INTRO:
promise you won’t forget me
i’ve been feeling so empty
is this the end of tonight
am i saying goodbye 
for the very last time
i don’t want to rewind
i can’t go on living this lie

CHORUS:
oh where did the time go?
you said you’d be back tomorrow
i took your lead i followed (followed)
straight back to my sorrows (sorrows)
so i’ll ask you again where did the time go (where did it go)

POST CHORUS:
you left me here defenseless
i’ve never 
been so fuckin helpless
whatever
you gotta be so desperate 
to even turn to me for pleasure

SENDFLOWRS VERSE:
for pleasure i can’t lie i’m fucked 
droolin from my mouth like everytime we talk
you always told me i can look but i can’t touch
wait that’s the weed man i think i’m finally done
erase my name from your phone
you better
tell him straight and never come home
i’m gonna
tear his flesh from the bone
and i might 
catch a case you made me so cold (so cold)
you fake bitches
i’m a sinner
i stay sinning 
i dream of you but i’m not the one you’re kissing
like baby come over here lemme show you what you missing

OUTRO:
see my head spin
round and round
i just wanna get out of this town
look at my face and you’ll see a frown
but don’t be surprised 
when you see my wounds are open wide
don’t cry tonight
with your ocean blue eyes

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where did the time go ft. sendflowrs (wisssery x jolst)

She met a boy, he was nice enough
She didn't care that much, she knew it'd never be love
He came to visit, slept in her bed
And all her friends had said just how this would end

She was too high to stop him, he took what he wanted
And no one believed her, she dropped out of college
His friends are all toxic: "I know him, he's honest"
This shit makes me nauseous, I wish I could stop it

I know you like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
You like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
I know you like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
You like me better when I'm too fucked up

She told her friends and no one seemed to mind
If it was just one time, or they were both too high
Or if she led him on the way she likes to do
I bet she asked for it. I bet she liked it too
This body wasn't yours to start, so why the fuck you complaining
Fill up the sink with the blood and the vomit, body decaying
Swallow a million pills til we can't understand what you're saying
We'll call you crazy til you kill yourself and watch in amazement

But she didn't listen, thought maybe this was different
Maybe she deserved a break from all the shit she'd been in
He didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, he says "I like you better when you're too fucked up to talk"

I met a girl, she was nice enough
I didn't care that much, I knew it'd never be love
She came to visit, let her sleep in my bed
And all my friends had said just how this would end

But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk

I was too high to stop you, you took what you wanted
And no one believed me, I dropped out of college
Your friends are all toxic: "You know her, she's honest"
This shit makes me nauseous, I wish I could stop it

But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk
But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk

TOO FUCKED UP TO TALK

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(partially written on xmas :0)

~lyrics~

n lately everytime i wake up i been in a bad mood 
all my friends say i got a bad attitude, ur right 
u think its bad on the out, wait until u see the inside

n someone fucked me up before, but u could do it again 
i love this pain in my heart yea i hope it never ends 
honestly i’d sell my soul if it’d help my friends 
you can try to break me down but i won’t do more than bend 

lately i been feelin like kanashi "i hate myself" 
baby "i need you", i jus cant save myself 
i’m "demotivated", fuck i just can’t take it
please just "get the fuck away from me", i’m so "faded" 
"love is stupid", i wanna "disappear from existence" 
"undo the memories" and forget that u kissed him
it’s like a prison, n i’m waiting to get out 
i’m so "frustrated" in this empty bed now 

its not enough for me, ur love is a lie.. u dont rlly fw me 
if ur rlly mine, why u act ike u dont trust in me? 
that look up in ur eye its like a dagger fuckin cuttin me 

it’s fuckin midnight 
i’m drunk as shit on christmas 
feelin like a dipshit 
ur  the only thing on my wish list 
well not you.. i guess, a version of you with a heart in ur chest

how many nights, will i spend alone?
waitin for a single fuckin text on my phone 
while this misery sinks in my bones 
wondering if you’ll deal with the demons i’ve shown

"look at me, right in my eyes 
tell me is it rlly me that u despise 
or is it u, 
n all the things that u do? 
dont u try to fuckin lie cuz u know i see straight thru"
is what i wish i said, instead  of a breakdown
ig that u finally found out how much i can take now 
i hope ur proud of urself, cuz u did sumn no one else could 
made me doubt myself in a position no one else would

bad mood, bad attitude (p. drmabeats, zodiac & chrismarek)

