it like me you must be crazy

candelabra ft. flowersforyou (recyclebin)

uh huh uh huh uh huh
yeah ik u wanna get so high
roll up this blunt
private class smoking gas in the sky
popping tabs everything looks tie-dye
committing felonies on I-95
the way i drive my whip you’d think i wanna die
baby if we locked in don’t waste my t-

took her to the crib i ain’t gotta romance her
text me that she miss me i don’t ever answer
money multiplying in my wallet like a cancer
fuck around ill turn a killer to a dancer
mr. steal yo girl u should probably ask her
percocet shivers colder than alaska
crushing up the x pill hit me a little faster
30 milli addy got me preaching like a pastor
so much drugs inside my system i ain’t got no more storage
i was so damn broke i couldn’t even buy fucking porridge
like my bitches alien i like my cars foreign
should i keep my job or be a junkie which ones more important

uh huh uh huh uh huh
yeah ik u wanna get so high
roll up this blunt
private class smoking gas in the sky
popping tabs everything looks tie-dye
committing felonies on I-95
the way i drive my whip you’d think i wanna die
baby if we locked in don’t waste my t-

Uh huh (prod. silver + dilip + april21)

silhouettes w/ heyzbee (michael harrison)

prime minister w/ swaine  (prod. YWG Haunted)

out of place (p. bluent x scrn)

renexy - tragic prod renexy

Jaeded  - all i want (figurinne & 1vnne)

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