prod. afterlife 

mixed and mastered by luke seeley (flowers for you)


dear my closest friend I’m writing cause I miss you so much 
Remember when we fell in love? it hurts me so much 
it’s been so long since I’ve last seen you but i long for your touch 
You’re the only one I wanna talk to til the suns up 


it was only one night but we could make it last a lifetime. 
You’re the color of my sky
The song I sing to tell myself that life’s alright. 
We haven’t talked too much
Don’t say I miss you enough 
But I feel the same, always on my brain, without you girl I’d go insane
I asked you if you feel the same
Lied through your teeth and said no on that day
Now I don’t blame you for all of your reasons for wanting to push me away
You’re saying that we can’t go back
As much as we wanna just redo the past
Baby youre right about that 
I just wish that we could forge a new path
Don’t see a reason to lie
Think about you all the time
wish I could take it all back
sorry I suck and I ruined your life

dear my closest friend (prod. afterlife)

[+ loverboybeats]

@navyxower
@dylaanlotus
@noxious-nights
@souldfadexo
@emptychest
@northshoremusic

(navy)
gotta black tee
some would say its green
baby i gotta lay down
baby im feeling weak

wandering through the streets
heartbreak on the seames
ima travel cross the sea, i wonder what it means

party you party, lets party you talk in ur sleep, i need to get outta here again
why do you wanna get down with him, i heard you talking im sick

when we met by the water
would you think of me differently, if i had a daugher
i watch all these aniamls go to slaughter
its cause ur all selfish, what did they do wrong

(dylan lotus)
i’m burning up, i been hellbound
i’m leaving this earth cuz you hate me
so fuckin lost, i been spellbound 
i’m under the curse that you gave me
fuckin it up til you break me
all of these drugs that i’m taking
lace a few pills and i’m soarin off
lovin a thrill yeah i’m pouring up
fucked up; i’m worthless 
constant soul searching 
am i really worthy of love? i’m not perfect

(noxiousnights)
why am i so hard on myself ?
my goals are too big it's ruining my health
i could really make it easier
but all the summer i make it feel like winter

I distort my mind to help me cope
the world is spinning i'm out of control
sometimes it feels like there's no hope
i'm lost in my thoughts i can't let go

(soulfade)
Surely hate the way you talk to me
When things around fallen downward
In sense I never wanted this
Things would never happen way too soon

Always talking to myself at the noon
Always staring blankly at the moon

(emptychest)
different day different rolls
u know how the story goes
u know how to keep me close
i know how to keep u warm
its my responsibility
to keep u warm..
i never thought id live, endeavor!
never thought id see forever!
i didnt think id find my home
I really thought id die alone 
die alone.
nobody knows whats in my head.
ive been counting down my days
so i can finally get some bread
ay, see my, be my, mind
you'd die in a second!
its crazy to think im the same as you

(TNS)
Take the path that’s in front of me 
Feel the rhythm inside of me 
Tired of just playing hide n seek 

Where you really at girl, I don’t wanna leave 
Self esteem aside, girl I need you with me 
I just did a full 180

Hide & Seek w/ NAVYXOWER, dylan lotus, noxiousnights, soulfade, emptychest & The North Shore

https://open.spotify.com/album/76XDGbeLgdXtHXABbBZJEl

wore me out like an accessory '/

produced by @jolst
featuring @xobroken

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
am i over it?
or will i ever be?
if i could i would erase you from my memory
i cant forget what you did or what you said to me
you took me and wore me out like an accessory

and now you're dead to me
don't wanna see another message that you send to me
now who am i?
im someone else
where were you when i was crying out for help?

you were nowhere to be found
(to)catch me while im falling to the ground
you just treat me like a clown
you wont help, you only let me down

i'll just smile and wish you well
i feel broken cant you tell
i've been sad inside
where my soul resides
since you put me through this hell

[@xobroken]
shoulda known that there was no fixing this
asking me what's wrong but she aint listening
we all know the story but she keep on twisting it
i know when i'm gone she aint ever missing me
one second she hate me, next second she kissing me

sending mixed signals fucking up my head
putting me through hell, tell me what is that?
only want you but you looking for the next
i dont think that im over it

[@lottaheart]
am i over it?
or will i ever be?
if i could i would erase you from my memory
i cant forget what you did or what you said to me
you took me and wore me out like an accessory

and now you're dead to me
don't wanna see another message that you send to me
now who am i?
im someone else
where were you when i was crying out for help?

you were nowhere to be found
nowhere to be found
you only let me down

THANKS 4 LISTENING!

accessory w/ xobroken [jolst]

Drums written by Jordan Davis

LYRICS:
I lost my self respect when I gave you one more chance
Can't help my indulgence
I hate myself more than you could ever comprehend
You stand tall, that high horse
Comes crashing down on my head
Sweet relief, I'm craving 
Some sense of purpose that I'm never gunna get

At least I know what I lack
Fell off then got back on track
Laid down and let that train pass
I felt it destroy my chest
With my last breath
I curse you to the same fate you put me through
I'd rather spend my whole life alone
Than keep up with this damn misery you've grown to hold