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w my deeerfrend @autumndropsdead

she locked herself in her bathroom all alone
did you get my message when i said i felt alone
at the end of the night we all need to go home
promise that ill be fine as long as im gone
when u find another guy can u not let me know
dont waste ur time on someone u dont know

u were half of mine but i still dont know
were u ever mine i dont think so
just pretend u care dont want u to go
might just cut my hair

autie
cos i hate the way i look
could you call me back?
i'm gonna get a heart attack
I'm what you call an insomniac
made the choice no going back
don't forget, just descend
it'll do no good being over your head
i feel out of body, all i can say is sorry :(

stop it, breathe, out of reach
this sensation...
there's nothing left to me
to me (3x)
hide your chest, then release...

when u find another guy can u not let me know
dont waste ur time for someone u dont know

stop crying and start dying
looking for an answer i dont wanna get hurt
looking for ananswer i dont wanna get hurt
star signs ur a cancer!
my hearts getting blacker,
my brains getting sadder,

cancer w/autumndropsdead

wish I could get back time
wanna exist without you on my mind
I put the blame on myself 
too often I ignored the signs 
Might’ve cared 
sorta there 
why’d you do that? 
now im scared 
cause now I think everyone’s gonna move like you do 
im aware 
I wasn’t perfect, just wanted to show I was worth it. 
to you, I’ll never deserve it.
what a shame that you never wanna take the dive 
Wonder why 
Still want him and I’m not surprised 
Still in love with the way he lied
guess you just don’t want your scars to fade away
Everyday feels like a maze
stay freaking out 
Don’t know what about 
Damn I wish that you had stayed 
Could’ve found a way to be okay
my friends say “give it time” 
just wish you hadnt wasted mine 
For so long, thoughts confined
Always said I was crazy 
But damn I was right
You really didn’t have to do that 
as much as I wanna say “that’s too bad”
I can’t go out without seeing you in everything
and it brings me back 
youve always said forever 
should’ve really just said never
I’ll leave the details out 
just hope that he don’t lose his temper 
still don’t know what to do
still don’t have the slightest clue
jokes on me, I just wanted it to be you

you really didn't have to do that (prod. soloft)

New single “ESCAPE” with Swiif

(Lyrics)
I could never escape 
I could never run away 
Every time I try 
Know past is catching up with me 
I could never escape 
I could never run away
Every time you call
Know you’re just hurting me 

Tik tok on the clock 
Know you’ll call me on the dot
Tryna mess up all my thoughts again
Still tryna shoot your shot
Cause I never hit block
So I guess it’s my fault again 
Conversing with ghost 
For some conversation 
I could never wait 
I’m so impatient 
Seeing your silhouette 
Inside of my head
And I can’t forget that

I keep on tryna rush into love
To escape you
But no matter how I hard I try
I could never hate you 

I could never escape 
I could never run away 
Every time I try 
Know past is catching up with me 
I could never escape 
I could never run away
Every time you call
Know you’re just hurting me 
Cause there’s no escape 
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
Since august 
There’s no escape
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
We need to stop it 

(Swiiif)
Tryna fill in the void
But you won’t come home 
I’ve been stuck in my ways
I’ve been all alone 
My head hurts I’ve been so sick
So nauseous when did it end up like this
Smoke and mirrors 
I just need to find some clarity 
Everything I do I keep the thought
Of you right next to me
I promise I can’t look back I won’t 
Everytime I look at you I choke
On the words you hurt me with 
I feel so hurt love sick 
Everything that I do
Reflects when I miss you 

I keep on tryna rush into love
To escape you
But no matter how I hard I try
I could never hate you 

I could never escape 
I could never run away 
Every time I try 
Know past is catching up with me 
I could never escape 
I could never run away
Every time you call
Know you’re just hurting me 
Cause there’s no escape 
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
Since august 
There’s no escape
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
We need to stop it

ESCAPE (feat. Swiiif) [prod. Immortal]

-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
mæsk did everything for their part <33
prod. idly blare -+-
go follow and support them @maesk337
(lyrics)
ruining my whole life
dont know what its like
to have no one to call home
for thoughts to beat you down
x3
have no one to call home
ive never felt so alone
no texts or calls on my phone
left thinking with only the walls now
its only bringing me down,
further to what most call the end
nausea seeps in my brain
as the blade flows through my veins
and theres nothing left to save me now
its too late for this,
i need you always, 
how could i make it more clear
(mæsk)
how could I make this more clear
Ive said this so many times
Ooo why

and now im packing all my things Before the storm
im looking at the sky and its more gorgeous than before
I only hav e a pic coz I dont go out anymore
Inside yeh ive been hurting my mind is so distorted
will I start it
A life where im not heartless
I dont think I ever will Regardless of what happens next

