First single from my upcoming album "My Days of Elmer" - coming soon

Music and Lyrics by Mayra Lucia Vargas
Produced by Kai Nakamura and Mayra Lucia Vargas
Mastered by Andrew Maz

Killayama is a Peruvian singer and songwriter. My Days of Elmer is a compilation of stories that took place during 5 years of my life as a community organizer.
A wave of energy, fight, love and exhaustion all at once.

My Days Of Elmer

If I Could Access What I Feel

We Don't Know How We Feel 
Music and Lyrics by Mayra Lucia Vargas PKA Killayama
Recorded by Andrew Maz
Mixed and Mastered by Kai Nakamura

Drums by Octavio Tostado 
Lead Guitar by Alyssa Komala 
Rhythm Guitar and synths by Mayra Lucia Vargas
Bass by Jocelyn Aguilera 
Additional Instruments and arranging by Kai Nakamura

Lyrics
Wait a minute, I'll tell you the truth for once
Of a fear that was growing and growing 
Of a love that I was mourning

I knew that the end was soon to come
But I stood frozen

When you cried, as I said 
That I was leaving, leaving,
Leaving it all behind
I can't lie
Your tears came down
To discover a big surprise
But I guess
That sometimes, sometimes
We don't realize 
How we feel until goodbye
And sometimes we don't know how we feel
Until goodbye

I'll admit that I never wanted to part
But out of place I was growing and growing
Missing the home, that once we had lived in
So I packed my years to go so far
But I stood frozen

When you cried, as I said 
That I was leaving, leaving,
Leaving it all behind
I can't lie
Your tears came down
To discover a big surprise
But I guess
That sometimes, sometimes
We don't realize 
How we feel until goodbye
And sometimes we don't know how we feel
Until goodbye

Sometimes we don't know how we feel
Sometimes we don't know how we feel
Sometimes we don't know how we feel...

We Don't Know How We Feel

What it is to always feel like you're wrong but not really knowing why.

The Mess
Written by Mayra Lucia Vargas
Produced by Mayra Lucia Vargas and Kai Nakamura
Mixed and Mastered by Kai Nakamura

Lyrics:
I Saw the pain in your eyes
Permanently in my mind
What's boiling down in the depths of your heart
I thought that I would be there
That we'd find strength hand in hand
But now I know that 
I made the mess
The mess

The mess

And what went down in the end
It's shattered, broken and bent 
We both were destined
To leave and not to mend
That's why I couldn't help to make the mess

The mess

What's the worst is that I didn't know
What's the worst is that I didn't know
Nothing's worse than to never know
What I did wrong
To end up in this mess

Didn't wanna make the mess
Didn't wanna make this, Oh
Didn't wanna make

THE MESS

Trying to be low key and failing 🥺
"The Mess" Coming out May 29th 2025

THE MESS

Killayama

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