I lost my self respect when I gave you one more chance
I'd rather spend my whole life alone
Than keep up with this damn misery you've grown to hold

Follow me <3

Self Respect

LYRICS:
I'm so cold
Caught underneath the weather
Got no desire to leave my bed today
You would know
How my head hits the ceiling
When I'm holding on to every fleeting feeling

Suffer through every day
Without it I feel pain
This retching in my heart won't go away
Manipulate and shame
Constant anxiety
I'd do it for you
But she can't take herself half way
No it's not fair, love's never been for me
Don't know if I care, that's how its gunna be
Not certain how long I'm gunna last
I'm dead weight and you're just broken glass

The shadows won't let go
I'm losing control
Your arrow cuts through me
I saw from afar
Bruised and spoiled down in the soil
Desecrated by my own turmoil
Spent my life figuring everything out
With a fucked up sense of direction
I'll push you further, don't need no help
I'd rather get lost all by myself
Keep your distance and I'll keep mine
It's for the best, and for the rest of time

Suffer through every day
Without it I feel pain
This retching in my heart won't go away
Manipulate and shame
Constant anxiety
I'd do it for you
But she can't take herself half way
No it's not fair, love's never been for me
Don't know if I care, that's how its gunna be
Not certain how long I'm gunna last
I'm dead weight and you're just broken glass
No it's not fair, love's never been for me
Don't know if I care, that's how its gunna be
Not certain how long I'm gunna last
I'm dead weight and you're just broken glass

Broken Glass

DONT GO TO THE PARTY

LiL THC - DON'T GO TO THE PARTY W/ 9TAILS (BONUS) (PROD. SKEL)

produced by @iiamargyle <33
enjoy <3

https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/6aQSjENkry0A8ZYfDFILfp?si=3e2b5d58298e4bd0

lyrics:
Brown eyes
When I see them they clear my mind 
My moms right love is beautiful when done right 
I‘d do anything so u can stay the whole time
Pretty sure I’ll love u till the end of my life 

(I think that this is right for me, in my head every second
And baby this feels nice to me, I said so I meant it
U so perfect not a single flaw I think that this is heaven 
I believe in god, yeah very much, I think u‘re a descendant)

Talking to you is so nice but hours feel like seconds 
My loves only for u I think u‘d call that endless 
Take me back to your place and kiss me when u like 
I‘ll try to make u happy so baby don’t u ever cry
Don’t u ever cry, I‘m really not the jealous type
But baby do, do u need these other guys?
Baby come and get inside 
To shy to look into ur eyes 
Hate this about our times
It just quickly passes by 

I‘d be breaking without you
I ain‘t lying, always tell truth
Cut my friends off, all I need is u
I‘d be breaking without
I ain‘t lying, always tell truth
Cut my friends off, all I need is u

Brown eyes
When I see them they clear my mind 
My moms right love is beautiful when done right 
I‘d do anything so u can stay the whole time
Pretty sure I’ll love u till the end of my life
ly ><

dearth

prod. taurs

lyrics:
whoa
directionless, i drift away
i have to find a better way
i never wanna let it go to waste
in this dark haze
you give me a spotlight
i swear that it's haunted
i can't turn around
something in me bring me towards the sound
tryna make a little money
make my parents proud
do what you wanted
i know that it's far away
it'll take time
i step in the house 
and i feel safe by your side
maybe we can 
get out of this broken place
i cannot control the play
i just let it happen to me
maybe we could fly away
go and see the world
we can go wherever you want
yea i would tag along
even if we gotta walk
moving like a vagabond
did September like a pro
please keep the camera rolling
did you see what i just saw
i swear it's not the psychedelics
i compelled a better bidding
get too close and i get bitten
i guess i'll keep fucking with it
i guess i'm just scared
how could i compare
to anyone with better than me?
find me when everything collapses
i'm magic
and i got a spell for you
standing by the lectern
i swear that i knew her
she would play the pastor
but something brought the soul
did you get it, did you post it?
i thought i was drowning but i'm floating
tryna get a breath
you should take a rast
flashing i'm in the red
like it's ash from a cigarette
i promise you it's there and you can trust me
trust, i'm the first motherfucker that's gonna judge me
i just wanna hold it down and keep you safe when it gets ugly
when i'm done i'll hold you close and fall asleep
maybe in the dreams i have
it doesn't have to be so bad
maybe we can grow together, learn together
left the ghost to do her rest

look (taurs)

Shawan - Emotions (Solo ver.)

7 minutes till shutdown w/sace6

enjoy </3

Lyrics:
Lost hope 
Feelin lost at the end of my rope 
Been tryna figure out a  way to fill this hole
I been beggin for some kind of self control 

Waste my life on petty dreams, broken promises n, all my greed 
Running from my home, had myself buried since 17

All this weight on my back could collapse under weight that i know that i lack 
Feelin ive been lost, losing track 
All my sense seem to become dull, got nothing no one i can console 
Pretty useless whit my arms tied up wit rope 
Sorry mama i wasnt what you wanted please try to cope 

Wasted my life on petty dreams broken promises and greed 
Running from my home had myself buried since 17

7 minutes till shutdown w/sace6

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