U see my name and u see im almost ruined
Decide with all these signs that u gonna leave me in these ruins

Baby is this how im goin outtt?
is this how we're goin down?
is this how im goin out

ruins ft mæsk(idly blare)

@sorrow_bringer 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛
[Audio Sample from King's Game]
~~lyrics~~
it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

hoping i heal, but i'm proof of the damage
everyone i kill's either hungry or manic
refuse any pills that i'm offered, then panic
if i'm really real, would you feel if i vanish?
let's trace back to the start
i ain't got no time here to waste on my heart
if i wanted peace, i believe i would be "anybody"
can't feel defeat when i'm coated in honey

permanently flawed; let me get my head straight
living at the cost; on the brink of being dead weight
no headspace, just silence.
what do you expect when the sky's blaring sirens?
but i knew the consequences all along
i used too much strength tryna grow stronger
the rapture, and endless disaster

take me by the head 
(okay)
leave no evidence 
(nor trace)

the moon is turning red
the air is so condensed 
simple lives and foolish lies
i raise a knife up to my eye
if one should seek, then one shall find
but what if i've already died?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬...
𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦... 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦,
𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut
like it wants in my gut...

sugar in the spice (sorrow bringer)

i see the moon shining on this dark night
that wont damp my mood babe im alright
it use to but now im really different
all for the better
i wouldnt change it at all
no fucking chance
ive spent alot of nights in this room
and ill spend alot fucking more
ask me "how many more?"
and ill just say; "until im on the billboard"
so i asked what that bitch have
and he couldn't answer me
cause he hated me
and i dont know why
in the midst of these dark cold nights
nights add up and i see him
in my future i really wanna be with him
i can see now
am i finally see thru?

drk, cld, nghts. (kuboi)

prod hiraeth and sinxi

getting too far from ur eyes
im leaving
hold me too close
you can see that im bleeding
and if you hate me
why the fuck did you leave him
if i had a chance
i would stop him from breathing

you know its not fair when you send and delete it
it was never my choice
i was always a secret
i know you dont care
got me feeling defeated
i had to run away
leave me tied to the ceiling

i dont wanna stare
running fingers thru ur hair

but you dont deserve me
i dont deserve this

leave me in the ground and i can prove that im worthless

(ooo)

done it 5 times
you promised you wont lie
leave it outside
you tell me you wont try
im nothing in your life
stop looking i get shy
grabbing my hand
so pull me or ill die

struggling to care that id give up all that i have for you
its not like you to worry or have an attitude
and im broken and beaten, do what i have to do
left out in the rubble forgot to save me 2

worthless

I don't bleed out anymore my heart refuse to pump blood 
I'mma buy her Michael Kors she ain't really worth much 
Y'all just wanna feel important so you fake blow up
I'mma pay my momma's mortgage off and end it all yeah 
I don't bleed out anymore my heart refuse to pump blood 
I'mma buy her Michael Kors she ain't really worth much 
Y'all just wanna feel important so you fake blow up
I'mma pay my momma's mortgage off and end it all yeah

I'm tryna kill 'em all I'm restless got intrusive thoughts 
I can change my whole perspective with illicit substances 
I feel the rhythm of my heart slow down before it stops 
They tryna tell me that they with it how come it never stops 
She gonn' cut my head off I swear she really bad for me 
Thought they was stuck with me ain't no one attached to me 
How they gonn' stab me in the back and take it back 
I guess they saw us comin' up and wanna act different 
I can't do it anymore nah I'm tired of the nonsense 
I don't care about 'em let it go I got no conscience 
Yeah the money cannot save him I am broken I am darkness
Yeah I swear my fate was sealed alone in that apartment 
Gonna kill 'em all I'm restless got intrusive thoughts 
I can change my whole perspective with illicit substances
I feel the rhythm in my heart slow down before it stops
How come it never stops 

I don't bleed out anymore my heart refuse to pump blood 
I'mma buy her Michael Kors she ain't really worth much 
Y'all just wanna feel important so you fake blow up
I'mma pay my momma's mortgage off and end it all yeah 
I don't bleed out anymore my heart refuse to pump blood 
I'mma buy her Michael Kors she ain't really worth much 
Why you tryna feel important you just fake blow up
I'mma pay my momma's mortgage off and end it all yeah

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ESCAPE (feat. Swiiif) [prod. Immortal]

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